I have often puzzled over the town of Hugo, OK, as it is the place that my own birth certificate indicates where my mother, Thedia, was born. I puzzled over how the first name of that "Hurley" character from "Lost " has a first name of "Hugo." I also thought it was curious that Hugo is the name of a hurricane I "remember" hitting Charleston, SC, when I was stationed there in the Navy and it destroyed my red, 1986.5 Nissan XP pickup. Even more curious is that Thedia's birthday, according to my "memory," is September 10th, which is the historical peak of hurricane activity in the Atlantic ocean. Another puzzling detail is that the copies of the birth certificates that I have now, which I ordered a few years ago to apply for a passport, have the date 9/10/2001, at the bottom, which I assume is the date they were copied. My passport, which I recieved the following year, is consistent with other theories about the so-called "birth marks," in the form of the issue date, and in the passport number itself, which I believe reflects my mission to the comet in July 1976.
Today, I was startled to realize something else about Hugo, OK. These lat/long coordinates, of which that point is within 2 miles of downtown Hugo, can't be a coincidence:
Latitude: 33° 59 Min. 59 Sec.
Longitude: -95° 33 Min. 0 Sec.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
"against his own people"
I am not really even sure any more if I have even been to that place. The only "memory" of that place in Arkansas I am reasonably sure of is when I remember being back there in 1999. It was a few months after I had started work at Microsoft and I found out that my maternal grandmother, Betty, or Bettie, Newman Burgess, had passed away and I flew back to my sister's house in Ashdown, AR, for the funeral, which was in Antlers, OK. I have been trying to figure which cemetery she was buried in but I can only vaguley remember the location west of Antlers, somewhere north of Highway 3. But, a couple days ago, I found an obituary listing for her and it was dated May 13, 1999. I don't know if that means she died on 5/13/99 or that her obituary was in the 5/13/99 edition of the Antlers newspaper. One really interesting detail I found the other day is the obituary for her first husband, Coleman Newman, my maternal grandfather. I don't "remember" going to his funeral but I "remember" that my mother, Thedia went out to Amarillo, Texas, for it. The really interesting part is that the obituary indicates he lived in Clarendon, Texas, which is east of Amarillo. I discovered that there is a Clarendon, Virginia, and that it is right next to Arlington National Cemetery, adding some weight to other theories I have, especially that I was "buried" at Arlington in 1986 because my family thought I had been killed-in-action that year. On the map, in between Arlington National Cemetery and Arlington Hall Station is Arlington Heights. In my "memory" of 1986, when I think they thought I was dead in reality, I had a girlfriend who was from a town named Arlington Heights. I met her one night when I was going to a Navy technical school and it had been a very bad day because I had failed a test. I think that is symbolic of being shot down by the Libyans somewhere over Africa. I have been thinking lately about how her name sounds kind of similar to "die-in" which then makes me think of "dying," which is meant to symolize that it was a time when my family thought I was dead and thus she was something like my girlfriend in the after-life.
So anyway, I am not really even sure when I ever even visited that town I "remember" going to high school and where I had that after school job, but I discovered something very interesting about it today. Following the numerical pattern of First Street, Fourth Street, and Fifth Street, that after-school job I had in Wilton, AR, at Mills Store, would have been on 3rd Street, which is labeled as Highway 59. Not sure if that building is still there, although it seems to be on this satellite image, but I looked at another one and it didn't seem to be there. The building was on the west side of Highway 59, and while I don't actually remember the name of that adjoining street, the map indicates it is Texarkana Avenue. As I have written, I think that job at Mills Store, which is listed on the earning history document from the Social Security Administration, actually represents my time as a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy, of which I have no conventional memory of ever attending. There are several elements of my "memory" about working at Mills Store that I believe are symbolic, though, that I did attend that institution. Some of those reasons are because of the "m.s." which reminds me of "Mills Store" and "Midshipman. The "Mills" also makes me think it represents the first syllable of "military." Then there is the documentation which indicates I worked at Mills Store for 4 calendar years, which were 1981, 1982, 1983, and 1984. Adding weight to the symbolism is that after that fourth year, I actually went on active duty with the U.S. Navy, although in my real memory, I was not a commissioned officer. Another symbolic element, I believe, is that Mills Store was a general hardware store and I find some interesting connections, in terms of symbolism, to the U.S.N.A. There is also that element I wrote about where my employer became the mayor of that town during my third year working for him and he put me in charge of a crew to fix potholes in the city streets.
So anyway, I am not really even sure when I ever even visited that town I "remember" going to high school and where I had that after school job, but I discovered something very interesting about it today. Following the numerical pattern of First Street, Fourth Street, and Fifth Street, that after-school job I had in Wilton, AR, at Mills Store, would have been on 3rd Street, which is labeled as Highway 59. Not sure if that building is still there, although it seems to be on this satellite image, but I looked at another one and it didn't seem to be there. The building was on the west side of Highway 59, and while I don't actually remember the name of that adjoining street, the map indicates it is Texarkana Avenue. As I have written, I think that job at Mills Store, which is listed on the earning history document from the Social Security Administration, actually represents my time as a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy, of which I have no conventional memory of ever attending. There are several elements of my "memory" about working at Mills Store that I believe are symbolic, though, that I did attend that institution. Some of those reasons are because of the "m.s." which reminds me of "Mills Store" and "Midshipman. The "Mills" also makes me think it represents the first syllable of "military." Then there is the documentation which indicates I worked at Mills Store for 4 calendar years, which were 1981, 1982, 1983, and 1984. Adding weight to the symbolism is that after that fourth year, I actually went on active duty with the U.S. Navy, although in my real memory, I was not a commissioned officer. Another symbolic element, I believe, is that Mills Store was a general hardware store and I find some interesting connections, in terms of symbolism, to the U.S.N.A. There is also that element I wrote about where my employer became the mayor of that town during my third year working for him and he put me in charge of a crew to fix potholes in the city streets.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Microsoft - World Class Identity Thieves
Identity theft is a term first emerging in U.S. literature circa 1996. The earliest internet references concern a lobby of the United States Federal Trade Commission for regulation concerning the criminal abuse of consumers' "means of identification".
Identity theft occurs so frequently that the Federal Bureau of Investigation cites it as "America's fastest growing crime problem". Thieves steal and fraudulently use the names, addresses, social security numbers, bank account information, credit card numbers and other personal information of some 10 million Americans each year, according to the Federal Trade Commission. Learning about how thieves get your personal information is the first step toward protecting yourself from this devastating attack on your financial well-being.
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Report Suspicious Activity
Review your credit report at least once a year and contact your creditors immediately if you note suspicious activity. (For more information on how to do this, see Consumer Credit Report: What's on It.) If, at anytime, you suspect that an attempt has been made to steal your identity, contact the authorities. File a police report, and file a complaint with the U.S. Federal Trade Commission, whom you can reach at 1-877-IDTHEFT.
Conclusion
Being the victim of identity theft can be extremely devastating not only because it's your money being stolen, but your name. Identity thieves can be very skilled at finding their targets and then exploiting their findings. For this reason, to protect yourself you need to stay all the more alert and knowledgeable.
United States Code
TITLE 18 > PART I > CHAPTER 47 > § 1028
§ 1028.
Fraud and related activity in connection with identification documents, authentication features, and information
(a) Whoever, in a circumstance described in subsection (c) of this section—
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(7) knowingly transfers, possesses, or uses, without lawful authority, a means of identification of another person with the intent to commit, or to aid or abet, or in connection with, any unlawful activity that constitutes a violation of Federal law, or that constitutes a felony under any applicable State or local law;
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(c) The circumstance referred to in subsection (a) of this section is that—
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(3) either—
(A) the production, transfer, possession, or use prohibited by this section is in or affects interstate or foreign commerce, including the transfer of a document by electronic means;
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(7) the term “means of identification” means any name or number that may be used, alone or in conjunction with any other information, to identify a specific individual, including any—
(A) name, social security number, date of birth, official State or government issued driver’s license or identification number, alien registration number, government passport number, employer or taxpayer identification number;
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(f) Attempt and Conspiracy.— Any person who attempts or conspires to commit any offense under this section shall be subject to the same penalties as those prescribed for the offense, the commission of which was the object of the attempt or conspiracy.
United States Code
TITLE 18 > PART I > CHAPTER 73 > § 1512
§ 1512.
Tampering with a witness, victim, or an informant
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(j) If the offense under this section occurs in connection with a trial of a criminal case, the maximum term of imprisonment which may be imposed for the offense shall be the higher of that otherwise provided by law or the maximum term that could have been imposed for any offense charged in such case.
(k) Whoever conspires to commit any offense under this section shall be subject to the same penalties as those prescribed for the offense the commission of which was the object of the conspiracy.
Identity theft occurs so frequently that the Federal Bureau of Investigation cites it as "America's fastest growing crime problem". Thieves steal and fraudulently use the names, addresses, social security numbers, bank account information, credit card numbers and other personal information of some 10 million Americans each year, according to the Federal Trade Commission. Learning about how thieves get your personal information is the first step toward protecting yourself from this devastating attack on your financial well-being.
...
Report Suspicious Activity
Review your credit report at least once a year and contact your creditors immediately if you note suspicious activity. (For more information on how to do this, see Consumer Credit Report: What's on It.) If, at anytime, you suspect that an attempt has been made to steal your identity, contact the authorities. File a police report, and file a complaint with the U.S. Federal Trade Commission, whom you can reach at 1-877-IDTHEFT.
Conclusion
Being the victim of identity theft can be extremely devastating not only because it's your money being stolen, but your name. Identity thieves can be very skilled at finding their targets and then exploiting their findings. For this reason, to protect yourself you need to stay all the more alert and knowledgeable.
United States Code
TITLE 18 > PART I > CHAPTER 47 > § 1028
§ 1028.
Fraud and related activity in connection with identification documents, authentication features, and information
(a) Whoever, in a circumstance described in subsection (c) of this section—
...
(7) knowingly transfers, possesses, or uses, without lawful authority, a means of identification of another person with the intent to commit, or to aid or abet, or in connection with, any unlawful activity that constitutes a violation of Federal law, or that constitutes a felony under any applicable State or local law;
...
(c) The circumstance referred to in subsection (a) of this section is that—
...
(3) either—
(A) the production, transfer, possession, or use prohibited by this section is in or affects interstate or foreign commerce, including the transfer of a document by electronic means;
...
(7) the term “means of identification” means any name or number that may be used, alone or in conjunction with any other information, to identify a specific individual, including any—
(A) name, social security number, date of birth, official State or government issued driver’s license or identification number, alien registration number, government passport number, employer or taxpayer identification number;
...
(f) Attempt and Conspiracy.— Any person who attempts or conspires to commit any offense under this section shall be subject to the same penalties as those prescribed for the offense, the commission of which was the object of the attempt or conspiracy.
United States Code
TITLE 18 > PART I > CHAPTER 73 > § 1512
§ 1512.
Tampering with a witness, victim, or an informant
…
(j) If the offense under this section occurs in connection with a trial of a criminal case, the maximum term of imprisonment which may be imposed for the offense shall be the higher of that otherwise provided by law or the maximum term that could have been imposed for any offense charged in such case.
(k) Whoever conspires to commit any offense under this section shall be subject to the same penalties as those prescribed for the offense the commission of which was the object of the conspiracy.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Always in the middle
My second Christmas in a homeless shelter and they give out gifts to residents but it only reminds me that I have a home somewhere - if I could only remember where. I also find myself wondering where I was on December 24, 1986. That is the time I believe of my "Great Escape" from the Libyans after being shot down on 2/14/86. My theory for a while is that I traveled across the Sahara and made my way across Africa to Kenya, where I found an American installation. I may have stayed in a village in Darfur for a while, and there is also something about Turkana that seems important. I find myself thinking about how similar sounding are the names Texarkana and Turkana.
I went to high school in Ashdown, AR, or so my "memory" suggests, and to the south of Ashdown, on Highway 71/59, was Texarkana, Arkansas, and Texarkana, Texas. Most people that aren't from that area pronounce the name as "tex-R-kana" but it always, or it seems like always, has been important to me that it should be pronounced as "tex-er-kana." I think that detail was put into my mind so that I would someday puzzle over how Turkana and Texarkana sound similar. That puzzle got clearer when I connected it with something from the Star Trek: The Next Generation series, which premiered on 9/28/87, about 4 months after my theoretical return from my escape from the Libyans.
As I have puzzled over many of those details, I noticed something else very interesting. During that first year, the name of the security chief for the "Enterprise" was named "Tasha Yar." The name "Yar" is "Ray" spelled backwards. There is also the detail I read that "Tasha Yar" was from a colony named "Turkana." Then I read about the Turkana District in Kenya. That reinforced my theory that I traveled through the Darfur region in Sudan, then across the rest of Sudan, where I crossed the White Nile at Bor. I was studying the map around Bor and I saw some names that seemed familiar. Then I left Sudan and entered in the Turkana District. I haven't seen the movie, but I think Bruce Willis' "Tears Of The Sun," from March 2003, refers to that journey somehow. My theory is that I saved a village along the way to Kenya and that may be the source of the reference about "Tasha Yar" where she finds a cat. The cat, I believe, is some kind of "Tomcat" reference to me, where my real name is Thomas and I flew the F-14 Tomcat. Or so I believe. I can't actually remember any of that in the conventional sense.
I've tried searching my symbolic "memory" for clues but I can't "remember" anything specific about this time in 1986. I think that my family had a funeral around this time though, probably the previous month, because I "remember" that my step-brother died on 11/25/86 and I think I was taught that date about ten years ago because I had completely lost my memory. That long walk across the desert in 1986 probably cooked my brain a little bit and the head injuries I suffered later accumulated to the point of a complete loss. If I had not gone to work at Microsoft in 1998, I am certain I would have got those memories back a long time ago though. My theory about my family thinking I had died in Africa was reinforced when I looked up the location I "remember" that my father was buried. I am thinking that "memories" of my father actually represent me in a lot of ways. He drove a truck and was on the road a lot. That is probably how my kids remember me. I "remembered" that he was buried in Morrison, Oklahoma, which is in Noble County, and I found some interesting clues when I began to research that "memory." First I noticed that the graveyard is next to a road labeled as 3370 and I decided that the "33" is connected to me because of my real birthday of March 3rd. Then I noticed that the highway on the other side is Highway 412 and I think that is what I call mirrored-symbolism, or maybe just the closest we could find, to the date of 2/14/86 because 412 is 214 backwards.
All of this was further reinforced when I found a listing of the people buried at the cemetery, which included the person I "remember" as my father, Joseph Wayne Burgess. At the top of the list was something that appeared to be an incomplete listing but I decided that it was done to refer to me. The entry is: Ray G? Died: 15 Feb 19??
I have been trying for a while to "remember" precisely where he lived when I was a kid, but so far could only narrow it down to an area south of Asher, Oklahoma. I "remember" riding in a car and crossing over a long bridge over a river and I found a place on the map, which is the Canadian River, which is the only area, judging by the satellite photos, that can match my "memory." I can't "remember" anything about how far we drove to his house after crossing that river, but my theory was reinforced when I noticed there is a fork in the road in that area that is Highways 3W, 177, and 59.
Today I discovered something else very interesting that supports my "April 16" theory. To the west of the area where I think my father, Joseph Wayne Burgess, lived, is the town of Wayne, OK. I mapped out the route, along Highway 59, between where I think he lived and Wayne, OK. About half-way between those two points, running east-west, is where the road N3300 would intersect Highway 59, as illustrated, east and west.
In the town of Wayne, OK, which is also my middle name, and which is also consistent with my "April 16" theory, there are even two roads named Thomas Street and Ray Street, as illustrated, and I believe that is my real name.
I also do not think it is a coincidence that Bill Gates' Corbis is building a new campus at 5th and Republican in Seattle. The other co-founder of Microsoft, Paul Allen, has a company named Vulcan that is located at 5th and King, in Seattle, and I do not think that is a coincidence and that those locations were selected to steal from my image. I suspect Paul Allen did something similar to the estate of Jimi Hendrix where he instigated a legal problem for the estate and then funded their legal fight. I suspect he did that because it was a cheaper approach than trying to buy out the copyrights and other intellectual property from the estate. Paul Allen's Experience Music Project, which aligns with 5th and Thomas, is next to the Children's museum. As I have written, The Children's Museum aligns, on the south-west corner, with 3rd and Thomas, and I believe that was intentional. It has something to do with my experience with Apollo 11 when I was ten years old.
I went to high school in Ashdown, AR, or so my "memory" suggests, and to the south of Ashdown, on Highway 71/59, was Texarkana, Arkansas, and Texarkana, Texas. Most people that aren't from that area pronounce the name as "tex-R-kana" but it always, or it seems like always, has been important to me that it should be pronounced as "tex-er-kana." I think that detail was put into my mind so that I would someday puzzle over how Turkana and Texarkana sound similar. That puzzle got clearer when I connected it with something from the Star Trek: The Next Generation series, which premiered on 9/28/87, about 4 months after my theoretical return from my escape from the Libyans.
As I have puzzled over many of those details, I noticed something else very interesting. During that first year, the name of the security chief for the "Enterprise" was named "Tasha Yar." The name "Yar" is "Ray" spelled backwards. There is also the detail I read that "Tasha Yar" was from a colony named "Turkana." Then I read about the Turkana District in Kenya. That reinforced my theory that I traveled through the Darfur region in Sudan, then across the rest of Sudan, where I crossed the White Nile at Bor. I was studying the map around Bor and I saw some names that seemed familiar. Then I left Sudan and entered in the Turkana District. I haven't seen the movie, but I think Bruce Willis' "Tears Of The Sun," from March 2003, refers to that journey somehow. My theory is that I saved a village along the way to Kenya and that may be the source of the reference about "Tasha Yar" where she finds a cat. The cat, I believe, is some kind of "Tomcat" reference to me, where my real name is Thomas and I flew the F-14 Tomcat. Or so I believe. I can't actually remember any of that in the conventional sense.
I've tried searching my symbolic "memory" for clues but I can't "remember" anything specific about this time in 1986. I think that my family had a funeral around this time though, probably the previous month, because I "remember" that my step-brother died on 11/25/86 and I think I was taught that date about ten years ago because I had completely lost my memory. That long walk across the desert in 1986 probably cooked my brain a little bit and the head injuries I suffered later accumulated to the point of a complete loss. If I had not gone to work at Microsoft in 1998, I am certain I would have got those memories back a long time ago though. My theory about my family thinking I had died in Africa was reinforced when I looked up the location I "remember" that my father was buried. I am thinking that "memories" of my father actually represent me in a lot of ways. He drove a truck and was on the road a lot. That is probably how my kids remember me. I "remembered" that he was buried in Morrison, Oklahoma, which is in Noble County, and I found some interesting clues when I began to research that "memory." First I noticed that the graveyard is next to a road labeled as 3370 and I decided that the "33" is connected to me because of my real birthday of March 3rd. Then I noticed that the highway on the other side is Highway 412 and I think that is what I call mirrored-symbolism, or maybe just the closest we could find, to the date of 2/14/86 because 412 is 214 backwards.
All of this was further reinforced when I found a listing of the people buried at the cemetery, which included the person I "remember" as my father, Joseph Wayne Burgess. At the top of the list was something that appeared to be an incomplete listing but I decided that it was done to refer to me. The entry is: Ray G? Died: 15 Feb 19??
I have been trying for a while to "remember" precisely where he lived when I was a kid, but so far could only narrow it down to an area south of Asher, Oklahoma. I "remember" riding in a car and crossing over a long bridge over a river and I found a place on the map, which is the Canadian River, which is the only area, judging by the satellite photos, that can match my "memory." I can't "remember" anything about how far we drove to his house after crossing that river, but my theory was reinforced when I noticed there is a fork in the road in that area that is Highways 3W, 177, and 59.
Today I discovered something else very interesting that supports my "April 16" theory. To the west of the area where I think my father, Joseph Wayne Burgess, lived, is the town of Wayne, OK. I mapped out the route, along Highway 59, between where I think he lived and Wayne, OK. About half-way between those two points, running east-west, is where the road N3300 would intersect Highway 59, as illustrated, east and west.
In the town of Wayne, OK, which is also my middle name, and which is also consistent with my "April 16" theory, there are even two roads named Thomas Street and Ray Street, as illustrated, and I believe that is my real name.
I also do not think it is a coincidence that Bill Gates' Corbis is building a new campus at 5th and Republican in Seattle. The other co-founder of Microsoft, Paul Allen, has a company named Vulcan that is located at 5th and King, in Seattle, and I do not think that is a coincidence and that those locations were selected to steal from my image. I suspect Paul Allen did something similar to the estate of Jimi Hendrix where he instigated a legal problem for the estate and then funded their legal fight. I suspect he did that because it was a cheaper approach than trying to buy out the copyrights and other intellectual property from the estate. Paul Allen's Experience Music Project, which aligns with 5th and Thomas, is next to the Children's museum. As I have written, The Children's Museum aligns, on the south-west corner, with 3rd and Thomas, and I believe that was intentional. It has something to do with my experience with Apollo 11 when I was ten years old.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Norm Maleng, Federal Inmate Number 003359
Norm Maleng: Arrest for murder
Dave Reichert: Arrest for murder
Steve Ballmer: Arrest for murder
Bill Gates: Arrest for murder
I will be pressing charges against the rest of you and you will be charged with murder.
Dave Reichert: Arrest for murder
Steve Ballmer: Arrest for murder
Bill Gates: Arrest for murder
I will be pressing charges against the rest of you and you will be charged with murder.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Bill Gates: The Terrorist In Control Of Your Computer
The distance from the Microsoft San Diego office to Black Eagle Drive, at Marine Corps Air Station Miramar, maps out to 5.7 miles and I believe their intention was to create a connection with 5.9 miles. The Marine Corps Air Station Miramar is known as the "Top Gun" base that was immortalized by the Tom Cruise movie. I believe also that "Black Eagle" is a code name for my mission to the outer solar system from 11/2/75 to 4/14/77. The address for that Microsoft office includes "121" and, when you follow the link they provide to their office, "3033" in the zip code.
Microsoft Southern California District: San Diego, CA
9255 Towne Centre Dr., Suite 400
San Diego, CA 92121
Phone: (858) 909-3800
Fax: (858) 909-3838
From the Microsoft office in Irvine, CA, to the Exit 9 of Highway 133, where Highway 133 also intersects nearby with I-5, is 5.9 miles, using Shortest Distance. I feel as though there is something else to find in this area, but I haven't figured it out yet. But that is really their whole point. It is being designed as a scavenger hunt. It is some kind of conspiracy to steal my life for a Microsoft-sponsored scavenger hunt.
Microsoft Southern California District: Orange County-Irvine, CA
Three Park Plaza, Suite 1800
Irvine, CA 92614
Phone: (949) 263-3000
Fax: (949) 252-8618
Of the 8 photo credits in the front cover of Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," 5 of those photo's are credited to Bill Gates' Corbis. On page 73 of the paperback version, Rodger Claire writes that the Israeli Air Force pilots selected to fly the strike into Iraq in 1981 were sent to the United States Air Force Operational Training School for the F-16 at Hill Air Force Base, which is north of Salt Lake City, Utah. The distance from the Microsoft office in Salt Lake City to the Hill Air Force Base is 33.3 miles.
Microsoft Desert Mountain District: Salt Lake City, UT
123 Wright Brothers Dr., Suite 100
Salt Lake City, UT 84116
Phone: (801) 257-6400
Fax: (801) 257-6466
Microsoft Southern California District: San Diego, CA
9255 Towne Centre Dr., Suite 400
San Diego, CA 92121
Phone: (858) 909-3800
Fax: (858) 909-3838
From the Microsoft office in Irvine, CA, to the Exit 9 of Highway 133, where Highway 133 also intersects nearby with I-5, is 5.9 miles, using Shortest Distance. I feel as though there is something else to find in this area, but I haven't figured it out yet. But that is really their whole point. It is being designed as a scavenger hunt. It is some kind of conspiracy to steal my life for a Microsoft-sponsored scavenger hunt.
Microsoft Southern California District: Orange County-Irvine, CA
Three Park Plaza, Suite 1800
Irvine, CA 92614
Phone: (949) 263-3000
Fax: (949) 252-8618
Of the 8 photo credits in the front cover of Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," 5 of those photo's are credited to Bill Gates' Corbis. On page 73 of the paperback version, Rodger Claire writes that the Israeli Air Force pilots selected to fly the strike into Iraq in 1981 were sent to the United States Air Force Operational Training School for the F-16 at Hill Air Force Base, which is north of Salt Lake City, Utah. The distance from the Microsoft office in Salt Lake City to the Hill Air Force Base is 33.3 miles.
Microsoft Desert Mountain District: Salt Lake City, UT
123 Wright Brothers Dr., Suite 100
Salt Lake City, UT 84116
Phone: (801) 257-6400
Fax: (801) 257-6466
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Bill Gates' House Of Cards
I am certain that Bill Gates grand larceny extends into Microsoft's financials as well. One clue that is true is the stock option buyback program they initiated a few years ago when I worked there. The low end of the grant price range of stock options they would buy back from employees was $33 per share. I remember that very well because my initial grant was at $32 per share. If I am not mistaken, one of the grants I did sell back was priced at $34 per share. There was also that 2/14/03 stock split I have written about as well as my salary on many occasions, which is suspicious.
Another example, as I wrote earlier, is the MSFT IPO itself. The IPO date of 3/13/86 is suspicious, even more so now that I have discovered their plans to steal my image and incorporate it into the Microsoft building maps. The operative clue in the IPO is that it is 10 days after my 3/3/86 birthday, which I probably spent as a POW, and it was 10 years after 1976, which is the year I believe I accomplished my objective in the outer solar system. I believe that the number "10" also factors in because I was 10 years old when I landed on the Moon with Apollo 11.
The MSFT stock closed at 133.56 on my first day of employment at Microsoft. I'm not sure if that was intended to be a precise miss for a value of 133.59, because it is 3 cents off, or they just couldn't control the results enough to produce a value of 133.59. But that was their intention.
There have been 9 stock splits of Microsoft and the first stock split of MSFT was a 2-for-1 split, which occurred on 9/18/87. The next split, also 2-for-1, was on 4/12/90. The difference between those dates is 937 days. That could also be expressed as 133 weeks, 6 days. Since those splits always occur on Fridays, the intent could be to get as close to 933 days as possible, since that would be only four days earlier. It would also be possible to target 933 days and to target 133 weeks, 5 days at the same time.
440 days between 4/12/90 and 6/26/91, where the former was a 2-for-1 and the latter a 3-for-2.
931 days or 133 weeks between the stock splits on 5/20/94 and 12/6/96, which were both 2-for-1's.
441 days between 12/6/96 and 2/20/98, which were both 2-for-1's.
Their goal was to incorporate the so-called "birth marks" and other relevant, notable dates about me into their financial data. All of that would generate consumer interest some day in the future and promote products related to them, which would produce a financial benefit for them and accomplices.
And it is official. Norm Maleng, King County Prosecutor, is an accomplice of domestic terrorists and guilty of treason, a hanging offense in the United States. I don't know what he has been doing, but I suspect it has been to protect Bill Gates, and others. The King County government itself is probably highly complicit in their criminal activities. He is actively protecting the crooked lawyers, dirty cops, corrupt politicians, of which there are probably many involved in protecting Microsoft/Corbis, and they are all facing the death penalty for their criminal activities.
Another reason to suspect that I was poisoned by Microsoft/Corbis is because of comments I made in my journal last year. I noted how the "Claire" character from "Lost," was 8 month's pregnant in that first episode, according to the transcripts, and how at the time, it had been 8 months since I quit Microsoft. Bill Gates reportedly made comments about how Kai-Fu had "f'ed" them and I think that is related somehow.
That doctor at the VA, when I realized that something was wrong with me after the latest attempt to poison me, first made a comment about how it was impossible that I had suffered such an affliction for 6 weeks. His comment about how I would appear, along with his gesture, suggesting that my abdomen would be severely extended as a result. In hindsight, I would probably look pregnant and that is why that doctor made those comments. Because that was the image Microsoft/Corbis was trying to produce so they could incorporate that image into the content they were creating about my life by stalking me for all these decades. The basic message is about revenge against me by Bill Gates, as well as to intimidate people watching about not speaking out against Bill Gates' criminal activities.
The larger problem is that everyone thinks I am some kind of historic figure. That means everyone I interact with knows they might become part of that historical record. That means they are trying to shape how they appear in that record. For example, when Bill Frist introduced that legislation, connected to my so-called "birth mark" of "3359," around the time I was in the VA hospital, calling for a repeal of taxes on ether, it was some kind of message to someone to retaliate against me for saying to reporters the previous year that the Republican party was dishonest and for comments that I intend to press charges against them.
Another example, as I wrote earlier, is the MSFT IPO itself. The IPO date of 3/13/86 is suspicious, even more so now that I have discovered their plans to steal my image and incorporate it into the Microsoft building maps. The operative clue in the IPO is that it is 10 days after my 3/3/86 birthday, which I probably spent as a POW, and it was 10 years after 1976, which is the year I believe I accomplished my objective in the outer solar system. I believe that the number "10" also factors in because I was 10 years old when I landed on the Moon with Apollo 11.
The MSFT stock closed at 133.56 on my first day of employment at Microsoft. I'm not sure if that was intended to be a precise miss for a value of 133.59, because it is 3 cents off, or they just couldn't control the results enough to produce a value of 133.59. But that was their intention.
There have been 9 stock splits of Microsoft and the first stock split of MSFT was a 2-for-1 split, which occurred on 9/18/87. The next split, also 2-for-1, was on 4/12/90. The difference between those dates is 937 days. That could also be expressed as 133 weeks, 6 days. Since those splits always occur on Fridays, the intent could be to get as close to 933 days as possible, since that would be only four days earlier. It would also be possible to target 933 days and to target 133 weeks, 5 days at the same time.
440 days between 4/12/90 and 6/26/91, where the former was a 2-for-1 and the latter a 3-for-2.
931 days or 133 weeks between the stock splits on 5/20/94 and 12/6/96, which were both 2-for-1's.
441 days between 12/6/96 and 2/20/98, which were both 2-for-1's.
Their goal was to incorporate the so-called "birth marks" and other relevant, notable dates about me into their financial data. All of that would generate consumer interest some day in the future and promote products related to them, which would produce a financial benefit for them and accomplices.
And it is official. Norm Maleng, King County Prosecutor, is an accomplice of domestic terrorists and guilty of treason, a hanging offense in the United States. I don't know what he has been doing, but I suspect it has been to protect Bill Gates, and others. The King County government itself is probably highly complicit in their criminal activities. He is actively protecting the crooked lawyers, dirty cops, corrupt politicians, of which there are probably many involved in protecting Microsoft/Corbis, and they are all facing the death penalty for their criminal activities.
Another reason to suspect that I was poisoned by Microsoft/Corbis is because of comments I made in my journal last year. I noted how the "Claire" character from "Lost," was 8 month's pregnant in that first episode, according to the transcripts, and how at the time, it had been 8 months since I quit Microsoft. Bill Gates reportedly made comments about how Kai-Fu had "f'ed" them and I think that is related somehow.
That doctor at the VA, when I realized that something was wrong with me after the latest attempt to poison me, first made a comment about how it was impossible that I had suffered such an affliction for 6 weeks. His comment about how I would appear, along with his gesture, suggesting that my abdomen would be severely extended as a result. In hindsight, I would probably look pregnant and that is why that doctor made those comments. Because that was the image Microsoft/Corbis was trying to produce so they could incorporate that image into the content they were creating about my life by stalking me for all these decades. The basic message is about revenge against me by Bill Gates, as well as to intimidate people watching about not speaking out against Bill Gates' criminal activities.
The larger problem is that everyone thinks I am some kind of historic figure. That means everyone I interact with knows they might become part of that historical record. That means they are trying to shape how they appear in that record. For example, when Bill Frist introduced that legislation, connected to my so-called "birth mark" of "3359," around the time I was in the VA hospital, calling for a repeal of taxes on ether, it was some kind of message to someone to retaliate against me for saying to reporters the previous year that the Republican party was dishonest and for comments that I intend to press charges against them.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
"At Microsoft, our passion is to steal your potential"
I wrote a while back about how the lottery numbers from "Lost" pointed directly at that first apartment Microsoft put me in when I moved out here after accepting their offer of employment. Yesterday I noticed that the apartment they put me into also aligns with 3rd street. There is another 3rd street nearby and the Microsoft Civica office building adjoins it. The Microsoft corporate apartment was SE 3rd Street and the Microsoft Civica is NE 3rd Street, so they are close to each other and running parallel to each other east-west, which forms a "3 3." The Microsoft corporate apartment is at the intersection of SE 3rd and 119th, where the "119" makes me think it was some kind of reference to 9-1-1. I lived there for a month, so that would be from about 12/7/98 to 1/7/98.
Microsoft Pacific Northwest District: Bellevue, WA
Civica Office Building
205 108th Ave. NE, Suite 400
Bellevue, WA 98004
Phone: (425) 705-1900
Fax: (425) 936-7329
The Microsoft office in Los Angeles, California, the state where Ronald Reagan was Governor from 1966 to 1975, whom I believe is my grandfather but cannot remember, is at the intersection of Grand and 3rd. The street address is 333 and the suite number is 3300.
Microsoft Southern California District: Los Angeles, CA
333 South Grand Ave, Suite 3300
Los Angeles, CA 90071
Phone: (213) 806-7300
At 3.5 miles from the Microsoft Conneticut office to the town of New Britain, Conneticut, it is close enough for me to believe that they selected that location to represent 3.3, or "33." They may have purchased something, or had someone secretly purchase something nearby, to produce a 5.9 mile marker.
Microsoft New England District: Farmington, CT
Pondview Corporate Center
74 Batterson Park Rd.
Farmington, CT 06032
Phone: (860) 678-3100
Fax: (860) 678-7414
For all these obvious clues that demonstrate that Microsoft is stealing my image, I am only finding the easy ones. Microsoft/Corbis's grand larceny is much more complex. They are developing their content by stalking me constantly and when they start selling the property they have stolen from me, all of what I have figured out so far will be just the tip of the iceburg. I am seeing that my family, including my children, are showing up in Microsoft/Corbis's attempts to steal my image for the financial gain of Microsoft/Corbis and accomplices. It may be that all this wasn't supposed to be revealed by them until decades from now so they are taking a lot of time to develop the content because there is going to be such a large market for it in the future. And they have a world audience to market to. They can, for example, play up on anti-American sentiment and that is why they revealed that I flew with Israel to Iraq in 1981. A lot of people that hate America would be very interested in buying and viewing that content. Bill Gates is thinking that there will be so much anti-American sentiment by that time that no one will really care that they had hidden cameras in my homes for all those years. People will still purchase and view whatever content they deliver regardless of just how badly Microsoft/Corbis was stalking me or because of the destruction Microsoft/Corbis caused as a result of selling their stolen product.
It is a win-win for Bill Gates and accomplices. He knows that people will still buy the property he has stolen from me regardless of how it wrecks my life. It is the same reason the paparazzi has such a lucrative appeal for people. If there wasn't a lot of money to be made in stalking celebrities, there wouldn't be so many people taking pictures of them. Bill Gates is the king of the paparazzi and he has billions to spend on crooked lawyers such as Brad Smith, dirty cops such as Dave Reichert, and corrupt politicians such as George W. Bush. There is something to all this that for Bill Gates is beyond money but I don't know what it is. Maybe he doesn't need any motivation and is doing it just because he is a sociopath.
One good example about how Microsoft has been developing content about me, by manipulating my environment, is to consider Vince Maraia, the former coworker I mentioned earlier and who has that book that they associated with my "birth marks." When Microsoft/Corbis starts selling their content that they developed while stalking me, Vince Maraia's name will come up a lot in the Microsoft/Corbis content, which I assume will distibuted primarily on the Internet. Vince's name will come up a lot because I talked to him on a regular basis and that will in turn generate advertisements in the Microsoft/Corbis content for his book. Microsoft/Corbis will have it programmed to do that. And he knows that even if I do fight my way through the dirty cops and corrupt politicians, he would have to do, what?, 6 months in a minimum security jail? Jail time no one will know about when his book is being sold because Microsoft lawyers are protecting him. At worst, he would probably only get home arrest for 6 months. So he gambles that he has to spend 6 months in jail, if that, and for that he gets a lot of promotion for his first book and then others, not to mention a lot of fancy stuff to put on his resume, etc. Pretty sweet deal.
