This Is What I Think.

Monday, September 17, 2018

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed"




from my private journal as Kerry Burgess: December 27, 2008

12/27/08 7:55 AM
I woke up during the night clenching a knife again and the tip of my left elbow still hurts. I was thinking that I stubbed my left elbow on the upright strut of the backrest of the chair I put in front of the door during the night but after I got out of bed, I noted that I did not put the chair in front of the door so I must have dreamed that. I don't know what I hit my elbow on.












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from my private journal as Kerry Burgess: 12/30/08 3:46 AM
I had a dream just before I woke up a few hours ago but that I don't remember too well now because I did not feel compelled to note it until just now. I started thinking about it again just now, as I did for a while after waking up from it, because I was trying to fall asleep for a nap and I rememembered a detail from the dream that might be some kind of reference to the ending of a "Simpsons" episode.

The ending of "The Old Man And The Lisa" has some distinct similarities to the 1956 film "The Invasion of the Body Snatchers" and it makes me also think of the second sequel "Body Snatchers."

In my dream, I had been in a building somewhere and I remember two distinct parts where I was on an elevator. I can't remember it too well now. I do remember an old woman asked me my name, after we had left an area with some other people and I do not remember that part well enough now to describe but I do remember some kind of sense, whether inferred in the dream or whether I was actually told this detail in the dream, that she was prostitute. I told her my name was Leo.

That might be the part where I left the elevator as soon as the door opened and after it closed, I realized I was on the wrong floor. It seems I was on the 10th floor and I was trying to get to the 3rd floor.

I remember another part where I was standing waiting for the elevator again and I don't think I was in the same area where I had gotten off the elevator on the wrong floor. As I was standing there waiting for the elevator, I looked over to the open door of a cabinet next to the elevator and I saw there were medical supplies in that cabinet. I got on the elevator and there were quite a few other people on there but I don't remember anything specific enough to describe.

The next part I remember is that I walked up towards a counter of some kind and I asked the person behind the counter and that was in a room behind the counter if he had any anagesic creme I could use on my hand. My hands have been especially dry and cracked for a while and there have been times when blood would actually drip out from the cracks that would form on my hands. In the past, I could just apply lotion to the backs of my hands and let it stay there overnight and that would cure the extreme dryness after one day or two at most. That has not been the case the past time. So anyway, what I seemed to be asking for in the dream thought was about some kind of abrasion on my right hand and as I looked down at it in the dream, I noticed something similar to that scene in the recent "The Day The Earth Stood Still" of how the human who seems to be the biological predecessor of "Klaatu" has that mark on his right hand. That mark is more similar to one I have on my left hand that formed after a blood test on the VA in 2005. The image in my dream was more of a small wound that had an indentation into my hand but that did not seem that serious. I feel after waking up that it is some kind of association with the plot element about "Klaatu" though and that all those elements are connected, such as from the VA. I feel that it is some kind of biological marker that I have from around the time I left in 1998. Something that is present in my blood as some kind of artificial tag. I arranged for it all to happen before I left and then someone was left with the impression that it was his or her decision when it was actually something I ordered and then that other person approved.

So anyway, I cannot now remember all the dialog I had with that person about the anagesic creme for my hand but I do remember that he asked me for my name and I told him my name was Kerry Burgess and I saw him writing on a clipboard in response to my response. Then he gave me a clipboard or just a piece of paper where I was supposed to write down the amount of my assets and I could visualize clearly the header of that paper. I cannot now remember the top line of that header but it was something similar to "Asset For" although I think thiat is incorrect but I do remember clearly that the second line, as the subject of the phrase "Assets For" was the name "Ray Butts" as though the purpose of the form I was filling out was to list my assets and that I was the person named "Ray Butts." I am not certain if I was thinking this in the dream or if I was thinking it later, but at some point I was pondering over whether to ask him if he was "Ray Butts" considering that I had told him my name was Kerry Burgess.

So as I took the form, I was writing down, or was going to write down as I cannot actually remember if I did write it in the dream and all I remember for certain is that I was thinking of it, that I had assets of $12,000. I pondered over that later because that is not the accurate value of my assets.

As I was trying to go to sleep again, I remembered that ending of "The Old Man And The Lisa" where there is a reference to $12,000.










