JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 08/24/10 12:25 PM
The relevant issue to all that also is why I am still here. I cannot leave. I cannot change back to my real life. All I can live is this shadow existence. I cannot leave until something happens that is guaranteed to happen someday in the future and that depends on everything out of my personal control. I don't know precisely what that is but I think it has something to do with those aliens or entities or whatever they are. I am stuck here in this form until they arrive. I still have the sense of thoughts in my mind that I will turn invisible and also gain the power of levitation flight but the consistent detail with that change is that I have to stay here in this area and wait for the event to happen. I have to be here when it happens. The change that gives me the super-powers just means that I have completed my primary assignment and those super-powers just gives me a more comfortable existence while I wait for the event to happen.
[JOURNAL ARCHIVE 24 August 2010 excerpt ends]
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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 08/24/10 12:03 PM
"The The problem will come when you leave."
A day or two or three ago I started having the sense in my mind of when I was advising Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II in the days before I left.
The outcome of our discussion is that I told her I was going to find out because I was going to go first. I knew that I would have to leave on this long deployment but I told her that I was going to kill my body before I left.
I was advising her against someday doing the same to herself and my strong caution was because I knew that we immortals are punished for killing ourselves. As the conversation progressed, at least in my mind recently, I decided that I had never actually killed myself. I brought death in front of me but I had never actually performed what we call suicide. I was cautioning her because I did not want her to end up having to spend a few decades living with a human mind and awareness in the body of a frog, for example. As I was thinking about it I grew to feel confident that such a punishment would happen to her and I would have to suffer with the knowledge that I probably created that particular affliction for her.
I thought a lot more on this topic.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0436697/quotes
IMDb
The Internet Movie Database
Memorable quotes for
The Queen (2006)
HM Queen Elizabeth II: Something's happened. There's been a change, some shift in values. When you no longer understand your people, mummy, maybe it is time to hand it over to the next generation.
HM The Queen Mother: Don't be ridiculous. Remember the vow you took?
HM Queen Elizabeth II: I declare that my whole life, rather it be long or short, shall be devoted to your service.
HM The Queen Mother: Your whole life. That is a commitment to God, as well as your people.
HM Queen Elizabeth II: But what if my actions are damaging the crown?
HM The Queen Mother: Damaging it? You're the greatest asset this institution has. One of the greatest it has ever had. The problem will come when you leave. But you mustn’t think about that now, certainly not today.
HM Queen Elizabeth II: Oh, mummy.
[JOURNAL ARCHIVE 24 August 2010 excerpt ends]
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From 5/12/1991 ( I was the winning race driver at the Formula One Monaco Grand Prix ) To 8/24/2010 is 7044 days
7044 = 3522 + 3522
From 11/2/1965 ( my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 6/25/1975 ( premiere US film "Rollerball" ) is 3522 days
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http://www.chakoteya.net/movies/movie8.html
Star Trek: First Contact (1996)
[Enterprise-E bridge]
PICARD: Begin autodestruct sequence, authorisation Picard, four seven alpha tango.
CRUSHER: Computer. Commander Beverly Crusher, confirm autodestruct sequence authorisation Crusher, two two beta charlie.
WORF: Computer. Lieutenant Commander Worf, confirm autodestruct sequence authorisation, Worf three seven gamma echo.
COMPUTER VOICE: Command authorisation accepted. Awaiting final code to begin autodestruct sequence.
PICARD: This is Captain Jean-Luc Picard, destruct sequence alpha one. Fifteen minutes silent countdown. ...Enable.
COMPUTER VOICE: Self-destruct in fifteen minutes. There will be no further audio warning.
CRUSHER: So much for the Enterprise-E.
PICARD: We barely knew her.
CRUSHER: Think they'll build another one?
PICARD: Plenty of letters left in the alphabet.
- posted by H.V.O.M - Kerry Wayne Burgess 7:56 PM Pacific Time Spokane Valley Washington USA Saturday 04 June 2016