He was only one example, too. Microsoft/Corbis had all kinds of people around me as catalyst for their content. Some, such as Vince Maraia would probably make money off it, others might not. When Microsoft/Corbis placed Vince Maraia in a cubicle next to me, they also placed a guy named Latimer in a cubicle across the aisle from me. I never wanted to say anything about it because I thought it would be cruel, but he bore a striking resemblance to the cartoon character "Peter Griffin" from the "Family Guy." Recently I read on the Smithsonian website about Lewis Latimer, who was an expert on the electric light and worked for Thomas Edison's company, which may be one of the reasons they placed him next to me, for reasons I will describe next.
The reason Microsoft/Corbis was putting all those people around me was to introduce certain topics and subjects into their content to generate interest by marketers and advertisers. One example is to consider the keywords that I found associated with the late Ilan Ramon, who was part of the 1981 strike on Iraq that I believe I was part of. I believe Microsoft/Corbis revealed a few years ago that I was a covert member of that team, the terrorists heard Microsoft reveal that detail, and that triggered the attack on the USS Cole and the 9/11 attacks. I found a photo of Ramon on the website of the pirates Corbis, which as I mentioned, they had Tom Devey working in my group because he resembled Ilan Ramon, and the keywords associated with that photo reveal a lot about their intentions. They had many keywords associated with his photo, and some are Astronaut, Colonel, Disaster and destruction, Eye contact, Fighter plane, Israel, Israeli armed forces, Jewish, Middle East, Military officer, Prominent persons, Space shuttle mission, State of Israel, War and military.
As Microsoft/Corbis has been stalking me all these years, as well probably as my children, they have been collecting all these photos of us and assigning keywords and categories to them based on details, characteristics, attributes, of the photos. Then advertisers review the content for those keywords, attributes, characteristics, and pay money to associate with those images. You, as a spectator, may not even have to pay anything to view those photos, but for every photo you view, you are making it profitable for the advertiser that is associated with those stolen images of me. An example would be of content they produced as they were stalking me that shows me going about my daily routine. They would show me driving in my Jeep a lot, going into Starbucks once or twice a day, the drive-thru at McDonalds. All of those occurrences would generate multiple photos and all of those companies would have an interest in associating with those photos. They could present photos of all the people I interacted with on any given day. And since those people were all placed there by Microsoft/Corbis, there would be interesting details and attributes and characteristics associated with those people that would produce interest based on the combinations. Those are only some basic example's and as that photo of Ilan Ramon demonstrates, there was a tremendous amount of combinations for them to work with.
So for people like Vince Maraia, it is win-win because they get all that attention and free publicity and notoriety. Meanwhile, they've tried killing me in the past, they are probably trying to kill me now, and they will most certainly try to kill me again in the future.
For me, when Microsoft/Corbis's treachery is finally revealed it will serve as a lesson that, despite the sense of satisfaction I got from all those years of fighting for peace, in the final judgment, humans are, fundamentally, as a collection, bad and not worth a person risking their own life to protect. As I watch as people are so eager to steal my privacy and as they demonstrate such great contempt for my life and for the safety of my family, I know that humans are not worth such personal risk. There at the end of it all will be the tribute to my life in the form of having it so thoroughly stolen by the ultra-greedy and the ungrateful. All because of those decades of sacrifice and great personal risk for the sake of peace.
Microsoft Pacific Northwest District: Bellevue, WA
Civica Office Building
205 108th Ave. NE, Suite 400
Bellevue, WA 98004
Phone: (425) 705-1900
Fax: (425) 936-7329
The Microsoft office in Los Angeles, California, the state where Ronald Reagan was Governor from 1966 to 1975, whom I believe is my grandfather but cannot remember, is at the intersection of Grand and 3rd. The street address is 333 and the suite number is 3300.
Microsoft Southern California District: Los Angeles, CA
333 South Grand Ave, Suite 3300
Los Angeles, CA 90071
Phone: (213) 806-7300
At 3.5 miles from the Microsoft Conneticut office to the town of New Britain, Conneticut, it is close enough for me to believe that they selected that location to represent 3.3, or "33." They may have purchased something, or had someone secretly purchase something nearby, to produce a 5.9 mile marker.
Microsoft New England District: Farmington, CT
Pondview Corporate Center
74 Batterson Park Rd.
Farmington, CT 06032
Phone: (860) 678-3100
Fax: (860) 678-7414
For all these obvious clues that demonstrate that Microsoft is stealing my image, I am only finding the easy ones. Microsoft/Corbis's grand larceny is much more complex. They are developing their content by stalking me constantly and when they start selling the property they have stolen from me, all of what I have figured out so far will be just the tip of the iceburg. I am seeing that my family, including my children, are showing up in Microsoft/Corbis's attempts to steal my image for the financial gain of Microsoft/Corbis and accomplices. It may be that all this wasn't supposed to be revealed by them until decades from now so they are taking a lot of time to develop the content because there is going to be such a large market for it in the future. And they have a world audience to market to. They can, for example, play up on anti-American sentiment and that is why they revealed that I flew with Israel to Iraq in 1981. A lot of people that hate America would be very interested in buying and viewing that content. Bill Gates is thinking that there will be so much anti-American sentiment by that time that no one will really care that they had hidden cameras in my homes for all those years. People will still purchase and view whatever content they deliver regardless of just how badly Microsoft/Corbis was stalking me or because of the destruction Microsoft/Corbis caused as a result of selling their stolen product.
It is a win-win for Bill Gates and accomplices. He knows that people will still buy the property he has stolen from me regardless of how it wrecks my life. It is the same reason the paparazzi has such a lucrative appeal for people. If there wasn't a lot of money to be made in stalking celebrities, there wouldn't be so many people taking pictures of them. Bill Gates is the king of the paparazzi and he has billions to spend on crooked lawyers such as Brad Smith, dirty cops such as Dave Reichert, and corrupt politicians such as George W. Bush. There is something to all this that for Bill Gates is beyond money but I don't know what it is. Maybe he doesn't need any motivation and is doing it just because he is a sociopath.
One good example about how Microsoft has been developing content about me, by manipulating my environment, is to consider Vince Maraia, the former coworker I mentioned earlier and who has that book that they associated with my "birth marks." When Microsoft/Corbis starts selling their content that they developed while stalking me, Vince Maraia's name will come up a lot in the Microsoft/Corbis content, which I assume will distibuted primarily on the Internet. Vince's name will come up a lot because I talked to him on a regular basis and that will in turn generate advertisements in the Microsoft/Corbis content for his book. Microsoft/Corbis will have it programmed to do that. And he knows that even if I do fight my way through the dirty cops and corrupt politicians, he would have to do, what?, 6 months in a minimum security jail? Jail time no one will know about when his book is being sold because Microsoft lawyers are protecting him. At worst, he would probably only get home arrest for 6 months. So he gambles that he has to spend 6 months in jail, if that, and for that he gets a lot of promotion for his first book and then others, not to mention a lot of fancy stuff to put on his resume, etc. Pretty sweet deal.
He was only one example, too. Microsoft/Corbis had all kinds of people around me as catalyst for their content. Some, such as Vince Maraia would probably make money off it, others might not. When Microsoft/Corbis placed Vince Maraia in a cubicle next to me, they also placed a guy named Latimer in a cubicle across the aisle from me. I never wanted to say anything about it because I thought it would be cruel, but he bore a striking resemblance to the cartoon character "Peter Griffin" from the "Family Guy." Recently I read on the Smithsonian website about Lewis Latimer, who was an expert on the electric light and worked for Thomas Edison's company, which may be one of the reasons they placed him next to me, for reasons I will describe next.
The reason Microsoft/Corbis was putting all those people around me was to introduce certain topics and subjects into their content to generate interest by marketers and advertisers. One example is to consider the keywords that I found associated with the late Ilan Ramon, who was part of the 1981 strike on Iraq that I believe I was part of. I believe Microsoft/Corbis revealed a few years ago that I was a covert member of that team, the terrorists heard Microsoft reveal that detail, and that triggered the attack on the USS Cole and the 9/11 attacks. I found a photo of Ramon on the website of the pirates Corbis, which as I mentioned, they had Tom Devey working in my group because he resembled Ilan Ramon, and the keywords associated with that photo reveal a lot about their intentions. They had many keywords associated with his photo, and some are Astronaut, Colonel, Disaster and destruction, Eye contact, Fighter plane, Israel, Israeli armed forces, Jewish, Middle East, Military officer, Prominent persons, Space shuttle mission, State of Israel, War and military.
As Microsoft/Corbis has been stalking me all these years, as well probably as my children, they have been collecting all these photos of us and assigning keywords and categories to them based on details, characteristics, attributes, of the photos. Then advertisers review the content for those keywords, attributes, characteristics, and pay money to associate with those images. You, as a spectator, may not even have to pay anything to view those photos, but for every photo you view, you are making it profitable for the advertiser that is associated with those stolen images of me. An example would be of content they produced as they were stalking me that shows me going about my daily routine. They would show me driving in my Jeep a lot, going into Starbucks once or twice a day, the drive-thru at McDonalds. All of those occurrences would generate multiple photos and all of those companies would have an interest in associating with those photos. They could present photos of all the people I interacted with on any given day. And since those people were all placed there by Microsoft/Corbis, there would be interesting details and attributes and characteristics associated with those people that would produce interest based on the combinations. Those are only some basic example's and as that photo of Ilan Ramon demonstrates, there was a tremendous amount of combinations for them to work with.
So for people like Vince Maraia, it is win-win because they get all that attention and free publicity and notoriety. Meanwhile, they've tried killing me in the past, they are probably trying to kill me now, and they will most certainly try to kill me again in the future.
For me, when Microsoft/Corbis's treachery is finally revealed it will serve as a lesson that, despite the sense of satisfaction I got from all those years of fighting for peace, in the final judgment, humans are, fundamentally, as a collection, bad and not worth a person risking their own life to protect. As I watch as people are so eager to steal my privacy and as they demonstrate such great contempt for my life and for the safety of my family, I know that humans are not worth such personal risk. There at the end of it all will be the tribute to my life in the form of having it so thoroughly stolen by the ultra-greedy and the ungrateful. All because of those decades of sacrifice and great personal risk for the sake of peace.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Royalton
The Microsoft Cleveland office is 5.9 miles from the intersection of I-77 and E. Royalton Road/ Highway 82, which connects to the town of North Royalton, Ohio. The zip code for North Royalton is 44133.
Microsoft Heartland District: Cleveland, OH
Park Center III
6050 Oak Tree Blvd. S., Third Floor
Independence, OH 44131
Phone: (216) 986-1440
Fax: (216) 901-1208
Microsoft Heartland District: Cleveland, OH
Park Center III
6050 Oak Tree Blvd. S., Third Floor
Independence, OH 44131
Phone: (216) 986-1440
Fax: (216) 901-1208
They know they're busted
I get the feeling they are screwing with the map data to throw off the distance calculations. I started to get the sense that the Mason, Ohio, office was 5.9 miles from the intersection of Ronald Reagan Cross Highway and Highway 3. When I ran the mileage calculation with the MSN tool, it came out to 7.7 miles, another time it was 8.3 miles. I checked the route and it runs around in circles a couple times. I tried to manually map it out, but the line disappears, which is all completely abnormal behavior these past few minutes. They are busted and they know it. And if one hangs, they all hang.
X marks the spot
The piracy of my image by Microsoft/Corbis, supported by domestic terrorists Dave Reichert and George W. Bush, isn't confined solely to the Redmond campus area. And I am certain there is a lot more out there that I haven't found yet because I can only just now recognize about 10%, if that, of the details about my real identity. These examples illustrate primarily combinations of "59" and "33," my so-called "birth marks." There are some other relevant details present as well.
The Ft. Lauderdale Microsoft office is right next to I-95 Exit 33 and the zip code is 33309.
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Fort Lauderdale, FL
6750 North Andrews Ave., Suite 400
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33309
Phone: (954) 489-4800
Fax: (954) 491-1616
The Microsoft Birmingham office is next to I-459 and Highway 280, where 280 reminds me of 1982.
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Birmingham, AL
One Perimeter Park Center S.Suite 100 N
Birmingham, AL 35243
Phone: (205) 970-6000
The Microsoft Tampa office is next to 589 which runs north-south. That address also lines up east-west with 590 across the bay, as illustrated. The zip code starts with "33."
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Tampa, FL
3000 Bayport Drive, Suite 480
Tampa, FL 33607
Phone: (813) 281-3900
Fax: (813) 289-0034
The Microsoft Tulsa office adress indicates the office is on 63rd Place, but the map indicates that street is also 76th Avenue. Close by Microsoft Tulsa office is Explorer Park, which adjoins 58th and 76th. 59th is close. The "33" is in their address twice, along with numbers "76," "41" and "59." "Explorer" is a topic I wrote about a lot in my journal early on a few months ago.
Microsoft South Central District: Tulsa, OK
7633 E. 63rd Place, Suite 300
Tulsa, OK 74133
Phone: (918) 459-4580
Fax: (918) 459-4589
The Microsoft Austin zip code ends with "59." Also contains a "78" and a "87."
Microsoft South Central District: Microsoft Austin and Microsoft Technology Center–Austin, TX
Stonebridge Plaza, Building One
9606 N. Mopac Expressway, Suite 200
Austin, TX 78759
Phone: (512) 795-5300
Fax: (512) 343-8498
I measured that from the Microsoft Houston office, as illustrated in the link, to the nearby Highway 59 to the south is 5.9 miles.
Microsoft South Central District: Houston, TX
One Briar Lake Plaza
2000 W. Sam Houston Pkwy. S. #350
Houston, TX 77042
Phone: (832) 252-4300
Fax: (832) 252-4545
The Microsoft office in Malvern, Pennsylvania maps out to 60.5 miles from Princeton, NJ. That is close enough for me, considering all the others, to serve as proof that office was selected to be 59.0, 59.3, or 59.33 miles from Princeton University, where I believe I graduated in 1970 and the age of 11.
Microsoft Mid Atlantic District: Malvern, PA
Great Valley Corporate Center
45 Liberty Blvd., Suite 210
Malvern, PA 19355
Phone: (610) 240-7000
Fax: (610) 240-7111
The Microsoft office in Richmond, Virginia, is next to Highway 150. But across the river and not very far away, that same road is labeled as Highway 73. About 1.5 miles to the south of the office is a label for a place named Oxford, reminding me of my theory that I graduated Oxford in 1973, at the age of 14.
Microsoft Mid Atlantic District: Richmond, VA
9020 Stony Point Pkwy., Suite 170
Richmond, VA 23235
Phone: (202) 895-2000
Fax: (202) 364-8853
The intersection of 3rd and Thomas is only about 400 yards away from the Microsoft Phoenix office.
Microsoft Desert Mountain District: Phoenix, AZ
2929 N. Central Ave., Suite 1400
Phoenix, AZ 85012
Phone: (602) 280-8600
Fax: (602) 263-0007
The Microsoft New York Metro District office aligns with Philip Street and Elizabeth Avenue.
Microsoft New York Metro District: Iselin, NJ
194 Wood Avenue South (Prudential Building), Sixth Floor
Iselin, NJ 08830
Phone: (732) 476-5600
Fax: (732) 476-5666
The Ft. Lauderdale Microsoft office is right next to I-95 Exit 33 and the zip code is 33309.
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Fort Lauderdale, FL
6750 North Andrews Ave., Suite 400
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33309
Phone: (954) 489-4800
Fax: (954) 491-1616
The Microsoft Birmingham office is next to I-459 and Highway 280, where 280 reminds me of 1982.
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Birmingham, AL
One Perimeter Park Center S.Suite 100 N
Birmingham, AL 35243
Phone: (205) 970-6000
The Microsoft Tampa office is next to 589 which runs north-south. That address also lines up east-west with 590 across the bay, as illustrated. The zip code starts with "33."
Microsoft Greater Southeast District: Tampa, FL
3000 Bayport Drive, Suite 480
Tampa, FL 33607
Phone: (813) 281-3900
Fax: (813) 289-0034
The Microsoft Tulsa office adress indicates the office is on 63rd Place, but the map indicates that street is also 76th Avenue. Close by Microsoft Tulsa office is Explorer Park, which adjoins 58th and 76th. 59th is close. The "33" is in their address twice, along with numbers "76," "41" and "59." "Explorer" is a topic I wrote about a lot in my journal early on a few months ago.
Microsoft South Central District: Tulsa, OK
7633 E. 63rd Place, Suite 300
Tulsa, OK 74133
Phone: (918) 459-4580
Fax: (918) 459-4589
The Microsoft Austin zip code ends with "59." Also contains a "78" and a "87."
Microsoft South Central District: Microsoft Austin and Microsoft Technology Center–Austin, TX
Stonebridge Plaza, Building One
9606 N. Mopac Expressway, Suite 200
Austin, TX 78759
Phone: (512) 795-5300
Fax: (512) 343-8498
I measured that from the Microsoft Houston office, as illustrated in the link, to the nearby Highway 59 to the south is 5.9 miles.
Microsoft South Central District: Houston, TX
One Briar Lake Plaza
2000 W. Sam Houston Pkwy. S. #350
Houston, TX 77042
Phone: (832) 252-4300
Fax: (832) 252-4545
The Microsoft office in Malvern, Pennsylvania maps out to 60.5 miles from Princeton, NJ. That is close enough for me, considering all the others, to serve as proof that office was selected to be 59.0, 59.3, or 59.33 miles from Princeton University, where I believe I graduated in 1970 and the age of 11.
Microsoft Mid Atlantic District: Malvern, PA
Great Valley Corporate Center
45 Liberty Blvd., Suite 210
Malvern, PA 19355
Phone: (610) 240-7000
Fax: (610) 240-7111
The Microsoft office in Richmond, Virginia, is next to Highway 150. But across the river and not very far away, that same road is labeled as Highway 73. About 1.5 miles to the south of the office is a label for a place named Oxford, reminding me of my theory that I graduated Oxford in 1973, at the age of 14.
Microsoft Mid Atlantic District: Richmond, VA
9020 Stony Point Pkwy., Suite 170
Richmond, VA 23235
Phone: (202) 895-2000
Fax: (202) 364-8853
The intersection of 3rd and Thomas is only about 400 yards away from the Microsoft Phoenix office.
Microsoft Desert Mountain District: Phoenix, AZ
2929 N. Central Ave., Suite 1400
Phoenix, AZ 85012
Phone: (602) 280-8600
Fax: (602) 263-0007
The Microsoft New York Metro District office aligns with Philip Street and Elizabeth Avenue.
Microsoft New York Metro District: Iselin, NJ
194 Wood Avenue South (Prudential Building), Sixth Floor
Iselin, NJ 08830
Phone: (732) 476-5600
Fax: (732) 476-5666
Messaging
Shortly after I started working at Microsoft in 1998, they assigned a woman named Laura Mason to mentor me on my new role. She claimed to be a Commander in the U.S. Navy Reserves and an EA-6 Prowler flight officer. The EA-6 Prowler is based on the A-6 Intruder, which is the aircraft I have been writing that I was in when we were shot down somewhere in Africa in 1986. There was Wally Simpson with his music degree and who I talked to frequently. As I have written before, the USS Cole DDG-67, struck by terrorists on 10/12/2000, was named for a Marine who started off as a Musician in the U.S. Marine Corps. My theory for several months has been that I was the Commanding Officer of the USS Cole when it was commissioned, with the rank of Commander, and my alias, used probably because of my long-term career in the U.S. intelligence community, was Stewart O'Bryan. There was my first manager at Microsoft named Jayne Donovan who kind of looked like "Captain Janeway" from "Star Trek: Voyager." She once referred to me as her "hit man." Another time she asked me if I wanted to go on a "jihad." In my first meeting with her, I was complaining vigorously about the lack of concern for accurate billing of labor in that group and she asked if I wanted to go on a "jihad" to change it. I didn't say anything in response to that question, but in hindsight, I guess that is actually what I did do. My peer mentor once characterized a conversation I had with her around that time about the group's frustrating lack of concern over accurate labor billing as "grappling" with me. I would remember that term she used when I was watching a "Star Trek: Enterprise" episode where they first referred to the towing contraption as the "grappler." Over the past few months, I decided that based on Jayne Donovan's comments, she knew that I had fought in Afghanistan against the Soviets in the 1980's. I have found references that Reagan was concerned about human rights abuses against the Afghan's and so I assume he sent me in there to fight with the mujaheddin. One good example I reviewed was that Reagan dedicated the third flight of the space shuttle, Columbia, to the Afghan people, with the flight landing on 3/30/82, which would have been when I was still a Midshipman at the USNA. I think I flew on the first five in a row. I was probably sent into Afghanistan several times in the 80's to fight or train or both the mujaheddin and I had a theory I was exploring a while back that I flew with the Pakistan Air Force against Soviet bombers that were flying into Pakistan. I have this symbolic memory of when the U.S. Navy leased some guided-missile frigates to Pakistan back in the 80's and I think that represents me flying with the Pakistan Air Force. I believe all that experience against the Soviets is why Grace Stahre wrote something to me about the Russian mafia finding me. There was Rhonda Halffman, who worked in the Premier Support for Developers that I would start working in after my first year, where my first year was with Premier Support For Enterprise. There were several of us new employees of Microsoft that went to the Microsoft office near Dallas, in Las Colinas, for indoctrination into Premier Support. She had already been working for the company but she was down there with us attending the class. What stands out in my memory is that she had a scar on her neck, which I didn't see again a few years later. I was puzzling over that when I remembered that in the movie "Star Trek: Insurrection," which premiered the same week I started at Microsoft, the "Data" character had a scar on his neck similar to hers because he had been shot with a "phaser." I was sitting in a conference room in our downtown Bellevue high-rise building one day with another co-worker and she made a comment about "taking me downtown" with them. I remember when that was because the Nisqually earthquake struck when we were sitting in that conference room. As I started thinking that I had been one of the pilots who flew a F-16 in Iraq to strike that under-construction nuclear reactor, I remembered that conversation and decided that was what she meant by going "downtown."
There was the woman whose name reminds me of Kosovo. Another woman who went to law school. Based on that detail, and that Tom Cruise and Demi Moore, portrayed U.S. Navy lawyers in a movie, suggests to me that I was also a U.S. Navy lawyer, among my other roles. The woman with the nickname A.J. whose real name was Ecea. I never did find out why she was nicknamed A.J. or how to pronounce her real name, but I found myself thinking a few months ago that her nickname "A.J." was a really big clue. I was also puzzling over whether "ecea" was actually an acronym for "Enterprise, Columbia, Endeavour, Atlantis," the names of NASA space shuttles. Why only those shuttles, I haven't figured out, as I have probably flown on them all.
As I feel something like doubt entering my mind that I have visited the moon Phoebe at Saturn, I come back to why, in my symbolic "memory," did I have a girlfriend named Phoebe. Early on a few months ago, the first thoughts I was having about this puzzle was when I "remembered" when I met Phoebe. I "remembered" that she sent me a letter later, writing that I should never forget when we met at that dance, because she never would. My theory is that "dance" is some kind of symbolic reference to all the moons that were circling Saturn and when I walked into the dance floor and and the other young women were standing on one side of the room, I picked her out from the crowd to dance with. There is also symbolism, I am thinking lately, to how a "dance" could refer to my interaction with the comet, that monstrous mountain of ice and rock. I forgot to write about this earlier, but I think my "memories" of creating a moonshine still with my buddy Randy Cole, when I was in about the 7th or 8th grade represents a device I used to create oxygen when I was on Callisto at Jupiter. That theory was reinforced when I remembered that scene from "Star Trek: First contact" where one of the engineers was holding that copper tubing and asked "Geordi" about it. Further reinforcing my theory about Callisto is the town of Bay City, Texas. I started studying the map of the town because it, along with Clemville and Sargent, have the zip code 77414. I have been thinking I returned to Earth on 4/14/77 and my last stop in the outer solar system before returning to Earth was Callisto at Jupiter. What made Bay City very interesting was a detail I noticed about the city streets. According to the map, the streets running north-south are Avenue A, Avenue B, and they follow that naming pattern through Avenue M. The notable exception to that naming pattern, on one map source, is the street that should be named Avenue C. Instead of Avenue C, though, it is named Avenue Calle, which makes me think of Callisto, the moon of Jupiter I believe I visited on 11/26/76. Even further reinforcing that theory is "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home." That movie premiered on 11/26/86 and most notable, according to sources, is that "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home," was the only original series Star Trek movie that premiered on a Wednesday, while all the others premiered on Fridays. My theory, based on "memories" of the day my step-brother died in a car-wreck on 11/25/86, that was the day I was declared killed-in-action after the Navy lost contact with me as I was escaping the Libyans in Africa. As for the Bay City, Texas area, I feel there are other clues there but haven't found them yet. It seems important that Highway 59 is nearby, which runs from Laredo, Texas, into Houston, and then continues north through Arkansas where I "remember" growing up. Quite the road trip.
Yesterday I realized that as I had been establishing the time line of the journey I believe I made in the 1970's, I had not established a date for my visit to Phoebe/Saturn. For all this time, I have just been thinking that it was shortly before I intercepted the comet, which would have been in the days leading up to 7/4/76, when the bombs actually detonated with me probably breaking orbit with the comet the day before and being millions of miles away at that point. If my calculations are correct, my average speed for the first part of the trip was fast enough to travel from the Earth to the Earth's Moon in less than 2 hours. My overall timeline is that I launched on 11/2/75, on Mars 1/21/76 to 1/23/76, Phoebe/Saturn from 6/7/76 to 6/10/76, Comet around 7/2/76 to 7/3/76 where it was blown up on 7/4/76, Callisto/Saturn 11/26/76 to 11/29/76, Earth 4/14/76. I think NASA knew I had decided to continue my pre-programmed flight to Jupiter, but I may have told my family that I was going to do something to end it all quickly so they wouldn't agonize over me running out of oxygen and suffocating. Some of them thought I was going to stay on the comet with the bombs, others just thought I was stranded on Mars and that I was going to open the cabin to the zero pressure of the outside environment. I have been thinking that NASA cut off communication with me after I left the comet though and I didn't talk to anyone until I returned to Earth almost a year later. An earlier theory was that my communications transmitters were damaged which prevented me from communicating with Earth. I don't know which part is correct.
The lesson to all this, about them harassing and trying to intimidate me, etc., is really a message to all of you. It is Bill Gate's "War On Heroism" in that you shouldn't be a hero and report their criminal activities because they are going to make your life a living hell if you do. That is one of the reasons they haven't yet just killed me out right. Bill Gates and accomplices, such as Dave Reichert and George W. Bush, want you to see me suffer as much as possible so you don't get any ideas about resisting their criminal activities.
There was the woman whose name reminds me of Kosovo. Another woman who went to law school. Based on that detail, and that Tom Cruise and Demi Moore, portrayed U.S. Navy lawyers in a movie, suggests to me that I was also a U.S. Navy lawyer, among my other roles. The woman with the nickname A.J. whose real name was Ecea. I never did find out why she was nicknamed A.J. or how to pronounce her real name, but I found myself thinking a few months ago that her nickname "A.J." was a really big clue. I was also puzzling over whether "ecea" was actually an acronym for "Enterprise, Columbia, Endeavour, Atlantis," the names of NASA space shuttles. Why only those shuttles, I haven't figured out, as I have probably flown on them all.
As I feel something like doubt entering my mind that I have visited the moon Phoebe at Saturn, I come back to why, in my symbolic "memory," did I have a girlfriend named Phoebe. Early on a few months ago, the first thoughts I was having about this puzzle was when I "remembered" when I met Phoebe. I "remembered" that she sent me a letter later, writing that I should never forget when we met at that dance, because she never would. My theory is that "dance" is some kind of symbolic reference to all the moons that were circling Saturn and when I walked into the dance floor and and the other young women were standing on one side of the room, I picked her out from the crowd to dance with. There is also symbolism, I am thinking lately, to how a "dance" could refer to my interaction with the comet, that monstrous mountain of ice and rock. I forgot to write about this earlier, but I think my "memories" of creating a moonshine still with my buddy Randy Cole, when I was in about the 7th or 8th grade represents a device I used to create oxygen when I was on Callisto at Jupiter. That theory was reinforced when I remembered that scene from "Star Trek: First contact" where one of the engineers was holding that copper tubing and asked "Geordi" about it. Further reinforcing my theory about Callisto is the town of Bay City, Texas. I started studying the map of the town because it, along with Clemville and Sargent, have the zip code 77414. I have been thinking I returned to Earth on 4/14/77 and my last stop in the outer solar system before returning to Earth was Callisto at Jupiter. What made Bay City very interesting was a detail I noticed about the city streets. According to the map, the streets running north-south are Avenue A, Avenue B, and they follow that naming pattern through Avenue M. The notable exception to that naming pattern, on one map source, is the street that should be named Avenue C. Instead of Avenue C, though, it is named Avenue Calle, which makes me think of Callisto, the moon of Jupiter I believe I visited on 11/26/76. Even further reinforcing that theory is "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home." That movie premiered on 11/26/86 and most notable, according to sources, is that "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home," was the only original series Star Trek movie that premiered on a Wednesday, while all the others premiered on Fridays. My theory, based on "memories" of the day my step-brother died in a car-wreck on 11/25/86, that was the day I was declared killed-in-action after the Navy lost contact with me as I was escaping the Libyans in Africa. As for the Bay City, Texas area, I feel there are other clues there but haven't found them yet. It seems important that Highway 59 is nearby, which runs from Laredo, Texas, into Houston, and then continues north through Arkansas where I "remember" growing up. Quite the road trip.
Yesterday I realized that as I had been establishing the time line of the journey I believe I made in the 1970's, I had not established a date for my visit to Phoebe/Saturn. For all this time, I have just been thinking that it was shortly before I intercepted the comet, which would have been in the days leading up to 7/4/76, when the bombs actually detonated with me probably breaking orbit with the comet the day before and being millions of miles away at that point. If my calculations are correct, my average speed for the first part of the trip was fast enough to travel from the Earth to the Earth's Moon in less than 2 hours. My overall timeline is that I launched on 11/2/75, on Mars 1/21/76 to 1/23/76, Phoebe/Saturn from 6/7/76 to 6/10/76, Comet around 7/2/76 to 7/3/76 where it was blown up on 7/4/76, Callisto/Saturn 11/26/76 to 11/29/76, Earth 4/14/76. I think NASA knew I had decided to continue my pre-programmed flight to Jupiter, but I may have told my family that I was going to do something to end it all quickly so they wouldn't agonize over me running out of oxygen and suffocating. Some of them thought I was going to stay on the comet with the bombs, others just thought I was stranded on Mars and that I was going to open the cabin to the zero pressure of the outside environment. I have been thinking that NASA cut off communication with me after I left the comet though and I didn't talk to anyone until I returned to Earth almost a year later. An earlier theory was that my communications transmitters were damaged which prevented me from communicating with Earth. I don't know which part is correct.
The lesson to all this, about them harassing and trying to intimidate me, etc., is really a message to all of you. It is Bill Gate's "War On Heroism" in that you shouldn't be a hero and report their criminal activities because they are going to make your life a living hell if you do. That is one of the reasons they haven't yet just killed me out right. Bill Gates and accomplices, such as Dave Reichert and George W. Bush, want you to see me suffer as much as possible so you don't get any ideas about resisting their criminal activities.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
My privacy is important to Microsoft. They want as much as they can get.
The detail in my "memory" that was actually the first clue that I may not have actually lived in all the places I "remember" was my "memory" of living on a street named Wexford in a town named Taylors. The Taylors I recognized because the first ship that I "remember" being assigned to in the Navy was the USS Taylor FFG-50. Not long after 5/9/06 though, I started thinking that there may be a lot more to those "memories" than I consciously understood. So I started looking for the context of the name "Wexford" and I just before I read about it, I knew it was going to be something startling and I was startled to understand what it meant. County Wexford, Ireland is the birthplace of John Barry, who was selected to receive Commission Number One in the United States Navy in 1797 and is also considered the Father of the U.S. Navy. It was that detail that got me thinking that my own service in the U.S. Navy was much different that I remembered. In my "memory," that duplex on Wexford was the second place I lived after I left the Navy in 1990. I find it interesting to note that the USS John Barry DDG-52 is the second Aegis-class guided-missile destroyer in the U.S. fleet. I also found some symbolism to the first place I lived at before I moved to Wexford. I can't actually remember the name of that place as I can "remember" Wexford, but I found it on the map and I looked up that the name is Preserve at Wood's Lake, which is next to airport. The "preserve" word in that name made me wonder if this all is something about preserving my memories or something else. That clue about Wexford in Taylor's is a good analogy to how certain member's of my family have taken a rather clever approach to bringing me back around to recognizing them. It is a slow process and they are being careful because there is just such a tremendous amount of information to remember. Their approach, and this is what is so clever, is that they speak to me about details I recognize from the identity I currently identify with but of which I have no memory of their involvement. By speaking in details that connect their lives with my current identity, I find myself pondering who they really are to me. And then, there is something in my mind that understands it, that knows who they are, I just don't consciously know who they are to me. This is one of the earliest examples I can think of and I think it represents that when I was sleeping, I was able to process their messages I had received during the day. When I wrote about that dream in my journal back in March, though, I had really no conscious idea what it all meant as I do know. I had no idea that I had one daughter, much less several, and that I had been on the space shuttle as I believe that was the reference in my dream. And it wasn't my daughter in the dream, it was her mother. As for the "foreign dreams," that I was referring to and which I had written about a lot in my journal, I believe that is confusion associated with amnesia. I couldn't understand why I was dreaming of experiences that were so foreign to my life and later I started thinking that I was having dreams about, for example, certain stressful times when I was a fighter pilot in combat. As for that woman in the last paragraph, it was probably a memory that was trying to resurface, but it was so foreign to me, because there were so many details about all that I had forgotten, I could barely make any sense of that dream. I think one part of the dream is about me flying on the first space shuttle mission. I think the part about the trailer is because she was an actress and that was her trailer on a movie set and I had stayed with her there once when I was on leave. Another possibility is those trailers you see the shuttle astronauts walking by as they are enroute to board the shuttle. It may be that my girlfriend had one just like it on her movie set.
Sleep journal 3/19/06
Yesterday was some kind of foreign dream that was more of an emotion than a visualization. I couldn't remember any of the details although I felt like I had been seeing details. All I remembered was feeling like it was something intense, there was some intensity to the communication, almost overwhelming like a very strong and clear signal on a radio. After I woke up, I could only characterize the message as positive. Today the first foreign dream wasn't too clear either. It had something to do with me, some other characters, and something about the stars. We were under the stars, or we were talking to the stars. I can visualize the sky with the stars but they may have also been a metaphor for people. Then I left somewhere and there was something about a goose, not sure what that meant, maybe something to do with staying meant something about a cooked goose.
The second foreign dream had a lot of detail. I was sitting on a bus with someone that I knew but I don't know who it was. It may have been [name of famous daughter redacted]but that makes no sense. I was sitting next to her and she was someone that I had lived with before, someone I had a relationship with, like a girlfriend. I was getting off the bus to a place I was staying that I don't recognize from anyplace I've been in real life. She asked me if I was really staying there, she may have commented that it was amazing I was staying there, or someone else said that. Apparently, it was the same place she and I had lived during our relationship. It was some kind of little travel trailer. A young woman was letting me stay there. I was taking up a little open seat or bench in a hallway of the trailer. I had a little storage bin to put my stuff in.
Before STS-41-D, which I think has some symbolic connection with me and "441" and 4/14, was STS-41-B. The significance of that mission is that it was the first untethered space walk from that shuttle and I think I was the first person to do that. I believe the shuttle returned to Earth on that mission on 2/11/84 to symbolize that I launched from Earth on 11/2/75 for my 17 month mission to the outer solar system.
After the hostages were released in 1981 by the Iranians, they were flown to Algiers, Athens, Germany, and then the U.S. I think I was flying that plane at some point, maybe from Algiers, or from Wiesbaden, to the U.S. because they landed at Stewart air base, which was an airstrip that had been constructed to teach army cadets to fly. I believe that field was selected because I was flying that plane and because I was a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy at the time.
It is also no coincidence to me that someone in Congress pushed through this legislation, S 3359 IS, about revoking the tax on ether, which used to be used as an anesthesia. I was in the VA hospital at the time because of those jackals and I was poisoned around the time, along with other attempts on my life. The reason I was poisoned that time, along with trying to kill me, is because Microsoft needed a rejoinder to put into the content they have created by stalking me all these years. As they started to sell the content they created by stalking me all these years, people would raise a lot of questions about why they didn't incorporate my complaints about their criminal activities into their content. They poisoned me, causing me a serious digestion problem, so that they could record with hidden cameras, a doctor in the VA telling with a laugh that I was "full of shit." That was going to be the video that ends the segment about their criminal activities.
