This Is What I Think.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

"When I try to get through"

That "Best Of Both Worlds" episode is precisely why they hit the USS Cole DDG-67 in 2000. Because I am the former Commanding Officer of the USS Cole but when the Cole was hit, I was at Microsoft.

It is a set up based on that episode where "Picard" has been assimilated and turned into "Locutus." They make it look like I am the one who caused the terrorist attacks.

As in that "Star Trek: The Next Generation" episode, the Microsoft-Corbis-sponsored terrorists hit the USS Cole DDG-67 and then 334 days, hit the Pentagon and World Trade Center in New York. I had been working at Microsoft for 33 months, 4 months, on 9/11/2001.

It is all a trap the Microsoft-Corbis terrorists have been planning to spring once the true story of my life is revealed. The Microsoft-Corbis terrorists know we have been working to spring their trap so they enlisted such corrupted public officials as George W. Bush, Dave Reichert, Norm Maleng, Condoleeza Rice, and others, to protect their terrorist activities.

The nearby U.S. Navy presence is growing more overt so I keep expecting to see Thedia somewhere in order to connect my artificial life with my real life so I can go back home to my wife. Probably the best way for my wife and I to reunite is to remember other times I have returned from long deployments. And the first detail that comes to mind is that those returns were probably always scheduled. She and I would know the date we would see other again. I miss my wife very much. Before we can set a date to mark my return from deployment to my wife, something else must happen, that I can't fully explain. Something. More of this.......something. I can almost explain what is that will get me back home to you but I can't fully explain it.


My wife was 3 months, 3 weeks, 3 days, old on 11/9/1963.

From 7/16/1963 to 4/16/1996 is: 11963 days

Released April 16, 1996

This Is a Long Drive for Someone with Nothing to Think About is the first proper full-length album by indie rock band Modest Mouse. The album was released under Up Records on April 16, 1996, on both Compact Disc and vinyl LP. The vinyl LP release contains two extra tracks. The message of this CD seems to be leaving where your roots are and traveling to a new place and how this still leaves you "empty".


The Modest Mouse album “Moon & Antarctica” released 333 days after my wife’s 36th birthday.

From 7/16/1999 to 6/13/2000 is: 333 days

Released June 13, 2000

The
Moon & Antarctica is the third full-length album by indie rock band Modest Mouse, first released by Epic Records on June 13, 2000.

The album was the band's first release on a major label and was released on both compact disc and vinyl LP.

It was praised by critics and fans alike for its in-depth discussion of such dense subject matter, as well as frontman Isaac Brock's clever and introspective lyrics, and how. The Moon & Antarctica was also hailed for being an expansion of the band's unique sound. This was due both to the band's new major label tools as well as the production of Brian Deck.



The lead singer for Modest Mouse was 3 months, 3 weeks, 3 days, old on 11/2/1975. The date 11/2/1975 is the day I recognize that I launched on my mission to the outer solar system to intercept the comet. Along the way, I stopped at the planet Mars, the Saturn moon Phoebe, and the Jupiter moon Callisto.

Isaac Brock (born on July 9, 1975 in Issaquah, Washington) is the lead singer, guitarist, and songwriter for the American indie rock band Modest Mouse, as well as his side project band, Ugly Casanova. Brock currently resides in Portland, Oregon. His style of singing is notable for his often complex word play, vocal pitching and unique sense of humor and rhythm.


I recognize the day 3/15/1998 as the last day I saw my wife before I began this deployment, which continues to this second.

From 11/18/1997 to 3/15/1998 is: 3 months, 3 weeks, 4 days

The Lonesome Crowded West is the second full-length album recorded by indie rock band Modest Mouse. Many critics and fans hail it as the band's "breakthrough" album.

The album was released on Up Records on November 18, 1997, on both compact disc and vinyl LP.



JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Re: Star Trek: TNG: First Contact, Nov. 22, 1996

Wed, 5/17/06 6:25 PM

[I found myself thinking about this movie this morning. But I can't now remember details about what I was thinking this morning. It's more of an impression now. I did start thinking later about that part at the beginning where he is dreaming. Wasn't he looking in a mirror when the Borg implants started coming through his skin? And something about the way he knew about the Borg. something, something, something, something, something, something]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Star_Trek:_First_Contact

Following the destruction of the USS Enterprise-D in Star Trek: Generations, the bridge crew, with the exception of Worf, were transferred to a new Sovereign class starship, the USS Enterprise-E. Shortly before the beginning of the film, a Borg cube ship has entered Federation space on a course for Earth. However, instead of stationing their most advanced vessel among the fleet assembled to protect Earth, Starfleet has assigned the Enterprise to patrol the Romulan Neutral Zone. Starfleet orders Jean-Luc Picard to do so in case the Romulans decide to take advantage of the situation. However, he is fully aware that the real reason is that, because of Captain Jean-Luc Picard's past experience with the Borg, Starfleet considers him too unstable to lead a ship into battle against them.



There was that dream I had the other night, where I was inside a missile. I remembered today the similarity with this movie, in that Cochrane converted an ICBM into his warp ship. But why would someone create a connection between me and Cochrane? I didn't create warp drive in the past only to have someone block my memory of that, did I? It's funny, when I read something the other day about Data arguing with Einstein, it reminded me of something I was writing in my journal back in the early '90s. I was wondering why it was impossible to travel faster than the speed of light. A couple years ago I was writing about it again. The idea presented itself to me about why it was impossible, something about atoms not being able to work because electrons could not transfer energy faster than the speed of light. I wondered if it was possible to create some kind of process to transfer energy to those atoms, not unlike a cell's mitochondria works. Today I have been wondering if anything I remember about the past is real. Do I have a different past? Am I really who I think I am? The stuff I imagine happening to me sometimes, did that stuff really happen? I wonder if these movies and tv shows have actually been sort of inoculations, to keep me from questioning my reality. I do question reality sometimes, but it wasn't until I saw that Matrix movie a while back, did I really start to wonder about reality. But it didn't seem to matter, I wasn't overly concerned that I may be living that kind of false reality. I still don't think I am living such an extreme unreality as in the Matrix, but I wonder if there is a divergence point in my life, a shadow, a distorted period. Or have I been living a life like in the movie Soldier, or maybe like in Blade Runner, where Rachael, and I assume Harrison Ford's character, have false memories of their life. Am I Harrison Ford's character in this reality? A replicant searching for replicants? I haven't been able to follow Battlestar Galactica this past year, but I think that theme is showing up there, with Chief Tyrol.




Released
November 28, 1979 (UK)
December 8, 1979 (U.S.)

The Wall is an album by the English rock band Pink Floyd, released in 1979. Hailed by critics and fans as one of Pink Floyd's best albums, the album is widely regarded as a rock classic, and its morbid anthems have inspired many contemporary rock musicians. Many critics consider the album to be a work of art, and not just an album.





Pink Floyd

Nobody Home Lyrics


I've got a little black book with my poems in
I've got a bag with a toothbrush and a comb in
When I'm a good dog they sometimes throw me a bone in
I got elastic bands keeping my shoes on
Got those swollen hand blues.
Got thirteen channels of shit on the T.V. to choose from
I've got electric light
And I've got second sight
I've got amazing powers of observation
And that is how I know
When I try to get through
On the telephone to you
There'll be nobody home
I've got the obligatory Hendrix perm
And I've got the inevitable pinhole burns
All down the front of my favourite satin shirt
I've got nicotine stains on my fingers
I've got a silver spoon on a chain
I've got a grand piano to prop up my mortal remains
I've got wild staring eyes
I've got a strong urge to fly
But I've got nowhere to fly to
Ooooh Babe when I pick up the phone
There's still nobody home
I've got a pair of Gohills boots
And I've got fading roots.