My privacy is important to Microsoft. They want as much as they can get.

The detail in my "memory" that was actually the first clue that I may not have actually lived in all the places I "remember" was my "memory" of living on a street named Wexford in a town named Taylors. The Taylors I recognized because the first ship that I "remember" being assigned to in the Navy was the USS Taylor FFG-50. Not long after 5/9/06 though, I started thinking that there may be a lot more to those "memories" than I consciously understood. So I started looking for the context of the name "Wexford" and I just before I read about it, I knew it was going to be something startling and I was startled to understand what it meant. County Wexford, Ireland is the birthplace of John Barry, who was selected to receive Commission Number One in the United States Navy in 1797 and is also considered the Father of the U.S. Navy. It was that detail that got me thinking that my own service in the U.S. Navy was much different that I remembered. In my "memory," that duplex on Wexford was the second place I lived after I left the Navy in 1990. I find it interesting to note that the USS John Barry DDG-52 is the second Aegis-class guided-missile destroyer in the U.S. fleet. I also found some symbolism to the first place I lived at before I moved to Wexford. I can't actually remember the name of that place as I can "remember" Wexford, but I found it on the map and I looked up that the name is Preserve at Wood's Lake, which is next to airport. The "preserve" word in that name made me wonder if this all is something about preserving my memories or something else. That clue about Wexford in Taylor's is a good analogy to how certain member's of my family have taken a rather clever approach to bringing me back around to recognizing them. It is a slow process and they are being careful because there is just such a tremendous amount of information to remember. Their approach, and this is what is so clever, is that they speak to me about details I recognize from the identity I currently identify with but of which I have no memory of their involvement. By speaking in details that connect their lives with my current identity, I find myself pondering who they really are to me. And then, there is something in my mind that understands it, that knows who they are, I just don't consciously know who they are to me. This is one of the earliest examples I can think of and I think it represents that when I was sleeping, I was able to process their messages I had received during the day. When I wrote about that dream in my journal back in March, though, I had really no conscious idea what it all meant as I do know. I had no idea that I had one daughter, much less several, and that I had been on the space shuttle as I believe that was the reference in my dream. And it wasn't my daughter in the dream, it was her mother. As for the "foreign dreams," that I was referring to and which I had written about a lot in my journal, I believe that is confusion associated with amnesia. I couldn't understand why I was dreaming of experiences that were so foreign to my life and later I started thinking that I was having dreams about, for example, certain stressful times when I was a fighter pilot in combat. As for that woman in the last paragraph, it was probably a memory that was trying to resurface, but it was so foreign to me, because there were so many details about all that I had forgotten, I could barely make any sense of that dream. I think one part of the dream is about me flying on the first space shuttle mission. I think the part about the trailer is because she was an actress and that was her trailer on a movie set and I had stayed with her there once when I was on leave. Another possibility is those trailers you see the shuttle astronauts walking by as they are enroute to board the shuttle. It may be that my girlfriend had one just like it on her movie set.

Sleep journal 3/19/06
Yesterday was some kind of foreign dream that was more of an emotion than a visualization. I couldn't remember any of the details although I felt like I had been seeing details. All I remembered was feeling like it was something intense, there was some intensity to the communication, almost overwhelming like a very strong and clear signal on a radio. After I woke up, I could only characterize the message as positive. Today the first foreign dream wasn't too clear either. It had something to do with me, some other characters, and something about the stars. We were under the stars, or we were talking to the stars. I can visualize the sky with the stars but they may have also been a metaphor for people. Then I left somewhere and there was something about a goose, not sure what that meant, maybe something to do with staying meant something about a cooked goose.

The second foreign dream had a lot of detail. I was sitting on a bus with someone that I knew but I don't know who it was. It may have been [name of famous daughter redacted] but that makes no sense. I was sitting next to her and she was someone that I had lived with before, someone I had a relationship with, like a girlfriend. I was getting off the bus to a place I was staying that I don't recognize from anyplace I've been in real life. She asked me if I was really staying there, she may have commented that it was amazing I was staying there, or someone else said that. Apparently, it was the same place she and I had lived during our relationship. It was some kind of little travel trailer. A young woman was letting me stay there. I was taking up a little open seat or bench in a hallway of the trailer. I had a little storage bin to put my stuff in.

Before STS-41-D, which I think has some symbolic connection with me and "441" and 4/14, was STS-41-B. The significance of that mission is that it was the first untethered space walk from that shuttle and I think I was the first person to do that. I believe the shuttle returned to Earth on that mission on 2/11/84 to symbolize that I launched from Earth on 11/2/75 for my 17 month mission to the outer solar system.

After the hostages were released in 1981 by the Iranians, they were flown to Algiers, Athens, Germany, and then the U.S. I think I was flying that plane at some point, maybe from Algiers, or from Wiesbaden, to the U.S. because they landed at Stewart air base, which was an airstrip that had been constructed to teach army cadets to fly. I believe that field was selected because I was flying that plane and because I was a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy at the time.