The greatest lesson from all this, I guess, is about how I have wasted decades of my life fighting to keep the peace for you people. I have wasted decades away from my children thinking that it was important that you people could live in peace. I can't even benefit from that peace myself. After all those years of trying to keep the peace, all I have to show for it is a lot of scars and a lot of psycho zombies stalking me 24 hours a day every day of the week. You people deserve the ultra-greedy and cowards such as Bill Gates and George W. Bush because they represent you. You follow them because you recognize that those are you primary characteristics. You are nothing but greedy, self-centered, cowards.
The primary issue here, the reason Microsoft/Corbis is trying to kill me and get me killed, with the help of Dave Reichert, George W. Bush and accomplices, is because of the money that can be made from my image after people find out about my life. My image is probably worth over a trillion dollars worldwide, if not priceless, because of all the details I have described. Every salesperson in the world will want to use my image in some manner to get your attention. If Microsoft/Corbis can get me killed, they will have a much easier time selling all the details about me they have been stealing over the decades. An example is when that crane fell over in Bellevue a few weeks ago. The first thing I noticed was that it fell over pointing directly at the Microsoft Civica building that is next to that construction site. Then I realized that the construction project was for a building named Tower 333. After I looked closer at details I found on the web, I decided they are part of the criminals that are trying to steal my image for their financial gain. The building was announced on 8/2/2000, which they did because I graduated the USNA in 1982. The company that made the announcement about the new construction is owned by a guy that was chairman of the Federal Reserve in Dallas, Texas, from 1981 to 1983, when Reagan was President. One of the member's of Microsoft Board Of Director's was long ago selected by President Reagan as Labor Secretary. Some other details about that Bellevue Tower 333 that caught my attention are that the contact was a VP named Lancaster and his telephone numbers was 966-7666 and fax 966-7886, where I believe those numbers were selected specifically because they are relevant to me, with the first one pointing to the years 1966 and 1976.
Another example is something I recently noticed about someone I worked with at Microsoft that I thought was a friend. I believe Microsoft put him in the cubicle next to me specifically so they could record our interactions with hidden cameras as Microsoft/Corbis developed all their content about my life that they could later sell for their financial gain. I believe he did this specifically to connect with my image in order to increase sales of his book and that is reinforced by the numbers in the ISBN numbers that are relevant to me. That sequence of "332059" makes me think it is some kind of reference to my 100th birthday in the year 2059. That "321" sequence could be a mirrored reference to 1/23/76, the day I left Mars. The book was released, according to amazon.com, on September 30, 2005, or 9/30/05. That is a variation of " 3 5 9" or "5 9 3."
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10:08 PM
The meaning of the Knight
Hi, I've been asked this a few times about why we chose to have a Knight on the cover of The Build Master. Here is my explanation that for some unknown reason was left out of the book:
By definition a Knight is a nobleman or noblewoman, a seeker of virtue, defender of the crown (metaphor would be corporate or group culture), a protector of faith or philosophy. Knights carry themselves with chivalrous conduct and can be a very formidable warrior if needed. The suit of armor is a good defense for the unjust attacks they may receive (from non-build team members).
Knights are also known to have been seated at the round table (WAR meetings) with the King to discuss peace and the well-being of the common folks (the employees doing the work). I see Build Masters or SCM personnel as the modern-day-high-tech Knight.
Speak softly but always carry a big sword!
Build Master, The: Microsoft's Software Configuration Management Best Practices
Published by: ADDISON-WESLEY
Author: Maraia, V
Number of pages: 248
Group: SOFTWARE ENGINEERING
ISBN: 0321332059/9780321332059
Two other co-workers on my team, whose desks at the time were on the other side of me from the Linda Hamilton-hair-lookalike, released a book on April 4, 2001. That is "4 4 1."
MCSE Microsoft SQL Server 2000 Database Design and Implementation: Readiness Review Exam 70-229
by Sharon Bjeletich, Eddy Hahn
Paperback: 256 pages
Publisher: Microsoft Press;
Bk&CD-Rom edition (April 4, 2001)
Language: English
ISBN: 073561251X
Sleep journal 3/19/06
Yesterday was some kind of foreign dream that was more of an emotion than a visualization. I couldn't remember any of the details although I felt like I had been seeing details. All I remembered was feeling like it was something intense, there was some intensity to the communication, almost overwhelming like a very strong and clear signal on a radio. After I woke up, I could only characterize the message as positive. Today the first foreign dream wasn't too clear either. It had something to do with me, some other characters, and something about the stars. We were under the stars, or we were talking to the stars. I can visualize the sky with the stars but they may have also been a metaphor for people. Then I left somewhere and there was something about a goose, not sure what that meant, maybe something to do with staying meant something about a cooked goose.
The second foreign dream had a lot of detail. I was sitting on a bus with someone that I knew but I don't know who it was. It may have been [name of famous daughter redacted]
Before STS-41-D, which I think has some symbolic connection with me and "441" and 4/14, was STS-41-B. The significance of that mission is that it was the first untethered space walk from that shuttle and I think I was the first person to do that. I believe the shuttle returned to Earth on that mission on 2/11/84 to symbolize that I launched from Earth on 11/2/75 for my 17 month mission to the outer solar system.
After the hostages were released in 1981 by the Iranians, they were flown to Algiers, Athens, Germany, and then the U.S. I think I was flying that plane at some point, maybe from Algiers, or from Wiesbaden, to the U.S. because they landed at Stewart air base, which was an airstrip that had been constructed to teach army cadets to fly. I believe that field was selected because I was flying that plane and because I was a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy at the time.
It is also no coincidence to me that someone in Congress pushed through this legislation, S 3359 IS, about revoking the tax on ether, which used to be used as an anesthesia. I was in the VA hospital at the time because of those jackals and I was poisoned around the time, along with other attempts on my life. The reason I was poisoned that time, along with trying to kill me, is because Microsoft needed a rejoinder to put into the content they have created by stalking me all these years. As they started to sell the content they created by stalking me all these years, people would raise a lot of questions about why they didn't incorporate my complaints about their criminal activities into their content. They poisoned me, causing me a serious digestion problem, so that they could record with hidden cameras, a doctor in the VA telling with a laugh that I was "full of shit." That was going to be the video that ends the segment about their criminal activities.
The greatest lesson from all this, I guess, is about how I have wasted decades of my life fighting to keep the peace for you people. I have wasted decades away from my children thinking that it was important that you people could live in peace. I can't even benefit from that peace myself. After all those years of trying to keep the peace, all I have to show for it is a lot of scars and a lot of psycho zombies stalking me 24 hours a day every day of the week. You people deserve the ultra-greedy and cowards such as Bill Gates and George W. Bush because they represent you. You follow them because you recognize that those are you primary characteristics. You are nothing but greedy, self-centered, cowards.
The primary issue here, the reason Microsoft/Corbis is trying to kill me and get me killed, with the help of Dave Reichert, George W. Bush and accomplices, is because of the money that can be made from my image after people find out about my life. My image is probably worth over a trillion dollars worldwide, if not priceless, because of all the details I have described. Every salesperson in the world will want to use my image in some manner to get your attention. If Microsoft/Corbis can get me killed, they will have a much easier time selling all the details about me they have been stealing over the decades. An example is when that crane fell over in Bellevue a few weeks ago. The first thing I noticed was that it fell over pointing directly at the Microsoft Civica building that is next to that construction site. Then I realized that the construction project was for a building named Tower 333. After I looked closer at details I found on the web, I decided they are part of the criminals that are trying to steal my image for their financial gain. The building was announced on 8/2/2000, which they did because I graduated the USNA in 1982. The company that made the announcement about the new construction is owned by a guy that was chairman of the Federal Reserve in Dallas, Texas, from 1981 to 1983, when Reagan was President. One of the member's of Microsoft Board Of Director's was long ago selected by President Reagan as Labor Secretary. Some other details about that Bellevue Tower 333 that caught my attention are that the contact was a VP named Lancaster and his telephone numbers was 966-7666 and fax 966-7886, where I believe those numbers were selected specifically because they are relevant to me, with the first one pointing to the years 1966 and 1976.
Another example is something I recently noticed about someone I worked with at Microsoft that I thought was a friend. I believe Microsoft put him in the cubicle next to me specifically so they could record our interactions with hidden cameras as Microsoft/Corbis developed all their content about my life that they could later sell for their financial gain. I believe he did this specifically to connect with my image in order to increase sales of his book and that is reinforced by the numbers in the ISBN numbers that are relevant to me. That sequence of "332059" makes me think it is some kind of reference to my 100th birthday in the year 2059. That "321" sequence could be a mirrored reference to 1/23/76, the day I left Mars. The book was released, according to amazon.com, on September 30, 2005, or 9/30/05. That is a variation of " 3 5 9" or "5 9 3."
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10:08 PM
The meaning of the Knight
Hi, I've been asked this a few times about why we chose to have a Knight on the cover of The Build Master. Here is my explanation that for some unknown reason was left out of the book:
By definition a Knight is a nobleman or noblewoman, a seeker of virtue, defender of the crown (metaphor would be corporate or group culture), a protector of faith or philosophy. Knights carry themselves with chivalrous conduct and can be a very formidable warrior if needed. The suit of armor is a good defense for the unjust attacks they may receive (from non-build team members).
Knights are also known to have been seated at the round table (WAR meetings) with the King to discuss peace and the well-being of the common folks (the employees doing the work). I see Build Masters or SCM personnel as the modern-day-high-tech Knight.
Speak softly but always carry a big sword!
Build Master, The: Microsoft's Software Configuration Management Best Practices
Published by: ADDISON-WESLEY
Author: Maraia, V
Number of pages: 248
Group: SOFTWARE ENGINEERING
ISBN: 0321332059/9780321332059
Two other co-workers on my team, whose desks at the time were on the other side of me from the Linda Hamilton-hair-lookalike, released a book on April 4, 2001. That is "4 4 1."
MCSE Microsoft SQL Server 2000 Database Design and Implementation: Readiness Review Exam 70-229
by Sharon Bjeletich, Eddy Hahn
Paperback: 256 pages
Publisher: Microsoft Press;
Bk&CD-Rom edition (April 4, 2001)
Language: English
ISBN: 073561251X
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Midway
Sometime in 1992, according to my symbolic memory, I moved back to South Carolina, from Memphis, to work for a company with the initials U.F.P. A few months ago I was studying an earnings history document I got from the Social Security Administration and it dawned on me that U.F.P., which my work history document indicated was located on a street named Enterprise Drive, was listed on there because of the "United Federation of Planets," which was the governing body in Star Trek. Then I looked at the company I worked for before that. Their initials were ISA-ISS and they were based in Alexandria, VA, and I "remember" that the company was formed by a former USN officer. I decided that was a reference to "International Space Station," and the ISA was a reference to an, as far as I know fictional, "International Space Agency." I worked for U.F.P. through 1995 and in 1996, according to the work history from the Social Security Administration, I worked for a company named Eagle that was located in a town named Columbia. The next year, 1997, I worked for a company that had the initials MPCSI, and I think that is a reference to my work, I assume, with the U.S. intelligence community and military law enforcement. The "MP" would be recognized as Military Police and the "CSI" is popularized on television as "Crime Scene Investigation." So in 1992, according to my "memory," I moved back to South Carolina, to provide electronic support for banking equipment, especially Automated Teller Machines (ATM), where UFP had a maintenance contract with a bank named First Federal.
I have been puzzling over those details for a long time, but the first one that piqued my interest, as my perception began to suggest I had never actually lived in any of those places, or at least not as I "remember" it all, was that I moved to a town in western South Carolina named Central.
For while I have been puzzling about Seneca, SC, which is near where I lived in Central, SC. My primary territory, although sometimes the whole state, was the upper portion of SC west of Greenville. The bank branch in Seneca was the branch that was farthest west in my territory. I spent most of my time covering Clemson and Seneca. Recently I remembered something interesting about Clemson University: Their school mascot is the Tiger, just as is Princeton University. I found it interesting to remember a few weeks ago that last year, during Christmas, the choir from Princeton University was singing Christmas caroles at the homeless shelter I was in and I thought they were sure a long ways from home. So anyway, that is probably why my symbolic memory has me living in nearby Central, along with my career in the intelligence community, all of which Microsoft/Corbis has been secretly exploiting for their financial gain. The primary objective of Microsoft/Corbis has been to let the terrorists know where I was so they would kill me. Microsoft/Corbis would have an easier time selling all the content they have developed over the years and decades they have been stalking me.
Another very interesting detail I have been pondering about with regards to Seneca is a young woman I used to work with at that bank, First Federal. The first time I met her was at that branch in Seneca. I was supposed to meet her out there one night because the machine had gone off-line and there always had to be an actual employee of the bank there to unlock the door and the machine to let me in. She and I eventually started dating for a while and as I look back through my "memory," I see the numerical sequence 76 showing up so I tried to figure out what was her connection to my mission to the outer solar system in 1976 to destroy the comet. The most notable clue was that her car was the Geo Storm model and she had two of those when I knew her. The first one was silver, which she totaled in a wreck, and then she got a teal colored model. I thought I found some kind of meaning to those colors but I forget now what that was. But the Geo Storm must have some kind of reference to the comet because "geo" roughly translates to "world" and I am thinking that clue of Geo Storm means that the comet would have caused a firestorm if it had hit the Earth. These relationships with women are especially interesting because I think that kissing one of them is some kind of symbolism about a military operation I was part of. It is strange to really think about but also quite fascinating. I developed that theory when I was scanning a newspaper article from the 1980's and I found a reference to the Bekaa Valley in Lebanon, which was the site of a lot of air battles and I suddenly remembered a girlfriend I was kissing named Becky. In my "memory," Becky and I were in my blue 1967 Chevrolet and out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that the engine, which was idling as we sat there kissing, was producing two streams of white smoke rising up behind the pickup. I have been thinking for a while that those pickups represent fighter aircraft, where the first one I had was a red Ford 1967, and represented the F-16 because that Ford pickup was a single exhaust engine, just like the F-16 Falcon. The blue 1967 Chevrolet represented the F-14 Tomcat, I believe, because that Chevrolet was a dual exhaust engine, just like the F-14. My initial thoughts that those two smoke columns behind that pickup, which I can still visualize, even though I am also starting to visualize them from the perspective of an F-14 pilot, even though I have no memory of ever flying an F-14, were two very large anti-aircraft missiles rising up behind me as I was lining up on a target of my own. So anyway, back to that woman at First Federal, a very interesting detail I "remembered" was when she was telling me that the people at her other job referred to her by the initials B.L.T. The reason was that her first name was actually two names combined and those people assumed she used both names as initials. She told me however that she actually used B.M.T. as her initials because her middle name was Michelle. I pondered over that for a while, and other than other clues that are important to me, I eventually settled on the importance of combining those two details to form the initials B.L.M.T. I can't remember what my first theory was about that in connection with the comet, it seems there was a connection there but I would have to look back through my journal to see what it was. But there was a really big clue, or at least, it seemed to be very important to me even though I couldn't understand why. I eventually decided that it was a reference to Butte, Montana. The "B" is for Butte, and the MT is the postal abbreviation for Montana. That became very obvious to me when I discovered that one of the zip codes for Butte, Montana, ends with a 50 and the letter "L" in Roman numerals represents the value of 50. That opened up a few other clues that I wrote about in my journal. I think this clue about Butte was after I had been thinking about how the zip code for Whitehall, MT, ended with 59. It also seems important that south of Whitehall is the town of Silver Star and more than a few of you out there should recognize that. On the road north of Silver Star, leading to Whitehall, after about 4 miles, Highway 41 splits off. Another detail that really startled me was when I was studying the map around Butte and I saw the town of Anaconda. That reminded me of the name of a woman I had gone out with once in SC and that I couldn't remember her name. I could remember her last name but I couldn't remember, until I saw the map, that her first name was "Anonda." That really startled me to remember that. That led me to study the map of Lancaster, SC, and I decided that the Highway 521 and Highway 9 that run through there are relevant to me. When I count all the days from, and including, 11/2/75 to 4/14/77, the result is 530 days. My theory has been that I was in space for 521 days, and then I spent a total of 9 days on the surface of Mars, Phoebe/Saturn, and Callisto/Jupiter. The reason Lancaster, SC, is that "Anonda's" aunt set us up on a blind date and her aunt was my primary contact at a bank in Lancaster that I provided computer support for.
As for that other young woman I was dating, Bobbilynn, I was trying to remember what we did on our first date and I think it was to go see the movie named "Kindergarten Cop," which had just premiered. I "remember" that we drove down to Anderson, SC, in my red 1990 Mazda RX-7 sports car, and my theories were reinforced when I saw that the road leading down to Anderson was Highway 76. I don't think I got to this earlier, but one really important detail I noticed was that the road running in front of that Seneca bank branch was Highway 123 and Highway 76. I considered that a good clue that it was representative that I launched from Mars on 1/23/76, but I puzzled over that for a while. If Seneca represented the extent of my territory, why would it represent Mars? Based on these theories I have been writing about, I went much farther than Mars. The distance from Earth to Mars can vary by a great deal because we orbit the Sun at different rates, but I think the distance that is considered average is 100 million miles. If my theories are correct, I traveled out into the solar system for over a billion miles. Just a short while ago I discovered that when mapping out the trip from Seneca to Knoxville, just about the mid-point of the trip, using the "Shortest Distance" option, the route leading from Seneca to Knoxville turns into Highway 441, which leads into Knoxville and turns into Highway 441 and Highway 33 as it goes by the Sunsphere. As I wrote the other day, Reagan gave a speech at the Sunsphere on 5/1/82, and I think I was there in the balcony, with others in uniform that he pointed to, according to the speech transcript, before I left for a flight to the Falklands, probably later that day.
The town of Anderson also reinforced some theories I had been writing about in my journal related to the movie, "The Matrix." Specifically, that the character Keanu Reeves portrays is named "Thomas A. Anderson," reminding me of my theoritical name of Thomas Allyn Ray. As for "Anderson," I was reading in the wiki article that the name "Anderson" could be interpreted to mean "new son of man." And then I remembered that Thedia, the woman I "remember" as my mother, has a maiden name of Newman. So I am the "son of Newman" where that article talks about the "new son of man." I think that black cassock he wore in one of those movies is similar to something I wore in connection with my martial arts activities. It was the second episode I remember now and I had not seen that episode until a few weeks ago. As soon as I saw that movie and that cassock, I undertood that it was exactly the kind of outfit I was wearing in a dream I had earlier but I couldn't figure out what it was. Then, as I was looking it up to even know that it was called a cassock, I find myself wondering if that was why I was trying to find a place I went with my family on a river named Cossatot with some of our relatives that were named Reeves. It is fascinating the way all those details are stored in my mind. It wasn't 'cossatot' I was looking for, it was 'cassock.' I've done that with a lot of places on the map, such as Allyn, WA. I spent many, many hours studying the map of Allyn, WA, and making illustrations in computer files of maps.
For that excruiating year I spent in that homeless shelter in Pioneer Square in downtown Seattle, I used to go to two places to get away from that craziness for a while even though all the psycho zombies from outside that homeless shelter still follow me everywhere I go, as they have been for years and still do to this very minute. For example, some nearby restaraunt offered to provide Thanksgiving dinner for us last year and we all walked over there to eat. The guy, who was apparently the owner made some kind of explanation why he was providing dinner for us at that time even though it was the first time or the first time in a while. At some point, I felt his hand on my shoulder and he seemed to be leaning down and I was convinced that someone had just taken our picture and he was posing for it. People have been doing that around me for years and I was baffled by it. There was a Seattle P-I photographer in there but he wasn't in front of me at the time, although he usually had his camera pointing right at me. Now I understand why. Anyway, the one place I went to a lot was a place near 3rd and Thomas, which I didn't realize that was the street address until a few weeks ago. Another place I used to go to a lot, walking from that homeless shelter, was a Starbucks on Seneca Street within sight of the downtown Library. If that Starbucks had been on the other corner of that same block, it would have been on 3rd and Seneca and I probably would have been going in there all that time. As it was, Seneca and 4th was the closest I could get to Seneca and 3rd. Also near that park I used to sit in that is close to 3rd Avenue West and Thomas Street, is the area where the Seattle Space Needle is located. One of the building close to the Space Needle, to the northwest of the Space Needle, is the Seattle Children's Museum. I do not think it is a coincidence that the southwest corner of the Children's Museum, as illustrated on this map, is at the intersection of 3rd Avenue North and Thomas Street. Directly to the east of the Children's Museum is Paul Allen's Experience Music Project. Paul Allen's Science Fiction Museum and Hall of Fame is located within the Experience Music Project building. I have studied this photo of a Pegasus booster and I felt confident that I am in that photo, even more so now that I see the date on the photo is 9/5/1989. I think I am the person with crossed arms wearing the blue flight suit on the left side of the rocket near the wing and between the rocket and the chains that keep the spectators separated from the rocket. I keep thinking the person next to me, in the shadow of the wing, is Paul Allen, who is a major investor in the rocketry industry. He looks a lot like I guy I used to work for at a startup company in South Carolina, and since my "memory" is symbolic, maybe that is what it means. About two blocks away from the Experience Music Project is where the new campus for Bill Gates' Corbis is being constructed, at 5th and Republican. One consistent theory I have had for a few months is that I recieved the Medal of Honor for my U.S. military service, although I don't actually remember any of that. That theory was reinforced the other day when I was reading about the posthumous award of the Medal of Honor, on April 5, 2005, to Paul R. Smith, who was killed in action as a result of his bravery two years earlier. The "R" in his middle name stands for Ray. I believe my full name is really Thomas Henry Allyn Ray. The theory about my Medal Of Honor, though, is that over the years of my military service, I have been awarded the Medal Of Honor 5 times. I think there has been two times when I "hit for the cycle" so to speak. That means during two separate military engagements, I was awarded the Bronze Star, the Silver Star, the Navy Cross, and the Medal Of Honor for each engagement. One time recently, I was walking through Pioneer Square in Seattle and someone spoke the phrase "15 times" and I wondered if that meant I had been wounded in combat fifteen times or I had been into space fifteen times. That was back when my perpections about being in the space program were limited to thoughts that I had only been up on the space shuttle on at least one occasion. Then I wondered if it meant both. That I had been awarded fifteen Purple Hearts over the years and that I had been into space on the shuttle fifteen times. That was around the time I was thinking that the scars on my arms and legs aren't what I remembered and are actually old bullet wounds. I "remember" a time on the Wainwright when one of my co-workers, from Phoenix and named Reese, told me about a time a power drill went through his hand and I suddenly began thinking that is why I have a scar on my hand, right near the knuckle of my middle finger. The scar above my right eye, which I have started noticing on certain actors in certain movies, such as the "Major West" character from the 1998 movie, "Lost In Space," noticable when "West" and "Professor Robinson" had a heated argument in the engine room and the scar on "West's" eye looked similar to mine. I have started thinking that scar was from a cut with a knife when I was POW. A few months ago I was pondering over a "memory" about me getting into a fight with a guy whose name was pronounced "Rill" and I lost the fight, which was obvious from my face. Recently I started thinking that was a memory of someone beating me up, probably while a POW, because I was figthing with "Rill." But it wasn''t "Rill" that I remember fighting with, it was "Is Rill" or Israel. And I wasn't fighting against Israel, I was fighting with Israel and that is why my captors were beating me up, probably to get me to admit that I had been the leader of that strike in 1981, which I did not admit.
Also on my earnings report from the Social Security Administration is my after-school job from the 80's. Lately, I decided that the name "Mills" refers to the military. I pondered over whether there was any symbolism to connect my "memories" of working at Mills Store for 4 years and my theory that I attended the U.S. Naval Academy for 4 years. My theory was these details represent my attendance at the Academy when I focused on a seemingly important detail from my 3rd year working at Mills Store. It was during that 3rd year that my employer, Donald Mills, was elected mayor of the town. That summer, he was granted some funds from the federal government for road maintenance in the town and he put me in charge of a group of people to fix the potholes in the street. We worked all day fixing the pavement and then I put in a few more hours at his store after I let the crew off for the day. According to my "memories," that all occurred when I was in school and after my fourth year working for Mills Store, where the M.S. probably represents 'Midshipman,' I "remember" going on active duty in the U.S. Navy. It was around that same time, at the end of my third year at Ashdown, just before the beginning of my last year at that school, that I recieved the American Legion award, which was a medal. I believe that time period represents how the Osirak strike was in the summer of 1981 and I graduated from USNA that next summer, meaning that I went to Iraq around the end of the equivalent of my junior year at the USNA.
A few months ago, I read that the Israeli's who flew the F-16's into Iraq to strike the Osirak facility in 1981 had trained in their new F-16's at Hill Air Force Base in Utah. That gave me a lot of details to ponder. One is that it cleared up something I had been pondering for a while. In the tenth grade, I had a teacher named Mrs. Hill. She was the instructor of a special program titled TARGETS. That was an acronym for something similar to "Towards A Real Goal of Excellence for Talented and gifted Students." I decided that "Mrs. Hill" was some kind of symbolic representation for me teaching those pilots to fly the F-16's as we prepared for the Osirak strike. I pondered a few other details about Utah. In 2002, I was a participant of Ironman Utah, which was held in Provo to the south, and I remember that I signed up for the event sometime in 2001. In the summer of 2001, I had just completed a bicycling event called the Seattle-To-Portland ride and I covered 200 miles on my bicycle in about 15 hours. After completing that course, I think it was the same month, I saw an advertisement for the Ironman Utah competition and decided to sign up for it. That date it was eventually held on was Saturday, June 8, 2002, and was the first event to be held in that state. I think at the time, that was actually the only Ironman triathlon that occurred in the Western U.S.
Lately I have spent a lot of time wondering why they had it in Provo and on June 8th. I was just looking at the map and I noticed that Hill AFB is off I-15 Exit 338 and maybe that was the reason it was chosen as the training base. The map indicates that the driving distance from I-15 Exit 338 to Provo, Utah is 71 miles. Making this all incredibly interesting is when I discovered on the map the location of the hotel I stayed at in the week before the Ironman triathlon on 6/8/2002. The Salt Lake City hotel I stayed at was one mile from the intersection of Vine Street and I-15, where the map has a label for Exit 303. That hotel was probably the closest I could get to that intersection and I was incredibly stunned to realize I had made that selection. I was oblivious to it but it is a pattern that is hard to ignore.
On that fateful 6/8/2002 day of the triathlon, all hell broke loose when a storm blew through just in time to coinicide with the start of the 2.4 mile swim, which was supposed to be followed by a 112-mile bicycle and then a 26.2 mile run. The storm blew away all the swim course markers though and produced some serious waves. I didn't have to see much to know that I wasn't going to try to make that swim in those crazy waves and turned around and headed back for the dock. At one point, I submerged to see if I could find the bottom in case I got tired and I ws glad to know it wasn't very deep and was manageable. A few days later, I was reading a news article from the local paper about one of the guys that died during that swim and that article had a photo of me that was taken just after I broke through the surface to take a breath. After that debacle caused by the weather, the town of Provo was abandoned as a location for Ironman triathlons and they selected the town of Coeur d' Alene, Idaho, near Spokane, Washington, as a different location. I was pleased with the move because it was a better location and because it was a much shorter drive from where I lived in the Seattle area. Recently I noticed some very interesting clues about that choice that seem relevant to me and I suspect there are more that I haven't found yet. The first is when I was looking at a house I wanted to buy that was on a large hill overlooking the town of Coeur d' Alene. I was very interested in the house because it was huge, over 14,000 square feet, but it seemed cheap because it wasn't finished, although it looked as though it was. It was probably a money pit though. Anyway, the interesting clue, as anyone spying on me all that time knows, it was at or near Argentina Lane. Some other interesting clues are that the swim course is next to a seaplane base that has the FAA identifier of S76 and runways that are configured at 11/29 and 15/33. The bicycle course is interesting in that, at the extreme eastern end, it goes through an area named Higgins Point. I was writing the other day that the USS Higgins DDG-76 might be relevant somehow to my real life. At the other end of the bicycle course, the western side, the bicycle course goes along Mission Street and then turns onto Signal Street, which is as far west as the course goes. One time at Microsoft, after reading that the Vice President of Human Relations was an Ironman triathlete, I sent him a Microsoft MapPoint file that I had created to illustrate the bicycle course and I wrote that area is a good place to assess the competition, if he was going out there to race. He invited me to stop by his office some time but I never made it over there.
I participated in that first Ironman Coeur d' Alene in 2003, but I dropped out at the mid-point because it was too hot and I was becoming seriously dehydrated. I finished the next year, having quit Microsoft a few months earlier, while wearing a pair of Nike Pegasus running shoes. Interesting detail about those shoes and that date. Based on my theory, that day I finished that Ironman triathlon would have been exactly ten years after that "Stargazer" crash after its Pegasus rocket malfuntioned. I have been wearing that Pegasus model of running shoe for several years and often recorded it in my running journal on my computer because I had a system for tracking how many miles I put on my shoes.
Also consistent with my theories is the Millersylvania State Park south of Olympia, Washington. It is off I-5 Exit 95 and I went down there during 2002 and 2003 to complete an organized marathon course. I completed 4 marathons in one year at Millersylvania State Park and also I completed the Seattle Marathon during that time period for a total of 5 in one year, plus some triathlons. There are several details about that Millersylvania State Park that I now understand. The first detail that captured my attention about that location is that the marathon course leaves, after a short distance in the park, and then goes out onto Highway 121, which reminds me of my theory that I landed on Mars on 1/21/76. After about 5 miles along that same highway, the marathon course changes to Goddard Road, which reminds me of NASA's Goddard Space Flight Center, then the course turns onto Gibson Road, where I think Mel Gibson is one of my brothers. Then the course turns to 169th Avenue, which reminds me of my theory about Apollo 11 in 1969. The next street is named Lietner, which may be something I should remember but cannot.
I'm still not really sure why Butte, Montana. Maybe that is where my home is that I cannot remember. That would make sense though. On more than one occasion I have just taken off and driven to Montana. I didn't do anything. I just drove there, probably spent less than a half-hour, always in Missoula, and then turned around and drove back. As for my home that I can't remember, that would make sense why I have had the same dream over and over for the past decade. The dream is always the same in the theme and the location, but the details change a little bit every time. The theme of the dream is that one day, I suddenly find out that I still own a house that I used to live in near Greer, SC. On a sidenote, I moved to Greer and bought that house in Country Club Estates, after I moved from Central, SC, while I was still working for UFP. Any fan of Tom Clancy, such as me, can tell you that "Admiral Greer" was the one who recruited "Jack Ryan" into the CIA. Anyway, in the dream, I would suddenly find that I still had that home to go back to, which was great to know because I really missed the place. It was a very peaceful location and I really enjoyed living there. It was always the same in the dream. I could go back there anytime I wanted, even that very minute, and go home. Over and over I dreamed that I could go home at that very minute to that place I had forgotten about but that had not forgotten me.
I have been puzzling over those details for a long time, but the first one that piqued my interest, as my perception began to suggest I had never actually lived in any of those places, or at least not as I "remember" it all, was that I moved to a town in western South Carolina named Central.
For while I have been puzzling about Seneca, SC, which is near where I lived in Central, SC. My primary territory, although sometimes the whole state, was the upper portion of SC west of Greenville. The bank branch in Seneca was the branch that was farthest west in my territory. I spent most of my time covering Clemson and Seneca. Recently I remembered something interesting about Clemson University: Their school mascot is the Tiger, just as is Princeton University. I found it interesting to remember a few weeks ago that last year, during Christmas, the choir from Princeton University was singing Christmas caroles at the homeless shelter I was in and I thought they were sure a long ways from home. So anyway, that is probably why my symbolic memory has me living in nearby Central, along with my career in the intelligence community, all of which Microsoft/Corbis has been secretly exploiting for their financial gain. The primary objective of Microsoft/Corbis has been to let the terrorists know where I was so they would kill me. Microsoft/Corbis would have an easier time selling all the content they have developed over the years and decades they have been stalking me.
Another very interesting detail I have been pondering about with regards to Seneca is a young woman I used to work with at that bank, First Federal. The first time I met her was at that branch in Seneca. I was supposed to meet her out there one night because the machine had gone off-line and there always had to be an actual employee of the bank there to unlock the door and the machine to let me in. She and I eventually started dating for a while and as I look back through my "memory," I see the numerical sequence 76 showing up so I tried to figure out what was her connection to my mission to the outer solar system in 1976 to destroy the comet. The most notable clue was that her car was the Geo Storm model and she had two of those when I knew her. The first one was silver, which she totaled in a wreck, and then she got a teal colored model. I thought I found some kind of meaning to those colors but I forget now what that was. But the Geo Storm must have some kind of reference to the comet because "geo" roughly translates to "world" and I am thinking that clue of Geo Storm means that the comet would have caused a firestorm if it had hit the Earth. These relationships with women are especially interesting because I think that kissing one of them is some kind of symbolism about a military operation I was part of. It is strange to really think about but also quite fascinating. I developed that theory when I was scanning a newspaper article from the 1980's and I found a reference to the Bekaa Valley in Lebanon, which was the site of a lot of air battles and I suddenly remembered a girlfriend I was kissing named Becky. In my "memory," Becky and I were in my blue 1967 Chevrolet and out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that the engine, which was idling as we sat there kissing, was producing two streams of white smoke rising up behind the pickup. I have been thinking for a while that those pickups represent fighter aircraft, where the first one I had was a red Ford 1967, and represented the F-16 because that Ford pickup was a single exhaust engine, just like the F-16 Falcon. The blue 1967 Chevrolet represented the F-14 Tomcat, I believe, because that Chevrolet was a dual exhaust engine, just like the F-14. My initial thoughts that those two smoke columns behind that pickup, which I can still visualize, even though I am also starting to visualize them from the perspective of an F-14 pilot, even though I have no memory of ever flying an F-14, were two very large anti-aircraft missiles rising up behind me as I was lining up on a target of my own. So anyway, back to that woman at First Federal, a very interesting detail I "remembered" was when she was telling me that the people at her other job referred to her by the initials B.L.T. The reason was that her first name was actually two names combined and those people assumed she used both names as initials. She told me however that she actually used B.M.T. as her initials because her middle name was Michelle. I pondered over that for a while, and other than other clues that are important to me, I eventually settled on the importance of combining those two details to form the initials B.L.M.T. I can't remember what my first theory was about that in connection with the comet, it seems there was a connection there but I would have to look back through my journal to see what it was. But there was a really big clue, or at least, it seemed to be very important to me even though I couldn't understand why. I eventually decided that it was a reference to Butte, Montana. The "B" is for Butte, and the MT is the postal abbreviation for Montana. That became very obvious to me when I discovered that one of the zip codes for Butte, Montana, ends with a 50 and the letter "L" in Roman numerals represents the value of 50. That opened up a few other clues that I wrote about in my journal. I think this clue about Butte was after I had been thinking about how the zip code for Whitehall, MT, ended with 59. It also seems important that south of Whitehall is the town of Silver Star and more than a few of you out there should recognize that. On the road north of Silver Star, leading to Whitehall, after about 4 miles, Highway 41 splits off. Another detail that really startled me was when I was studying the map around Butte and I saw the town of Anaconda. That reminded me of the name of a woman I had gone out with once in SC and that I couldn't remember her name. I could remember her last name but I couldn't remember, until I saw the map, that her first name was "Anonda." That really startled me to remember that. That led me to study the map of Lancaster, SC, and I decided that the Highway 521 and Highway 9 that run through there are relevant to me. When I count all the days from, and including, 11/2/75 to 4/14/77, the result is 530 days. My theory has been that I was in space for 521 days, and then I spent a total of 9 days on the surface of Mars, Phoebe/Saturn, and Callisto/Jupiter. The reason Lancaster, SC, is that "Anonda's" aunt set us up on a blind date and her aunt was my primary contact at a bank in Lancaster that I provided computer support for.
As for that other young woman I was dating, Bobbilynn, I was trying to remember what we did on our first date and I think it was to go see the movie named "Kindergarten Cop," which had just premiered. I "remember" that we drove down to Anderson, SC, in my red 1990 Mazda RX-7 sports car, and my theories were reinforced when I saw that the road leading down to Anderson was Highway 76. I don't think I got to this earlier, but one really important detail I noticed was that the road running in front of that Seneca bank branch was Highway 123 and Highway 76. I considered that a good clue that it was representative that I launched from Mars on 1/23/76, but I puzzled over that for a while. If Seneca represented the extent of my territory, why would it represent Mars? Based on these theories I have been writing about, I went much farther than Mars. The distance from Earth to Mars can vary by a great deal because we orbit the Sun at different rates, but I think the distance that is considered average is 100 million miles. If my theories are correct, I traveled out into the solar system for over a billion miles. Just a short while ago I discovered that when mapping out the trip from Seneca to Knoxville, just about the mid-point of the trip, using the "Shortest Distance" option, the route leading from Seneca to Knoxville turns into Highway 441, which leads into Knoxville and turns into Highway 441 and Highway 33 as it goes by the Sunsphere. As I wrote the other day, Reagan gave a speech at the Sunsphere on 5/1/82, and I think I was there in the balcony, with others in uniform that he pointed to, according to the speech transcript, before I left for a flight to the Falklands, probably later that day.
