For me, how escapist-fiction works, is this.
I imagine those characters are me, not vice-versa.
That seems to be a somewhat new construct in my conscious mind.
In the distant past, with escapist-fiction, I did not imagine that I was the character in the book or video
Rather, I imagined myself - as an escape from reality - in a similar situation
Ever since the VA hospital in 2005 and 2006, seems to be a transition.
I now see those characters as variations of me, the person I was, sometime in the past, near or far
1883
"River"
TV-series season 1 episode 3
(from internet transcript)
Elsa Dutton: [narration] Looking back, there were two journeys. One was filled with danger and death and despair, the other, adventure and wonder. I was on the latter. And I loved it. I didn't know enough to know they would collide. I didn't know enough to know how cruel and uncaring this world can be. The world doesn't care if you die. It won't listen to your screams. If you bleed on the ground, the ground will drink it. It doesn't care that you're cut. I told myself when I meet God it will be the first thing I ask him: why make a world of such wonder then fill it with monsters? Why make flowers and then snakes to hide beneath them? What purpose does the tornado serve? Then it hit me: he didn't make it for us.
Battlestar Galactica - tv miniseries - 12/08/2003, 12/09/2003
(from internet transcript)
Adama: So you're a gun dealer/philosopher, I take it, right?
Leoben: (laughs) I'm an observer of human nature. When you get right down to it, humanity is not a pretty race. I mean, we're only one step away from beating each other with clubs like savages fighting over scraps of meat. Maybe the Cylons are God's retribution for our many sins. What if God decided he made a mistake? And he decided to give souls to another creature, like the Cylons?
Adama: God didn't create the Cylons. Man did. And I'm pretty sure we didn't include a soul in the programming.
https://www.history.com/this-day-in-history/krakatau-explodes
History
One of the most powerful volcanic eruptions in recorded history occurs on Krakatoa (also called Krakatau), a small, uninhabited volcanic island east of Sumatra and west of Java, on August 27, 1883. Heard 3,000 miles away, the explosions threw five cubic miles of earth 50 miles into the air, created 120-foot tsunamis and killed 36,000 people.
Krakatoa exhibited its first stirrings in more than 200 years on May 20, 1883. A German warship passing by reported a seven-mile high cloud of ash and dust over Krakatoa. For the next two months, similar explosions would be witnessed by commercial liners and natives on nearby Java and Sumatra. With little to no idea of the impending catastrophe, the local inhabitants greeted the volcanic activity with festive excitement.
Battlestar Galactica - television miniseries - 12/08/2003, 12/09/2003
(internet transcript)
Six: I'm only in your head?
From 5/20/1883 ( ) To 12/17/1995 ( premiere US TV episode "Space: Above And Beyond"::"The River of Stars" ) is 41118 days
41118 = 20559 + 20559
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 2/15/2022 ( Today, Tuesday ) is 20559 days
From 12/4/1945 ( Senate approves U.S. participation in United Nations ) To 2/15/2022 ( ) is 27832 days
27832 = 13916 + 13916
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 12/9/2003 ( premiere US TV miniseries finale episode "Battlestar Galactica" ) is 13916 days
From 7/27/1997 ( premiere US TV series "Stargate SG-1"::series premiere episode "Children of the Gods" ) To 2/15/2022 ( ) is 8969 days
From 11/2/1965 ( my known birth date in Antlers, Oklahoma, USA, as Kerry Wayne Burgess ) To 5/24/1990 ( premiere US film "Spirits of the Air, Gremlins of the Clouds" ) is 8969 days
Stargate SG-1 - "Children of the Gods" - tv series premiere Season 1 Episode 1 - 07/27/1997
(from internet transcript)
US Air Force Colonel Jack O'NEILL: Hell, if I were you, I'd take my chances.
Space: Above And Beyond
"The River of Stars"
December 17, 1995
TV-series season 1 episode 11
Saratoga communications officer: No response, sir. And the T.D.R.S. system confirms our signal has been received.
Lt. Colonel McQueen: Have it pinpoint the location of the signal reception.
Saratoga communications officer: The linking tracking satellite was taken out in the firefight.
Lt. Colonel McQueen: So what you're saying is they can hear us, but we can't hear them.
Saratoga communications officer: Sir, just because a signal is being received doesn't mean there's anyone around to receive it.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sutjeska_(river)
Sutjeska (river)
From Wikipedia
The Sutjeska (lit. "gorge or canyon") is a 35 km-long river in eastern Bosnia
The Sutjeska River could be considered main river basin largely located within Sutjeska National Park itself.
by me, Kerry Burgess, posted by me: 4:18 AM THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 29, 2011
Star constellations
I wasn't going to write about a dream I just before waking up and getting out of bed but I was later in the shower and I started thinking about a possible explanation for the star pattern I saw in my dream and so I decided to write about that part and to try to write the least about the rest of the dream as I could, which I feel compelled to not write about for no real reason.
