"Cibola Burn" by James Corey, "The Expanse" series of novels, Book 4
ends, Chapter 44: Holden
Interlude: The Investigator
The investigator knows and is aware it knows.
The investigator reaches out, but not at random. It looks for a path, and doesn't find one. It looks for a path, and doesn't find one. It looks for a path and finds one. Not there, not quite, but close. Two points define a line. One point is alive, and one point is death. Neither came from here. Bang those rocks together and see what sparks. See what burns.
The investigator is the tool for finding what is missing, and so it exists. All the rest is artifact. The craving for beer. The hat. The memory, and the humor, and the weird half-fondness half-contempt for something named James Holden. The love for a woman who is dead. The longing for a home that will never be. Extraneous. Meaningless.
The investigator reaches out, finds Holden. It smiles. There was a man once, and his name was Miller. And he found things, but he doesn't anymore. He saved people if he could. He found things that were missing. He knew who'd done it, and he did the obvious things because they were obvious. The investigator had grown through his bones, repopulated his eyes with new and unfamiliar life, taken his shape.
It found the murder weapon. It knew what happened, at least in broad strokes. The fine work was for the prosecutors anyway, assuming it went to trial. But it wouldn't.
from my public journal, as me, Kerry Burgess, typed after being released from the USA Veterans Affairs psychiatric hospital enduring many months sitting in a grungy two-computer room in a homeless shelter on the waterfront in downtown Seattle:
original work by me, Kerry Burgess, posted by me: H.V.O.M at 12:03 PM Tuesday, December 16, 2008
From 5/21/1969 ( I am Princeton University Medical Doctor degree graduate as Dr. Thomas Reagan M.D. ) to 7/21/1979 ( my wife Phoebe and I are married ) is: 3713 days
From 7/21/1979 ( my wife Phoebe and I are married ) to 9/19/1989 ( premiere US TV series "Doogie Howser, M.D." ) is: 3713 days
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doogie_Howser
Doogie Howser, M.D.
Original run September 19, 1989 – March 24, 1993
Doogie Howser, M.D. (1989–1993), is a television comedy-drama starring Neil Patrick Harris as a brilliant teenage doctor who was also faced with the problems of being a normal teenager, despite having graduated from Princeton University at age 10.
excerpt ends Posted by me, Kerry Burgess - H.V.O.M at 12:03 PM Tuesday, December 16, 2008
From 1/4/1941 ( Maureen Reagan ) To 11/21/1964 ( premiere US TV series episode "The Outer Limits"::"The Inheritors - Part 1" ) is 8722 days
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 9/19/1989 ( ) is 8722 days
From 3/3/1959 ( the birthdate in Hawaii of my biological brother Thomas Reagan ) To 5/10/1967 ( premiere US film "The Bachelor's Dreams" ) is 2990 days
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 1/9/1974 ( ) is 2990 days
From 12/5/1966 ( Lyndon Johnson, 36th President of USA: Executive Order 11318 - Designating the European Space Research Organization as a Public International Organization Entitled to Enjoy Privileges, Exemptions, and Immunities ) To 1/9/1974 ( ) is 2592 days
2592 = 1296 + 1296
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 5/21/1969 ( from the thoughts in my conscious mind, coinciding with United States of America Veterans Affairs hospital psychiatric doctor medical drugs: the Princeton University doctor of medicine degree graduation of my biological brother Dr Thomas Reagan MD and in 1973 the law-doctorate graduate of University of Oxford, England ) is 1296 days
https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0467453/releaseinfo
IMDb
Married Is Better (1974 TV Special)
Release Info
USA 9 January 1974
Full Cast & Crew
Phoebe Cates
https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0123398/releaseinfo
IMDb
The Bachelor's Dreams (1967)
Release Info
USA 10 May 1967 (New York)
by me, Kerry Burgess, typed after being released from the USA Veterans Affairs psychiatric hospital enduring many months sitting in a grungy two-computer room in a homeless shelter on the waterfront in downtown Seattle:
by me, Kerry Burgess, excerpts from my private journal: 09/27/07 9:03 PM
This is curious. Something maybe Phoebe said to me, without knowing I was leaving for the comet not long after her 7/16/1975 birthday?
by me, Kerry Burgess, excerpts from my private journal: 09/30/07 12:54 AM
I wonder if I scheduled this premiere date so I could later point back to explain to Pheobe why I wasn't there for her birthday in 1976, as I was working on something that kept me away.
(from 3/3/1959 to 3/5/1985) / 2 = 7/16/1963 to 7/16/1976
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0088571/
"Moonlighting" (1985)
TV-Series 1985-1989
Release Date:5 March 1985 (USA)
by me, Kerry Burgess, typed after being released from the USA Veterans Affairs psychiatric hospital enduring many months sitting in a grungy two-computer room in a homeless shelter on the waterfront in downtown Seattle:
by me, Kerry Burgess, excerpts from my private journal: 11/23/07 11:47 PM
I am growing increasingly uncertain that I was on this flight. I became especially uncertain when I noted that it launched on 7/15/1975.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apollo_soyuz
The Apollo-Soyuz Test Project was the first joint flight of the U.S. and Soviet space programs. The mission took place in July 1975. For the United States of America, it was the last Apollo flight, as well as the last manned space launch until the flight of the first Space Shuttle in April 1981.