The town of Anderson also reinforced some theories I had been writing about in my journal related to the movie, "The Matrix." Specifically, that the character Keanu Reeves portrays is named "Thomas A. Anderson," reminding me of my theoritical name of Thomas Allyn Ray. As for "Anderson," I was reading in the wiki article that the name "Anderson" could be interpreted to mean "new son of man." And then I remembered that Thedia, the woman I "remember" as my mother, has a maiden name of Newman. So I am the "son of Newman" where that article talks about the "new son of man." I think that black cassock he wore in one of those movies is similar to something I wore in connection with my martial arts activities. It was the second episode I remember now and I had not seen that episode until a few weeks ago. As soon as I saw that movie and that cassock, I undertood that it was exactly the kind of outfit I was wearing in a dream I had earlier but I couldn't figure out what it was. Then, as I was looking it up to even know that it was called a cassock, I find myself wondering if that was why I was trying to find a place I went with my family on a river named Cossatot with some of our relatives that were named Reeves. It is fascinating the way all those details are stored in my mind. It wasn't 'cossatot' I was looking for, it was 'cassock.' I've done that with a lot of places on the map, such as Allyn, WA. I spent many, many hours studying the map of Allyn, WA, and making illustrations in computer files of maps.
For that excruiating year I spent in that homeless shelter in Pioneer Square in downtown Seattle, I used to go to two places to get away from that craziness for a while even though all the psycho zombies from outside that homeless shelter still follow me everywhere I go, as they have been for years and still do to this very minute. For example, some nearby restaraunt offered to provide Thanksgiving dinner for us last year and we all walked over there to eat. The guy, who was apparently the owner made some kind of explanation why he was providing dinner for us at that time even though it was the first time or the first time in a while. At some point, I felt his hand on my shoulder and he seemed to be leaning down and I was convinced that someone had just taken our picture and he was posing for it. People have been doing that around me for years and I was baffled by it. There was a Seattle P-I photographer in there but he wasn't in front of me at the time, although he usually had his camera pointing right at me. Now I understand why. Anyway, the one place I went to a lot was a place near 3rd and Thomas, which I didn't realize that was the street address until a few weeks ago. Another place I used to go to a lot, walking from that homeless shelter, was a Starbucks on Seneca Street within sight of the downtown Library. If that Starbucks had been on the other corner of that same block, it would have been on 3rd and Seneca and I probably would have been going in there all that time. As it was, Seneca and 4th was the closest I could get to Seneca and 3rd. Also near that park I used to sit in that is close to 3rd Avenue West and Thomas Street, is the area where the Seattle Space Needle is located. One of the building close to the Space Needle, to the northwest of the Space Needle, is the Seattle Children's Museum. I do not think it is a coincidence that the southwest corner of the Children's Museum, as illustrated on this map, is at the intersection of 3rd Avenue North and Thomas Street. Directly to the east of the Children's Museum is Paul Allen's Experience Music Project. Paul Allen's Science Fiction Museum and Hall of Fame is located within the Experience Music Project building. I have studied this photo of a Pegasus booster and I felt confident that I am in that photo, even more so now that I see the date on the photo is 9/5/1989. I think I am the person with crossed arms wearing the blue flight suit on the left side of the rocket near the wing and between the rocket and the chains that keep the spectators separated from the rocket. I keep thinking the person next to me, in the shadow of the wing, is Paul Allen, who is a major investor in the rocketry industry. He looks a lot like I guy I used to work for at a startup company in South Carolina, and since my "memory" is symbolic, maybe that is what it means. About two blocks away from the Experience Music Project is where the new campus for Bill Gates' Corbis is being constructed, at 5th and Republican. One consistent theory I have had for a few months is that I recieved the Medal of Honor for my U.S. military service, although I don't actually remember any of that. That theory was reinforced the other day when I was reading about the posthumous award of the Medal of Honor, on April 5, 2005, to Paul R. Smith, who was killed in action as a result of his bravery two years earlier. The "R" in his middle name stands for Ray. I believe my full name is really Thomas Henry Allyn Ray. The theory about my Medal Of Honor, though, is that over the years of my military service, I have been awarded the Medal Of Honor 5 times. I think there has been two times when I "hit for the cycle" so to speak. That means during two separate military engagements, I was awarded the Bronze Star, the Silver Star, the Navy Cross, and the Medal Of Honor for each engagement. One time recently, I was walking through Pioneer Square in Seattle and someone spoke the phrase "15 times" and I wondered if that meant I had been wounded in combat fifteen times or I had been into space fifteen times. That was back when my perpections about being in the space program were limited to thoughts that I had only been up on the space shuttle on at least one occasion. Then I wondered if it meant both. That I had been awarded fifteen Purple Hearts over the years and that I had been into space on the shuttle fifteen times. That was around the time I was thinking that the scars on my arms and legs aren't what I remembered and are actually old bullet wounds. I "remember" a time on the Wainwright when one of my co-workers, from Phoenix and named Reese, told me about a time a power drill went through his hand and I suddenly began thinking that is why I have a scar on my hand, right near the knuckle of my middle finger. The scar above my right eye, which I have started noticing on certain actors in certain movies, such as the "Major West" character from the 1998 movie, "Lost In Space," noticable when "West" and "Professor Robinson" had a heated argument in the engine room and the scar on "West's" eye looked similar to mine. I have started thinking that scar was from a cut with a knife when I was POW. A few months ago I was pondering over a "memory" about me getting into a fight with a guy whose name was pronounced "Rill" and I lost the fight, which was obvious from my face. Recently I started thinking that was a memory of someone beating me up, probably while a POW, because I was figthing with "Rill." But it wasn''t "Rill" that I remember fighting with, it was "Is Rill" or Israel. And I wasn't fighting against Israel, I was fighting with Israel and that is why my captors were beating me up, probably to get me to admit that I had been the leader of that strike in 1981, which I did not admit.
Also on my earnings report from the Social Security Administration is my after-school job from the 80's. Lately, I decided that the name "Mills" refers to the military. I pondered over whether there was any symbolism to connect my "memories" of working at Mills Store for 4 years and my theory that I attended the U.S. Naval Academy for 4 years. My theory was these details represent my attendance at the Academy when I focused on a seemingly important detail from my 3rd year working at Mills Store. It was during that 3rd year that my employer, Donald Mills, was elected mayor of the town. That summer, he was granted some funds from the federal government for road maintenance in the town and he put me in charge of a group of people to fix the potholes in the street. We worked all day fixing the pavement and then I put in a few more hours at his store after I let the crew off for the day. According to my "memories," that all occurred when I was in school and after my fourth year working for Mills Store, where the M.S. probably represents 'Midshipman,' I "remember" going on active duty in the U.S. Navy. It was around that same time, at the end of my third year at Ashdown, just before the beginning of my last year at that school, that I recieved the American Legion award, which was a medal. I believe that time period represents how the Osirak strike was in the summer of 1981 and I graduated from USNA that next summer, meaning that I went to Iraq around the end of the equivalent of my junior year at the USNA.
A few months ago, I read that the Israeli's who flew the F-16's into Iraq to strike the Osirak facility in 1981 had trained in their new F-16's at Hill Air Force Base in Utah. That gave me a lot of details to ponder. One is that it cleared up something I had been pondering for a while. In the tenth grade, I had a teacher named Mrs. Hill. She was the instructor of a special program titled TARGETS. That was an acronym for something similar to "Towards A Real Goal of Excellence for Talented and gifted Students." I decided that "Mrs. Hill" was some kind of symbolic representation for me teaching those pilots to fly the F-16's as we prepared for the Osirak strike. I pondered a few other details about Utah. In 2002, I was a participant of Ironman Utah, which was held in Provo to the south, and I remember that I signed up for the event sometime in 2001. In the summer of 2001, I had just completed a bicycling event called the Seattle-To-Portland ride and I covered 200 miles on my bicycle in about 15 hours. After completing that course, I think it was the same month, I saw an advertisement for the Ironman Utah competition and decided to sign up for it. That date it was eventually held on was Saturday, June 8, 2002, and was the first event to be held in that state. I think at the time, that was actually the only Ironman triathlon that occurred in the Western U.S.
Lately I have spent a lot of time wondering why they had it in Provo and on June 8th. I was just looking at the map and I noticed that Hill AFB is off I-15 Exit 338 and maybe that was the reason it was chosen as the training base. The map indicates that the driving distance from I-15 Exit 338 to Provo, Utah is 71 miles. Making this all incredibly interesting is when I discovered on the map the location of the hotel I stayed at in the week before the Ironman triathlon on 6/8/2002. The Salt Lake City hotel I stayed at was one mile from the intersection of Vine Street and I-15, where the map has a label for Exit 303. That hotel was probably the closest I could get to that intersection and I was incredibly stunned to realize I had made that selection. I was oblivious to it but it is a pattern that is hard to ignore.
On that fateful 6/8/2002 day of the triathlon, all hell broke loose when a storm blew through just in time to coinicide with the start of the 2.4 mile swim, which was supposed to be followed by a 112-mile bicycle and then a 26.2 mile run. The storm blew away all the swim course markers though and produced some serious waves. I didn't have to see much to know that I wasn't going to try to make that swim in those crazy waves and turned around and headed back for the dock. At one point, I submerged to see if I could find the bottom in case I got tired and I ws glad to know it wasn't very deep and was manageable. A few days later, I was reading a news article from the local paper about one of the guys that died during that swim and that article had a photo of me that was taken just after I broke through the surface to take a breath. After that debacle caused by the weather, the town of Provo was abandoned as a location for Ironman triathlons and they selected the town of Coeur d' Alene, Idaho, near Spokane, Washington, as a different location. I was pleased with the move because it was a better location and because it was a much shorter drive from where I lived in the Seattle area. Recently I noticed some very interesting clues about that choice that seem relevant to me and I suspect there are more that I haven't found yet. The first is when I was looking at a house I wanted to buy that was on a large hill overlooking the town of Coeur d' Alene. I was very interested in the house because it was huge, over 14,000 square feet, but it seemed cheap because it wasn't finished, although it looked as though it was. It was probably a money pit though. Anyway, the interesting clue, as anyone spying on me all that time knows, it was at or near Argentina Lane. Some other interesting clues are that the swim course is next to a seaplane base that has the FAA identifier of S76 and runways that are configured at 11/29 and 15/33. The bicycle course is interesting in that, at the extreme eastern end, it goes through an area named Higgins Point. I was writing the other day that the USS Higgins DDG-76 might be relevant somehow to my real life. At the other end of the bicycle course, the western side, the bicycle course goes along Mission Street and then turns onto Signal Street, which is as far west as the course goes. One time at Microsoft, after reading that the Vice President of Human Relations was an Ironman triathlete, I sent him a Microsoft MapPoint file that I had created to illustrate the bicycle course and I wrote that area is a good place to assess the competition, if he was going out there to race. He invited me to stop by his office some time but I never made it over there.
I participated in that first Ironman Coeur d' Alene in 2003, but I dropped out at the mid-point because it was too hot and I was becoming seriously dehydrated. I finished the next year, having quit Microsoft a few months earlier, while wearing a pair of Nike Pegasus running shoes. Interesting detail about those shoes and that date. Based on my theory, that day I finished that Ironman triathlon would have been exactly ten years after that "Stargazer" crash after its Pegasus rocket malfuntioned. I have been wearing that Pegasus model of running shoe for several years and often recorded it in my running journal on my computer because I had a system for tracking how many miles I put on my shoes.
Also consistent with my theories is the Millersylvania State Park south of Olympia, Washington. It is off I-5 Exit 95 and I went down there during 2002 and 2003 to complete an organized marathon course. I completed 4 marathons in one year at Millersylvania State Park and also I completed the Seattle Marathon during that time period for a total of 5 in one year, plus some triathlons. There are several details about that Millersylvania State Park that I now understand. The first detail that captured my attention about that location is that the marathon course leaves, after a short distance in the park, and then goes out onto Highway 121, which reminds me of my theory that I landed on Mars on 1/21/76. After about 5 miles along that same highway, the marathon course changes to Goddard Road, which reminds me of NASA's Goddard Space Flight Center, then the course turns onto Gibson Road, where I think Mel Gibson is one of my brothers. Then the course turns to 169th Avenue, which reminds me of my theory about Apollo 11 in 1969. The next street is named Lietner, which may be something I should remember but cannot.
I'm still not really sure why Butte, Montana. Maybe that is where my home is that I cannot remember. That would make sense though. On more than one occasion I have just taken off and driven to Montana. I didn't do anything. I just drove there, probably spent less than a half-hour, always in Missoula, and then turned around and drove back. As for my home that I can't remember, that would make sense why I have had the same dream over and over for the past decade. The dream is always the same in the theme and the location, but the details change a little bit every time. The theme of the dream is that one day, I suddenly find out that I still own a house that I used to live in near Greer, SC. On a sidenote, I moved to Greer and bought that house in Country Club Estates, after I moved from Central, SC, while I was still working for UFP. Any fan of Tom Clancy, such as me, can tell you that "Admiral Greer" was the one who recruited "Jack Ryan" into the CIA. Anyway, in the dream, I would suddenly find that I still had that home to go back to, which was great to know because I really missed the place. It was a very peaceful location and I really enjoyed living there. It was always the same in the dream. I could go back there anytime I wanted, even that very minute, and go home. Over and over I dreamed that I could go home at that very minute to that place I had forgotten about but that had not forgotten me.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Line Of Sight
I forgot to mention it when I was writing about the "Stargazer" incident that I either remember only through instinct or that I am just imagining, but all that aircraft wreckage they used in the first episodes of "Lost" was the same type of an aircraft as the "Stargazer", an L-1011, according to this Honolulu news article. Another interesting detail is that the zip code of Mokuleia, the town where they filmed the beach scenes for "Lost" is 96791, of which the last four digits contains the reverse sequence of '1976.'
Consistent with my theory that some U.S. Navy ships are connected to my life is the USS Philippine Sea CG-58. The other day I mentioned that I thought the movie "An Officer And A Gentleman" premiered in 1982 to coincide with my graduation from the U.S. Naval Academy a few months earlier. My theory is that "Zack" may represent a fellow aviator that would later serve with me because my career was on a different track than the "Zack" character obviously. So anyway, it may just be that it was designed as sort of a tenuous connection and that the plot element about him living in the Philippines represents that my father or grandfather is named Philip. It could be that they are both named Philip and that is why I "remember" that my paternal grandfather is named Joseph Fletcher and my father is named Joseph Wayne. The reason they would have selected the hull number 58 for the USS Philippine Sea is because, even though I was born in 1959, my March 3rd birth date means that my mother was pregnant with me for over half the 1958 calendar year. And I wonder if the USS Philippine Sea was commissioned specifically 2 weeks after my March 3rd birthday in 1989 because those two weeks represents that my grandfather goes by the name of Philip and he is my father's father. I think that Aegis guided-missile cruiser USS Port Royal was given the hull number 73 because I graduated in 1973 from Oxford University at Lincoln College. Some names that stand out as I examine the streets around Lincoln College in the city of Oxford, England, are George Street, Ship Street, and Queen Street. The initials "P.R." remind me of the chemical element Praseodymium, which has the symbol Pr in the periodic table and an atomic number of 59. Unless I am mistaken, one of the uses of Pr59 is in cheap jewelry, the kind that turns your skin green. The last place I lived before moving out here from Rock Hill, South Carolina, off I-77 Exit 82, was an apartment complex with the name Paces River, which also has the initials P.R. The color green comes up in other places too, combined with Lincoln, as I "remember" living in a place named Lincoln On The Green in Memphis, overlooking the 9th hole, and I think that means I have some rather notable golf accomplishments from my youth. My theory, consistent with a pattern I am learning to recognize in my false memories, is that I won a few PGA tournaments, but it was all kept secret, to be revealed many years later, along with some Olympic gold medals I won. The USS Cape St. George CG-71 may represent that I started Oxford University at Lincoln College in 1971 because the map indicates that George Street runs along the north edge of the Lincoln College campus, changing name to Broad Street at some point. I guess George Street is named after King George, maybe even George VI, who was the father of Queen Elizabeth II.
I have thought several times over the past few months about the movie "Independence Day" and one line especially that stands out in my mind is when the character Will Smith portrays makes a quip about how he hopes the aliens have an air bag on their ship. While that could be construed as a connection to the air bag in a car, especially since the alien spacecraft was about to crash, I am wondering if that comment, and maybe even the invention the automobile air bag itself, was inspired by the air bags the Project Orion spacecraft used to dampen the impact of the atomic explosions and to cushion the ride for the occupants. When all these new perceptions about the possibility my life wasn't as real as I remembered, one of the earliest details I was studying was a scene from this movie. I was thinking about that scene in the Oval Office where "President Thomas Whitmore" was standing there with one hand on his hip. I puzzled over that photograph I wrote about earlier where I was standing on my Navy ship because something about it made me think that was important. It was those thoughts that got me thinking I had been a fighter pilot in the Gulf War, although I had no actual memories of even getting within 5 feet of any kind of fighter aircraft. But the feeling progressed and it eventually led to that 5903 photo I wrote about, that is supposedly of Buzz Aldrin standing on the Moon with Apollo 11 when I believe that was actually me as a ten-year-old. I was a highly advanced ten-year-old and the primary reason I was part of Apollo was to prepare me for the 1976 mission to the outer solar system. I don't know how long that mission had been in planning but I would say it is safe to assume that it had been in planning since before 1965. They selected me because I was the best of both worlds, so to speak. My theory for a while has been that I was some kind of extreme child prodigy and by the age of 5 years old, I had the mental capacity of a 20 year old. Plus, by the age of 8 years, I could fly aircraft as well or better than people with decades of flight experience. What made me the best choice was that because I was still so young physically, I was more likely to recover from the severe physical impact of being in space and weightlessness for almost 2 years at one time. Another theory I have had is that after I made my first trip into the tempest of the comet to plant the first bomb and then transmitted the telemetry from that flight back to Earth, they put the other pilots in a recreation in a simulator but no one else was actually able to survive in the simulation and reach the comet surface. I have been thinking the past few days that I made that trip through the hurricane four times and that it took me about an hour each time. An hour of constantly avoiding near miss after near miss, some hitting me but managing to not get hit fatally. I am thinking that one of my shuttle/landers was destroyed at one point but I managed to get it back to the Project Orion craft. Maybe that is the source of what I was writing about a while in my journal about where it seemed familiar in "Mission To Mars" where they made an unplanned transfer from one spacecraft to another spacecraft while out in the middle of nowhere space.
I have also wondered several times why "Dr. Brown," in "Back To The Future" asked "Marty" if Jane Wyman was First Lady, even though in that movie time frame of 1955, Reagan had been married to Nancy Reagan for several years. I think it is because the "Marty" character represents me and that is why the running joke about his life preserver. I was looking at a younger photo of Jane Wyman and it struck me how similar in appearance she was to someone I "remember" from the 9th grade.
Another theory I've had is that the date of the "First Contact," which all Star Trek fans know occurred on April 5, 2063, and represents when humans first met the "Vulcans," actually represents the day I first spoke. I was thinking a while back that I spoke my first words on April 5, 1963, and that is why they put that into the movie. I pondered over how I would have been 4 years old by that time, and then I "remembered" a time when Thedia, the woman I "remember" as my mother, said something to me about how they had wondered if I would ever begin to talk, meaning obviously that I started talking long after a normal child would start talking. Thedia told me that she even said that to me, that she had been wondering why I had not started talking long ago, or she told me something to that effect, and my response was that I told her I had not had anything to say until the point I started talking. My theory is that the doctors had diagnosed me with some kind of mental deficiency, but when I started talking, they realized that I was highly intelligent, which would make sense considering that I walked on the Moon with Apollo 11. I think that is all the source of Tom Hank's role in the 1988 movie "Big," in that when I started talking, it was as though I had been an adult who suddenly became a child again and I retained all the knowledge and wisdom from my previous life. I think his July 6, 1994, movie "Forrest Gump" was representative of my life as well, although there is some kind of reverse, symmetrical symbolism, or mirror-symbolism, about it that I can't articulate yet the way I want to.
Another movie I found myself appreciating by someone I think is my brother was Mel Gibson's August 28, 1981, "Gallipoli." I believe that movie was produced to coincide with the strike I was planning and leading on the nuclear reactor in Iraq, where the strike occurred less than 3 months before that movie premiered. I believe I was sent on that strike, as some kind of training so that I could avoid my own "Gallipoli" some day in the context of Winston Churchill. That little clue really got me thinking. I looked up the USS Winston Churchill DDG-81, and there it was: hull number 81. And then I noticed something else: DDG-81 was commissioned on March 10th, exactly a week after my March 3rd birthday, which I think demonstrates the so-called "birth mark." Then I realized something else: Winston Churchill's father was British and his mother was American. It was making sense. The things people said about British citizenship. Microsoft probably had that manager there in my group simply because he was British, none of which I appreciate. They are most likely the reason my real memories are coming back so slowly. When I was at Microsoft, I was barraged with clues about my real identity and I was most likely processing those clues on a subconscious level, but that was a big problem because the more clues Microsoft barraged me with, the more my real identity withdrew. We have kept my family relationships secret for a very good reason and probably most of my family don't even know really why we were so secretive. We had to be secretive because the terrorists have been trying to kill me for a significant portion of my life. I have been thinking for a while that I was on the British warship HMS Sheffield on May 4, 1982, during the Falklands War and just after I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy. As the memories I actually think of as normal memories are all symbolic, I believe I "remember" living on a street named Dresden, which was near a street and a park named Sheffield. There is a cemetery there too. I recognize Dresden from history as a town that was destroyed by a firestorm after it was bombed in World War 2. This apartment on Dresden in Charlotte, NC, was where I lived after I moved across town from an apartment at the corner of Arrowood and Royal Point. After moving from Dresden, I lived back near Arrowood at a place named Whitehall. When I first started thinking about Whitehall as being symbolic of something greater than I can actually remember, my first thoughts were that it symbolized the White House in the U.S. There is also a Whitehall in England which is associated with the government and such organizations as the Admiralty. Later I would read that the English town of Sheffield, the namesake for the HMS Sheffield, is only about 30 miles from the birthplace of Patrick Stewart, according to sources about his birthday. That may have been the reason I was specifically on the HMS Sheffield and the reason I was in the Falklands Islands at all during the war was as a non-combatant observer, probably sent down there because I was on Reagan's National Security Council staff. I read a few weeks ago a Seattle Times news article dated April 30, 1982, about the Falklands that may be a critical piece of this puzzle and I think that was also the day I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy, or at least the day I got my orders to leave the USNA on my first assignment after graduating. The news article stated: "U.S backs Britain on Falklands." It went on to report: "Argentina stupefied." I believe the Argentine's found out that I, a U.S. Navy officer and the grandson of President Ronald Reagan, was on board a British destroyer, and because the British had sunk a large Argentina cruiser a day earlier, they decided to hit the ship I was on, the HMS Sheffield, which later sank after an uncontrollable fire forced evacuation. I have been thinking that I and several Sheffield crew members got into a life raft, which was then swept out to sea away from the others survivors. My thoughts suggest that we fortunately were swept towards the Falklands Islands instead of open sea and we made landfall on May 5th. I have several memories that I think are symbolic of the missile hitting the ship, of escaping from almost drowning in a flooding compartment, of then leading a team trying to put out the fire, of sleeping overnight in a life raft, and then of several of us in a line walking with me in the lead and someone complaining about how cold it was. The coldest time of the year down there, according to sources, is May and June. Those last occurrences, as I "remember" them, were with my half-brother and my step-brothers and I decided that the person I "remember" as my half-brother are people in the Royal Navy because my father is British. The memory I have that I believe symbolizes the very first moments of the missile strike on the Sheffield are off my first day in boot camp in the Navy. I "remember" they woke us up by beating on an aluminum can. I graduated high school on Friday and was in Navy boot camp that next Monday, and the next morning, they woke us up by hitting the side of an aluminum trash can. Or so my "memory" tells me. I decided that "memory" was completely symbolic of the Sheffield when I remembered that an ancient term of endearment for destroyers is "tin can" and what I am "remembering" is of that destroyer being hit by a missile. My next memory is of being in a ship compartment, although as I "remember" it, it was a training exercise, and in the trainer, someone hit the side of the compartment with a sledgehammer and then the compartment began flooding as we tried repairing the hole but the water was too much and we were soon up to our necks in freezing water and I "remember" that it was winter-time. Then I "remember" trying to put out a fire in a ship-simulator, that I think was actually the Sheffield on fire and it was a very tense situation. Then I was out camping with my half-brother and step-brothers one night at my father's house and it was raining. I woke up in the night and after I realized the tent was filling up with water and my brother told me it was because a horse had been licking the side of the tent and that caused it to leak. I believe the horse symbolizes the jet firing a missile into the Sheffield and that discussion was when someone in the life raft woke up and was disoriented. I have been wondering this morning for the first time why I was writing in my journal a year or two ago about a song that included the name Sir Galahad in it. During the Falklands, a British-troop carrier ship name Sir Galahad was bombed by the Argentine's with a great loss of life on the ship. I started wondering this morning if that was the basis for that chaotic scene in "Saving Private Ryan" where the character Tom Hanks portrayed was trying to escape from the landing ship that was under attack.
1982: Argentines destroy HMS Sheffield
The British ship HMS Sheffield has been hit by an Argentine missile fired from a fighter bomber. It is not clear how many of the 268 crew have perished.
The sinking has shocked the British nation and foiled any possible diplomatic solution to the current dispute over the Falkland Islands between Britain and Argentina. ...The attack follows yesterday's sinking of the Argentine cruiser General Belgrano. An Argentine diplomat in the United States said the destruction of HMS Sheffield was "justified after the massacre that the English have done shelling our men and our ships".
There are other aspects to my family life that may seem sensational when revealed. I feel absolutely certain I know who is my paternal grandfather. I am confident about who is my paternal grandmother but I feel something like confusion on my part and I am thinking that is because she might be my adopted grandmother or maybe this is something really private that we weren't planning on revealing anytime soon. I have quite a few children too, or so my theory goes, and they are all quite remarkable. Really remarkable. I have a good reason to suspect Microsoft/Corbis knew all about that and that is why they have been trying to steal my genetic material, along with all their other activities to steal from me and my family for the financial gain of Microsoft/Corbis and accomplices such as Dave Reichert and George W. Bush.
Consistent with my theory that some U.S. Navy ships are connected to my life is the USS Philippine Sea CG-58. The other day I mentioned that I thought the movie "An Officer And A Gentleman" premiered in 1982 to coincide with my graduation from the U.S. Naval Academy a few months earlier. My theory is that "Zack" may represent a fellow aviator that would later serve with me because my career was on a different track than the "Zack" character obviously. So anyway, it may just be that it was designed as sort of a tenuous connection and that the plot element about him living in the Philippines represents that my father or grandfather is named Philip. It could be that they are both named Philip and that is why I "remember" that my paternal grandfather is named Joseph Fletcher and my father is named Joseph Wayne. The reason they would have selected the hull number 58 for the USS Philippine Sea is because, even though I was born in 1959, my March 3rd birth date means that my mother was pregnant with me for over half the 1958 calendar year. And I wonder if the USS Philippine Sea was commissioned specifically 2 weeks after my March 3rd birthday in 1989 because those two weeks represents that my grandfather goes by the name of Philip and he is my father's father. I think that Aegis guided-missile cruiser USS Port Royal was given the hull number 73 because I graduated in 1973 from Oxford University at Lincoln College. Some names that stand out as I examine the streets around Lincoln College in the city of Oxford, England, are George Street, Ship Street, and Queen Street. The initials "P.R." remind me of the chemical element Praseodymium, which has the symbol Pr in the periodic table and an atomic number of 59. Unless I am mistaken, one of the uses of Pr59 is in cheap jewelry, the kind that turns your skin green. The last place I lived before moving out here from Rock Hill, South Carolina, off I-77 Exit 82, was an apartment complex with the name Paces River, which also has the initials P.R. The color green comes up in other places too, combined with Lincoln, as I "remember" living in a place named Lincoln On The Green in Memphis, overlooking the 9th hole, and I think that means I have some rather notable golf accomplishments from my youth. My theory, consistent with a pattern I am learning to recognize in my false memories, is that I won a few PGA tournaments, but it was all kept secret, to be revealed many years later, along with some Olympic gold medals I won. The USS Cape St. George CG-71 may represent that I started Oxford University at Lincoln College in 1971 because the map indicates that George Street runs along the north edge of the Lincoln College campus, changing name to Broad Street at some point. I guess George Street is named after King George, maybe even George VI, who was the father of Queen Elizabeth II.
I have thought several times over the past few months about the movie "Independence Day" and one line especially that stands out in my mind is when the character Will Smith portrays makes a quip about how he hopes the aliens have an air bag on their ship. While that could be construed as a connection to the air bag in a car, especially since the alien spacecraft was about to crash, I am wondering if that comment, and maybe even the invention the automobile air bag itself, was inspired by the air bags the Project Orion spacecraft used to dampen the impact of the atomic explosions and to cushion the ride for the occupants. When all these new perceptions about the possibility my life wasn't as real as I remembered, one of the earliest details I was studying was a scene from this movie. I was thinking about that scene in the Oval Office where "President Thomas Whitmore" was standing there with one hand on his hip. I puzzled over that photograph I wrote about earlier where I was standing on my Navy ship because something about it made me think that was important. It was those thoughts that got me thinking I had been a fighter pilot in the Gulf War, although I had no actual memories of even getting within 5 feet of any kind of fighter aircraft. But the feeling progressed and it eventually led to that 5903 photo I wrote about, that is supposedly of Buzz Aldrin standing on the Moon with Apollo 11 when I believe that was actually me as a ten-year-old. I was a highly advanced ten-year-old and the primary reason I was part of Apollo was to prepare me for the 1976 mission to the outer solar system. I don't know how long that mission had been in planning but I would say it is safe to assume that it had been in planning since before 1965. They selected me because I was the best of both worlds, so to speak. My theory for a while has been that I was some kind of extreme child prodigy and by the age of 5 years old, I had the mental capacity of a 20 year old. Plus, by the age of 8 years, I could fly aircraft as well or better than people with decades of flight experience. What made me the best choice was that because I was still so young physically, I was more likely to recover from the severe physical impact of being in space and weightlessness for almost 2 years at one time. Another theory I have had is that after I made my first trip into the tempest of the comet to plant the first bomb and then transmitted the telemetry from that flight back to Earth, they put the other pilots in a recreation in a simulator but no one else was actually able to survive in the simulation and reach the comet surface. I have been thinking the past few days that I made that trip through the hurricane four times and that it took me about an hour each time. An hour of constantly avoiding near miss after near miss, some hitting me but managing to not get hit fatally. I am thinking that one of my shuttle/landers was destroyed at one point but I managed to get it back to the Project Orion craft. Maybe that is the source of what I was writing about a while in my journal about where it seemed familiar in "Mission To Mars" where they made an unplanned transfer from one spacecraft to another spacecraft while out in the middle of nowhere space.
I have also wondered several times why "Dr. Brown," in "Back To The Future" asked "Marty" if Jane Wyman was First Lady, even though in that movie time frame of 1955, Reagan had been married to Nancy Reagan for several years. I think it is because the "Marty" character represents me and that is why the running joke about his life preserver. I was looking at a younger photo of Jane Wyman and it struck me how similar in appearance she was to someone I "remember" from the 9th grade.
Another theory I've had is that the date of the "First Contact," which all Star Trek fans know occurred on April 5, 2063, and represents when humans first met the "Vulcans," actually represents the day I first spoke. I was thinking a while back that I spoke my first words on April 5, 1963, and that is why they put that into the movie. I pondered over how I would have been 4 years old by that time, and then I "remembered" a time when Thedia, the woman I "remember" as my mother, said something to me about how they had wondered if I would ever begin to talk, meaning obviously that I started talking long after a normal child would start talking. Thedia told me that she even said that to me, that she had been wondering why I had not started talking long ago, or she told me something to that effect, and my response was that I told her I had not had anything to say until the point I started talking. My theory is that the doctors had diagnosed me with some kind of mental deficiency, but when I started talking, they realized that I was highly intelligent, which would make sense considering that I walked on the Moon with Apollo 11. I think that is all the source of Tom Hank's role in the 1988 movie "Big," in that when I started talking, it was as though I had been an adult who suddenly became a child again and I retained all the knowledge and wisdom from my previous life. I think his July 6, 1994, movie "Forrest Gump" was representative of my life as well, although there is some kind of reverse, symmetrical symbolism, or mirror-symbolism, about it that I can't articulate yet the way I want to.
Another movie I found myself appreciating by someone I think is my brother was Mel Gibson's August 28, 1981, "Gallipoli." I believe that movie was produced to coincide with the strike I was planning and leading on the nuclear reactor in Iraq, where the strike occurred less than 3 months before that movie premiered. I believe I was sent on that strike, as some kind of training so that I could avoid my own "Gallipoli" some day in the context of Winston Churchill. That little clue really got me thinking. I looked up the USS Winston Churchill DDG-81, and there it was: hull number 81. And then I noticed something else: DDG-81 was commissioned on March 10th, exactly a week after my March 3rd birthday, which I think demonstrates the so-called "birth mark." Then I realized something else: Winston Churchill's father was British and his mother was American. It was making sense. The things people said about British citizenship. Microsoft probably had that manager there in my group simply because he was British, none of which I appreciate. They are most likely the reason my real memories are coming back so slowly. When I was at Microsoft, I was barraged with clues about my real identity and I was most likely processing those clues on a subconscious level, but that was a big problem because the more clues Microsoft barraged me with, the more my real identity withdrew. We have kept my family relationships secret for a very good reason and probably most of my family don't even know really why we were so secretive. We had to be secretive because the terrorists have been trying to kill me for a significant portion of my life. I have been thinking for a while that I was on the British warship HMS Sheffield on May 4, 1982, during the Falklands War and just after I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy. As the memories I actually think of as normal memories are all symbolic, I believe I "remember" living on a street named Dresden, which was near a street and a park named Sheffield. There is a cemetery there too. I recognize Dresden from history as a town that was destroyed by a firestorm after it was bombed in World War 2. This apartment on Dresden in Charlotte, NC, was where I lived after I moved across town from an apartment at the corner of Arrowood and Royal Point. After moving from Dresden, I lived back near Arrowood at a place named Whitehall. When I first started thinking about Whitehall as being symbolic of something greater than I can actually remember, my first thoughts were that it symbolized the White House in the U.S. There is also a Whitehall in England which is associated with the government and such organizations as the Admiralty. Later I would read that the English town of Sheffield, the namesake for the HMS Sheffield, is only about 30 miles from the birthplace of Patrick Stewart, according to sources about his birthday. That may have been the reason I was specifically on the HMS Sheffield and the reason I was in the Falklands Islands at all during the war was as a non-combatant observer, probably sent down there because I was on Reagan's National Security Council staff. I read a few weeks ago a Seattle Times news article dated April 30, 1982, about the Falklands that may be a critical piece of this puzzle and I think that was also the day I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy, or at least the day I got my orders to leave the USNA on my first assignment after graduating. The news article stated: "U.S backs Britain on Falklands." It went on to report: "Argentina stupefied." I believe the Argentine's found out that I, a U.S. Navy officer and the grandson of President Ronald Reagan, was on board a British destroyer, and because the British had sunk a large Argentina cruiser a day earlier, they decided to hit the ship I was on, the HMS Sheffield, which later sank after an uncontrollable fire forced evacuation. I have been thinking that I and several Sheffield crew members got into a life raft, which was then swept out to sea away from the others survivors. My thoughts suggest that we fortunately were swept towards the Falklands Islands instead of open sea and we made landfall on May 5th. I have several memories that I think are symbolic of the missile hitting the ship, of escaping from almost drowning in a flooding compartment, of then leading a team trying to put out the fire, of sleeping overnight in a life raft, and then of several of us in a line walking with me in the lead and someone complaining about how cold it was. The coldest time of the year down there, according to sources, is May and June. Those last occurrences, as I "remember" them, were with my half-brother and my step-brothers and I decided that the person I "remember" as my half-brother are people in the Royal Navy because my father is British. The memory I have that I believe symbolizes the very first moments of the missile strike on the Sheffield are off my first day in boot camp in the Navy. I "remember" they woke us up by beating on an aluminum can. I graduated high school on Friday and was in Navy boot camp that next Monday, and the next morning, they woke us up by hitting the side of an aluminum trash can. Or so my "memory" tells me. I decided that "memory" was completely symbolic of the Sheffield when I remembered that an ancient term of endearment for destroyers is "tin can" and what I am "remembering" is of that destroyer being hit by a missile. My next memory is of being in a ship compartment, although as I "remember" it, it was a training exercise, and in the trainer, someone hit the side of the compartment with a sledgehammer and then the compartment began flooding as we tried repairing the hole but the water was too much and we were soon up to our necks in freezing water and I "remember" that it was winter-time. Then I "remember" trying to put out a fire in a ship-simulator, that I think was actually the Sheffield on fire and it was a very tense situation. Then I was out camping with my half-brother and step-brothers one night at my father's house and it was raining. I woke up in the night and after I realized the tent was filling up with water and my brother told me it was because a horse had been licking the side of the tent and that caused it to leak. I believe the horse symbolizes the jet firing a missile into the Sheffield and that discussion was when someone in the life raft woke up and was disoriented. I have been wondering this morning for the first time why I was writing in my journal a year or two ago about a song that included the name Sir Galahad in it. During the Falklands, a British-troop carrier ship name Sir Galahad was bombed by the Argentine's with a great loss of life on the ship. I started wondering this morning if that was the basis for that chaotic scene in "Saving Private Ryan" where the character Tom Hanks portrayed was trying to escape from the landing ship that was under attack.
