I must have had a lot of good dreams about Phoebe last night. It was as though we were talking, but then when I woke up, I felt the need to keep quiet what we talked about. I still feel I miss her. I don't remember her in the conventional sense, but I remember how she feels in my arms. And that is really something missing in my life. Now the future doesn't seem to have a certain empty quality that it did before I became consciously aware of her. Even though I had ideas of about a million different things I could do once I got back home, there was still a certain emptiness I couldn't explain. I could think of a lot of different ways to have fun and try to put behind the stress of this 9 year deployment, but I…….something. There was something missing that I just could not get to. The world was waiting for me when I got home, but something was missing and……something.
The actress who portrayed “Captain Picards” love interest in a 1988 episode of “Star Trek: The Next Generation” was 43 years, 333 days, old when her episode premiered. I feel there are more clues here, but I am finding it hard to concentrate, which happens a lot when I begin to follow certain leads. The primary clue with her though, could be in her name - Phillips - and that she was with the band The Mamas & The Papas. I think Phoebe Cates gave birth to our first child around the time of this episode.
From 6/4/1944 to 5/2/1988 is: 43 years, 333 days
"We'll Always Have Paris" is a first season episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, first broadcast May 2, 1988. It is episode #24, production #124, teleplay written by Deborah Dean Davis and Hannah Louise Shearer, and directed by Robert Becker.
Overview: Picard meets an old flame, whose husband has created a haywire dimensional experiment.
Michelle Phillips (born June 4, 1944) is an American singer, songwriter and actress. She was born Holly Michelle Gilliam in Long Beach, California and grew up partly in Mexico City where her father was attending college on the GI Bill. She gained fame as a member of the popular 1960s singing group The Mamas & the Papas. She and Jill Gibson (Michelle's temporary replacement) are the last two surviving members of the group.
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She has made many guest appearances on programs as diverse as Spin City and Star Trek: The Next Generation (where she appeared in a notable episode as a former love-interest of Captain Picard).
The thought occurred to me the other day that the "Minuet" character from TG also might have some bearing on Phoebe. I remembered that again earlier today and when I started reviewing the episode that first featured her - "Riker" was later married to her in some kind of artificial reality - the first detail that caught my eye was the "stardate" 41365.9. That made me wonder if it was, for some reason, the date 3/6/1959.
From 3/6/1959 to 7/16/1963 is: 1593 days
"11001001" is a first season episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, first broadcast February 1, 1988. It is episode #15, production #116, teleplay written by Maurice Hurley and Robert Lewin, and directed by Paul Lynch.
Overview: Curious little aliens, the Bynars, retrofit the Enterprise computer in a space dock.
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Meanwhile, most of the ship's crew disembarks for shore leave aboard the station, but Picard and Riker remain aboard. Riker goes about his rounds eventually arriving at a Holodeck where a pair of Bynars invite him to try out their new system enhancements. Interested, Riker requests the holodeck to re-create a Jazz lounge called the "Low Note" in New Orleans, circa 1958. The doors open to the dark, hazy club. Delighted, Riker tells the computer to create a band along with a trombone for himself. Riker informs the computer that the audience is too crowded and they vanish save for an attractive woman standing at the bar in a red dress. Riker doesn't like her blond hair and requests that she be "more sultry." She changes to a brunette and Riker becomes infatuated with her beauty. He approaches and she says name is Minuet. The Bynars suspiciously conspire amongst themselves, overjoyed that their "plan" is "working".
Riker plays the trombone with the band as Minuet watches enthralled. Riker finishes his song and tells her that "duty calls" and he must be going, but she insists upon a dance before he leaves. He agrees, amazed at how real she appears to him. The band plays a slow song as the couple dances, but suddenly, a voice exclaims from behind them, "Astounding!" Riker turns to see the Captain in the doorway. He apologizes for the interruption but Minuet is pleased to meet the Captain and invites him to join her and the Commander. Picard comments on the impressiveness of the simulation saying its characters have always seemed somewhat static, but Minuet is very adaptive.
This is the episode that really is throwing off my concentration. I know there is something important here but I just can’t get to it. The only observation I have made at this point is about the birth date of the actress who portrays “Captain Picard’s” love interest in the episode. Her age at my birth was 33 days greater than my age on 9/2/1965. The day 9/2/1965 is the day I recognize as my first day at Princeton University. I feel there is a clever clue to associate Phoebe and me to this episode but I can’t concentrate well enough to find it.
From 7/29/1952 to 3/3/1959 is: 2408 days
From 3/3/1959 to 10/5/1965 is: 2408 days
From 3/3/1959 to 9/2/1965 is: 2375 days
From 9/2/1965 to 10/5/1965 is: 33 days
Airdate April 5, 1993
Picard falls for Lt. Commander Nella Darren, a Starfleet officer in Stellar Sciences, who shares with him a love of music. He is forced to send her on a dangerous mission because of her special expertise, and suffers incredible loss and pain when it is believed she has died during the mission. Upon her safe return, Picard realizes that he is incapable of carrying out a relationship with someone under his command and also fulfilling his duty to Starfleet. Cmdr. Darren requests a transfer, urging Picard not to give up playing the flute.
"Lessons" brings out of storage Picard's beloved Ressikan flute, which he learned to play during the critically acclaimed episode The Inner Light.
A highlight of the episode is the duet with Picard on the flute, and Darren playing her keyboard (the actual performance you hear is one later compiled based on the theme).
Wendy Hughes (born 29 July 1952 in Melbourne, Australia) is an actress.