The compelling part about the dream is the pattern of stars I saw. The dream seems to have started with me and I was out in the woods somewhere and the light was dark and I had some kind of ability to radiate laser beams from my fingers or somehow create laser beams. As I think more about that as I write this now I thing again that I did not actually see the laser beams but I am vaguely aware that I could see the patterns I created on people with the laser beams. The notion of the laser beam is never really visually established in the dream but that is a notion that is strongly in my mind after waking up. The last thing I seemed to do with my laser beam power was that I saw myself form a pattern of stars on the ground to my left. The power seemed to stop working at that point. I also found my puzzled about how there were five stars in my creation when I expected only four. Since I was wearing those stars on the epaulet on my black jacket then I was thinking of how the United States Marine Corps has never had a five star general officer and I don't think the USMC should ever have a five star general officer.
What I puzzled about was how the pattern of those stars did not seem consistent with how an officer of the United States military would wear a five-star pattern on his uniform. I seemed to be wearing the winter working dress uniform of the United States Navy. What was unusual was how one of the stars was set away from the other four stars.
When I was in the shower and was thinking about that visualization in my mind of those stars that I had created on the ground and then was wearing my shoulder, on the black jacket that is the type United States Navy sailors used to refer to as the "Eisenhower" jacket, I wondered if that pattern was supposed to represent the star constellation we call the Big Dipper.
Ah, yes. That has got to be it. Just now as I wrote that word "Big Dipper" I remember dialog that happened soon later that is consistent with that notion.
So going back to what I was thinking as I decided to write this note, I thought about how my visualization of the star pattern did not match the Big Dipper very well. But then I started to wonder if I was seeing the pattern of the Big Dipper while I was standing on a planet or moon that circled a star that was very distant from our planet Earth.
I keep thinking of reasons why that all could be just a normal dream. But maybe it is not.
After my laser beam power stopped working, I saw some of the people I had been forming laser beam patterns on and they were all getting into cars and leaving in a long procession of army-type vehicles. They all seemed to be from World War 2. I noted the color pattern of one of the vehicles but I cannot think of any comment to make about it.
Then I seemed to be a sentry on a hill in downtown Seattle Washington. I was aware that I was totally alone in my role. I was also aware I was wearing a United States military uniform but I cannot visualize any details about it from the dream. I was there for a long time. Some kind of conflict started among a few local people that had walked up and I was trying to stay out of it. The next part I remember from the dream is that I was sitting in a room and there were people around me and one was the old woman whose dialog is consistent with the notion that I was seeing the star pattern of the Big Dipper constellation. Then a woman stood up and she was also wearing the winter dress uniform of the United States Navy and I saw the postal clerk rating symbol on her uniform. Then I saw a person walk into the room I was in from the room next door with the half-window walls and where I had been aware that a conference was going on that all of us had been waiting for to get finished and that person who walked out of that room was a person that I understood in the dream to by my brother Thomas Reagan and he seemed to be about eight years old. He was also wearing the winter working dress uniform of the United States Navy and I noticed just after I saw the woman's rating symbol that he was also wearing the postal clerk rating symbol. But he had the E-1 rate white symbol patch on one sleeve and the E-2 rate white stripe patch on the other sleeve, which is definitely not a uniform standard of the United States Navy. After thinking about that after waking up I decided that detail is supposed to represent the E-1 and E-2 aircraft of the United States Navy.
As he walked up to me, I asked him where he had been because I have been standing on that hill everyday. There was some unspoken dialog about me having food during that time.
There was some other stuff that happened in the dream but I decided to end this note with his response to me about how he had heard I had picked up more stars. I distinctly remember his words to me at that point. He asked me "Is it worth it?"
At that point, I took off two stars from the jacket epaulet on my shoulder, which seemed to be the type used for award stars on United States military medals and ribbons, and I was aware that left me with three stars on my shoulder.
So as I was wondering after getting out of the shower is that I could have just had a normal dream. But I could have just dreamed that final star symbol I need.
Battlestar Galactica (1978)
Saga of a Star World, Part 2
Adama - Battlestar Galactica Commander - Council of the Twelve: And there I was like God - passing out priorities as - as if they were tickets to a lottery.
- posted by me, Kerry Burgess 10:24 AM Pacific-time USA Tuesday 02/15/2022