1982: Argentines destroy HMS Sheffield
The British ship HMS Sheffield has been hit by an Argentine missile fired from a fighter bomber. It is not clear how many of the 268 crew have perished.
The sinking has shocked the British nation and foiled any possible diplomatic solution to the current dispute over the Falkland Islands between Britain and Argentina. ...The attack follows yesterday's sinking of the Argentine cruiser General Belgrano. An Argentine diplomat in the United States said the destruction of HMS Sheffield was "justified after the massacre that the English have done shelling our men and our ships".
There are other aspects to my family life that may seem sensational when revealed. I feel absolutely certain I know who is my paternal grandfather. I am confident about who is my paternal grandmother but I feel something like confusion on my part and I am thinking that is because she might be my adopted grandmother or maybe this is something really private that we weren't planning on revealing anytime soon. I have quite a few children too, or so my theory goes, and they are all quite remarkable. Really remarkable. I have a good reason to suspect Microsoft/Corbis knew all about that and that is why they have been trying to steal my genetic material, along with all their other activities to steal from me and my family for the financial gain of Microsoft/Corbis and accomplices such as Dave Reichert and George W. Bush.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Family
I look back in my journal and find it is ironic what I wrote one day about "Family" and "Home." I was thinking about that Star Trek: The Next Generation episode where "Captain Picard" goes on leave after escaping the "Borg" and visits his family on their wine farm. I even wrote about about Senator McCain that day about how I admired the U.S. Navy tradition of his family and I now interpret that thoughts to reflect that "Brotherhood/Sisterhood" paper from Reagan on 2/14/86. I wouldn't be surprised if the "Borg" experience from the 1990 cliffhanger episodes of ST:TNG are a basic representation of my POW experience in 1986. There was no such battle though where they were using me to defeat our forces, but I think my captors roughed me up for a long time trying to break me. I have thinking that Reagan knew they were torturing me and he ordered a bombing mission, which he announced on 4/14/86, to try to get me out of there. The guards were distracted by the nearby bombing raid and I slipped away and headed out into the Sahara. There is a similar element in the 1990 "Quigley Down Under" but I think I escaped into the desert instead of them leaving me for dead in the desert. I am thinking that I am related somehow to Tom Selleck but I am not sure how. Perhaps by marriage. As for "Quigley Down Under," I think that plot element about "Roy" is a rather humorous reference to me, as I believe my real last name is Ray.
So anyway, back on ST:TNG, I believe I escaped from the Libyans and then went home to visit my family for a while in 1987 before going back on active duty. I found an interesting connection to Jane Wyman, who I think is my maternal grandmother, and her 1980's television series "Falcon Crest," which was set in a vineyard. I don't think it is a coincidence that the woman who portrayed the mother of "Spock" in the original Star Trek series was an actress named Jane Wyatt. I was recently reading through a document about the meaning of asteroid names and I discovered that "3359 Purcari" was named in 1978 after Purcari in Moldova, a region known for its wines. I discovered that clue as I was researching the astronauts that died on the Challenger space shuttle in January 1986. I discovered that several asteroids were named for those astronauts and that all those asteroid's number designations were in the format of 335x. I had been wondering if I had known one of the astronauts named Judy Resnik, and along with the asteroid, I discovered there was a crater on the Moon named after her and its location was 33 degrees and 150 degrees. That piqued my interest because 33 and 15 are two numbers that have been coming up a lot. I have found a lot of airport runways that are configured as 15/33 and I think it is relevant to me. The landing strip the space shuttle uses at Kennedy Space Center is configured at 15/33. It may be that is just a popular format, because it almost lines up precisely north-south. Or it may be that my mother's birthday was January 5th and my birthday is March 3rd. I think that I knew Resnik from STS-41-D because I was a secret crewmember of that space shuttle flight as well. I believe that particular mission was to symbolize the "441" aspect of my 1976 mission to the outer solar system. According to sources, the STS-41-D flight ended on 9/5/84, where September 5th is sometimes a variation of my so-called "birth mark." The letter "D" is the fourth letter in the English alphabet.
Back to ST:TNG, I believe the reason Patrick Stewart was chosen to portray "Captain Picard," along with his superb acting skills, is because he is my father. I still don't actually remember him, or any of my real family, but I believe it is true. And it makes sense to as I look back over the years. Over the past few months, I have decided that I have 3 older brothers and one younger brother. My three older brothers are Bruce Willis, Mel Gibson, and Tom Hanks. My younger brother is George Clooney. I find myself thinking that I do remember them, because they seem similar to people I do remember, but those people I remember are different people.
A few days ago, I was startled when I was studying their movie releases for the year 2000. This is the list and I think these are relevant to me, each one contributing to a message, sort of a postcard to their missing brother who was consciously oblivious to it all. But I do remember the movie "Unbreakable" the most and it had a very positive impact on me.
05/13/2000: "O Brother, Where Art Thou?" George Clooney
06/30/2000: "The Patriot," Mel Gibson
11/22/2000: "Unbreakable," Bruce Willis
12/22/2000: "Cast Away," Tom Hanks
A friend suggested we go to see "The Patriot" when it premiered and I still remember feeling choked up about that scene on the beach where his youngest daughter runs away from him or wouldn't talk to him, whichever it was. I think that is straight out of something from my real life and/or it just serves to represent that I miss my kids, the ones I can't even consciously remember. There is also some symbolism to my mission in 1976 to destroy the comet that threatened the planet, and I may go into more detail about that later in describing my thoughts on the movie "Independence Day" from 1996. The movie "Cast Away" was a good work of symbolism for my amnesia and, at first, I was thinking that plot element about the Wilson volley ball represents Ronald Wilson Reagan's battle with Alzheimer's, especially that scene where "Wilson" is floating away, never to be found again. But then recently, I began to wonder if Reagan did not actually have Alzheimer's and that was all symbolic of me losing my memory gradually, starting I guess in 1994, when I survived a horrific plane crash, which I might describe later. But I feel indecisive on that topic, as I waver between thinking he really did suffer from that conditon before he passed away in 2004. But it may represent the struggle both of of endured and the family who cared for us. Clooney's "O Brother, Where Art Thou" was a very enjoyable movie, and I think it had elements in it about my escape from POW captivity in 1986 and 1987. There were many details that stood out in my mind as I was watching it is few months ago, and one was about all his kids, especially the new one he didn't know about until he found his wife after making it home. Another detail was how they thought he had been killed by a train. I am not entirely sure what that means, but I think it is relevant to me being missing for a long time. As in "Cast Away," I think they actually had a burial service for me at Arlington National Cemetery, and that is why I "remember" having a girlfriend that was from a town named Arlington. That girlfriend and I were sitting in a movie theater, according to my "memory," for the release of "Top Gun" and I remember that she was cold. I think that is some kind of twisted symbolism that I was thought to be dead at that time and she was my girlfriend, who was also dead. I started thinking more about her and I decided that really is what it means because she and I met when I was in a school in the Navy and I had failed a test earlier that day and it was a really bad day for me. I think that represents how I had been shot down in an A-6 aircraft somewhere over Africa. There was another detail I wanted to mention from Clooney's movie, but it slipped my mind as soon as I thought about it. So anyway, along with those movies in 2000, Patrick Stewart portrayed "Dr. Xavier" in "X-Men. The year 2000 was also the premier of "Gladiator" and I think that Russell Crowe and I were good friends back before I lost my identity. As with Clooney's movie, I think that "Gladiator" was timed to premier close to May 9th, because of the 5/9 in that date. I also think that "Gladiator" represents in many aspects, my experiences in Africa after I escaped the Libyans and was trying to get back to the Navy. I started thinking that as in the 1996 movie, "The Ghost and the Darkness," I killed a lion with my bare hands at some point in my escape, possibly after I was captured by locals and thrown into a cage with a lion. I think that I had to fight in a cage like that several times, and that is why my friend Crowe took the role in "Gladiator" and the scar on my hip is from my captors injuring me because I was always winning and they wanted to even the odds somewhat by crippling me. My thoughts have stayed consistent that I completed my escape sometime around, probably just before, 5/17/87. I have been thinking that Saddamn Hussein fired a couple of missiles into the USS Stark FFG-31 just to dampen the mood about me returning home alive after everyone had thought for so long that I was dead. A few days ago I was reading about a comic book character named "Iron Man," produced by Marvel comics, and the name of "Iron Man's" secret identity is "Anthony Edward Stark." All of this theory was reinforced when I read a 5/18/87 speech by Reagan, that he made before speaking about the strike on the Stark, and he made some comments about someone that was shocked to find they had received flowers for a funeral. I believe that was a reference, similar to the scene in "Cast Away," where they told me they had actually had a funeral for me a few months earlier. On the following day, the 19th, Reagan issued Proclamation 5659, which was to order all flags at half-staff in respect for the USS Stark. Further reinforcing my theory about a long trek across Africa in 1986 and 1987, was Congressional legislation that went into effect in 1987. On December 16, 1987, the Trail of Tears National Historic Trail became Public Law to commemorate "the removal of the Cherokee and the paths that 17 Cherokee detachments followed westward. Today the trail encompasses about 2,200 miles of land and water routes, and traverses portions of nine states." On that same day, 12/16/87, according to Reagan's public papers, Reagan sent the "Letter to the Speaker of the House of Representatives and the President of the Senate on Low Intensity Conflict Policy," which discusses such topics as improving the level of support for Special Operations and "those who put their lives on the line in the common cause of freedom." This is off topic, but as I was looking back through my journal on my notes about the "Trail of Tears," I remembered another observation that reinforced my theory that Ronald Reagan is my maternal grandfather. I was reading a 5/9/82 speech he gave at the college he graduated from, Eureka College in Illinois, and I noticed the street that runs through the middle of that college is that same as my last name, Burgess. According to the map, Burgess Street runs through the middle of campus and intersects with Reagan Drive, which runs along the south edge of the campus. Reagan Drive then turns in CR-875 and I have been wondering if that number for the county road was selected to reflect my return home from Africa in May 1987.
After reviewing all those movies, I decided to look at their other works and I liked what I found.
02/15/2002: "Hart's War," Bruce Willis
03/01/2002: "We Were Soldiers," Mel Gibson
07/12/2002: "Road To Perdition," Tom Hanks
11/19/2002: "Solaris," George Clooney
The premier date for "Hart's War" reinforced my theory that I was shot down on 2/14/86 and was a POW for a while after that. Mel Gibson's movie reinforced theories that I was once an officer in the U.S. Navy and Special Forces. I found it harder to put a finger on Tom Hanks movie, because I haven't seen it in a long time. But I remember enjoying the role he played in the movie. As for "Solaris," that reinforced my theory that I went to Saturn in 1976 when I read that it released in 2002 along with the work of the other people I think are my brothers. That release date is closer to my visit to Jupiter though. I don't think I have actually watched that movie before though so I can't think of any details in the plot that might be relevant to me. Patrick Stewart starred in 2002's "Star Trek: Nemesis," and I found myself thinking that opening sequence in the desert vehicle represents a vehicle I would use in the SEAL's. There is also an element to that movie that coincides with how Microsoft/Corbis has been trying to steal my genetic material for their financial gain.
Then I looked back to 1997 to see what was there because I have been thinking that is the year I completely lost my memory.
05/09/1997: "The Fifth Element," Bruce Willis
08/08/1997: "Conspiracy Theory," Mel Gibson, Patrick Stewart
09/26/1997: "The Peacemaker," George Clooney
I think the first detail about that collection of movies that stood out in my mind was how Bruce Willis and Mel Gibson portrayed taxi drivers in their movies. I found myself thinking about that Microsoft marketing slogan "Where do you want to go today?" and how that spacecraft I wrote of earlier, the Project Orion nuclear impulse drive, was referred to as a "space taxi." Some other plot elements from Bruce Willis's movie are about that comet mission I have been writing of. I think the movie is symbolic of how I used four bombs to destroy the comet and I was the fifth component of that mission. There were some other details that I can't remember now off-hand. It is interesting that Mel Gibson and Patrick Stewart were both in that movie and I remember writing a long time ago about my thoughts of him uncharacteristically portraying the bad guy. I am thinking that movie is a work about how my family, and others close to my heart, were seeing me lose my memory and it must have been an agonizing experience, probably what it is like to see someone suffer from Alzheimer's. As for "Peacemaker," it was a good action movie and I think it represents my military experience in general. I don't think I disarmed any nuclear bombs, but reading about the movie makes me think I was in Sarajevo as a counter-sniper at some point. The was a woman at Microsoft who reminded me of Sarajevo for some reason. I can't remember now where she was from originally, but I think it was Yugoslavia and she was put there in a cubicle next to me and on my team because of some assignment I had in the military. I don't see any movies for Tom Hanks in 1997, and I think that is similar to a "missing man" type of message. I noticed recently a similar pattern in the command structure of the aircraft carrier USS Ronald Reagan CVN-76. The Commanding Officer graduated from the U.S. Navy Academy in 1981 and the Executive Officer graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy in 1983. I believe that I graduated from the USNA in 1982. I believe those details demonstrate what is called the "missing man formation" in the aviator profession.
Much of my theory about that spaceship I have been writing about is based on the following sources. I haven't read this book, but it seems to be about the same spacecraft I have been studying:
Project Orion: The True Story of the Atomic Spaceship
Publisher: Henry Holt & Company, Inc.; 1st edition (April 16, 2002)
I found much information on that spacecraft in the source below as well as images from this next link.
Project Orion images
Orion Saturn V Nuclear pulse orbital launch vehicle.
Year: 1965.
Family: Orion.
Country: USA.
The final iteration of the Orion design was a nuclear pulse propulsion module launched into earth orbit by a Saturn V. The 100 tonne unit would have had a diameter of 10 m to match that of the booster. This would limit specific impulse to 1800 to 2500 seconds, still two to three times that of a nuclear thermal system.
A second launch would put a 100 tonne Mars spacecraft with a crew of eight into orbit. After rendezvous and checkout, the combined 200 tonne spacecraft would set out on a round trip to the Mars - total mission duration as little as 125 days!
This PDF document, which I found on the Project Orion wiki page, goes into a great deal of detail about the Project Orion spacecraft. Dated September 19, 1964, there is a mention of a "Space Taxi" in figure 3.11.
Also, much of the information about the dangers of Project Orion didn't apply to what we were doing. One of the original plans for Project Orion, and I guess it would be the only way to get the really big ships off the ground, was to propel the ship into orbit by detonating a nuclear bomb under the ship while it was on the surface of the planet, which would then produce a great deal of radioactive fallout in the atmosphere. My theory is that what we did is better described by the Orion Saturn V configuration, meaning that we launched the Project Orion spacecraft into orbit with conventional rockers and then maneuvered well away from Earth before I pushed the button to detonate that first in a chain of nuclear bombs that propelled me to the outer solar system, with a brief layover on Mars. I am thinking those images of the Project Orion spacecraft even show the storage canisters for the B41 thermonuclear bombs I planted on the comet. In one image, there are two large cylindrical canisters next to each other and next to that lifting-body type of shuttle craft that is also attached to the Orion spacecraft. I am thinking there would be two other canisters just like that on the other side, maybe even 5 altogether with a spare and the B41's, which were about 12 feet long by 4 feet high according to sources, were stored in those canisters. In July 1976, I put the Project Orion in some kind of parking orbit near the comet and then used the shuttle/lander to transport the canisters with the bombs, probably one at a time, or maybe two at a time, down to the comet, which was like flying through a hurricane that was going over a gravel pit.
One of the earliest clues I puzzled over consciously for a long time was from the premier of "Star Trek: Enterprise." I puzzled over several details from that first episode, with the most distinct clue being that it was titled "Broken Bow," which referred to its fictional setting in the real town of Broken Bow, Oklahoma. I immediately recognized Broken Bow because it was a town on the road between the town of Ashdown, Arkansas, where I went to high school, and the town of Antlers, Oklahoma, where I was born and my paternal grandfather still lived. And I wondered about the date of that fictional mission in that first episode as it was an April 16th and that seemed important to me as well from a past experience with the Navy in the Persian Gulf. That led to my "April 16" theory and that detail about Burgess Street at Eureka College is another example of that theory, as it always has to do with something about me being in the middle of something, and I think that is the symbolic message that was designed. As for Broken Bow, I really puzzled over that one when I was astounded to realize that Broken Bow is precisely at the mid-point on the road that travels between Antlers, OK, and Ashdown, AR. That must mean something I thought to myself many times but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. And there was April 16, too. I remembered April 16 as being the middle day between April 14, 1988, and April 18, 1988. All the people following me all these years knows what I've written about those two dates. The first is when the USS Roberts FFG-58 struck an anti-ship mine in the Persian Gulf. April 18, 1988, is when the U.S. Navy, including my ship, the USS Wainwright, retaliated and my ship was almost hit by an anti-ship missile. That mystery from "Star Trek" grew even more pronounced when I was watching the premier episode of "Lost," which premiered on 9/22/05, but that I didn't actually watch until that episode was re-run that following Saturday, 9/25/05, which is a variation of "59." The clue that really caught my attention was at the end of the two-part series premier. According to the transcript from that episode, the survivors of the crash picked up a distress call that had been repeating for 16 years, 5 months. I did my own calculation based on the numbers of iterations in that episode and counting backwards from that episode's television broadcast date of 9/29/05, the numbers pointed precisely to April 14, 1988, the day the USS Roberts struck that anti-ship mine. As for Broken Bow, I noticed something else that reinforced my theory: running through the middle of Broken Bow, OK, is Highway 259. Then I noticed something else: the road my father lived on near Asher, OK, was Highway 59. In the town I went to school in from 9th grade until graduation, we commonly referred to the main highway running through it as Highway 71. But according to the map, and I "remember" this too, it is also Highway 59. The town we lived in when I went to the 1st through 8th grades was named De Queen, AR, and we lived off Highway 59 there too. We lived in a trailer park that had a corn field next to it and then a drive-in movie theater next to the field. I found myself thinking about how the downtown area of De Queen looks remarkably similar to "Hill Valley" from "Back To The Future," which is a tangent I want to keep from veering off to right now, but I have plenty to write about that. Then I noticed something else when I remembered that girlfriend I had from camp named Phoebe. She lived in Williston, AR, and went to school in Rosston, AR. On the road between those two towns, almost exactly in the middle, was the intersection with Highway 76, reinforcing my theory that I visited the Saturn moon Phoebe in 1976. I have found several other occurrences of "76" in highways that I don't believe are coincidences. Back in De Queen, I looked at a place I "remember" living with my mom's second husband, James Nevells. This place was on the west side of De Queen and right between the place where Highway 70 forked as one part went through downtown De Queen and the other section went along the outskirts of town. One section is labeled after a person name "Raye" and the other section is labeled "Locke," reminiscent of the character "Locke" from "Lost." I have been thinking for a while that he is a member of my family, as is at least one other actor in the series. On May 9th, before I pinpointed the location of those lottery number lat/long coordinates, I had written earlier that day about how Lockesburg was almost precisely at the mid-point on the road between Ashdown and De Queen, consistent with my "April 16" theory.
My theory about my memory loss is reinforced by the 1994 movie "Star Trek: Generations," as well as a scene in "Quigley Down Under" where he says something about how wishes people would quit hitting him in the head. In "Generations," after "Captain Kirk" saves the "Enterprise-B," the scene shifts 78 years into the future and there are a few details there that stand out in my mind. The primary details I found myself considering is that if Patrick Stewart was really my father, several of those clues makes sense. My theory is that earlier that year, on 6/27/1994, I survived an airplane crash and I was the only survivor, not unlike that scene from "Unbreakable" where he is the only survivor of the train wreck. This overall theory about surviving an airplane crash formed when I read something about an aircraft that was part of a space program initiative to launch a rocket named "Pegasus" into orbit. The Pegasus rocket was a booster that carried communications satellites into orbit. The aircraft, that I believe I was flying as an officer of the U.S. Navy, was a Lockheed L-1011 and it had been nicknamed, "Stargazer." Any fan of Star Trek would recognize the name "Stargazer" as the first starship that "Captain Picard" commanded in the Star Trek universe, and according to sources, that was why it was given that nickname. The function of the Ten-Eleven aircraft was to fly up to an altitude of 40,000 feet - about 8 miles - and drop the Pegasus rocket, which was attached to the aircraft fuselage. The unmanned Pegasus rocket would ignite and blast into orbit. On this particular day of 6/27/94, when I believe I was flying the Ten-Eleven, nickname "Stargazer," while a U.S. Navy Lieutenant Commander, there was a serious problem with the launch of the Pegasus. All I really know about all this is one actual detail that I have read indicating that the "Stargazer" did launch a Pegasus rocket in June 1994, but the launch was a failure. That is all I really know. Everything else, as much of what I have written, are either real, forgotten memories trying to resurface in my mind, or it is all just random thoughts of imagination. I believe absolutely it is the former though. As for "Stargazer," I have two theories about what happened that day. One is that the rocket was deployed, but it exploded when it was supposed to ignite. The other theory is that the rocket fired before it had detached from the fuselage and carried us farther up into the atmosphere before it disconnected or exploded. Whichever way it happened, the impact to the aircraft was virtually the same and the aircraft broke into several pieces as it plummeted over 8 miles to Earth. This theory was reinforced when I read similar details from the transcript of the first episode of "Lost" where "Jack" told some other passengers that they had been at 40,000 feet when their plane broke apart. I believe the pilot who was killed by the polar bear in the pilot episode was a comical reference to me, and that while the first episodes of any new series are referred to as the "pilot" episode, I believe that series premier episode was titled "Pilot" to point to me as an aircraft pilot. So anyway, the plane crashed somewhere in a jungle, making me think of that scene in "Jurassic Park III" where they were rolling around in the airplane that crashed in the trees, and I am thinking that the "Stargazer" crashed somewhere in the jungle of South America. I figure I was on the ground for several days at the crash scene before being rescued. My thoughts suggest that the co-pilot survived at first but then died shortly after from injuries during the crash and before the rescue team arrived. This overall theory was further reinforced when I saw the movie "Superman Returns" earlier this year. That sequence with the airplane "Superman" saved from crashing was amazingly similar to my theory about the L-1011 "Stargazer" aircraft. The pilot in that movie was wearing the gold oak leaf insignia of a Lieutenant Commander in the USN or a Major of the other branches of the U.S. military. That newspaper title "Superman returns from nowhere to save space shuttle from destruction" was consistent with my theory that I saved the Columbia space shuttle in 1981. I found myself thinking about how quiet it must have been in there when the engines cut off that jet airliner and that was something I had thought of often connected to being on a U.S. Navy ship, which used jet turbines for engines. I thought often, maybe even dreamed about it at night, of one of more times when the ship's turbines stopped for some reason, and then it what seemed like an eternity, a lot of alarms would start going off. So back to "Generations," the detail that stands out in my mind is when "Picard" tells "Riker" that he "learned long ago to never underestimate Klingons" and then in the next scene where he went to the comm panel and found out his brother and nephew died in a fire. I believe that part about them dying in a fire actually represents what Patrick Stewart felt when he heard that I had crashed in the L-1011 "Stargazer" earlier that year and they would have surely thought we were all dead because it would have been such a violent explosion and crash. But they cleverly threw in that part before that scene about not underestimating "Worf" because, by that time, they knew that I actually had survived the explosion and crash. I have been thinking for awhile that "Worf" represents aspects of my military service and that the name is a variation on 'wolf.' I started thinking that the "r" was represent "our wolf" and then I decided that it represents "Reagan's wolf." I'm still entertaining the theory that NASA, probably in conjunction with the Russians, sent me on a secret trip to the Moon in 1994 to commemorate the 25th anniversary of Apollo 11. But I don't know. A component of that theory is that I went into orbit on STS-65 where the craft that would take me to the Moon was waiting. That shuttle launch was on 7/8/94, a possible clue itself, but considering that the "Stargazer" crash, if it even did crash, was only 11 days earlier, that seems crazy that I would then go on to take a trip to the Moon after surviving such a horrendous crash. But it is possible that I transferred from STS-65 to the trans-lunar ship, went to the moon, and transfered back to land on STS-65, because STS-65 was in orbit for 15 days and Apollo 11 itself only took 8 days from Earth-launch to Earth-landing. So anyway, I think my memory started fading more and more after all that and in 1997, I developed complete amnesia, from which it has taken me almost a decade to recover to this point. I have been under some form of control, some kind of mental control, such as hypnosis, although I don't know how they are doing it, for all this time.
So anyway, back on ST:TNG, I believe I escaped from the Libyans and then went home to visit my family for a while in 1987 before going back on active duty. I found an interesting connection to Jane Wyman, who I think is my maternal grandmother, and her 1980's television series "Falcon Crest," which was set in a vineyard. I don't think it is a coincidence that the woman who portrayed the mother of "Spock" in the original Star Trek series was an actress named Jane Wyatt. I was recently reading through a document about the meaning of asteroid names and I discovered that "3359 Purcari" was named in 1978 after Purcari in Moldova, a region known for its wines. I discovered that clue as I was researching the astronauts that died on the Challenger space shuttle in January 1986. I discovered that several asteroids were named for those astronauts and that all those asteroid's number designations were in the format of 335x. I had been wondering if I had known one of the astronauts named Judy Resnik, and along with the asteroid, I discovered there was a crater on the Moon named after her and its location was 33 degrees and 150 degrees. That piqued my interest because 33 and 15 are two numbers that have been coming up a lot. I have found a lot of airport runways that are configured as 15/33 and I think it is relevant to me. The landing strip the space shuttle uses at Kennedy Space Center is configured at 15/33. It may be that is just a popular format, because it almost lines up precisely north-south. Or it may be that my mother's birthday was January 5th and my birthday is March 3rd. I think that I knew Resnik from STS-41-D because I was a secret crewmember of that space shuttle flight as well. I believe that particular mission was to symbolize the "441" aspect of my 1976 mission to the outer solar system. According to sources, the STS-41-D flight ended on 9/5/84, where September 5th is sometimes a variation of my so-called "birth mark." The letter "D" is the fourth letter in the English alphabet.
Back to ST:TNG, I believe the reason Patrick Stewart was chosen to portray "Captain Picard," along with his superb acting skills, is because he is my father. I still don't actually remember him, or any of my real family, but I believe it is true. And it makes sense to as I look back over the years. Over the past few months, I have decided that I have 3 older brothers and one younger brother. My three older brothers are Bruce Willis, Mel Gibson, and Tom Hanks. My younger brother is George Clooney. I find myself thinking that I do remember them, because they seem similar to people I do remember, but those people I remember are different people.
A few days ago, I was startled when I was studying their movie releases for the year 2000. This is the list and I think these are relevant to me, each one contributing to a message, sort of a postcard to their missing brother who was consciously oblivious to it all. But I do remember the movie "Unbreakable" the most and it had a very positive impact on me.
05/13/2000: "O Brother, Where Art Thou?" George Clooney
06/30/2000: "The Patriot," Mel Gibson
11/22/2000: "Unbreakable," Bruce Willis
12/22/2000: "Cast Away," Tom Hanks
A friend suggested we go to see "The Patriot" when it premiered and I still remember feeling choked up about that scene on the beach where his youngest daughter runs away from him or wouldn't talk to him, whichever it was. I think that is straight out of something from my real life and/or it just serves to represent that I miss my kids, the ones I can't even consciously remember. There is also some symbolism to my mission in 1976 to destroy the comet that threatened the planet, and I may go into more detail about that later in describing my thoughts on the movie "Independence Day" from 1996. The movie "Cast Away" was a good work of symbolism for my amnesia and, at first, I was thinking that plot element about the Wilson volley ball represents Ronald Wilson Reagan's battle with Alzheimer's, especially that scene where "Wilson" is floating away, never to be found again. But then recently, I began to wonder if Reagan did not actually have Alzheimer's and that was all symbolic of me losing my memory gradually, starting I guess in 1994, when I survived a horrific plane crash, which I might describe later. But I feel indecisive on that topic, as I waver between thinking he really did suffer from that conditon before he passed away in 2004. But it may represent the struggle both of of endured and the family who cared for us. Clooney's "O Brother, Where Art Thou" was a very enjoyable movie, and I think it had elements in it about my escape from POW captivity in 1986 and 1987. There were many details that stood out in my mind as I was watching it is few months ago, and one was about all his kids, especially the new one he didn't know about until he found his wife after making it home. Another detail was how they thought he had been killed by a train. I am not entirely sure what that means, but I think it is relevant to me being missing for a long time. As in "Cast Away," I think they actually had a burial service for me at Arlington National Cemetery, and that is why I "remember" having a girlfriend that was from a town named Arlington. That girlfriend and I were sitting in a movie theater, according to my "memory," for the release of "Top Gun" and I remember that she was cold. I think that is some kind of twisted symbolism that I was thought to be dead at that time and she was my girlfriend, who was also dead. I started thinking more about her and I decided that really is what it means because she and I met when I was in a school in the Navy and I had failed a test earlier that day and it was a really bad day for me. I think that represents how I had been shot down in an A-6 aircraft somewhere over Africa. There was another detail I wanted to mention from Clooney's movie, but it slipped my mind as soon as I thought about it. So anyway, along with those movies in 2000, Patrick Stewart portrayed "Dr. Xavier" in "X-Men. The year 2000 was also the premier of "Gladiator" and I think that Russell Crowe and I were good friends back before I lost my identity. As with Clooney's movie, I think that "Gladiator" was timed to premier close to May 9th, because of the 5/9 in that date. I also think that "Gladiator" represents in many aspects, my experiences in Africa after I escaped the Libyans and was trying to get back to the Navy. I started thinking that as in the 1996 movie, "The Ghost and the Darkness," I killed a lion with my bare hands at some point in my escape, possibly after I was captured by locals and thrown into a cage with a lion. I think that I had to fight in a cage like that several times, and that is why my friend Crowe took the role in "Gladiator" and the scar on my hip is from my captors injuring me because I was always winning and they wanted to even the odds somewhat by crippling me. My thoughts have stayed consistent that I completed my escape sometime around, probably just before, 5/17/87. I have been thinking that Saddamn Hussein fired a couple of missiles into the USS Stark FFG-31 just to dampen the mood about me returning home alive after everyone had thought for so long that I was dead. A few days ago I was reading about a comic book character named "Iron Man," produced by Marvel comics, and the name of "Iron Man's" secret identity is "Anthony Edward Stark." All of this theory was reinforced when I read a 5/18/87 speech by Reagan, that he made before speaking about the strike on the Stark, and he made some comments about someone that was shocked to find they had received flowers for a funeral. I believe that was a reference, similar to the scene in "Cast Away," where they told me they had actually had a funeral for me a few months earlier. On the following day, the 19th, Reagan issued Proclamation 5659, which was to order all flags at half-staff in respect for the USS Stark. Further reinforcing my theory about a long trek across Africa in 1986 and 1987, was Congressional legislation that went into effect in 1987. On December 16, 1987, the Trail of Tears National Historic Trail became Public Law to commemorate "the removal of the Cherokee and the paths that 17 Cherokee detachments followed westward. Today the trail encompasses about 2,200 miles of land and water routes, and traverses portions of nine states." On that same day, 12/16/87, according to Reagan's public papers, Reagan sent the "Letter to the Speaker of the House of Representatives and the President of the Senate on Low Intensity Conflict Policy," which discusses such topics as improving the level of support for Special Operations and "those who put their lives on the line in the common cause of freedom." This is off topic, but as I was looking back through my journal on my notes about the "Trail of Tears," I remembered another observation that reinforced my theory that Ronald Reagan is my maternal grandfather. I was reading a 5/9/82 speech he gave at the college he graduated from, Eureka College in Illinois, and I noticed the street that runs through the middle of that college is that same as my last name, Burgess. According to the map, Burgess Street runs through the middle of campus and intersects with Reagan Drive, which runs along the south edge of the campus. Reagan Drive then turns in CR-875 and I have been wondering if that number for the county road was selected to reflect my return home from Africa in May 1987.
After reviewing all those movies, I decided to look at their other works and I liked what I found.
02/15/2002: "Hart's War," Bruce Willis
03/01/2002: "We Were Soldiers," Mel Gibson
07/12/2002: "Road To Perdition," Tom Hanks
11/19/2002: "Solaris," George Clooney
The premier date for "Hart's War" reinforced my theory that I was shot down on 2/14/86 and was a POW for a while after that. Mel Gibson's movie reinforced theories that I was once an officer in the U.S. Navy and Special Forces. I found it harder to put a finger on Tom Hanks movie, because I haven't seen it in a long time. But I remember enjoying the role he played in the movie. As for "Solaris," that reinforced my theory that I went to Saturn in 1976 when I read that it released in 2002 along with the work of the other people I think are my brothers. That release date is closer to my visit to Jupiter though. I don't think I have actually watched that movie before though so I can't think of any details in the plot that might be relevant to me. Patrick Stewart starred in 2002's "Star Trek: Nemesis," and I found myself thinking that opening sequence in the desert vehicle represents a vehicle I would use in the SEAL's. There is also an element to that movie that coincides with how Microsoft/Corbis has been trying to steal my genetic material for their financial gain.
Then I looked back to 1997 to see what was there because I have been thinking that is the year I completely lost my memory.
05/09/1997: "The Fifth Element," Bruce Willis
08/08/1997: "Conspiracy Theory," Mel Gibson, Patrick Stewart
09/26/1997: "The Peacemaker," George Clooney
I think the first detail about that collection of movies that stood out in my mind was how Bruce Willis and Mel Gibson portrayed taxi drivers in their movies. I found myself thinking about that Microsoft marketing slogan "Where do you want to go today?" and how that spacecraft I wrote of earlier, the Project Orion nuclear impulse drive, was referred to as a "space taxi." Some other plot elements from Bruce Willis's movie are about that comet mission I have been writing of. I think the movie is symbolic of how I used four bombs to destroy the comet and I was the fifth component of that mission. There were some other details that I can't remember now off-hand. It is interesting that Mel Gibson and Patrick Stewart were both in that movie and I remember writing a long time ago about my thoughts of him uncharacteristically portraying the bad guy. I am thinking that movie is a work about how my family, and others close to my heart, were seeing me lose my memory and it must have been an agonizing experience, probably what it is like to see someone suffer from Alzheimer's. As for "Peacemaker," it was a good action movie and I think it represents my military experience in general. I don't think I disarmed any nuclear bombs, but reading about the movie makes me think I was in Sarajevo as a counter-sniper at some point. The was a woman at Microsoft who reminded me of Sarajevo for some reason. I can't remember now where she was from originally, but I think it was Yugoslavia and she was put there in a cubicle next to me and on my team because of some assignment I had in the military. I don't see any movies for Tom Hanks in 1997, and I think that is similar to a "missing man" type of message. I noticed recently a similar pattern in the command structure of the aircraft carrier USS Ronald Reagan CVN-76. The Commanding Officer graduated from the U.S. Navy Academy in 1981 and the Executive Officer graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy in 1983. I believe that I graduated from the USNA in 1982. I believe those details demonstrate what is called the "missing man formation" in the aviator profession.
Much of my theory about that spaceship I have been writing about is based on the following sources. I haven't read this book, but it seems to be about the same spacecraft I have been studying:
Project Orion: The True Story of the Atomic Spaceship
Publisher: Henry Holt & Company, Inc.; 1st edition (April 16, 2002)
I found much information on that spacecraft in the source below as well as images from this next link.
Project Orion images
Orion Saturn V Nuclear pulse orbital launch vehicle.
Year: 1965.
Family: Orion.
Country: USA.
