by me, Kerry Burgess, 04/25/2025 10:25 PM
I am sitting here at my desk, not all very sleepy, looking through a few sources for a new video I might want to stream on my desktop-computer
I am resisting it because I know - FOR FACT - that any choice I make is just going to make more work for me.
I cannot just simply watch a video or simply read the text of a book and just simply enjoy the entertainment. No, it becomes more work for me and I have to - HAVE TO - create blog-post(s) because I simply made a random choice
Now, my thinking is completely systematized by "Dark Matter", that streaming-video series from AppleTV, based on novel of the same name by Blake Crouch.
I make a random-choice and somewhere out there, wheels start turning and cogs begin spinning and reality shifts to match my random choice.
And I am sitting here tonight and I am thinking: why those things and not other things?
I look a image on the internet of an automobile I like and: nothing.
I have got nothing forming out of nothing associated with an automobile. Sort of like the assemblers in "The Peripheral" by William Gibson
Sure, I can guarantee you - GUARANTEE - that if I did have the money for an automobile, then the day I make the actual purchase, then there would be something interesting about that day, *after* the fact.
I mean, look at Evelyn and Hope.
That really happened. No questions about authority.
I don't really actually want an automobile again. I have not owned a car since I lost my Jeep Wrangler back in year 2005. I could have purchased one again a few years ago, but it's just a constant drain of money and I don't really need it. All it would give me is the opportunity to drive over the Coeur d'Alene and enjoy astrophotography because of their light-pollution awareness week.
The question is: how do I flip this thing around?
How do I make it work for me personally to do something I want to do, other than being just general annoyance.
Making something for me out of nothing. Nothing like stealing or anything dishonest. Just a new type of experience that I discover and use to my personal benefit.
I am thinking: what have I really lost? I turn 60 years in a few months. There is not much hope left at this point in life. It gets only worse. Why am I so constantly annoyed with being forced to live like this? Sure, I know they're out there. They watch every single thing I do. They will never stop. Because they can. Because they don't have to stop. That's how everything got to this point.
- by me, Kerry Wayne Burgess, posted by me: 10:44 PM Pacific-timezone USA Friday 04/25/2025
