This Is What I Think.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

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080730-N-0577G-040 SIGONELLA, Sicily (July 30, 2008) Cmdr. Todd Siddall, commanding officer of Explosive Ordnance Mobile Unit Eight (EODMU) 8, gathers his parachute after a static line parachute jump over Naval Air Station Sigonella. EODMU-8 periodically conducts parachute operations to maintain proficiency. Sigonella provides logistical support for Commander, U.S. 6th Fleet and NATO forces throughout the Mediterranean. (U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 1st Class Brian A. Goyak/Released)


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 07/26/08 6:47 AM

A series of scenes in the dream just now about football. The notion of Princeton University was strongly present in those series of scenes where I seemed to be on a football team but I think something is askew to all that, in that my soccer team is mixed in to those scenes and I was confusing it with my actual participation on an American football team at U.S. Naval Academy. I did see a scene about a football kicker during an American football game. There was a lot of detail I can still visualize but I do not feel all that compelled to describe the scenes. In the next series of scenes though, I seemed to be walking through an open field and there is a paved road running off to my left and there is open field as far as I can see to the other side of it and I guess to my right side although most of the dream seems to visualize over to what was initially my left-side of visualization. Just after that visualization started, and I note that it seems to be chronologically after the series of football scenes, I saw the Four Horsemen of The Apocalypse in that field on the other side of the paved road and to my minor annoyance, they started charging in my direction and I can visualize that lead Horsemen, but I am left with the vague sense that the Four of them were actually cows that had turned to charge at me. I did some fancy maneuvering and got them going in circles because I could maneuver better than they could but at some point I realized that I was not going to be able to keep that tactic up for very long. As I visualize that scene again now that I am awake, they seemed to have surrounded me. In the next scene though I seemed to have broke away from the Four Bovine of The Apocalypse and I was running flat out across the field at a 45 degree angle ahead of my original line-of-sight and direction of travel and I am vaguely aware of something ahead of me but I cannot visualize it well enough or remember it well enough to describe. I can remember that I turned around as I was running and threw something back at the lead Cow of The Apocalypse and I struck it squarely on the head and it dropped dead right there on the spot. At that point, I seemed to look back at a bale of hay in the middle of the field, which was the only one in sight, and I thought to myself that I should have stayed near that bale of hay because it was a piece of that bale that I killed the lead Cow of The Apocalypse. But I was still running in that same direction and I cannot really visualize the other Cows of The Apocalypse althought I guess they were back there somewhere in the dust the first Cow kicked up in a field that did not seem that dusty. The detail become very vague at the point where the dreams ends and I vaguely aware of something about how I could get help in fighting off those other three Cows of The Apocalypse if I said I "believed" and so I did say I believed and then I saw something that I can only describe now vaguely and one of those wagonwheeled-transports, that I think had names such as Conestoga, come traveling by me out in the direction of the other Cows and the wagon seemed to be covered in fire. I think I had stopped running at that point and there are other details about the surroundings that I can still visualize but not well enough to describe and I am left to ponder where I was. As I was writing all this, I remembered there was another series of scenes before the series of scenes about American football and I am left only with the sense of being compelled to remember those scenes and while I can visualize certain details, such as being in a supermarket, I cannot remember enough detail to articulate. I am not certain if those first scenes are connected to the next scenes about the football.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 07/26/08 7:22 AM

I am thinking again that details I write about seeing in a dream while asleep are from the perspective of another person that was a participant in what could be a memory of a real experience. It is the result of some literary exercise I used to follow and has something to do with writing stories from the perspective of another person.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 07/26/08 7:24 AM

I guess. I don't know. I started thinking that because of other sleep-dreams I have had and of how I am now thinking I was not the one actually being chased by the Four Cows of The Apocalypse but that I was some kind of instrument of defense for the person that was being chased by some hostile forces that were trying to inflict deadly force on him and that he had asked me for protection and I had the resources and the lawful right to use force to stop the aggression he was trying to avoid.