The final iteration of the Orion design was a nuclear pulse propulsion module launched into earth orbit by a Saturn V. The 100 tonne unit would have had a diameter of 10 m to match that of the booster. This would limit specific impulse to 1800 to 2500 seconds, still two to three times that of a nuclear thermal system.
A second launch would put a 100 tonne Mars spacecraft with a crew of eight into orbit. After rendezvous and checkout, the combined 200 tonne spacecraft would set out on a round trip to the Mars - total mission duration as little as 125 days!
This PDF document, which I found on the Project Orion wiki page, goes into a great deal of detail about the Project Orion spacecraft. Dated September 19, 1964, there is a mention of a "Space Taxi" in figure 3.11.
Also, much of the information about the dangers of Project Orion didn't apply to what we were doing. One of the original plans for Project Orion, and I guess it would be the only way to get the really big ships off the ground, was to propel the ship into orbit by detonating a nuclear bomb under the ship while it was on the surface of the planet, which would then produce a great deal of radioactive fallout in the atmosphere. My theory is that what we did is better described by the Orion Saturn V configuration, meaning that we launched the Project Orion spacecraft into orbit with conventional rockers and then maneuvered well away from Earth before I pushed the button to detonate that first in a chain of nuclear bombs that propelled me to the outer solar system, with a brief layover on Mars. I am thinking those images of the Project Orion spacecraft even show the storage canisters for the B41 thermonuclear bombs I planted on the comet. In one image, there are two large cylindrical canisters next to each other and next to that lifting-body type of shuttle craft that is also attached to the Orion spacecraft. I am thinking there would be two other canisters just like that on the other side, maybe even 5 altogether with a spare and the B41's, which were about 12 feet long by 4 feet high according to sources, were stored in those canisters. In July 1976, I put the Project Orion in some kind of parking orbit near the comet and then used the shuttle/lander to transport the canisters with the bombs, probably one at a time, or maybe two at a time, down to the comet, which was like flying through a hurricane that was going over a gravel pit.
One of the earliest clues I puzzled over consciously for a long time was from the premier of "Star Trek: Enterprise." I puzzled over several details from that first episode, with the most distinct clue being that it was titled "Broken Bow," which referred to its fictional setting in the real town of Broken Bow, Oklahoma. I immediately recognized Broken Bow because it was a town on the road between the town of Ashdown, Arkansas, where I went to high school, and the town of Antlers, Oklahoma, where I was born and my paternal grandfather still lived. And I wondered about the date of that fictional mission in that first episode as it was an April 16th and that seemed important to me as well from a past experience with the Navy in the Persian Gulf. That led to my "April 16" theory and that detail about Burgess Street at Eureka College is another example of that theory, as it always has to do with something about me being in the middle of something, and I think that is the symbolic message that was designed. As for Broken Bow, I really puzzled over that one when I was astounded to realize that Broken Bow is precisely at the mid-point on the road that travels between Antlers, OK, and Ashdown, AR. That must mean something I thought to myself many times but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. And there was April 16, too. I remembered April 16 as being the middle day between April 14, 1988, and April 18, 1988. All the people following me all these years knows what I've written about those two dates. The first is when the USS Roberts FFG-58 struck an anti-ship mine in the Persian Gulf. April 18, 1988, is when the U.S. Navy, including my ship, the USS Wainwright, retaliated and my ship was almost hit by an anti-ship missile. That mystery from "Star Trek" grew even more pronounced when I was watching the premier episode of "Lost," which premiered on 9/22/05, but that I didn't actually watch until that episode was re-run that following Saturday, 9/25/05, which is a variation of "59." The clue that really caught my attention was at the end of the two-part series premier. According to the transcript from that episode, the survivors of the crash picked up a distress call that had been repeating for 16 years, 5 months. I did my own calculation based on the numbers of iterations in that episode and counting backwards from that episode's television broadcast date of 9/29/05, the numbers pointed precisely to April 14, 1988, the day the USS Roberts struck that anti-ship mine. As for Broken Bow, I noticed something else that reinforced my theory: running through the middle of Broken Bow, OK, is Highway 259. Then I noticed something else: the road my father lived on near Asher, OK, was Highway 59. In the town I went to school in from 9th grade until graduation, we commonly referred to the main highway running through it as Highway 71. But according to the map, and I "remember" this too, it is also Highway 59. The town we lived in when I went to the 1st through 8th grades was named De Queen, AR, and we lived off Highway 59 there too. We lived in a trailer park that had a corn field next to it and then a drive-in movie theater next to the field. I found myself thinking about how the downtown area of De Queen looks remarkably similar to "Hill Valley" from "Back To The Future," which is a tangent I want to keep from veering off to right now, but I have plenty to write about that. Then I noticed something else when I remembered that girlfriend I had from camp named Phoebe. She lived in Williston, AR, and went to school in Rosston, AR. On the road between those two towns, almost exactly in the middle, was the intersection with Highway 76, reinforcing my theory that I visited the Saturn moon Phoebe in 1976. I have found several other occurrences of "76" in highways that I don't believe are coincidences. Back in De Queen, I looked at a place I "remember" living with my mom's second husband, James Nevells. This place was on the west side of De Queen and right between the place where Highway 70 forked as one part went through downtown De Queen and the other section went along the outskirts of town. One section is labeled after a person name "Raye" and the other section is labeled "Locke," reminiscent of the character "Locke" from "Lost." I have been thinking for a while that he is a member of my family, as is at least one other actor in the series. On May 9th, before I pinpointed the location of those lottery number lat/long coordinates, I had written earlier that day about how Lockesburg was almost precisely at the mid-point on the road between Ashdown and De Queen, consistent with my "April 16" theory.
My theory about my memory loss is reinforced by the 1994 movie "Star Trek: Generations," as well as a scene in "Quigley Down Under" where he says something about how wishes people would quit hitting him in the head. In "Generations," after "Captain Kirk" saves the "Enterprise-B," the scene shifts 78 years into the future and there are a few details there that stand out in my mind. The primary details I found myself considering is that if Patrick Stewart was really my father, several of those clues makes sense. My theory is that earlier that year, on 6/27/1994, I survived an airplane crash and I was the only survivor, not unlike that scene from "Unbreakable" where he is the only survivor of the train wreck. This overall theory about surviving an airplane crash formed when I read something about an aircraft that was part of a space program initiative to launch a rocket named "Pegasus" into orbit. The Pegasus rocket was a booster that carried communications satellites into orbit. The aircraft, that I believe I was flying as an officer of the U.S. Navy, was a Lockheed L-1011 and it had been nicknamed, "Stargazer." Any fan of Star Trek would recognize the name "Stargazer" as the first starship that "Captain Picard" commanded in the Star Trek universe, and according to sources, that was why it was given that nickname. The function of the Ten-Eleven aircraft was to fly up to an altitude of 40,000 feet - about 8 miles - and drop the Pegasus rocket, which was attached to the aircraft fuselage. The unmanned Pegasus rocket would ignite and blast into orbit. On this particular day of 6/27/94, when I believe I was flying the Ten-Eleven, nickname "Stargazer," while a U.S. Navy Lieutenant Commander, there was a serious problem with the launch of the Pegasus. All I really know about all this is one actual detail that I have read indicating that the "Stargazer" did launch a Pegasus rocket in June 1994, but the launch was a failure. That is all I really know. Everything else, as much of what I have written, are either real, forgotten memories trying to resurface in my mind, or it is all just random thoughts of imagination. I believe absolutely it is the former though. As for "Stargazer," I have two theories about what happened that day. One is that the rocket was deployed, but it exploded when it was supposed to ignite. The other theory is that the rocket fired before it had detached from the fuselage and carried us farther up into the atmosphere before it disconnected or exploded. Whichever way it happened, the impact to the aircraft was virtually the same and the aircraft broke into several pieces as it plummeted over 8 miles to Earth. This theory was reinforced when I read similar details from the transcript of the first episode of "Lost" where "Jack" told some other passengers that they had been at 40,000 feet when their plane broke apart. I believe the pilot who was killed by the polar bear in the pilot episode was a comical reference to me, and that while the first episodes of any new series are referred to as the "pilot" episode, I believe that series premier episode was titled "Pilot" to point to me as an aircraft pilot. So anyway, the plane crashed somewhere in a jungle, making me think of that scene in "Jurassic Park III" where they were rolling around in the airplane that crashed in the trees, and I am thinking that the "Stargazer" crashed somewhere in the jungle of South America. I figure I was on the ground for several days at the crash scene before being rescued. My thoughts suggest that the co-pilot survived at first but then died shortly after from injuries during the crash and before the rescue team arrived. This overall theory was further reinforced when I saw the movie "Superman Returns" earlier this year. That sequence with the airplane "Superman" saved from crashing was amazingly similar to my theory about the L-1011 "Stargazer" aircraft. The pilot in that movie was wearing the gold oak leaf insignia of a Lieutenant Commander in the USN or a Major of the other branches of the U.S. military. That newspaper title "Superman returns from nowhere to save space shuttle from destruction" was consistent with my theory that I saved the Columbia space shuttle in 1981. I found myself thinking about how quiet it must have been in there when the engines cut off that jet airliner and that was something I had thought of often connected to being on a U.S. Navy ship, which used jet turbines for engines. I thought often, maybe even dreamed about it at night, of one of more times when the ship's turbines stopped for some reason, and then it what seemed like an eternity, a lot of alarms would start going off. So back to "Generations," the detail that stands out in my mind is when "Picard" tells "Riker" that he "learned long ago to never underestimate Klingons" and then in the next scene where he went to the comm panel and found out his brother and nephew died in a fire. I believe that part about them dying in a fire actually represents what Patrick Stewart felt when he heard that I had crashed in the L-1011 "Stargazer" earlier that year and they would have surely thought we were all dead because it would have been such a violent explosion and crash. But they cleverly threw in that part before that scene about not underestimating "Worf" because, by that time, they knew that I actually had survived the explosion and crash. I have been thinking for awhile that "Worf" represents aspects of my military service and that the name is a variation on 'wolf.' I started thinking that the "r" was represent "our wolf" and then I decided that it represents "Reagan's wolf." I'm still entertaining the theory that NASA, probably in conjunction with the Russians, sent me on a secret trip to the Moon in 1994 to commemorate the 25th anniversary of Apollo 11. But I don't know. A component of that theory is that I went into orbit on STS-65 where the craft that would take me to the Moon was waiting. That shuttle launch was on 7/8/94, a possible clue itself, but considering that the "Stargazer" crash, if it even did crash, was only 11 days earlier, that seems crazy that I would then go on to take a trip to the Moon after surviving such a horrendous crash. But it is possible that I transferred from STS-65 to the trans-lunar ship, went to the moon, and transfered back to land on STS-65, because STS-65 was in orbit for 15 days and Apollo 11 itself only took 8 days from Earth-launch to Earth-landing. So anyway, I think my memory started fading more and more after all that and in 1997, I developed complete amnesia, from which it has taken me almost a decade to recover to this point. I have been under some form of control, some kind of mental control, such as hypnosis, although I don't know how they are doing it, for all this time.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Independence Day
I have determined that other companies were conspirators of Microsoft, such as Bank of America. I opened an account with them in 2002, but don't use anymore, and the pin code they sent me in the U.S. mail with the debit card was 7938. A while back, I realized that is Brian Dennehy's birthday, according to sources. I recorded that revelation in my journal on July 13, 2006. The role I always remember Dennehy playing was the dirty cop Sheriff in the 1982 movie "Rambo." So I started wondering if Bank of America was trying to clue me into some danger because Sheriff Dave Reichert had it in for me as he was on the payroll for protecting Microsoft's criminal activities. But as I thought more about it, I realized if they were trying to tell me something, they weren't trying very hard because I didn't figure it out until 4 years later. The conclusion I arrived at is they were doing the same thing Microsoft/Corbis was doing, probably in collusion with Microsoft/Corbis, to inject themselves into the content Microsoft/Corbis was secretly creating by staging all this craziness around me 24 hours a day.
I started looking more into "Rambo" and I found some other interesting clues. The most interesting is that the movie released in 1982, and I believe it was planned that way to coincide with my graduation from the U.S. Naval Academy and because I was already qualified in the top-tier of Special Forces by that time. I believe the movie reflects many lessons that military officers are taught and I think the most important lesson for us was to never forget that we were leaders of men who are not machines. The idea is that we all might have different reasons for serving our country but the basic reason is that all of us serving do so because our families and ourselves benefit from the nature of peace. A few days ago, I followed a hunch and I looked to see if there is a Hope, WA, as depicted in the movie. The MSN map service finds a place called Hope and it is located on Fox Island, near Tacoma, WA. The zip code for Fox Island, WA, according to usps.com, is 98333. One other detail has been puzzling me since I saw that movie again a few months ago. Towards the end of the movie, "Rambo" is telling "Trautman" about how he and his buddy were going to go to Las Vegas one time when they were on leave from the Army. As soon as I heard that in the movie, I remembered something from a few years ago at Microsoft. I'm not sure of the year, maybe 2000 or 2001, I was in Las Vegas at a meeting for a company that did business with my group at Microsoft. Ken Fagan was down there with me and we were both giving technical presentations at the meeting. He and I were out walking in Vegas after going to a bar and he told me about one time when he was on leave from the Army and had spent some time in Vegas. The more I think about it, the more I suspect that every single conversation I had when working at Microsoft was staged for the benefit of the content that Microsoft/Corbis was developing.
So anyway, I thought more about the movies of 1982 and I remembered that is the year that "An Officer And A Gentleman" was released and I think that was also supposed to coincide with my graduation from the USNA. But I think the story is about someone who would later be a friend of mine as we were serving as pilots in the fleet. I developed that theory when I discovered that the area around Annapolis, Maryland, was settled by two families with the names Burgess and Mayo. In my current mindset, Burgess is my real last name and Mayo was the name of the protagonist character in the movie. I thought of several details from that movie that seemed important. One is that "Zack's" father resembled the person I "remember" as the senior Boatswain on my first ship when I was in the Deck department, working for the Boatswain's as a non-rated sailor. Then I thought of how Louis Gossett also resembled the Chief Boatswain on that ship. I started thinking that the reason "Zack" lived in the Philippines is because my real father's name or maybe his father's name, neither of whom I can actually remember, is Philip. I decided that I am highly trained at the martial art Aikido because Microsoft/Corbis positioned a woman named Akiko around me when I was working at Microsoft and instructed her to introduce herself to me. I find myself seeming to understand techniques of Aikido but I cannot understand how I know what I can't even consciously describe. Recently, I was reading through some quotes from this movie and I started thinking that the mother of my oldest son, who I can't actually remember either, along with any of my kids, but I have lately started feeling that I know who they all are, is named Debbie. In the movie, there is a scene, although I don't actually remember it as I haven't seen the movie in a long time, where they have a cadence call going about "Sgt. Foley" protecting them from the "Puget Deb." The "Deb's" are the "debutante's" but I think that my son's mother is also named Debbie and that is why they created that reference.
Another movie from 1982 is "E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial." I haven't seen this movie in a long time and I don't remember it very well, but my general impression is about "calling home." In my "memory," I started off my enlistment to earn the rating of Electronics Technician, but then I switched to another rating in the Advanced Electronics Field called Fire Control Technician. They were similar in function, but the primary purpose of the Fire Controlman is to maintain the electronics and electrical systems that control the weapons on the ship, in essence, to control the fire of the weapons. The reason I started thinking about the Electronics Technician is because the official USN abbreviation for that rating is E.T. There is probably a great deal more symbolism there in that movie, considering my service in the space program, but that is all I can think of now.
Those are the three primary movies from 1982 that I think are relevant to me, although there are many others, maybe even from that year, but definitely from the years before and after 1982. The other highly symbolic event from 1982 that I have been studying recently is the World's Fair in Knoxville, TN. I noticed that the road running in front of the Sunsphere is labeled as Highway 441 and Highway 33. I don't want to get too far into detail on the "441" but one point is that it was 4/14/77 when I returned from my "COLE" mission but I think the primary symbolism there is supposed to represent the "441" because that was an element of my objective on 7/4/76. Additional details I discovered a few days ago are that the support structure for the Sunsphere is 58.07 meters and the sphere itself is 23 meters. I believe that the 58.07 was supposed to represent the "59" of my birth-year and the "23" was my jersey number my senior year at the USNA when I was on the basketball team. The sphere even looks like a golden basketball. A minor league basketball team, according to sources, from Pensacola, the home base of the Blue Angels, wanted to make the Sunsphere their headquarters office. The gold color could symbolize my name of Ray, because of "sun ray." The zip code of Sunburst, Montana, is 59482, where I believe I graduated the USNA in April 1982.
I alluded earlier to another occurrence of "Ray Gun" and it was something I just picked up on with the past few weeks. There is a scene in 1984's "Terminator" where they are watching the video interview of "Reese" and they all laugh about the part where the doctor asks why he didn't bring a "ray gun" back with him. That scene, I believe a tonque-in-cheek reference to me, reinforces a detail I have been thinking about for a long time. Sometime in my second year at Microsoft, which was in the year 2000, I moved to a window cubicle on my floor in the Bellevue, WA, office building we occupied a few miles from the Redmond campus. It was a great seat and I had an incredible view of the surrounding area, I think we were on the 10th floor, and of the Seattle skyline. Sitting in the cubicle next to me, visible to all the people secretly recording us with cameras, was a woman who had a striking resemblance from a distance, because of her hair, to the character Linda Hamilton portrayed in "Terminator." It was only a few months earlier that Microsoft selected John Connors as the Chief Financial Officer for Microsoft. As any fan of "Terminator" knows, the "Terminator" was trying to kill Hamilton's character, while in the past, before she could give birth to "John Connor," the future savior of humanity.
I just now remembered that 1982 was also the year that "Star Trek II: The Wrath Of Khan" was released. I haven't fully processed the relevant symbolism to my life in that installment, but it may have continuing elements from the first Star Trek movie. I believe the primary reason for the first movie, as was the first "Star Wars" movie of 5/25/77, is to represent my "COLE" mission of 11/2/75 to 4/14/77. The first "Star Wars" released 41 days after my return on 4/14/77 and that is a highly relevant number in the clues I have found and assembled. A non-movie detail that reinforces my notions that I was on a secret mission in space from 11/2/75 to 4/14/77 is that the town of Black Eagle, Montana, is zip code 59414. I believe that "Black Eagle," was the code name for my space craft and was chosen because I was part of the "Eagle has landed" of Apollo 11 and because my mission was secret. I have been slowly remembering, or maybe just imagining, details about that mission over the past few months. It was August 13th, according to my journal entries, when I realized that all the thoughts I was having about being in the space program were actually in the past and not in the future, as I had been thinking. I couldn't imagine that I had ever been in space so all those ideas must have been about something that was going to happen, not something that had already happened. My mission was to destroy the "Death Star" is how I started to think of it. The "Death Star" was actually a comet that was going to impact Earth and some point. As in the movie "Deep Impact" with the "E.L.E," the code word "COLE" was something similar to "Comet, Life Extinction," meaning that the comet was predicted to strike Earth and eliminate all life on the planet because it was very large.
The theory I have been exploring for a while, seems like it was October 10th when it began to dawn on me that my mission was well beyond what I had been thinking of with Mars. I had been thinking that I left for Mars in 1975 on a secret trip that coincided with the Viking 1 lander. I guessed that we kept it secret because they wanted me to be able to live a normal life for most of my years before the trip was revealed when I was an old man. One key clue to that hunch was because the movie "Mission To Mars" was released on March 10, 2000 and that was relevant to me because it was exactly one week after my real birthday of March 3rd. Looking back in my journal, it was 5/22/06 when I wrote that I had started thinking that day that my real birthday might be in March 1959. At first, I think I was thinking that it was on the 4th. But the confusion may be because my father is a British citizen and my mother is an American citizen. I think I was born in Hawaii though, in the months before it gained statehood.
So anyway, it was October 10th, a couple months ago, that I suddenly began to understand that I had not just gone to Mars, I had gone much farther. I went all the way out to Saturn, maybe even farther, after stopping at Mars. We had constructed, probably during the Skylab missions, a radical type of spacecraft that had plenty of power to get me out to Saturn in about 8 months and then back to Earth in about the same time. The radical nature of the spacecraft is that it was propelled by actual nuclear explosions near the ship. It sounds like something out of a "Road Runner" cartoon, which you damn people watching me every damn second of the day know I referred to a couple years ago, but I found a lot of information on the web that describes the process. It was called the Orion spacecraft and it was designed by someone from Princeton University. From what I can tell, it was actually luxurious as far as a spacecraft created in the 1970's goes, but as I read, with that type of propulsion, the larger the spacecraft was, the more efficient it was. As I have been imagining or remembering all this, I don't know which it is, I believe that I was the only person on this Orion spacecraft. One document I found referred to the spacious habitation module as a "space taxi." As soon as I read that, I remembered that marketing slogan Microsoft started using around 1994: "Where do you want to go today?"
When I first started piecing together the details of this story, as I mentioned, I thought it only involved going to Mars in 1976 along with the Viking 1 lander. Then I started thinking that I went to Saturn, specifically the moon Phoebe, and timed my landing to coincide with the Viking 1 landing, which was to commemorate the Apollo 11 landing of 1969.
Some other clues that I used to construct this theory of my deep space mission are that the movie "Deep Impact," which I think one of my close family members is in the cast, premiered on May 8, 1998. I believe that they would have released on 5/9/98 if it had been a Friday, as that is the day of week movies are usually released on from what I can tell by studying the patterns. There was actually a NASA space mission in 2005 that was called "Deep Impact" and similar to my theories about my mission, it also struck a comet and it struck the comet on July 4th. I wrote something about a possible connection with "Tempel" but I can't remember what that was now. I have been thinking that the comet I stuck in 1976 was a Hyakutake comet, maybe even that one in 1997 that came very close to Earth. It seems that the one I hit would have passed Earth much earlier, so maybe 1997 was its second pass. The 1998 movie "Armageddon" also tells part of the story about my 1976 mission, I believe, and I have been thinking that someone else in my family is part of the cast.
The basic story about my mission, as I now imagine it, is that I launched from Earth on 11/2/75, where my Orion spacecraft was already in orbit. From there, I went to Mars and I landed on Mars on 1/21/76 and left on 1/23/76. I found a lot of details in my "memory" that I used to develop those dates and they are mostly from highway numbers, but I don't want to go into a lot of details about that right now. I have two reasons for why my Mars landing was selected for 1/21/76. One is that book from long ago about taking a trip around the world in 80 days, as it was 80 days from the time I left Earth until I landed on Mars. I had a very fast spacecraft, but unfortunately, we will probably never use that type of propulsion again. I say it is unfortunate only because we don't have anything as fast. The nature of the propulsion is really very ugly and it shouldn't be used in space away from Earth or even allowed to orbit the Earth. A more likely reason for those dates, though, is that the Mars landing was precisely 6 years, 6 months after the Apollo 11 landing and there was some symbolism in that I was 6 years, 6 months old when I started that program at Princeton University. Everything was going well at that point in the mission, and I believe my next scheduled stop was the moon of Phoebe at Saturn. I decided I went to Phoebe because I "remember" meeting a girl named Phoebe one summer at camp and I decided that must be symbolic, for several reasons I wrote of in my journal, of my visit to Phoebe. I believe that I landed on the moon of Phoebe on 7/21/76. I can't recall if I decided on a date I left Phoebe though. I may have written it in my journal but I can't remember. But somewhere before Phoebe, catastrophe stuck. As in the movie "Mission To Mars," but for me, after Mars, I was hit by micro-meteroids and lost much of my oxygen supply. Ground control told me to return to Earth because I still had enough oxygen to make it back so that my ship could be repaired and we could try again. But I figured out that, while I did not have enough oxygen to complete my mission and return to Earth, I did have enough oxygen to complete my objective of striking the comet on 7/4/76. I rejected the orders from ground control to return and also disabled the electronics that would allow them to remotely steer the spacecraft back to Earth. I went through with the Phoebe landing because the program had already been created and then I launched from the moon and proceeded on course to intercept the comet. As in the movie "Armageddon," flying into the comet was horrifying from all the debris that I had to avoid and it was similar to flying in a hurricane until I got to the actual comet which was similar to the eye of the storm. My theory is that I had some kind of special shuttle/lander craft that I used to land on the planets and moons as well as the comet. My objective was to plant my cargo, a total of 4 bombs at strategic points on the comet. The comets were designated B41 and, from what I have read, were thermonuclear bombs, each with a yield of 25 megatons. I read that those bombs were retired from U.S. military in 1976 and I believe that coincides with my use of the bombs on the comet. I believe I had to make at least two trips in that "hurricane" around the comet to plant the bombs. As with "Deep Impact," I believe I lost my communications transmitters at some point and I did not have contact with Earth for many months. I think I could receive transmissions, but I had no transmission capabilities. They only way the observers on Earth knew I had completed my objective was when the astronomers reported a bright flash in the known vicinity of the comet. In my journal recently as I processed these thoughts, whether real memories trying to resurface or just random imaginative thoughts, I wrote that the people in the mission control were all cheering and applauding when they saw the flash but somewhere nearby, my family members were deeply saddened by the report of that light burst because they thought I had died along with that flash. I imagined that some weeks earlier, as illustrated in the corresponding scenes of "Deep Impact" and "Armageddon," I was communicating with my family that I wasn't going to make it back home. I had decided that since I had enough oxygen, I was going to continue the mission. That comet wasn't going to wait for me to return to Earth, fix my ship, and then go back out there to kill it. For all we knew, on the second trip, we might hit something big enough to completely destroy the ship. So it was a one-way trip for me at that point.
There is a scene from "Armageddon" that really got me when I was watching it the other day, which was after I had started developing this theory. Unlike in that scene, I was too far away for two-way communication and it was just me transmitting farewell messages to my wife and kids. Even though I was 16, I believe I already had three kids by that time, which is confusing, but I think I understand why. And why not. I was ten years old when I was on the Moon. So anyway, my oldest was about 3 years old and I am guessing I told him I wasn't coming home again because "my ship was busted." The scene from "Armageddon" that really gets me is when Bruce Willis is saying goodbye to his daughter because he has to stay on the surface of the comet and manually detonate the bomb. I have been imagining that the scene is exactly what I did but, for us, my second child, my oldest daughter, was still just an infant at the time. The actress in that scene, who I believe somewhat resembles that daughter as she appears today, is portraying what that scene must have looked like in the real circumstances and she is portraying my infant daughter. My infant daughter recognizes the image of me on the screen as her "daddy" but as the actress explains, she doesn't "understand" because she is only an infant. There are similar scenes in "Deep Impact" and I think that my 3rd child, the youngest at time, was born shortly after I launched from Earth. I believe I actually married his mother before I left, not unlike a plot element from "Deep Impact" where "Biederman" marries his girlfriend. So for them, the bright flash in the sky that night of 7/4/76 had a much different meaning than for the cheering crowds. The Earth was saved, but they probably thought that burst of light reported my demise. I have been thinking there was some discussion about me staying on the surface of the comet and ending it quickly rather than slowly suffocating to death some weeks later when my air ran out. But in the end, I chose not to take the easy way out. Using clues I have been finding lately, at least I guess they are clues, I did all the math using a computer on my spacecraft, which I think was a Univac model, and projected a course to Jupiter. I don't know why I decided to go to Jupiter but maybe it was for the reason that ultimately resulted in my survival or just because that was where I decided to go to run out the clock and so at least they would find my corpse some day. My theory is that I landed on the moon Callisto of Jupiter and it was there that I actually created oxygen through some process I can only guess at. I have read some articles on the web that suggest to me how I could have created oxygen, but I am still not entirely sure how I did it. But it worked obviously, if any of this is true, and I left for Earth. It was 11/26/76 when I think I landed on Callisto at Jupiter. I'm not sure when I left but I am thinking I was there for three days. My hunch is that I was in space away from Earth for 529 days and I spent 9 of those days on the surface of Mars, Phoebe, and Callisto. I believe that I sped towards the sun, similar to a plot element from "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home," and then looped around the sun to intercept Earth. I have recently been studying charts of the planet alignments, which I used to formulate that theory. My theory is that no one on Earth knew I was alive, but I am not sure about how that all actually went. I think they may have known that the spacecraft was returning but they didn't know if I was alive until I was close enough to communicate by Morse code over a low-power transmitter I had that still worked. My theory is that I returned to Earth in my shuttle/lander and the Orion craft itself was brought down somewhere near the North Pole, where it still may be. I spent the next few months recuperating in Hawaii and working on regaining all the weight I lost while in space for 17 months, which was a great deal of bone and weight loss. I believe that I had recovered enough to participate in the very first Ironman triathlon, which was held in Hawaii and I think it was connected somehow to my return to Earth. Sometime in 1978, I began my first year at the U.S. Naval Academy and I think I started flying with the Blue Angels at that point.
I started looking more into "Rambo" and I found some other interesting clues. The most interesting is that the movie released in 1982, and I believe it was planned that way to coincide with my graduation from the U.S. Naval Academy and because I was already qualified in the top-tier of Special Forces by that time. I believe the movie reflects many lessons that military officers are taught and I think the most important lesson for us was to never forget that we were leaders of men who are not machines. The idea is that we all might have different reasons for serving our country but the basic reason is that all of us serving do so because our families and ourselves benefit from the nature of peace. A few days ago, I followed a hunch and I looked to see if there is a Hope, WA, as depicted in the movie. The MSN map service finds a place called Hope and it is located on Fox Island, near Tacoma, WA. The zip code for Fox Island, WA, according to usps.com, is 98333. One other detail has been puzzling me since I saw that movie again a few months ago. Towards the end of the movie, "Rambo" is telling "Trautman" about how he and his buddy were going to go to Las Vegas one time when they were on leave from the Army. As soon as I heard that in the movie, I remembered something from a few years ago at Microsoft. I'm not sure of the year, maybe 2000 or 2001, I was in Las Vegas at a meeting for a company that did business with my group at Microsoft. Ken Fagan was down there with me and we were both giving technical presentations at the meeting. He and I were out walking in Vegas after going to a bar and he told me about one time when he was on leave from the Army and had spent some time in Vegas. The more I think about it, the more I suspect that every single conversation I had when working at Microsoft was staged for the benefit of the content that Microsoft/Corbis was developing.
So anyway, I thought more about the movies of 1982 and I remembered that is the year that "An Officer And A Gentleman" was released and I think that was also supposed to coincide with my graduation from the USNA. But I think the story is about someone who would later be a friend of mine as we were serving as pilots in the fleet. I developed that theory when I discovered that the area around Annapolis, Maryland, was settled by two families with the names Burgess and Mayo. In my current mindset, Burgess is my real last name and Mayo was the name of the protagonist character in the movie. I thought of several details from that movie that seemed important. One is that "Zack's" father resembled the person I "remember" as the senior Boatswain on my first ship when I was in the Deck department, working for the Boatswain's as a non-rated sailor. Then I thought of how Louis Gossett also resembled the Chief Boatswain on that ship. I started thinking that the reason "Zack" lived in the Philippines is because my real father's name or maybe his father's name, neither of whom I can actually remember, is Philip. I decided that I am highly trained at the martial art Aikido because Microsoft/Corbis positioned a woman named Akiko around me when I was working at Microsoft and instructed her to introduce herself to me. I find myself seeming to understand techniques of Aikido but I cannot understand how I know what I can't even consciously describe. Recently, I was reading through some quotes from this movie and I started thinking that the mother of my oldest son, who I can't actually remember either, along with any of my kids, but I have lately started feeling that I know who they all are, is named Debbie. In the movie, there is a scene, although I don't actually remember it as I haven't seen the movie in a long time, where they have a cadence call going about "Sgt. Foley" protecting them from the "Puget Deb." The "Deb's" are the "debutante's" but I think that my son's mother is also named Debbie and that is why they created that reference.
Another movie from 1982 is "E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial." I haven't seen this movie in a long time and I don't remember it very well, but my general impression is about "calling home." In my "memory," I started off my enlistment to earn the rating of Electronics Technician, but then I switched to another rating in the Advanced Electronics Field called Fire Control Technician. They were similar in function, but the primary purpose of the Fire Controlman is to maintain the electronics and electrical systems that control the weapons on the ship, in essence, to control the fire of the weapons. The reason I started thinking about the Electronics Technician is because the official USN abbreviation for that rating is E.T. There is probably a great deal more symbolism there in that movie, considering my service in the space program, but that is all I can think of now.
Those are the three primary movies from 1982 that I think are relevant to me, although there are many others, maybe even from that year, but definitely from the years before and after 1982. The other highly symbolic event from 1982 that I have been studying recently is the World's Fair in Knoxville, TN. I noticed that the road running in front of the Sunsphere is labeled as Highway 441 and Highway 33. I don't want to get too far into detail on the "441" but one point is that it was 4/14/77 when I returned from my "COLE" mission but I think the primary symbolism there is supposed to represent the "441" because that was an element of my objective on 7/4/76. Additional details I discovered a few days ago are that the support structure for the Sunsphere is 58.07 meters and the sphere itself is 23 meters. I believe that the 58.07 was supposed to represent the "59" of my birth-year and the "23" was my jersey number my senior year at the USNA when I was on the basketball team. The sphere even looks like a golden basketball. A minor league basketball team, according to sources, from Pensacola, the home base of the Blue Angels, wanted to make the Sunsphere their headquarters office. The gold color could symbolize my name of Ray, because of "sun ray." The zip code of Sunburst, Montana, is 59482, where I believe I graduated the USNA in April 1982.
I alluded earlier to another occurrence of "Ray Gun" and it was something I just picked up on with the past few weeks. There is a scene in 1984's "Terminator" where they are watching the video interview of "Reese" and they all laugh about the part where the doctor asks why he didn't bring a "ray gun" back with him. That scene, I believe a tonque-in-cheek reference to me, reinforces a detail I have been thinking about for a long time. Sometime in my second year at Microsoft, which was in the year 2000, I moved to a window cubicle on my floor in the Bellevue, WA, office building we occupied a few miles from the Redmond campus. It was a great seat and I had an incredible view of the surrounding area, I think we were on the 10th floor, and of the Seattle skyline. Sitting in the cubicle next to me, visible to all the people secretly recording us with cameras, was a woman who had a striking resemblance from a distance, because of her hair, to the character Linda Hamilton portrayed in "Terminator." It was only a few months earlier that Microsoft selected John Connors as the Chief Financial Officer for Microsoft. As any fan of "Terminator" knows, the "Terminator" was trying to kill Hamilton's character, while in the past, before she could give birth to "John Connor," the future savior of humanity.
I just now remembered that 1982 was also the year that "Star Trek II: The Wrath Of Khan" was released. I haven't fully processed the relevant symbolism to my life in that installment, but it may have continuing elements from the first Star Trek movie. I believe the primary reason for the first movie, as was the first "Star Wars" movie of 5/25/77, is to represent my "COLE" mission of 11/2/75 to 4/14/77. The first "Star Wars" released 41 days after my return on 4/14/77 and that is a highly relevant number in the clues I have found and assembled. A non-movie detail that reinforces my notions that I was on a secret mission in space from 11/2/75 to 4/14/77 is that the town of Black Eagle, Montana, is zip code 59414. I believe that "Black Eagle," was the code name for my space craft and was chosen because I was part of the "Eagle has landed" of Apollo 11 and because my mission was secret. I have been slowly remembering, or maybe just imagining, details about that mission over the past few months. It was August 13th, according to my journal entries, when I realized that all the thoughts I was having about being in the space program were actually in the past and not in the future, as I had been thinking. I couldn't imagine that I had ever been in space so all those ideas must have been about something that was going to happen, not something that had already happened. My mission was to destroy the "Death Star" is how I started to think of it. The "Death Star" was actually a comet that was going to impact Earth and some point. As in the movie "Deep Impact" with the "E.L.E," the code word "COLE" was something similar to "Comet, Life Extinction," meaning that the comet was predicted to strike Earth and eliminate all life on the planet because it was very large.
The theory I have been exploring for a while, seems like it was October 10th when it began to dawn on me that my mission was well beyond what I had been thinking of with Mars. I had been thinking that I left for Mars in 1975 on a secret trip that coincided with the Viking 1 lander. I guessed that we kept it secret because they wanted me to be able to live a normal life for most of my years before the trip was revealed when I was an old man. One key clue to that hunch was because the movie "Mission To Mars" was released on March 10, 2000 and that was relevant to me because it was exactly one week after my real birthday of March 3rd. Looking back in my journal, it was 5/22/06 when I wrote that I had started thinking that day that my real birthday might be in March 1959. At first, I think I was thinking that it was on the 4th. But the confusion may be because my father is a British citizen and my mother is an American citizen. I think I was born in Hawaii though, in the months before it gained statehood.
