Buzz & Cole

070509-N-8591H-229 MOUNT FUJI, Japan (May 9, 2007) - E-2C Hawkeyes assigned to the "Liberty Bells," of Carrier Airborne Early Warning Squadron (VAW) 115 perform a formation flight in front of Mount Fuji. VAW-115 is one of the nine squadrons assigned Carrier Air Wing (CVW) Five, which is assigned to USS Kitty Hawk (CV 63). Kitty Hawk operates out of Fleet Activities Yokosuka, Japan. U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 3rd Class Jarod Hodge (RELEASED)

070517-N-2659P-199 ARABIAN SEA (May 17, 2007) - An F/A-18F Super Hornet, from the "Black Knights" of Strike Fighter Squadron (VFA) 154, prepares to take off from Nimitz-class aircraft carrier USS John C. Stennis (CVN 74). John C. Stennis Carrier Strike Group is on a scheduled deployment in support of Maritime Security Operations. U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 3rd Class Paul J. Perkins (RELEASED)





JOURNAL ARCHIVE: August 22, 2006

There used to be a sore spot on the surface of my neck. Eventually, I decided that is was from a seat belt. Something about the way it rubbed against my neck as I put the seat belt around me. I thought about it again today for some reason and I am thinking it was actually from a parachute harness.

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As I was riding the bus to the VA, I remembered something else that happened at Microsoft. I was complaining to a friend one day about how Sharon Bjeletich had put a curtain up at the entrance to her cube so no one could see in. That was the second cube I sat in after moving to that new floor in the Bellevue office. Sharon sat two cubicles from me. Eddy Hahn was in the cube between us. I believe that Sharon put that curtain up because she, and everyone else, knew that there were cameras outside the building staring in at me and she was being captured in the frame. I am certain that happened in 2000 because I remember something from Halloween when I was still on that floor and by Halloween of 2001, we were all out at Issaquah. Halloween of 1999, I was still a TAM and I remember another TAM dressed up as a hockey player and he asked me if I was trying to work. Eddy is that guy I wrote about that worked in Las Vegas before Microsoft. He is from Budapest. I can't remember where Sharon was from originally but she is the one I wrote about that reminds me of Sarajevo. Eddy has one of those masks from that movie....can't remember the name now. Wasn't it something similar to "I Know What You Did Last Summer."? That movie came up one time when I was still a TAM. Something with Wally Simpson. I was leaving notes around his desk with that phrase on it. He said his son found the one I left in his closed laptop.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Re: Journal June 18, 2006

I began thinking last night or this morning: Hell, maybe Patrick Stewart is my father. That would make sense. We have a similar appearance. According to the wiki page, he would be about 18 or 19 years older than I.

They even had a guy working with me that told me he used to work for NASA. He told me something our manager had told him, something about him being brave or something for moving all the way across the country with his family to take a new job.

My last manager, was known as an "acting manager," was named Jeremy Rule. I was thinking today that he sort of resembles the Wesley Crusher character from TNG. There is something I remember him saying or something I heard that stuck in my mind. I may have heard him saying when he was walking out of Laura Longcore's office before he became our "acting manager," something letting him try. I wondered for a long time what he meant by that. Now I know: he wanted to try to get me to remember my real identity.

When I went for a walk a while back, I was thinking of that episode where all the characters in DS9 are back in time, an alternate reality in the past, as writers for a sci-fi magazine. Very intriquing episode. There was also that episode where Sisko is trapped in time and his son works all his life trying to get him out.

I was thinking a few hours ago about what I wrote a while back about going home after returning from the Persian Gulf in 1988. I am thinking now, although I still don't remember the events, that this memory represents Ronald Reagan moving out of the White House. That would have happened in 1989, but 1988 is symbolic of the election and the end of his term limit.

And asiorders isn't displaying my race photos anymore, at least for the last couple days I've gone there to get them to compare with some other people, so something must be up. Probably a lot of other people with the same idea.

I've thinking more over that past few days about catching that building manager at Limestone entering my apartment announced that time. I think that was Feb 2001. And I have also been thinking about how they had that constuction set up at Verona and could have been entering my apartment at any time.

I also have been wanting to try to remember if there have been more close calls, such as 12/23/01 and 2/1/02, but something seems to be blocking my thought processes. It feels like a wall is there when I start trying to think about it. It is a weird feeling, to even realize something is there blocking my thoughts. It is like something I have to prepare to engage. I have to start thinking for a while about starting to think about it in order to make progress.

How many hours sleep did I get this morning...2 hours?.....before the scraggly losers started harassing me to wake up. lousy bastards.

Brief nap until the jabbering morons woke me up. Had a dream that Nancy Pelosi wanted to talk to me. Met with her in some place like the downstairs cafeteria, although the place looked different in the dream. Somebody was jabbering away as I was trying to talk to her. She was taking notes on a computer. I was feeling annoyed at having to explain this again, to have to talk more. What more do they need to know? It seems like she had been traveling in Florida, and that we were somewhere in Florida. The scraggly hecklers woke me up before I could find out more.

Aha.....I just clicked on the significance of Nancy Pelosi......I may actually be a native, or at least a long-term resident of California.

The political hacks are probably going to marginalize any assistance she could provide to help me get out of this damed shelter though. Obviously, I have something waiting for me out there somewhere, but it is being blocked by people that want to force me stay under this pressure and torment.