It is also no coincidence to me that someone in Congress pushed through this legislation, S 3359 IS, about revoking the tax on ether, which used to be used as an anesthesia. I was in the VA hospital at the time because of those jackals and I was poisoned around the time, along with other attempts on my life. The reason I was poisoned that time, along with trying to kill me, is because Microsoft needed a rejoinder to put into the content they have created by stalking me all these years. As they started to sell the content they created by stalking me all these years, people would raise a lot of questions about why they didn't incorporate my complaints about their criminal activities into their content. They poisoned me, causing me a serious digestion problem, so that they could record with hidden cameras, a doctor in the VA telling with a laugh that I was "full of shit." That was going to be the video that ends the segment about their criminal activities.

The greatest lesson from all this, I guess, is about how I have wasted decades of my life fighting to keep the peace for you people. I have wasted decades away from my children thinking that it was important that you people could live in peace. I can't even benefit from that peace myself. After all those years of trying to keep the peace, all I have to show for it is a lot of scars and a lot of psycho zombies stalking me 24 hours a day every day of the week. You people deserve the ultra-greedy and cowards such as Bill Gates and George W. Bush because they represent you. You follow them because you recognize that those are you primary characteristics. You are nothing but greedy, self-centered, cowards.

The primary issue here, the reason Microsoft/Corbis is trying to kill me and get me killed, with the help of Dave Reichert, George W. Bush and accomplices, is because of the money that can be made from my image after people find out about my life. My image is probably worth over a trillion dollars worldwide, if not priceless, because of all the details I have described. Every salesperson in the world will want to use my image in some manner to get your attention. If Microsoft/Corbis can get me killed, they will have a much easier time selling all the details about me they have been stealing over the decades. An example is when that crane fell over in Bellevue a few weeks ago. The first thing I noticed was that it fell over pointing directly at the Microsoft Civica building that is next to that construction site. Then I realized that the construction project was for a building named Tower 333. After I looked closer at details I found on the web, I decided they are part of the criminals that are trying to steal my image for their financial gain. The building was announced on 8/2/2000, which they did because I graduated the USNA in 1982. The company that made the announcement about the new construction is owned by a guy that was chairman of the Federal Reserve in Dallas, Texas, from 1981 to 1983, when Reagan was President. One of the member's of Microsoft Board Of Director's was long ago selected by President Reagan as Labor Secretary. Some other details about that Bellevue Tower 333 that caught my attention are that the contact was a VP named Lancaster and his telephone numbers was 966-7666 and fax 966-7886, where I believe those numbers were selected specifically because they are relevant to me, with the first one pointing to the years 1966 and 1976.

Another example is something I recently noticed about someone I worked with at Microsoft that I thought was a friend. I believe Microsoft put him in the cubicle next to me specifically so they could record our interactions with hidden cameras as Microsoft/Corbis developed all their content about my life that they could later sell for their financial gain. I believe he did this specifically to connect with my image in order to increase sales of his book and that is reinforced by the numbers in the ISBN numbers that are relevant to me. That sequence of "332059" makes me think it is some kind of reference to my 100th birthday in the year 2059. That "321" sequence could be a mirrored reference to 1/23/76, the day I left Mars. The book was released, according to amazon.com, on September 30, 2005, or 9/30/05. That is a variation of " 3 5 9" or "5 9 3."


Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10:08 PM

The meaning of the Knight

Hi, I've been asked this a few times about why we chose to have a Knight on the cover of The Build Master. Here is my explanation that for some unknown reason was left out of the book:

By definition a Knight is a nobleman or noblewoman, a seeker of virtue, defender of the crown (metaphor would be corporate or group culture), a protector of faith or philosophy. Knights carry themselves with chivalrous conduct and can be a very formidable warrior if needed. The suit of armor is a good defense for the unjust attacks they may receive (from non-build team members).

Knights are also known to have been seated at the round table (WAR meetings) with the King to discuss peace and the well-being of the common folks (the employees doing the work). I see Build Masters or SCM personnel as the modern-day-high-tech Knight.

Speak softly but always carry a big sword!






Build Master, The: Microsoft's Software Configuration Management Best Practices

Published by: ADDISON-WESLEY
Author: Maraia, V
Number of pages: 248
Group: SOFTWARE ENGINEERING
ISBN: 0321332059/9780321332059



Two other co-workers on my team, whose desks at the time were on the other side of me from the Linda Hamilton-hair-lookalike, released a book on April 4, 2001. That is "4 4 1."

MCSE Microsoft SQL Server 2000 Database Design and Implementation: Readiness Review Exam 70-229

by Sharon Bjeletich, Eddy Hahn

Paperback: 256 pages
Publisher: Microsoft Press;
Bk&CD-Rom edition (April 4, 2001)
Language: English
ISBN: 073561251X