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During the early 1990s, she spent time in the United States and made guest appearances on TV shows such as Star Trek: The Next Generation
The actress who portrayed "Minuet" was 10362 days on the day that episode aired. I was that same age on Phoebe's 24th birthday. That birthday was just after I returned from Africa after I was POW/MIA. The child actor with the lead roles in “The Sixth Sense,” “Artificial Intelligence: A.I.,” and the son of “Forrest Gump” was born 9 months later. He was in the news recently for wrecking the Saturn station wagon he was driving back from a concert by Muse.
From 9/19/1959 to 2/1/1988 is: 10362 days
From 3/3/1959 to 7/16/1987 is: 10362 days
From 5/13/1987 to 7/16/1987 is: 64 days
Carolyn McCormick (born September 19, 1959 in Midland, Texas) is an American actress. She graduated from Williams College in 1981 with a B.A. in theatre. She has worked in television, movies, theatre and voice acting. Her "break" into television was on Spenser: For Hire in the 1980s. The role she would become best known for was as Dr. Elizabeth Olivet on Law & Order. She had earlier appeared twice as the holodeck simulation "Minuet" in Star Trek: The Next Generation and later as William Rikers "wife" in an alternate universe.
I find myself thinking a lot about how apt that plot element from "Red Dawn" would have been in my love affair with Phoebe. I think also that Powers Boothe portrayed a Lieutenant Colonel in that movie because I was a Lieutenant at the time in the U.S. Navy.
Phoebe and I are only 4 years, 4 months, apart in age but we lived in different worlds in 1984. I was practically fighting World War 3 back then. And in 1984 - that was 15 years after I had walked on the Earth's Moon the first time. 15 years. In 1984, I was only 25 years old and I had walked on the Earth‘s Moon 15 years earlier. I am quite certain I was already a veteran of the Vietnam War before I even went into space on Gemini 12. I’ve done some calculations and I think that is why Gemini 12 launch on November 11, 1966 - because that is when Veteran’s Day is typically observed and because that was my first flight into space. Why the hell I would have been in the Vietnam War at that age, I have no idea. But I have been thinking I was involved to some degree in the early battles of the Vietnam War.
Phoebe truly was the best thing that ever happened to me and was certainly the factor in my life that counteracted all the violence and destruction and craziness I had witnessed to that point and in 1984, I was only 25 years old. When all those crazy experiences and death and destruction and violence came back to me when I was back home for awhile, she was there and it all seemed a lot less important. If I ever can find my way back home, there is not going to be a single day she is out of my sight. I have no doubts she and I are married and she is waiting for me to come home.
The day 6/7/1976 is the date I recognize as when I arrived at the Saturn moon Phoebe. The single track “Rio” from Duran Duran released 334 weeks after 6/7/1976. At that time in 1982, I would have been out in the U.S. Navy fleet flying the F-14 Tomcat, where the person in the backseat of that aircraft was called the R.I.O., or Radar Intercept Officer. There is probably some kind of inside joke between us that she was my RIO when I was home. Something like that. Something about how I thought of her.
From 6/7/1976 to 11/1/1982 is: 2338 days, or 334 weeks
Released November 1, 1982
"Rio" is a hit single from the album Rio by Duran Duran, and one of their most recognisable songs and music videos. "Rio" was released worldwide in November, 1982, then was reissued in the United States in March of 1983, and was a Top 20 hit on both sides of the Atlantic.
DURAN DURAN LYRICS
"Rio"
Moving on the floor now babe you're a bird of paradise
Cherry ice cream smile I suppose it's very nice
With a step to your left and a flick to the right you catch that mirror way out west
You know you're something special and you look like you're the best
Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand
Just like that river twisting through a dusty land
And when she shines she really shows you all she can
Oh Rio, Rio dance across the Rio Grande
I've seen you on the beach and I've seen you on TV
Two of a billion stars it means so much to me
Like a birthday or a pretty view
But then I'm sure that you know it's just for you
Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand
Just like that river twisting through a dusty land
And when she shines she really shows you all she can
Oh Rio, Rio dance across the Rio Grande
Hey now woo look at that did she nearly run you down
At the end of the drive the lawmen arrive
You make me feel alive, alive alive
I'll take my chance cause luck is on my side or something
I know what you're thinking I tell you something I know what you're thinking
Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand
Just like that river twists across a dusty land
And when she shines she really shows you all she can
Oh Rio, Rio dance across the Rio Grand
Her name is Rio she don't need to understand
And I might find her if I'm looking like I can
Oh Rio, Rio hear them shout across the land
From mountains in the north down to the Rio Grande
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Re: Sleep journal 3/6/06
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And then there was the time she broke into my apartment when I was sleeping. That was 91 I think, early on when we were dating. I was still living in Taylors, SC, nearby my job in Greenville. I remember I had been feeling very jumpy back then, I don't know why. I had a good job, I had a nice duplex apartment, it was a nice neighborhood. But I was worried about someone sneaking in while I was asleep. I had the doors rigged to make noise to wake me up. Apparantly she was able to pry the lock on the back door and I woke up with her standing next to me in my bed. The door trap had worked, but all it did was scare her, I didn't hear it because I had drank a lot of beers and passed out drunk.
It was actually after all these experiences that I decided on a better strategy to women. First, I was going to be a lot more selective about who I dated. Before I dated my future ex-wife I had been going out with someone that was a little quirky too, but she was only quirky in some good ways, she didn't break into my house or anything like that. I knew if I had asked her to leave, she would have. So secondly I decided if I am going to hook up with someone that turns out to be quirky, I am going to find someone that I can tolerate such quirkiness. But the real problem here, is even talking about this stuff, because the weirdos will use it, I don't quite know how to explain. If I say that it is ok for one person to break into my house, but that another person cannot break into my house, then a person that I really do not want in my house will then break into my house just to see if I really love her or something like that. It is lunacy. I don't even like thinking about that.