From 3/3/1959 ( the birthdate in Hawaii of my biological brother Thomas Reagan ) To 7/17/1975 ( the United States Apollo spacecraft commanded by my biological brother Thomas Reagan docks with the Soviet Union Soyuz spacecraft while in orbit of the planet Earth ) is 5980 days
5980 = 2990 + 2990
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 1/9/1974 ( premiere USA television "Married Is Better" ) is 2990 days
From 10/6/1939 ( Giulio Gavotti dead ) To 3/3/1959 ( the birthdate in Hawaii of my biological brother Thomas Reagan ) is 7088 days
7088 = 3544 + 3544
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 7/17/1975 ( ) is 3544 days
From 10/6/1939 ( Gallup poll in the United States: No = 95%. Should we declare war and send our army and navy abroad to fight Germany? ) To 3/3/1959 ( the birthdate in Hawaii of my biological brother Thomas Reagan ) is 7088 days
7088 = 3544 + 3544
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 7/17/1975 ( ) is 3544 days
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apollo%E2%80%93Soyuz
Apollo–Soyuz
From Wikipedia
The Soyuz and Apollo flights launched within seven-and-a-half hours of each other on 15 July 1975, and docked on 17 July 1975. Three hours later, the two mission commanders, Stafford and Leonov, exchanged the first international handshake in space through the open hatch of the Soyuz.
From 6/29/1995 ( the Mir space station docking of the United States space shuttle Atlantis orbiter vehicle mission STS-71 includes me Kerry Wayne Burgess the United States Marine Corps officer and United States STS-71 pilot astronaut and my 3rd official United States of America National Aeronautics Space Administration orbital flight of 4 overall ) To 11/24/2014 ( ) is 7088 days
7088 = 3544 + 3544
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 7/17/1975 ( the United States Apollo spacecraft commanded by my biological brother Thomas Reagan docks with the Soviet Union Soyuz spacecraft while in orbit of the planet Earth ) is 3544 days
From 6/8/1993 ( commencement, Princeton University Class of 1993 ) To 11/24/2014 ( ) is 7839 days
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 4/20/1987 ( from The Daily Princetonian publication: Trustees Promote 12, Name 9 To Tenured Faculty Positions ) is 7839 days
From 2/6/1933 ( from The Daily Princetonian publication: Rubinoff Says Poetic Tranquillity Of No Use 'Without A Square Meal Under Your Belt' ) To 11/24/2014 ( ) is 29876 days
29876 = 14938 + 14938
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 9/26/2006 ( by me, Kerry Burgess, excerpts from my private journal ) is 14938 days
https://theprince.princeton.edu/princetonperiodicals/?a=d&d=Princetonian20141124-01.2.12&e=-------en-20--81-byDA-txt-txIN-------
excerpts, Daily Princetonian, Volume 138, Number 114, 24 November 2014
The selfishness of success
COY OZIAS
CONTRIBUTING COLUMNIST
I’m a selfish person. In fact, I think many of us had to be selfish in order to become students at the University. The highly competitive Ivy League schools accept only a small fraction of students among a pool of superstars. In order to become one of the lucky few admitted, we had to spend a lot of time developing ourselves. To get the grades and SAT scores that we needed to get in, we had to spend hours locked up in our bedrooms poring over textbooks and practice tests. Could this time have been spent in the service of others? Probably. Rather than taking the SAT five times, we could have used those weekends to tutor less fortunate students. Instead of practicing our sports for hours every day, we could have used that time to volunteer at soup kitchens or with Habitat for Humanity.
Society seems to support the idea that selfishness is an inherently bad trait. Starting when we are very young, our parents urge us to share with others and not be selfish. Many times, narcissistic people are labeled as selfish. However, I think one can still be a moral person while being selfish. People often measure others’ moral character based on how generous or selfless they are.
selfishness is needed for one to be successful, and it shouldn’t be looked down upon. Selfishness motivates individuals to achieve their goals. If they want to get to the top, or if their goals are to be exceptional athletes, they need to be selfish. To be at Princeton, you have to be the best in whatever you do athletics, music, creating a company when you’re still in high school whatever it is. In order to do these extraordinary things, you have to put yourself first. These goals need to come before all others in order for you to achieve. Once you build yourself up in terms of education and then later career and financial stability, you are then better equipped to contribute to others. Our previous selfishness for the sake of success is largely justified so that we can become better at being unselfish later.
If we never think of ourselves first, we will never make it to leadership positions that may actually allow us to help others on a broader scale. However, there is a distinction between a selfish person and a mean person that often gets blurred in society’s view of selfishness. Mean people take any chance they can to exploit others and advance themselves. Selfish people put themselves and their goals first without taking advantage of those around them. While a degree of selfishness is needed for admission to a place like Princeton, I think once we are here, we can begin to turn our attention to others.
from my private journal, as me, Kerry Burgess, typed after being released from the USA Veterans Affairs psychiatric hospital enduring many months sitting in a grungy two-computer room in a homeless shelter on the waterfront in downtown Seattle:
by me, Kerry Burgess, excerpts from my private journal: 9/26/2006 3:06 PM
As I was trying to go to sleep last night, I had a thought that I have a doctorate in computer science from Princeton.
and I had thoughts that I studied music as well at Princeton.
https://theprince.princeton.edu/princetonperiodicals/?a=d&d=Princetonian20141124-01.2.14.4&e=-------en-20--81-byDA-txt-txIN-------
Daily Princetonian, Volume 138, Number 114, 24 November 2014
TWEET OF THE DAY
HANS BRASE
‘das heste oder nichts’ Hans Erase , junior forward on men’s basketball quoting German automotive engineer Gottlieb Daimler
- posted by me, Kerry Burgess 02:25 AM Pacific-time USA Monday 04/18/2022