So anyway, it was October 10th, a couple months ago, that I suddenly began to understand that I had not just gone to Mars, I had gone much farther. I went all the way out to Saturn, maybe even farther, after stopping at Mars. We had constructed, probably during the Skylab missions, a radical type of spacecraft that had plenty of power to get me out to Saturn in about 8 months and then back to Earth in about the same time. The radical nature of the spacecraft is that it was propelled by actual nuclear explosions near the ship. It sounds like something out of a "Road Runner" cartoon, which you damn people watching me every damn second of the day know I referred to a couple years ago, but I found a lot of information on the web that describes the process. It was called the Orion spacecraft and it was designed by someone from Princeton University. From what I can tell, it was actually luxurious as far as a spacecraft created in the 1970's goes, but as I read, with that type of propulsion, the larger the spacecraft was, the more efficient it was. As I have been imagining or remembering all this, I don't know which it is, I believe that I was the only person on this Orion spacecraft. One document I found referred to the spacious habitation module as a "space taxi." As soon as I read that, I remembered that marketing slogan Microsoft started using around 1994: "Where do you want to go today?"
When I first started piecing together the details of this story, as I mentioned, I thought it only involved going to Mars in 1976 along with the Viking 1 lander. Then I started thinking that I went to Saturn, specifically the moon Phoebe, and timed my landing to coincide with the Viking 1 landing, which was to commemorate the Apollo 11 landing of 1969.
Some other clues that I used to construct this theory of my deep space mission are that the movie "Deep Impact," which I think one of my close family members is in the cast, premiered on May 8, 1998. I believe that they would have released on 5/9/98 if it had been a Friday, as that is the day of week movies are usually released on from what I can tell by studying the patterns. There was actually a NASA space mission in 2005 that was called "Deep Impact" and similar to my theories about my mission, it also struck a comet and it struck the comet on July 4th. I wrote something about a possible connection with "Tempel" but I can't remember what that was now. I have been thinking that the comet I stuck in 1976 was a Hyakutake comet, maybe even that one in 1997 that came very close to Earth. It seems that the one I hit would have passed Earth much earlier, so maybe 1997 was its second pass. The 1998 movie "Armageddon" also tells part of the story about my 1976 mission, I believe, and I have been thinking that someone else in my family is part of the cast.
The basic story about my mission, as I now imagine it, is that I launched from Earth on 11/2/75, where my Orion spacecraft was already in orbit. From there, I went to Mars and I landed on Mars on 1/21/76 and left on 1/23/76. I found a lot of details in my "memory" that I used to develop those dates and they are mostly from highway numbers, but I don't want to go into a lot of details about that right now. I have two reasons for why my Mars landing was selected for 1/21/76. One is that book from long ago about taking a trip around the world in 80 days, as it was 80 days from the time I left Earth until I landed on Mars. I had a very fast spacecraft, but unfortunately, we will probably never use that type of propulsion again. I say it is unfortunate only because we don't have anything as fast. The nature of the propulsion is really very ugly and it shouldn't be used in space away from Earth or even allowed to orbit the Earth. A more likely reason for those dates, though, is that the Mars landing was precisely 6 years, 6 months after the Apollo 11 landing and there was some symbolism in that I was 6 years, 6 months old when I started that program at Princeton University. Everything was going well at that point in the mission, and I believe my next scheduled stop was the moon of Phoebe at Saturn. I decided I went to Phoebe because I "remember" meeting a girl named Phoebe one summer at camp and I decided that must be symbolic, for several reasons I wrote of in my journal, of my visit to Phoebe. I believe that I landed on the moon of Phoebe on 7/21/76. I can't recall if I decided on a date I left Phoebe though. I may have written it in my journal but I can't remember. But somewhere before Phoebe, catastrophe stuck. As in the movie "Mission To Mars," but for me, after Mars, I was hit by micro-meteroids and lost much of my oxygen supply. Ground control told me to return to Earth because I still had enough oxygen to make it back so that my ship could be repaired and we could try again. But I figured out that, while I did not have enough oxygen to complete my mission and return to Earth, I did have enough oxygen to complete my objective of striking the comet on 7/4/76. I rejected the orders from ground control to return and also disabled the electronics that would allow them to remotely steer the spacecraft back to Earth. I went through with the Phoebe landing because the program had already been created and then I launched from the moon and proceeded on course to intercept the comet. As in the movie "Armageddon," flying into the comet was horrifying from all the debris that I had to avoid and it was similar to flying in a hurricane until I got to the actual comet which was similar to the eye of the storm. My theory is that I had some kind of special shuttle/lander craft that I used to land on the planets and moons as well as the comet. My objective was to plant my cargo, a total of 4 bombs at strategic points on the comet. The comets were designated B41 and, from what I have read, were thermonuclear bombs, each with a yield of 25 megatons. I read that those bombs were retired from U.S. military in 1976 and I believe that coincides with my use of the bombs on the comet. I believe I had to make at least two trips in that "hurricane" around the comet to plant the bombs. As with "Deep Impact," I believe I lost my communications transmitters at some point and I did not have contact with Earth for many months. I think I could receive transmissions, but I had no transmission capabilities. They only way the observers on Earth knew I had completed my objective was when the astronomers reported a bright flash in the known vicinity of the comet. In my journal recently as I processed these thoughts, whether real memories trying to resurface or just random imaginative thoughts, I wrote that the people in the mission control were all cheering and applauding when they saw the flash but somewhere nearby, my family members were deeply saddened by the report of that light burst because they thought I had died along with that flash. I imagined that some weeks earlier, as illustrated in the corresponding scenes of "Deep Impact" and "Armageddon," I was communicating with my family that I wasn't going to make it back home. I had decided that since I had enough oxygen, I was going to continue the mission. That comet wasn't going to wait for me to return to Earth, fix my ship, and then go back out there to kill it. For all we knew, on the second trip, we might hit something big enough to completely destroy the ship. So it was a one-way trip for me at that point.
There is a scene from "Armageddon" that really got me when I was watching it the other day, which was after I had started developing this theory. Unlike in that scene, I was too far away for two-way communication and it was just me transmitting farewell messages to my wife and kids. Even though I was 16, I believe I already had three kids by that time, which is confusing, but I think I understand why. And why not. I was ten years old when I was on the Moon. So anyway, my oldest was about 3 years old and I am guessing I told him I wasn't coming home again because "my ship was busted." The scene from "Armageddon" that really gets me is when Bruce Willis is saying goodbye to his daughter because he has to stay on the surface of the comet and manually detonate the bomb. I have been imagining that the scene is exactly what I did but, for us, my second child, my oldest daughter, was still just an infant at the time. The actress in that scene, who I believe somewhat resembles that daughter as she appears today, is portraying what that scene must have looked like in the real circumstances and she is portraying my infant daughter. My infant daughter recognizes the image of me on the screen as her "daddy" but as the actress explains, she doesn't "understand" because she is only an infant. There are similar scenes in "Deep Impact" and I think that my 3rd child, the youngest at time, was born shortly after I launched from Earth. I believe I actually married his mother before I left, not unlike a plot element from "Deep Impact" where "Biederman" marries his girlfriend. So for them, the bright flash in the sky that night of 7/4/76 had a much different meaning than for the cheering crowds. The Earth was saved, but they probably thought that burst of light reported my demise. I have been thinking there was some discussion about me staying on the surface of the comet and ending it quickly rather than slowly suffocating to death some weeks later when my air ran out. But in the end, I chose not to take the easy way out. Using clues I have been finding lately, at least I guess they are clues, I did all the math using a computer on my spacecraft, which I think was a Univac model, and projected a course to Jupiter. I don't know why I decided to go to Jupiter but maybe it was for the reason that ultimately resulted in my survival or just because that was where I decided to go to run out the clock and so at least they would find my corpse some day. My theory is that I landed on the moon Callisto of Jupiter and it was there that I actually created oxygen through some process I can only guess at. I have read some articles on the web that suggest to me how I could have created oxygen, but I am still not entirely sure how I did it. But it worked obviously, if any of this is true, and I left for Earth. It was 11/26/76 when I think I landed on Callisto at Jupiter. I'm not sure when I left but I am thinking I was there for three days. My hunch is that I was in space away from Earth for 529 days and I spent 9 of those days on the surface of Mars, Phoebe, and Callisto. I believe that I sped towards the sun, similar to a plot element from "Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home," and then looped around the sun to intercept Earth. I have recently been studying charts of the planet alignments, which I used to formulate that theory. My theory is that no one on Earth knew I was alive, but I am not sure about how that all actually went. I think they may have known that the spacecraft was returning but they didn't know if I was alive until I was close enough to communicate by Morse code over a low-power transmitter I had that still worked. My theory is that I returned to Earth in my shuttle/lander and the Orion craft itself was brought down somewhere near the North Pole, where it still may be. I spent the next few months recuperating in Hawaii and working on regaining all the weight I lost while in space for 17 months, which was a great deal of bone and weight loss. I believe that I had recovered enough to participate in the very first Ironman triathlon, which was held in Hawaii and I think it was connected somehow to my return to Earth. Sometime in 1978, I began my first year at the U.S. Naval Academy and I think I started flying with the Blue Angels at that point.
Friday, December 08, 2006
Search Engine Optimization
Other clues that I have discovered over the months reinforce my theory that I was part of the team that went into Iran in 1980 to try to rescue the hostage/POW's. The primary clues exist in the area I "remember" as my grandparents farm in Antlers, OK, which is the town I was born in, according to my birth certificate. The first clue that I filed away before the second clue put it in perspective was the Antlers Municipal Airport, which is nearby their farm. The FAA Identifier code for the airport is 80F. I interpreted that detail to represent that we failed to rescue the hostages in 1980. But I don't think I even looked at that airport code until I was puzzling over the name of a road that is on the other side of their farm. It is named, according to the map, Coffee Creek Road. That also didn't mean anything to me for a while. That all changed one day when I tuned into the fact that Montana's zip codes all start with "59." I found several details that seemed relevant to me and my real identity, such as that Whitehall, Montana, is zip code 59759 and the last place I "remember" living in North Carolina was named Whitehall. The town of Silver Star is south of Whitehall and that seems important, as well as other nearby towns, such as Butte. Star Trek fans will recognize Bozeman as an important location in Star Trek lore, and I believe that members of my family are principal figures in the Star Trek franchise.
So anyway, on one side of my grandparents farm was the 80F of the airport and on the other side was Coffee Creek Road. It struck me as soon as I was reading through the Montana zip codes that Coffee Creek, Montana, is zip code 59424. According to sources, the failed rescue attempt of the hostages was on 4/24/80.
Another clue that felt supported that theory is the ship USS Higgins DDG-76. The namesake, I believe, is someone I used to know. I have been thinking he was my bodyguard for a time after my Apollo missions. He may have been part of my team that went into Iran in 1980. He was killed while a POW of terrorists and the ship, USS Higgins DDG-76, was commissioned on 4/24/99.
As for Star Trek, the movie that I have probably thought the most about lately is the 1994 movie, "Star Trek: Generations." I believe the the opening sequence represents events that occurred to me when I was a secret crewmember of the first flight of the Columbia space shuttle on 4/12/81. My train of thought followed that the "Enterprise-B" of that movie would be a good representation of the Columbia shuttle because the first shuttle to actually fly through the air was the space shuttle Enterprise. My rationale was that, using my understanding of how U.S. Navy ships are named, since the NASA space shuttle Columbia replaced the NASA space shuttle Enterprise, the Columbia was essentially Enterprise-B. There are nuances that can be debated about that but that doesn't matter because it was only my first impression that was important. So anyway, the relevant parts of that movie are where "Kirk" saves the ship but then is lost himself. I believe that, in reality, I was on the Columbia, for that first launch into space of a space shuttle and that we were scheduled to return to Earth on April 14, 1981, because I returned to Earth on 4/14/77 after completion of my "COLE" mission. There was a problem though and as we were approaching the landing strip, the right-side landing gear wouldn't extend. I climbed into the wing and fixed the landing gear, but then the landing gear door opened under my feet and I fell out of the shuttle. We were probably traveling at over a thousand miles per hour at that point and the deployment of my parachute, I guess I had a static line rigged up, almost ripped my legs off because of the harness. After the Columbia landed, the other two crew as well as the ground crew looked for me in the wing but I wasn't there. Somebody found me in the desert under the glide path of the shuttle and took me to the hospital. I think the original plan for the Osirak strike mission was delayed because of that incident because I couldn't even walk for a while afterwards. I may have still had trouble walking when we went on the strike mission on 6/7/81. I have actual "memories" of being in a wheelchair, although in much different surroundings that I would have had to have been in reality. My theories about such "memories" are they are details that I was taught after I developed amnesia or they are what I call "converted memories." The "converted memories" are details about my real identity that are converted to fit into the environment of my fake identity. I don't know which "memories" are fake and which are "converted." When I was processing the thoughts about still being wounded when I was on the Osirak strike, I remembered that scene from "Top Gun" of 1986 where the "Viper," character, which is also the code name for the F-16 Falcon, describes how "Maverick's" father was wounded, but saved three other pilots before he "bought it." The theory I have been pursuing, which isn't in "Raid On The Sun" is that the Iraqi's got some fighters in the air to intercept us, so I broke off from my formation of the 3 other F-16's and broke up the incoming Iraqi formation to draw them off my formation who didn't have enough fuel for a dog-fight. Similar to that dramatic scene from "Flight Of The Intruder" of 1991, I think I drew the Iraqi jets over Baghdad and into their own anti-aircraft fire, where the gunners on the ground thought a second strike was underway. I have been thinking that an artillery fragment blasted into my jet and almost cut off my hand, leaving a scar on my right wrist. The F-16 stick is on the right side so I had to fly by reaching my left hand across to use the flightstick. Somewhere along the way, I was low on fuel, so I landed in the desert and somehow got more fuel to take off again and land at the home base, which I guess was on June 8th. I decided that June 8th must have been the day I returned because the terrorists tried attacking the DDG-68 in 2000 before they attacked the USS Cole DDG-67 later that year. I also arrived at that theory because of a news article on June 9, 1981, where Ronald Reagan was looking for his "Florence Nightingale" from when he was in the hospital after being shot in March 1981. Based on "memories" I have of being in the hospital with Ronnie Romine, who was the father of my mother's husband, I decided that I was there in the hospital with Reagan. In my "memory" Ronnie Romine was dying from emphysema, which seems familiar as I read about Reagan having breathing problems while in the hospital for that gunshot wound.
As for the "memories" of my grandparents in Antlers, that is a very fascinating work of symbolism that I caught onto early on when my amnesia began to fade. I traced the point when I began to "wake up" from this hibernation of sorts in my mind and was pleasantly surprised to see that it was on May 9th of this year, or 5/9. I'll probably describe that day in more detail later on and what it was that seemed to trigger my upswing. The part I caught onto earlier was my grandfathers initials: H.W.B. I would later think about the similarity to George H.W. Bush. And then I thought Homer William Burgess's relation to me and I found a great deal of symbolism there. This was all after I started thinking that Ronald Reagan is my maternal grandfather. The symbolism is that Homer was actually my great-uncle. He was the brother of my father's father, or the brother of my grandfather. And then the symbolism about George H.W. Bush being the Vice-President when Ronald Reagan, my grandfather was President, struck me. It is quite clever. Reagan and Bush could be symbolically described as brother's because they both have the word "president" at the end of their names, e.g. Ronald Reagan, President, and George H.W. Bush, Vice-President. It got even more interesting when I further analyzed Homer's relation to me. He was my great-uncle, but he was also my grandmother's second husband. My mother's father was named Coleman Newman and after he and her mother, Betty Davis Newman, divorced, Betty Newman married Homer William Burgess, making him my step-grandfather. That relation as step-grandfather is symbolic of how George H.W. Bush went on to become President of the U.S., in his own right, after Ronald Reagan's second term expired.
I have been thinking that before my "COLE" mission began on 11/2/75, I was given, by special appointment, a commission in the U.S. Navy, even though I was only 16 at the time. I think that is the basis for the "Wesley Crusher" character from "Star Trek: The Next Generation" series and why he was an "Acting Ensign." As far as I know, the U.S. Navy doesn't have such a title, but I believe that I was given an equivalent rank when I was on duty away from the U.S. Naval Academy, where I entered in 1978. For a long time, I thought, and it might be true, that the temporary rank the USN gave me before I actually graduated the USNA in 1982 was the rank of Master Chief Petty Officer, which is the highest Navy rank for non-commissioned officers. The reason I suspected that was because I suspected Microsoft was using the "Master Chief" character from the "Halo" video game to leech off my experiences. Recently, I figured out precisely why they chose the rank of "Master Chief" and it is because the associated paygrade for that rank is E-9. The letter "E" is the 5th letter of the English alphabet so if you substitute the number for the letter, it becomes "5-9," which is one of my so-called "birth marks." I have found several clues about the name "Halo" and I believe the reason they chose that name is because I was in the USN Blue Angels, and it is popularly known that "Angels" wear "Halo's". The gold visor that "Master Chief" wears on his helmet is representative of that 5903 photo that is attributed to Buzz Aldrin standing on the Moon during Apollo 11.
Before I began to really understand all those details in the last paragraph, I puzzled for a long time about a detail from when I worked at Microsoft. My last manager, before I quit, was a guy named Jeremy Rule. I found a photo of him and some of his conspirators on the web the other day and I figured out what they were up to. He bears a remarkable resemblance to the "Wesley Crusher" character from ST:TNG and then it struck me that his title at Microsoft was none other than "Acting Manager." So I started reviewing other details from my environment there at Microsoft and I was stunned to understand what they were doing. There was the woman who worked closely to me named Ramona, which reminds me of Ilan Ramon, the Israeli pilot who flew one of the F-16's on the Osirak strike in 1981 and who was lost in Columbia on 2/1/2003. There was Tom Devey, who worked on a team where I was the technical lead, that also included Ramona, who had a remarkable resemblance to Ilan Ramon. I remember after the 9/11 attacks, Tom Devey came over to my desk to ask me if I was going to the Professional Developers Conference that was coming up, that next February I think, and I puzzled over why he seemed nervous when I told him I was flying down there too. He was probably nervous that Microsoft/Corbis was going to kill us all off because Microsoft/Corbis triggered the 9/11 attacks by revealing my covert military activities and Microsoft/Corbis needed to destroy the evidence.
There was Kirk Tavener, who seemed to fancy himself as resembling Kevin Costner, judging by the fact that Tavener put a photo of Costner in place of where Tavener's photo should have been on his intranet page. But the creepiest clue was something I just figured a few weeks ago and centers around a co-worker named Ken Fagan. For a while, I have been thinking that Fagan had a noticeable resemblance to a photo of the serial killer, John Gacy. A few weeks ago, I was puzzling over it and I remembered what I think is the key. One day when I worked there, Ken Fagan announced in email, and I found something similar a few days ago on the web, that he was changing his last name from Fagan to Cavallon. He explained that he didn't want his kids being teased because of the similarity of his name to the word "fag," which the dictionary defines as: "Used as a disparaging term for a homosexual man." Then it hit me: Gacy. It you separate that name by syllables, it becomes "Gay See." That is why Microsoft/Corbis put Ken Fagan around me. Something to do with John Gacy, the serial killer. Then I remembered Bill Bevan who also worked on my team. He had a noticeable resemblance to Gary Ridgeway, the recent serial killer in King county. I can't even begin to describe how crazy is all this. It is like being the only sane person in an 18th century mental asylum. Or maybe a 20th century mental asylum. I don't know which is crazier. The really frustrating part about all this, and it is why the police wouldn't help me all those times I went to them, in Kent, Redmond, and Seattle, is that once you are put into the mental health system, the assumption is that you do have a mental problem. All they wanted to do was drug me and no even tried to determine if I had amnesia. It reminds me of that "Frame Of Mind" episode of ST:TNG, which is probably actually based, in some part, on my captivity in Libya in 1986.
Along with some other clues I found in Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," I decided that I was the leader of that mission. I have some "memories" that suggest to me that I was the one of the first two F-16's that flew over the reactor and that I was the one who made that "loop-de-loop" maneuver he writes of when "Raz" realizes he is going to overshoot the target. I decided that "Raz" is me because I believe my real last name is Ray. I have several clues in mind that support that theory but there are two that really stand out in my mind. The first was from the movie "X-Men." I don't think I have ever actually watched the movie, but one day earlier this year, I caught a glimpse of a scene where there are two F-16's chasing the aircraft the "X-Men" and "Xavier" were flying in. The first pilot ejected or crashed, I can't remember for certain without being able to shoot, but the second pilot made it long enough to fire both missiles at the "X-Men" airplane before he ejected. There was the scene that does a close up on that F-16 and on the side for his name was "Ray Gun." The second occurrence that stands out in my mind is from the movie "Star Trek: First Contact." There is that scene where "Lilly" says something about her first "Ray Gun." There is another occurrence I saw the other day from a long time ago but I don't want to get into that right now.
When I looked back to the day that I started, what I think is a conscious transition back to my real identity, I saw that it happened on May 9th. Seems strange that it should happen on that day but it is certainly an appropriate day for the re-birth of my real identity. The trigger seems to be connected with some clues I figured out on the day. That particular clue seemed to be the key that started me to become consciously aware of all these details. The clue was from the television series "Lost." I had been working on that particular clue ever since they broadcast the episode it was in. But I became homeless shortly afterwards and I never really had the mental processing time to work on it. Plus they had me drugged up for a long time so that probably had some impact on my ability to process the clues. The episode in particular is that one with the lottery numbers, which any fan of the series is sure to recognize. As soon as I watched it, I decided those numbers were latitude/longitude coordinates and I interpreted them to represent N48.15 W162.342. I mapped that out as a point somewhere in the Pacific south of Alaska. Then I plotted the distance to the beach in Hawaii where they were filming the series and then I mapped out the distance to where I was living in near Seattle. The distances were close and I felt it meant something important to me. To make a long story short, I determined that the distance from that point near Alaska was the same distance to the beach in Hawaii as it was to the temporary apartment Microsoft put me into when I stepped off the airplane to move out here in 1998. It was 1854 miles for both points. I have included an illustration below, which is not to scale. A few days ago I realized that the episode with the lottery numbers, which was episode 18 and titled "Numbers" was originally aired on 3/2/05. That was the closest date they could schedule for an airing of 3/3/05 because 3/3 wasn't on the same day of week they usually aired. Before I flew out here for that job with Microsoft, I lived in Rock Hill, South Carolina, just off I-77 Exit 82.
Illustration of my interpretation of the lottery numbers as lat/long coordinates from Episode 18: Numbers from "Lost", 3/2/05:
The actor portraying "Wesley Crusher, Acting Ensign" from "Star Trek: The Next Generation" compared to my last manager at Microsoft, Jeremy Rule, Acting Manager.
One of my co-worker's at Microsoft, Ken Fagan, compared to serial killer John Gacy:
Typical chatter that told me everyone was talking about all this in some secret forum that I couldn't find:
http://blogs.msdn.com/jobsblog/archive/2006/02/22/537443.aspx
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 4:52 PM by JobsBlog
Programming Language Inventor or Serial Killer?
I've seen this quiz before, but it's still funny ...
I got a 5 out of 10. Apparently, I should avoid a career in law enforcement or IT recruitment. Whoops.
gretchen
So anyway, on one side of my grandparents farm was the 80F of the airport and on the other side was Coffee Creek Road. It struck me as soon as I was reading through the Montana zip codes that Coffee Creek, Montana, is zip code 59424. According to sources, the failed rescue attempt of the hostages was on 4/24/80.
Another clue that felt supported that theory is the ship USS Higgins DDG-76. The namesake, I believe, is someone I used to know. I have been thinking he was my bodyguard for a time after my Apollo missions. He may have been part of my team that went into Iran in 1980. He was killed while a POW of terrorists and the ship, USS Higgins DDG-76, was commissioned on 4/24/99.
As for Star Trek, the movie that I have probably thought the most about lately is the 1994 movie, "Star Trek: Generations." I believe the the opening sequence represents events that occurred to me when I was a secret crewmember of the first flight of the Columbia space shuttle on 4/12/81. My train of thought followed that the "Enterprise-B" of that movie would be a good representation of the Columbia shuttle because the first shuttle to actually fly through the air was the space shuttle Enterprise. My rationale was that, using my understanding of how U.S. Navy ships are named, since the NASA space shuttle Columbia replaced the NASA space shuttle Enterprise, the Columbia was essentially Enterprise-B. There are nuances that can be debated about that but that doesn't matter because it was only my first impression that was important. So anyway, the relevant parts of that movie are where "Kirk" saves the ship but then is lost himself. I believe that, in reality, I was on the Columbia, for that first launch into space of a space shuttle and that we were scheduled to return to Earth on April 14, 1981, because I returned to Earth on 4/14/77 after completion of my "COLE" mission. There was a problem though and as we were approaching the landing strip, the right-side landing gear wouldn't extend. I climbed into the wing and fixed the landing gear, but then the landing gear door opened under my feet and I fell out of the shuttle. We were probably traveling at over a thousand miles per hour at that point and the deployment of my parachute, I guess I had a static line rigged up, almost ripped my legs off because of the harness. After the Columbia landed, the other two crew as well as the ground crew looked for me in the wing but I wasn't there. Somebody found me in the desert under the glide path of the shuttle and took me to the hospital. I think the original plan for the Osirak strike mission was delayed because of that incident because I couldn't even walk for a while afterwards. I may have still had trouble walking when we went on the strike mission on 6/7/81. I have actual "memories" of being in a wheelchair, although in much different surroundings that I would have had to have been in reality. My theories about such "memories" are they are details that I was taught after I developed amnesia or they are what I call "converted memories." The "converted memories" are details about my real identity that are converted to fit into the environment of my fake identity. I don't know which "memories" are fake and which are "converted." When I was processing the thoughts about still being wounded when I was on the Osirak strike, I remembered that scene from "Top Gun" of 1986 where the "Viper," character, which is also the code name for the F-16 Falcon, describes how "Maverick's" father was wounded, but saved three other pilots before he "bought it." The theory I have been pursuing, which isn't in "Raid On The Sun" is that the Iraqi's got some fighters in the air to intercept us, so I broke off from my formation of the 3 other F-16's and broke up the incoming Iraqi formation to draw them off my formation who didn't have enough fuel for a dog-fight. Similar to that dramatic scene from "Flight Of The Intruder" of 1991, I think I drew the Iraqi jets over Baghdad and into their own anti-aircraft fire, where the gunners on the ground thought a second strike was underway. I have been thinking that an artillery fragment blasted into my jet and almost cut off my hand, leaving a scar on my right wrist. The F-16 stick is on the right side so I had to fly by reaching my left hand across to use the flightstick. Somewhere along the way, I was low on fuel, so I landed in the desert and somehow got more fuel to take off again and land at the home base, which I guess was on June 8th. I decided that June 8th must have been the day I returned because the terrorists tried attacking the DDG-68 in 2000 before they attacked the USS Cole DDG-67 later that year. I also arrived at that theory because of a news article on June 9, 1981, where Ronald Reagan was looking for his "Florence Nightingale" from when he was in the hospital after being shot in March 1981. Based on "memories" I have of being in the hospital with Ronnie Romine, who was the father of my mother's husband, I decided that I was there in the hospital with Reagan. In my "memory" Ronnie Romine was dying from emphysema, which seems familiar as I read about Reagan having breathing problems while in the hospital for that gunshot wound.
As for the "memories" of my grandparents in Antlers, that is a very fascinating work of symbolism that I caught onto early on when my amnesia began to fade. I traced the point when I began to "wake up" from this hibernation of sorts in my mind and was pleasantly surprised to see that it was on May 9th of this year, or 5/9. I'll probably describe that day in more detail later on and what it was that seemed to trigger my upswing. The part I caught onto earlier was my grandfathers initials: H.W.B. I would later think about the similarity to George H.W. Bush. And then I thought Homer William Burgess's relation to me and I found a great deal of symbolism there. This was all after I started thinking that Ronald Reagan is my maternal grandfather. The symbolism is that Homer was actually my great-uncle. He was the brother of my father's father, or the brother of my grandfather. And then the symbolism about George H.W. Bush being the Vice-President when Ronald Reagan, my grandfather was President, struck me. It is quite clever. Reagan and Bush could be symbolically described as brother's because they both have the word "president" at the end of their names, e.g. Ronald Reagan, President, and George H.W. Bush, Vice-President. It got even more interesting when I further analyzed Homer's relation to me. He was my great-uncle, but he was also my grandmother's second husband. My mother's father was named Coleman Newman and after he and her mother, Betty Davis Newman, divorced, Betty Newman married Homer William Burgess, making him my step-grandfather. That relation as step-grandfather is symbolic of how George H.W. Bush went on to become President of the U.S., in his own right, after Ronald Reagan's second term expired.
I have been thinking that before my "COLE" mission began on 11/2/75, I was given, by special appointment, a commission in the U.S. Navy, even though I was only 16 at the time. I think that is the basis for the "Wesley Crusher" character from "Star Trek: The Next Generation" series and why he was an "Acting Ensign." As far as I know, the U.S. Navy doesn't have such a title, but I believe that I was given an equivalent rank when I was on duty away from the U.S. Naval Academy, where I entered in 1978. For a long time, I thought, and it might be true, that the temporary rank the USN gave me before I actually graduated the USNA in 1982 was the rank of Master Chief Petty Officer, which is the highest Navy rank for non-commissioned officers. The reason I suspected that was because I suspected Microsoft was using the "Master Chief" character from the "Halo" video game to leech off my experiences. Recently, I figured out precisely why they chose the rank of "Master Chief" and it is because the associated paygrade for that rank is E-9. The letter "E" is the 5th letter of the English alphabet so if you substitute the number for the letter, it becomes "5-9," which is one of my so-called "birth marks." I have found several clues about the name "Halo" and I believe the reason they chose that name is because I was in the USN Blue Angels, and it is popularly known that "Angels" wear "Halo's". The gold visor that "Master Chief" wears on his helmet is representative of that 5903 photo that is attributed to Buzz Aldrin standing on the Moon during Apollo 11.
Before I began to really understand all those details in the last paragraph, I puzzled for a long time about a detail from when I worked at Microsoft. My last manager, before I quit, was a guy named Jeremy Rule. I found a photo of him and some of his conspirators on the web the other day and I figured out what they were up to. He bears a remarkable resemblance to the "Wesley Crusher" character from ST:TNG and then it struck me that his title at Microsoft was none other than "Acting Manager." So I started reviewing other details from my environment there at Microsoft and I was stunned to understand what they were doing. There was the woman who worked closely to me named Ramona, which reminds me of Ilan Ramon, the Israeli pilot who flew one of the F-16's on the Osirak strike in 1981 and who was lost in Columbia on 2/1/2003. There was Tom Devey, who worked on a team where I was the technical lead, that also included Ramona, who had a remarkable resemblance to Ilan Ramon. I remember after the 9/11 attacks, Tom Devey came over to my desk to ask me if I was going to the Professional Developers Conference that was coming up, that next February I think, and I puzzled over why he seemed nervous when I told him I was flying down there too. He was probably nervous that Microsoft/Corbis was going to kill us all off because Microsoft/Corbis triggered the 9/11 attacks by revealing my covert military activities and Microsoft/Corbis needed to destroy the evidence.
There was Kirk Tavener, who seemed to fancy himself as resembling Kevin Costner, judging by the fact that Tavener put a photo of Costner in place of where Tavener's photo should have been on his intranet page. But the creepiest clue was something I just figured a few weeks ago and centers around a co-worker named Ken Fagan. For a while, I have been thinking that Fagan had a noticeable resemblance to a photo of the serial killer, John Gacy. A few weeks ago, I was puzzling over it and I remembered what I think is the key. One day when I worked there, Ken Fagan announced in email, and I found something similar a few days ago on the web, that he was changing his last name from Fagan to Cavallon. He explained that he didn't want his kids being teased because of the similarity of his name to the word "fag," which the dictionary defines as: "Used as a disparaging term for a homosexual man." Then it hit me: Gacy. It you separate that name by syllables, it becomes "Gay See." That is why Microsoft/Corbis put Ken Fagan around me. Something to do with John Gacy, the serial killer. Then I remembered Bill Bevan who also worked on my team. He had a noticeable resemblance to Gary Ridgeway, the recent serial killer in King county. I can't even begin to describe how crazy is all this. It is like being the only sane person in an 18th century mental asylum. Or maybe a 20th century mental asylum. I don't know which is crazier. The really frustrating part about all this, and it is why the police wouldn't help me all those times I went to them, in Kent, Redmond, and Seattle, is that once you are put into the mental health system, the assumption is that you do have a mental problem. All they wanted to do was drug me and no even tried to determine if I had amnesia. It reminds me of that "Frame Of Mind" episode of ST:TNG, which is probably actually based, in some part, on my captivity in Libya in 1986.
Along with some other clues I found in Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," I decided that I was the leader of that mission. I have some "memories" that suggest to me that I was the one of the first two F-16's that flew over the reactor and that I was the one who made that "loop-de-loop" maneuver he writes of when "Raz" realizes he is going to overshoot the target. I decided that "Raz" is me because I believe my real last name is Ray. I have several clues in mind that support that theory but there are two that really stand out in my mind. The first was from the movie "X-Men." I don't think I have ever actually watched the movie, but one day earlier this year, I caught a glimpse of a scene where there are two F-16's chasing the aircraft the "X-Men" and "Xavier" were flying in. The first pilot ejected or crashed, I can't remember for certain without being able to shoot, but the second pilot made it long enough to fire both missiles at the "X-Men" airplane before he ejected. There was the scene that does a close up on that F-16 and on the side for his name was "Ray Gun." The second occurrence that stands out in my mind is from the movie "Star Trek: First Contact." There is that scene where "Lilly" says something about her first "Ray Gun." There is another occurrence I saw the other day from a long time ago but I don't want to get into that right now.
When I looked back to the day that I started, what I think is a conscious transition back to my real identity, I saw that it happened on May 9th. Seems strange that it should happen on that day but it is certainly an appropriate day for the re-birth of my real identity. The trigger seems to be connected with some clues I figured out on the day. That particular clue seemed to be the key that started me to become consciously aware of all these details. The clue was from the television series "Lost." I had been working on that particular clue ever since they broadcast the episode it was in. But I became homeless shortly afterwards and I never really had the mental processing time to work on it. Plus they had me drugged up for a long time so that probably had some impact on my ability to process the clues. The episode in particular is that one with the lottery numbers, which any fan of the series is sure to recognize. As soon as I watched it, I decided those numbers were latitude/longitude coordinates and I interpreted them to represent N48.15 W162.342. I mapped that out as a point somewhere in the Pacific south of Alaska. Then I plotted the distance to the beach in Hawaii where they were filming the series and then I mapped out the distance to where I was living in near Seattle. The distances were close and I felt it meant something important to me. To make a long story short, I determined that the distance from that point near Alaska was the same distance to the beach in Hawaii as it was to the temporary apartment Microsoft put me into when I stepped off the airplane to move out here in 1998. It was 1854 miles for both points. I have included an illustration below, which is not to scale. A few days ago I realized that the episode with the lottery numbers, which was episode 18 and titled "Numbers" was originally aired on 3/2/05. That was the closest date they could schedule for an airing of 3/3/05 because 3/3 wasn't on the same day of week they usually aired. Before I flew out here for that job with Microsoft, I lived in Rock Hill, South Carolina, just off I-77 Exit 82.
Illustration of my interpretation of the lottery numbers as lat/long coordinates from Episode 18: Numbers from "Lost", 3/2/05:
The actor portraying "Wesley Crusher, Acting Ensign" from "Star Trek: The Next Generation" compared to my last manager at Microsoft, Jeremy Rule, Acting Manager.
One of my co-worker's at Microsoft, Ken Fagan, compared to serial killer John Gacy:
Typical chatter that told me everyone was talking about all this in some secret forum that I couldn't find:
http://blogs.msdn.com/jobsblog/archive/2006/02/22/537443.aspx
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 4:52 PM by JobsBlog
Programming Language Inventor or Serial Killer?
I've seen this quiz before, but it's still funny ...
I got a 5 out of 10. Apparently, I should avoid a career in law enforcement or IT recruitment. Whoops.
gretchen
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Numbers
Consistent with my theory about Apollo 11 is my compensation report from my employment at Microsoft, which has other clues I wrote of earlier. My first day of employment at Microsoft, which I wrote about earlier also with regards to comments Bill Gates made on that day, was 12/7/98, and my compensation report indicates that Microsoft paid me $11,364 for that month, which would be the complete earnings from them for 1998.