From 9/17/1978 ( premiere US TV series "Battlestar Galactica"::series premiere episode "Saga of a Star World" ) To 12/30/2008 is 11062 days

From 11/2/1965 ( my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 2/15/1996 ( Bill Clinton - Memorandum on the Interim Report of the Presidential Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses ) is 11062 days










http://www.presidency.ucsb.edu/ws/index.php?pid=52406

The American Presidency Project

William J. Clinton

XLII President of the United States: 1993 - 2001

Memorandum on the Interim Report of the Presidential Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses

February 15, 1996

Memorandum for the Secretary of Defense, the Secretary of Health and Human Services, the Secretary of Veterans Affairs

Subject: Interim Report of the Presidential Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses

On May 26, 1995, I established the Presidential Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses to review and provide recommendations on the full range of government activities relating to Gulf War veterans' illnesses. The Committee has now released its interim report, which you have reviewed and forwarded for my attention.

I am pleased that the Committee's interim report recognizes the serious efforts underway in the Administration to respond to the health concerns of Desert Storm veterans, and I thank you for your close cooperation with the Committee as it fulfills its charge. I trust that you will continue to work closely with the Committee as it prepares its final report.

I also request that you carefully review the recommendations and report back to me promptly with your plans for implementing the recommendations. As I said last March when announcing my intention to establish the Advisory Committee, we will leave no stone unturned in our efforts to determine the causes of the illnesses experienced by Gulf War veterans and to provide the best possible medical care to those who are ill.

WILLIAM J. CLINTON

Citation: William J. Clinton: "Memorandum on the Interim Report of the Presidential Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses," February 15, 1996.










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The Different Versions of the Battlestar Galactica Pilot Episode










https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ant

Ant

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Ants are eusocial insects of the family Formicidae


Communication

Ants communicate with each other using pheromones, sounds, and touch. The use of pheromones as chemical signals is more developed in ants, such as the red harvester ant, than in other hymenopteran groups. Like other insects, ants perceive smells with their long, thin, and mobile antennae. The paired antennae provide information about the direction and intensity of scents. Since most ants live on the ground, they use the soil surface to leave pheromone trails that may be followed by other ants. In species that forage in groups, a forager that finds food marks a trail on the way back to the colony; this trail is followed by other ants, these ants then reinforce the trail when they head back with food to the colony. When the food source is exhausted, no new trails are marked by returning ants and the scent slowly dissipates. This behaviour helps ants deal with changes in their environment. For instance, when an established path to a food source is blocked by an obstacle, the foragers leave the path to explore new routes. If an ant is successful, it leaves a new trail marking the shortest route on its return. Successful trails are followed by more ants, reinforcing better routes and gradually identifying the best path.

Ants use pheromones for more than just making trails. A crushed ant emits an alarm pheromone that sends nearby ants into an attack frenzy and attracts more ants from farther away. Several ant species even use "propaganda pheromones" to confuse enemy ants and make them fight among themselves. Pheromones are produced by a wide range of structures including Dufour's glands, poison glands and glands on the hindgut, pygidium, rectum, sternum, and hind tibia. Pheromones also are exchanged, mixed with food, and passed by trophallaxis, transferring information within the colony. This allows other ants to detect what task group (e.g., foraging or nest maintenance) other colony members belong to. In ant species with queen castes, when the dominant queen stops producing a specific pheromone, workers begin to raise new queens in the colony.

Some ants produce sounds by stridulation, using the gaster segments and their mandibles. Sounds may be used to communicate with colony members or with other species.












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Battlestar Galactica (1978)

"Saga of a Star World" television series premiere episdoe


Woman at party: Push level three for us, please












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Woman at party: I asked you to press the third level. There. You've missed our lodging.

Battlestar Galactica crewman: I did press it. Something seems to be wrong.

Woman at party: Well, there are no lodgings this far down. Seems to be taking us all the way to the bottom.

Battlestar Galactica crewman: Something seems to be happening.

Woman at party: Let me at that control. There. We've stopped, thank goodness. I wonder what's down here?












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Colonial: You want a little ah... company?

Cassiopeia: I'm kind of companied out, thank you.

Colonial: But you're going to miss the tribute for the three warriors.

Cassiopeia: I've given them all the tribute they're going to get.

Cassiopeia: Aw, I missed my level.

Colonial: Mine, too. Something seems to be wrong. We're going all the way down.

Cassiopeia: I didn't think that was allowed.










Ovion: The humans are in full attendance.

Cylon: How many warriors?

Ovion: We have counted over 200.

Cylon: Nearly their full complement of warriors. See that they remain entertained until the end. Then they will be yours in the lower chambers.



- posted by Kerry Burgess 4:40 PM Pacific Time Spokane Valley Washington USA Monday 17 September 2018