My starting base salary at Microsoft for that first year was $53,000. I'm not sure if I wrote of this earlier, but it has been my theory for several months that I participated in the rescue attempt of the hostage/POW's that were being held in Iran from 1979 to 1981. At the time of the rescue, according to this source on Operation Eagle Claw, there were 53 hostage/POW's in captivity. One captive was released later and the remaining 52 were released after Reagan took office in January 1981. The town of Redmond, where Microsoft HQ is located, is zip code 98052 and 98053. I am guessing that Redmond only had the 98052 when Bill Gates and Microsoft moved to the Redmond campus from Bellevue in 1986. The Redmond campus is right next to Highway 520 in Redmond.
For the year 1999, my earnings from Microsoft were $60,601, which is 7,601 greater than my starting salary of $53,000. I believe the symbolism there is to connect with the mission in 1976 that I wrote of in the last blog entry about "COLE," which I think is something similar to "Co. L.E." or just "C.L.E."
I can't yet find anything significant about the earnings for the year 2000, which was 61,410.50, but it may simply be the "61" and the "41" that are significant.
The year 2001 is obvious though. My earnings for that year was $59,694.10, where 1959 is the year I believe I was born, instead of 1965, which I consider my birthday. It is my theory that I developed complete amnesia sometime in 1997 and everything I actually "remember" about my life and identity is what they taught me in the hospital after I lost my memory. The procedure was some kind of contigency plan for how to deal with someone who knows a lot of classified information but then develops Alzheimer's later in life. This loss of memory may actually be the onset of Alzheimer's, I don't know. I seem to be on the upswing now though.
My earnings for 2002 was $72, 874.10, but I can't think of anything especially significant about that. The next year, though, which was 2003, the "76" shows up again with earnings of $76,071.00 but the matching 401k contibution pushed that to $80,704.24.
It was during that last year, as I wrote earlier, that I was receiving two paychecks every month of just over $2000 and I believe that was to symbolize that I flew on of the F-16's into Iraq and bombed the Osirak nuclear reactor before it could be loaded with radioactive fuel. It was also in 2003, as I wrote about feeling surprised about the decision, that Microsoft had a 2-for-1 stock split on February 14th. That split meant that my original grant of stock options, which was 2,000 shares at the time, would get another 2,000 shares for a total of 4,000 shares. According to Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," of which the photos are mostly of Corbis credit, each F-16 dropped two-2000 pound bombs on Osirak to destroy it. His book even mentions, on page 136 of the paperback version, that the original plan was to bomb Osirak on May 10, 1981, but the plan had to be moved to a later date. It is my theory that May 10th was selected, if that detail in the book is even true or is rather a clue for me, that 5/10/81 was chosen because it was the closest date to 5/9/81. The plan was to bomb on a Sunday, which was the 10th, so that civilian casualties could be avoided. The date that was actually chosen was June 7th, and I think that was because of the 6/7/81, which is a variation of "76" and contains a lot of symbolism to my mission in 1976.
I believe that Microsoft planned that stock split on 2/14/2003 to encode some kind of symbolism into my experiences in 1986 and to express something about "bombing" and "being shot down," similar to how Bill Gates spoke of on my first day at Microsoft that the U.S. government was trying to destroy the company. The symbolism in that stock split is to express that I was being "shot down" by Microsoft. There were several suspicious incidents that could have killed or seriously injured me so I don't believe their plans were all symbolic. I have been thinking for a while that I was shot down over Libya or Chad in Africa on 2/14/86 and was a POW for a few months until I escaped. I have found several clues that led me to that understanding.
I have found several clues on my DD-214, birth certificate, and passport that tell me a lot. One is that my mother's initials are T.N. It dawned on me one day that means "The Navy." My step-father, which is a clever piece of symbolism in itself considering what he represents, has initials of D.D. which means "Defense Department." I caught on to those initials a few months ago but it wasn't until probably several weeks or months later that my mother's first name struck my mind. Her first name is Thedia and it dawned on me that it means "The D.I.A." I have found similar clues about the people I "remember" as my family but I don't want to get too far off on a tangent right now. As for Libya, the primary clues are in the "Military Education" section and I have been puzzling over how there seems to be a date encoded in there. It works out to 12/23/91. I felt that was something important but I didn't really even know if it was a date, because first of all, it was produced by what I thought of as a typo. The "91" was actually supposed to be a "19" and it represented how long I had attended a computer school in the Navy, while the two other numbers are also school attendance durations. My theory is that it represents a period from February 1986 to probably May 1987, when I was on a journey across Africa to reach a U.S. facility and complete my escape from the Libyans. The movie "Bat*21" was released in 1988, based on another escape during Viet Nam and I think it was produced and released to create some kind of bookmark about how I had done something similar in 1986 and 1987. I have found several other clues that reinforce that theory. But the clincher was when I figured out what 12/23/91 represents. It is the date when the late Vice Admiral James Stockdale turned 68 years old. That was a huge clue for me. I connected the dots with some other details I know and it became clear to me what it is supposed to represent. There are several connection points on this train of thought. One if that I "remember" that my sister's birthday is 2/14/68. That makes me think of how Stockdale turned 68 on 12/23/91 and that he was a POW during the Viet Nam war. Another connection is a group of speechs that are in Ronald Reagan's public papers for 2/14/86. The three papers that day are titled:
Message to the House of Representatives Returning Without Approval a United States Coast Guard Bill
Executive Order 12548—Grazing Fees
Message on the Observance of Brotherhood/Sisterhood Week, February 16-22, 1986
I believe that at the time, I was a U.S. Navy officer and that among several roles, I was part of the staff of Reagan's National Security Council and I was on a covert assignment when I was shot down. I have "memories" about the night my step-brother was killed in a car wreck in 1986 and I believe those "memories" are actually symbolic of that night I was shot down. On that night, though, I was flying as bombadier/navigator in an A-6 TRAM (deduced because I "remember" a friend from school named Chad Trammell) where I was usually the pilot. The Libyan's through every thing they could muster at us though because they knew I was up there that night and I was a prize target. I managed to parachute from the aircraft after we were hit by missiles or flak or both but the pilot died and I felt bad about that for a long time, as I "remember" feeling after my step-brother died, because if I had been flying the plane, we probably wouldn't have been hit.
I believe I was a POW for a time, but I escaped during a bombing raid by the Navy when the guards were distracted. They searched for me but I went the last place they expected me to go: into the Sahara. I crossed the desert, and was almost dead but some locals found me and nursed me back to health. I continued my escape and I am thinking that I made my way to Kenya and from there back to the States, maybe in July 1987. My DD-214 has a date in the "Sea Service" field that supports this theory as well as the theory that I was on the HMS Sheffield, as some kind of NATO observer, I guess when that ship was hit. The "Sea Service" field value of 3 years, 9 months, 10 days, is a precise fit of the time period between 5/4/82, which was the date the Sheffield was hit, and 2/14/86, which was the date I believe I was shot down. I think that after I completed my escape in 1987, and returned to the Navy, I did not get to return to Navy fleet aviation as my primary role and instead was assigned to lead a Navy SEAL platoon or team. One theory though is that I was in command of the Blue Angels for at least a year some time after that, maybe 1989. It is my theory that I had once before been a member of the Blue Angels, back when I was a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy.
I have found several other clues associated with the U.S. Navy that led me to recognize meaning to other pieces of the jigsaw puzzle of memories in my mind. Without getting too far off on a tangent, I will describe how I pieced together my theory about my education and other details that reinforce my theory that I was part of the space program. The primary clues about my education exist in four U.S. Navy ships:
USS Kauffman FFG-59 (commissioned 2/28/87)
USS Princeton CG-59 (commissioned 2/11/89)
USS Russell DDG-59 (commissioned 5/20/95)
USS Falcon MHC-59 (commissioned 2/8/97)
I started puzzling over these ships because of the 59, where I believe I was born in 1959. The commissioning dates are important as well, in that they represent important or relevant dates associated with my life and experiences. The 2/28 and the 2/8 represents that I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy in 1982. The 2/11 is actually for November 2nd, or 11/2, the first day of my mission that has something to do with "COLE." The 5/20/95 was actually intended to refer to 5/19/59, but that was Friday and from what I can tell, those DDG's are all commissioned on Saturdays, which in that case was 5/20/95.
As for the names, the Kauffman is named after Rear Admiral Draper Kauffman, who created a underwater demolitions team from which the U.S. Navy SEAL's reportedly derive. I believe I knew him and he was responsible from certain aspects of my training and that I was later a U.S. Navy SEAL myself. In my false memories, I "remember" that my step-father was named Draper.
The guided-missile cruiser Princeton was selected as hull number 59, I believe, because I attended Princeton University, as I wrote earlier.
I puzzled over USS Russell for a long time and I think it was the final piece that brought all this together, with regards to symolism surrounding my education. I read, not long ago, that Oxford University is a member of the Russell Group of universities. The Russell Group was formed in 1994, according the wiki article and the USS Russell was commissioned in 1995. I believe that I attended Oxford University, at Lincoln College from 1970 or 1971 to 1973.
The USS Falcon represents, I believe, that I first flew the F-16 Falcon in combat. That mine-sweeper nature of the ship represents, I think, that I towed away some anti-ship mines in the Persian Gulf in 1988 after one of our ships hit one other mine. I have thoughts that I went out in a small boat to tow the other mines away from the damaged ship because it probably would have sunk if another had exploded. I believe that I was serving as the leader on a SEAL team at the time.
As for the space program, I discovered that the Pioneer 10 space probe was launched on 3/3/72 GMT. It was actually the 2nd Eastern Time when it launched but I believe it was timed to launch on the 3rd in GMT because I was at Oxford at the time, which was on GMT, or as I think they call it today, UTC. Another example is the Voyager 1 space probe, which was actually launched after Voyager 2, was launched on 9/5/77, according to the wiki article and that is another example of "59."
My starting base salary at Microsoft for that first year was $53,000. I'm not sure if I wrote of this earlier, but it has been my theory for several months that I participated in the rescue attempt of the hostage/POW's that were being held in Iran from 1979 to 1981. At the time of the rescue, according to this source on Operation Eagle Claw, there were 53 hostage/POW's in captivity. One captive was released later and the remaining 52 were released after Reagan took office in January 1981. The town of Redmond, where Microsoft HQ is located, is zip code 98052 and 98053. I am guessing that Redmond only had the 98052 when Bill Gates and Microsoft moved to the Redmond campus from Bellevue in 1986. The Redmond campus is right next to Highway 520 in Redmond.
For the year 1999, my earnings from Microsoft were $60,601, which is 7,601 greater than my starting salary of $53,000. I believe the symbolism there is to connect with the mission in 1976 that I wrote of in the last blog entry about "COLE," which I think is something similar to "Co. L.E." or just "C.L.E."
I can't yet find anything significant about the earnings for the year 2000, which was 61,410.50, but it may simply be the "61" and the "41" that are significant.
The year 2001 is obvious though. My earnings for that year was $59,694.10, where 1959 is the year I believe I was born, instead of 1965, which I consider my birthday. It is my theory that I developed complete amnesia sometime in 1997 and everything I actually "remember" about my life and identity is what they taught me in the hospital after I lost my memory. The procedure was some kind of contigency plan for how to deal with someone who knows a lot of classified information but then develops Alzheimer's later in life. This loss of memory may actually be the onset of Alzheimer's, I don't know. I seem to be on the upswing now though.
My earnings for 2002 was $72, 874.10, but I can't think of anything especially significant about that. The next year, though, which was 2003, the "76" shows up again with earnings of $76,071.00 but the matching 401k contibution pushed that to $80,704.24.
It was during that last year, as I wrote earlier, that I was receiving two paychecks every month of just over $2000 and I believe that was to symbolize that I flew on of the F-16's into Iraq and bombed the Osirak nuclear reactor before it could be loaded with radioactive fuel. It was also in 2003, as I wrote about feeling surprised about the decision, that Microsoft had a 2-for-1 stock split on February 14th. That split meant that my original grant of stock options, which was 2,000 shares at the time, would get another 2,000 shares for a total of 4,000 shares. According to Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun," of which the photos are mostly of Corbis credit, each F-16 dropped two-2000 pound bombs on Osirak to destroy it. His book even mentions, on page 136 of the paperback version, that the original plan was to bomb Osirak on May 10, 1981, but the plan had to be moved to a later date. It is my theory that May 10th was selected, if that detail in the book is even true or is rather a clue for me, that 5/10/81 was chosen because it was the closest date to 5/9/81. The plan was to bomb on a Sunday, which was the 10th, so that civilian casualties could be avoided. The date that was actually chosen was June 7th, and I think that was because of the 6/7/81, which is a variation of "76" and contains a lot of symbolism to my mission in 1976.
I believe that Microsoft planned that stock split on 2/14/2003 to encode some kind of symbolism into my experiences in 1986 and to express something about "bombing" and "being shot down," similar to how Bill Gates spoke of on my first day at Microsoft that the U.S. government was trying to destroy the company. The symbolism in that stock split is to express that I was being "shot down" by Microsoft. There were several suspicious incidents that could have killed or seriously injured me so I don't believe their plans were all symbolic. I have been thinking for a while that I was shot down over Libya or Chad in Africa on 2/14/86 and was a POW for a few months until I escaped. I have found several clues that led me to that understanding.
I have found several clues on my DD-214, birth certificate, and passport that tell me a lot. One is that my mother's initials are T.N. It dawned on me one day that means "The Navy." My step-father, which is a clever piece of symbolism in itself considering what he represents, has initials of D.D. which means "Defense Department." I caught on to those initials a few months ago but it wasn't until probably several weeks or months later that my mother's first name struck my mind. Her first name is Thedia and it dawned on me that it means "The D.I.A." I have found similar clues about the people I "remember" as my family but I don't want to get too far off on a tangent right now. As for Libya, the primary clues are in the "Military Education" section and I have been puzzling over how there seems to be a date encoded in there. It works out to 12/23/91. I felt that was something important but I didn't really even know if it was a date, because first of all, it was produced by what I thought of as a typo. The "91" was actually supposed to be a "19" and it represented how long I had attended a computer school in the Navy, while the two other numbers are also school attendance durations. My theory is that it represents a period from February 1986 to probably May 1987, when I was on a journey across Africa to reach a U.S. facility and complete my escape from the Libyans. The movie "Bat*21" was released in 1988, based on another escape during Viet Nam and I think it was produced and released to create some kind of bookmark about how I had done something similar in 1986 and 1987. I have found several other clues that reinforce that theory. But the clincher was when I figured out what 12/23/91 represents. It is the date when the late Vice Admiral James Stockdale turned 68 years old. That was a huge clue for me. I connected the dots with some other details I know and it became clear to me what it is supposed to represent. There are several connection points on this train of thought. One if that I "remember" that my sister's birthday is 2/14/68. That makes me think of how Stockdale turned 68 on 12/23/91 and that he was a POW during the Viet Nam war. Another connection is a group of speechs that are in Ronald Reagan's public papers for 2/14/86. The three papers that day are titled:
Message to the House of Representatives Returning Without Approval a United States Coast Guard Bill
Executive Order 12548—Grazing Fees
Message on the Observance of Brotherhood/Sisterhood Week, February 16-22, 1986
I believe that at the time, I was a U.S. Navy officer and that among several roles, I was part of the staff of Reagan's National Security Council and I was on a covert assignment when I was shot down. I have "memories" about the night my step-brother was killed in a car wreck in 1986 and I believe those "memories" are actually symbolic of that night I was shot down. On that night, though, I was flying as bombadier/navigator in an A-6 TRAM (deduced because I "remember" a friend from school named Chad Trammell) where I was usually the pilot. The Libyan's through every thing they could muster at us though because they knew I was up there that night and I was a prize target. I managed to parachute from the aircraft after we were hit by missiles or flak or both but the pilot died and I felt bad about that for a long time, as I "remember" feeling after my step-brother died, because if I had been flying the plane, we probably wouldn't have been hit.
I believe I was a POW for a time, but I escaped during a bombing raid by the Navy when the guards were distracted. They searched for me but I went the last place they expected me to go: into the Sahara. I crossed the desert, and was almost dead but some locals found me and nursed me back to health. I continued my escape and I am thinking that I made my way to Kenya and from there back to the States, maybe in July 1987. My DD-214 has a date in the "Sea Service" field that supports this theory as well as the theory that I was on the HMS Sheffield, as some kind of NATO observer, I guess when that ship was hit. The "Sea Service" field value of 3 years, 9 months, 10 days, is a precise fit of the time period between 5/4/82, which was the date the Sheffield was hit, and 2/14/86, which was the date I believe I was shot down. I think that after I completed my escape in 1987, and returned to the Navy, I did not get to return to Navy fleet aviation as my primary role and instead was assigned to lead a Navy SEAL platoon or team. One theory though is that I was in command of the Blue Angels for at least a year some time after that, maybe 1989. It is my theory that I had once before been a member of the Blue Angels, back when I was a Midshipman at the U.S. Naval Academy.
I have found several other clues associated with the U.S. Navy that led me to recognize meaning to other pieces of the jigsaw puzzle of memories in my mind. Without getting too far off on a tangent, I will describe how I pieced together my theory about my education and other details that reinforce my theory that I was part of the space program. The primary clues about my education exist in four U.S. Navy ships:
USS Kauffman FFG-59 (commissioned 2/28/87)
USS Princeton CG-59 (commissioned 2/11/89)
USS Russell DDG-59 (commissioned 5/20/95)
USS Falcon MHC-59 (commissioned 2/8/97)
I started puzzling over these ships because of the 59, where I believe I was born in 1959. The commissioning dates are important as well, in that they represent important or relevant dates associated with my life and experiences. The 2/28 and the 2/8 represents that I graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy in 1982. The 2/11 is actually for November 2nd, or 11/2, the first day of my mission that has something to do with "COLE." The 5/20/95 was actually intended to refer to 5/19/59, but that was Friday and from what I can tell, those DDG's are all commissioned on Saturdays, which in that case was 5/20/95.
As for the names, the Kauffman is named after Rear Admiral Draper Kauffman, who created a underwater demolitions team from which the U.S. Navy SEAL's reportedly derive. I believe I knew him and he was responsible from certain aspects of my training and that I was later a U.S. Navy SEAL myself. In my false memories, I "remember" that my step-father was named Draper.
The guided-missile cruiser Princeton was selected as hull number 59, I believe, because I attended Princeton University, as I wrote earlier.
I puzzled over USS Russell for a long time and I think it was the final piece that brought all this together, with regards to symolism surrounding my education. I read, not long ago, that Oxford University is a member of the Russell Group of universities. The Russell Group was formed in 1994, according the wiki article and the USS Russell was commissioned in 1995. I believe that I attended Oxford University, at Lincoln College from 1970 or 1971 to 1973.
The USS Falcon represents, I believe, that I first flew the F-16 Falcon in combat. That mine-sweeper nature of the ship represents, I think, that I towed away some anti-ship mines in the Persian Gulf in 1988 after one of our ships hit one other mine. I have thoughts that I went out in a small boat to tow the other mines away from the damaged ship because it probably would have sunk if another had exploded. I believe that I was serving as the leader on a SEAL team at the time.
As for the space program, I discovered that the Pioneer 10 space probe was launched on 3/3/72 GMT. It was actually the 2nd Eastern Time when it launched but I believe it was timed to launch on the 3rd in GMT because I was at Oxford at the time, which was on GMT, or as I think they call it today, UTC. Another example is the Voyager 1 space probe, which was actually launched after Voyager 2, was launched on 9/5/77, according to the wiki article and that is another example of "59."
Content Is King at Corbis
Content Is King at Corbis
MARCH 15, 2006
Bill Gates' photo agency squares off with Getty Images, as it tries to reach profitability in the $2 billion digital-image market
It is not just the Seattle area where Microsoft has been encoding personal details about me into their facilities. The new Microsoft data-center in Quincy, Washington, aligns with C Street and 3rd Avenue at its north-east corner.
Microsoft research at Cambrige, UK, is near the intersection of Thomson Avenue and A1303. I can't remember for certain, but I think my real first name is Thomas and my birthdate is 3/3/1959. The numerical sequence of "303" is a variation of the March 3rd date.
The Microsoft IPO for MSFT stock was 3/13/86, which I believe was designed to reflect that it was 10 days after my 3/3 birthday and that 1986 was ten years after a 1976 accomplishment I don't want to go into too much detail right now. I wrote a while back that the USS Cole was associated with my real identity somehow but that I don't actually remember. It is frustrating to not know if my theories about my real identity are just random imaginative thoughts or they are real memories trying to resurface in my consciousness. I have started thinking that "Cole" is not the name of a person relevant to my real life, rather it was the code name for an operation I was part of from 11/2/75 to 4/14/77, with the primary objective occuring on 7/4/76. The name "Cole" actually represents something similar to "Co. L.E." is my hunch.
My theory to all this, the key to all this, is that I was some kind of extreme child prodigy and, among several other accomplishments, I could fly a jet by the age of 8 years old. My theory is that I started college at Princeton University on 9/2/65 at the age of 6.5 years and then graduated with a Master's degree in computer science in 1970. From there, I studied at Oxford, possibly at Lincoln College, although I don't know what I was studying. I believe I graduated from Oxford in 1973 though. I don't actually remember any of this but I found some clues that I have started to believe represents details of my real but lost identity.
I have been piecing all this together not unlike a jigsaw puzzle and an important element to the bigger picture is that I believe I was part of the Apollo space program despite my young age. We wanted to keep it secret for many reasons. One reason is what I call the "daredevil effect." We didn't want to encourage kids to engage in dangerous activities because they would think that if I could do it at 10 years old, so could they. Another reason is that parents might think they could push their youngsters into such accomplishments as well even though they didn't have the abilities that I did as a ten year old.
It is my belief, even though I can't actually remember any of this, but I do believe it, that I was onboard Apollo 11 when it landed on the Moon. I started believing that when I was browsing NASA images and I was stuck by this image that is supposedly of Buzz Aldrin. It was the photo number that struck me. 5903. Then there were two details about that photo that struck me. One was the watch and the other was the bent arm. I had this photo of me on a Navy ship in a similar pose and it hit me that I had that picture because I was supposed to remember at some point that I am the person in image AS11-40-5903 from Apollo 11.
Then I started looking at other photos of the Apollo 11 landing and I found myself studying this photo of Aldrin and Armstrong in the same photo. I became convinced that one of the astronauts is much smaller than the other. I found myself measuring the heights of the astronauts and I found that the left astronaut, as illustrated below, is about 85% the height of the second astronaut. If the taller astronaut is 6 feet, then the short astronaut would be about 5 feet. It could be that the image is skewed, I find myself wanting to write more about photographic techniques but I find that I cannot articulate what I seem to know about photography. I feel as though I know a lot about photography, but since I can't remember how I ever learned the knowledge I think I possess, I don't know how to describe what I know because I can't even remember learning any of it. Anyway, I don't think any factors, such as parallax affect that image and that the height measurements are fairly accurate. Another image, of an artist's rendition, seems to confirm it all. Why would they have an artist draw a photo of the Apollo 11 landing when the one astronaut is clearly much smaller than the other? I have included the image and the original link below.
This is the story that Microsoft/Corbis has been trying to steal from me and my family all these years.
Photo ID: Program: Mission: Date Taken:
S69-39017 Apollo Apollo XI 1969-07-12
Title: Composite artist's concept of lunar surface activities of Apollo 11 mission
Description:Composite of four artist's concepts illustrating the lunar surface activities of the Apollo 11 lunar landing mission. Depicted here are commander on the moon, contingency sample, documented sample collection and sample collecting.
Illustration of height difference between two astronauts on the surface of the moon during Apollo 11:
Original image
MARCH 15, 2006
Bill Gates' photo agency squares off with Getty Images, as it tries to reach profitability in the $2 billion digital-image market
It is not just the Seattle area where Microsoft has been encoding personal details about me into their facilities. The new Microsoft data-center in Quincy, Washington, aligns with C Street and 3rd Avenue at its north-east corner.
Microsoft research at Cambrige, UK, is near the intersection of Thomson Avenue and A1303. I can't remember for certain, but I think my real first name is Thomas and my birthdate is 3/3/1959. The numerical sequence of "303" is a variation of the March 3rd date.
The Microsoft IPO for MSFT stock was 3/13/86, which I believe was designed to reflect that it was 10 days after my 3/3 birthday and that 1986 was ten years after a 1976 accomplishment I don't want to go into too much detail right now. I wrote a while back that the USS Cole was associated with my real identity somehow but that I don't actually remember. It is frustrating to not know if my theories about my real identity are just random imaginative thoughts or they are real memories trying to resurface in my consciousness. I have started thinking that "Cole" is not the name of a person relevant to my real life, rather it was the code name for an operation I was part of from 11/2/75 to 4/14/77, with the primary objective occuring on 7/4/76. The name "Cole" actually represents something similar to "Co. L.E." is my hunch.
My theory to all this, the key to all this, is that I was some kind of extreme child prodigy and, among several other accomplishments, I could fly a jet by the age of 8 years old. My theory is that I started college at Princeton University on 9/2/65 at the age of 6.5 years and then graduated with a Master's degree in computer science in 1970. From there, I studied at Oxford, possibly at Lincoln College, although I don't know what I was studying. I believe I graduated from Oxford in 1973 though. I don't actually remember any of this but I found some clues that I have started to believe represents details of my real but lost identity.
I have been piecing all this together not unlike a jigsaw puzzle and an important element to the bigger picture is that I believe I was part of the Apollo space program despite my young age. We wanted to keep it secret for many reasons. One reason is what I call the "daredevil effect." We didn't want to encourage kids to engage in dangerous activities because they would think that if I could do it at 10 years old, so could they. Another reason is that parents might think they could push their youngsters into such accomplishments as well even though they didn't have the abilities that I did as a ten year old.
It is my belief, even though I can't actually remember any of this, but I do believe it, that I was onboard Apollo 11 when it landed on the Moon. I started believing that when I was browsing NASA images and I was stuck by this image that is supposedly of Buzz Aldrin. It was the photo number that struck me. 5903. Then there were two details about that photo that struck me. One was the watch and the other was the bent arm. I had this photo of me on a Navy ship in a similar pose and it hit me that I had that picture because I was supposed to remember at some point that I am the person in image AS11-40-5903 from Apollo 11.
Then I started looking at other photos of the Apollo 11 landing and I found myself studying this photo of Aldrin and Armstrong in the same photo. I became convinced that one of the astronauts is much smaller than the other. I found myself measuring the heights of the astronauts and I found that the left astronaut, as illustrated below, is about 85% the height of the second astronaut. If the taller astronaut is 6 feet, then the short astronaut would be about 5 feet. It could be that the image is skewed, I find myself wanting to write more about photographic techniques but I find that I cannot articulate what I seem to know about photography. I feel as though I know a lot about photography, but since I can't remember how I ever learned the knowledge I think I possess, I don't know how to describe what I know because I can't even remember learning any of it. Anyway, I don't think any factors, such as parallax affect that image and that the height measurements are fairly accurate. Another image, of an artist's rendition, seems to confirm it all. Why would they have an artist draw a photo of the Apollo 11 landing when the one astronaut is clearly much smaller than the other? I have included the image and the original link below.
This is the story that Microsoft/Corbis has been trying to steal from me and my family all these years.
Photo ID: Program: Mission: Date Taken:
S69-39017 Apollo Apollo XI 1969-07-12
Title: Composite artist's concept of lunar surface activities of Apollo 11 mission
Description:Composite of four artist's concepts illustrating the lunar surface activities of the Apollo 11 lunar landing mission. Depicted here are commander on the moon, contingency sample, documented sample collection and sample collecting.
Illustration of height difference between two astronauts on the surface of the moon during Apollo 11:
Original image
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
"Birth Marks"
I wrote a while back about that comment a co-worker made to me in email one day at Microsoft. She said something about the Russian mafia had "found me" and when I asked how they had found me, she responded with something about my "birth marks."
Over the past few months, my amesia, which I have learned could be a form of 'source amnesia,' meaning that I still have the details in my brain about my real life, but I can't remember how I learned those details, so essentially it is all just one big jigsaw puzzle in my mind. Lately the amnesia has receded enough for me to start understanding what all those details mean and now I understand what she meant back sometime around the year 2000 when she mentioned "birth marks."
The operative details about my "birth marks" are the numberical combinations of 33 and 59. I arrived at that conclusion based on a "Star Trek: The Next Generation" episode about "Wolf 359" and also some clues from the movie "Top Gun." One of those details about "Top Gun" is that it was released, according to sources, on 5/19/86, which is a variation of my "birth mark." A defining clue in my mind a few months ago is when I followed a hunch and calculated the date difference between Tom Cruise's listed birthday and the date I currently know as my birthday and my theoretical birthday, which includes the numerical combination of 33 and 59. It was a perfect match. Tom Cruise's listed birthday was in the precise middle of my known birthday and my 33/59 birthday. An observation I made back in 2001 of a similar occurence led me to refer to such curiousities as my "April 16" theory. In the case of "Top Gun," it is my theory, although I can remember no such experiences, that I was actually the USN pilot flying the F-14 for the film crews in that movie, probaby in 1985. My other theory is that by the time the movie released in May 1986, though, I was POW/MIA having been shot down in Libya a few months earlier, although as with everything else, I have no memories of that. But I don't know why I believe it happened. It is a constant struggle to try to actually remember something I believe actually happened to me but can't actually remember.
Anyway, before I get off on a tangent, the primary purpose of this is to provide an illustration of another instance of the my "birth marks" showing up related to Microsoft and now I know that all of those people at Microsoft knew my real identity, even though I still can't remember it myself.
For a long time, I have been puzzling over that Microsoft Conference Center and Executive Briefing Center that was built while I worked for Microsoft. I can't find the date it opened but a news article I found suggests it opened shortly before 6/23/2001. It is Building 33 and it is next to 159th Ave NE (MSN Live Search, Google Maps)
A few days ago, I noticed something even more disturbing. Most of the Microsoft building are laid out along that pattern. I created some illustrations with MSN Live Search, but I doubt the links will work for long after I publish this blog entry because Microsoft is a criminal organization. It is easy to recreate though. I doubt street names are going to be renamed overnight or the Microsoft campus is going to suddenly disappear. The links I provide for illustration may take a few seconds to render so be patient.
There are four examples I developed that demonstrate that Microsoft facilities follow a pattern of establishment along street names that contain my "birth marks" of 33 and 59.
The first is the Microsoft Campus itself. I have always thought of Building 9 as the main building of the campus and I think it is in front of that building where those flags are, at 157th Ave NE and that circular road that runs in front of Building 9.
I noticed on the maps that the streets on the Eastside follow a pattern and essentially, you can draw a line across the map east and west and the street numbers will almost always line up.
That entrance to Microsoft Building 9, which seems to be the main entrance to the campus, aligns almost perfectly with NE 33rd Street to the east and west. Microsoft Building 9 also aligns almost perfectly with 159th running north and south as illustrated.
This second example is an illustration of how the Microsoft Red West campus aligns with NE 59th.
The third example is a business park that I think used to be Microsoft Press and this illustration shows how it aligns with NE 33rd.
The fourth example is the most recent example and this illustration shows how the proposed new Microsoft campus in Issaquah aligns with 59th and 233rd.
Over the past few months, my amesia, which I have learned could be a form of 'source amnesia,' meaning that I still have the details in my brain about my real life, but I can't remember how I learned those details, so essentially it is all just one big jigsaw puzzle in my mind. Lately the amnesia has receded enough for me to start understanding what all those details mean and now I understand what she meant back sometime around the year 2000 when she mentioned "birth marks."
The operative details about my "birth marks" are the numberical combinations of 33 and 59. I arrived at that conclusion based on a "Star Trek: The Next Generation" episode about "Wolf 359" and also some clues from the movie "Top Gun." One of those details about "Top Gun" is that it was released, according to sources, on 5/19/86, which is a variation of my "birth mark." A defining clue in my mind a few months ago is when I followed a hunch and calculated the date difference between Tom Cruise's listed birthday and the date I currently know as my birthday and my theoretical birthday, which includes the numerical combination of 33 and 59. It was a perfect match. Tom Cruise's listed birthday was in the precise middle of my known birthday and my 33/59 birthday. An observation I made back in 2001 of a similar occurence led me to refer to such curiousities as my "April 16" theory. In the case of "Top Gun," it is my theory, although I can remember no such experiences, that I was actually the USN pilot flying the F-14 for the film crews in that movie, probaby in 1985. My other theory is that by the time the movie released in May 1986, though, I was POW/MIA having been shot down in Libya a few months earlier, although as with everything else, I have no memories of that. But I don't know why I believe it happened. It is a constant struggle to try to actually remember something I believe actually happened to me but can't actually remember.
Anyway, before I get off on a tangent, the primary purpose of this is to provide an illustration of another instance of the my "birth marks" showing up related to Microsoft and now I know that all of those people at Microsoft knew my real identity, even though I still can't remember it myself.
For a long time, I have been puzzling over that Microsoft Conference Center and Executive Briefing Center that was built while I worked for Microsoft. I can't find the date it opened but a news article I found suggests it opened shortly before 6/23/2001. It is Building 33 and it is next to 159th Ave NE (MSN Live Search, Google Maps)
A few days ago, I noticed something even more disturbing. Most of the Microsoft building are laid out along that pattern. I created some illustrations with MSN Live Search, but I doubt the links will work for long after I publish this blog entry because Microsoft is a criminal organization. It is easy to recreate though. I doubt street names are going to be renamed overnight or the Microsoft campus is going to suddenly disappear. The links I provide for illustration may take a few seconds to render so be patient.
There are four examples I developed that demonstrate that Microsoft facilities follow a pattern of establishment along street names that contain my "birth marks" of 33 and 59.
The first is the Microsoft Campus itself. I have always thought of Building 9 as the main building of the campus and I think it is in front of that building where those flags are, at 157th Ave NE and that circular road that runs in front of Building 9.
I noticed on the maps that the streets on the Eastside follow a pattern and essentially, you can draw a line across the map east and west and the street numbers will almost always line up.
That entrance to Microsoft Building 9, which seems to be the main entrance to the campus, aligns almost perfectly with NE 33rd Street to the east and west. Microsoft Building 9 also aligns almost perfectly with 159th running north and south as illustrated.
This second example is an illustration of how the Microsoft Red West campus aligns with NE 59th.
The third example is a business park that I think used to be Microsoft Press and this illustration shows how it aligns with NE 33rd.
The fourth example is the most recent example and this illustration shows how the proposed new Microsoft campus in Issaquah aligns with 59th and 233rd.
A Coveted Trophy
Seattle Times
Entertainment & the Arts: Tuesday, October 14, 1997
Codex History -- A Coveted Trophy For The Intellectually Curious
The Codex Leicester is a folio of scientific notes and observations that Leonardo da Vinci made during a several-year stay in Milan beginning in 1508. As usual, he divided his time between painting - he was busy working on his luminous "Virgin and Child with Saint Anne" - and continuing his studies on geometry and human anatomy. But in what we now call the Codex Leicester, Leonardo also kept notes on his experiments with hydraulics and his observations about the relationship of the moon to the earth.
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On Nov. 11, 1994, Microsoft chairman Bill Gates purchased it from Christie's for $30.8 million.
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In the preface he wrote to the Seattle Art Museum catalog for the upcoming show, Gates makes clear that his fascination with the codex has to do with Leonardo's scientific inquisitiveness.
"Leonardo pursued knowledge with unrelenting energy," Gates writes. "His scientific `notebooks' are awe inspiring not simply as repositories of his remarkable ideas but as records of a great mind at work. In the pages of the Codex Leicester, he frames important questions, tests concepts, confronts challenges, and strives for answers. . . . His writings demonstrate that creativity drives discovery, and that art and science - often seen as opposites - can in fact inform and influence each other."
Entertainment & the Arts: Tuesday, October 14, 1997
Codex History -- A Coveted Trophy For The Intellectually Curious
The Codex Leicester is a folio of scientific notes and observations that Leonardo da Vinci made during a several-year stay in Milan beginning in 1508. As usual, he divided his time between painting - he was busy working on his luminous "Virgin and Child with Saint Anne" - and continuing his studies on geometry and human anatomy. But in what we now call the Codex Leicester, Leonardo also kept notes on his experiments with hydraulics and his observations about the relationship of the moon to the earth.
...
On Nov. 11, 1994, Microsoft chairman Bill Gates purchased it from Christie's for $30.8 million.
...
In the preface he wrote to the Seattle Art Museum catalog for the upcoming show, Gates makes clear that his fascination with the codex has to do with Leonardo's scientific inquisitiveness.
"Leonardo pursued knowledge with unrelenting energy," Gates writes. "His scientific `notebooks' are awe inspiring not simply as repositories of his remarkable ideas but as records of a great mind at work. In the pages of the Codex Leicester, he frames important questions, tests concepts, confronts challenges, and strives for answers. . . . His writings demonstrate that creativity drives discovery, and that art and science - often seen as opposites - can in fact inform and influence each other."
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