Number 878: The Farthest Man From Home: Merlin

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Stargate SG-1 / Season 10 / The Shroud

The Shroud

Original Air Date: 05/04/2007

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10.14 "The Shroud"

INT—ORI WARSHIP BRIDGE

[Adria looks over to the other side of the command chair dais. An instant later, Daniel beams in at that spot, his hands unthreateningly behind his back. He smiles at Adria. She steps forward.]

ADRIA
(furious)
I should never have trusted you!

DANIEL
They're about to shut down the Supergate and allow our ships through. They've assembled the weapon, and the Ancients didn't interfere.
(turning to Carter and Teal'c)
Right?

[Carter and Teal'c are staring back at him with expressions of shock and betrayal. Adria watches their reactions suspiciously.]

DANIEL
(persistent)
You did exactly as I said, right?

CARTER
Daniel, what are you doing?

DANIEL
(to Adria)
We can destroy the Ancients right now, and the Ori won't even have to fight. I've done all of this for you.

[Adria's eyes narrow. She moves closer to Daniel, shaking her head in confusion.]

ADRIA
Your mind is closed to me.

DANIEL
Yeah.

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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: May 04, 2007

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/2007 12:03 AM
I think it is a trait I inherited from my family, but I was the first one who the trait was recognized in. Maybe. There was something that changed because of me. My abilities were just a little different or stronger and as a result, we figured out what we could do.

I just want to go home.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:08 AM
And then something of a mind-war started because other's were recognized as a result of my abilities. Other people were recognized.

When do I get to go HOME!!!!

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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:47 AM
This is goddamn ridiculous!

Why can't I go home!!

Who the hell is blocking me from GOING HOME!!!!

SOMEBODY IS BLOCKING ME FROM GOING HOME!!!!

I AM BEING BLOCKED FROM GOING HOME BECAUSE SOMEHOW I AM BEING BLOCKED FROM REMEMBERING HOW TO GET HOME!!!!!

THEY ARE NOT ALLOWING ME TO GO HOME!!!!!!

I AM A PRISONER!!!!!!!

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:50 AM
Somehow she is causing me to sense what is like when she is angry at me and I hate it because I miss - I really miss - that sense that she loves me. I have to have that feeling back!!!

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:52 AM
I had become so accustomed to that feeling that I took it for granted and I hate not feeling that she loves me.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:58 AM
She would tell me how to get home though, if she could. I don't know why she cannot tell me how to get home. The thought occurred to me I would see her standing next to me outside when I least expect.

But still, would I actually recognize her as my wife?

I don't think that is how this is supposed to end. I am supposed to find the clues that are mostly all out there now in order to find my way home. I don't know. Some are easter-eggs, but some is new stuff. I have to follow the plan.

Godamnit I want to see my wife.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:01 AM
I could go home now if I could just figure it out.

But I just can't figure out that missing clue.

Something.

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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:05 AM
I can't let these terrorists follow me home though. I won't let her also live in this goddamned cage.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:10 AM
There is just no damned way they can not expect me to retire after this bullshit assignment. If I ever get me wife back, you can be damn sure I am not letting her get away again. This is craziness - beyond craziness.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:15 AM
If I didn't love her so much, her feelings wouldn't be so important to me.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:17 AM
Somehow I tuned into her feelings a long time ago and that was what I fell in love with.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:19 AM
When did I start to understand that though?

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:20 AM
Maybe it was only because she might become angry at me that I started to sense her feelings. It was the disappearnace of that sense she loved me that made me aware of those feelings in the first place. And it wasn't often I did not get that lack of feeling of love so it took me a long time to consciously distinquish that feeling. Until I became to consciously distinquish her feelings of love for me, did I begin to realize when it was gone.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:29 AM
I wonder a lot about what would happen if I saw her and she came to talk to me as I was sitting in Starbucks, for example. That would be great. But what would I say, other than "hello"? There is just something I am missing here. Something I am supposed to figure out. As though there is a key word or phrase that I have to hear first before I can proceed farther.

I just want to see my wife.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 7:51 AM
I love the thought of smiling Phoebe coming over to talk to me; I just wish I could remember her, in the conventional sense, as my wife of many years.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 8:15 AM
I love her feelings.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 8:23 AM
And I especially love her good feelings.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 8:31 AM
Yeah - that's why I noted that Phoebe was resembling Teri Hatcher. The Phoebe from mythology is the brother of Apollo. And, of course, I would like to think that my wife, Phoebe Cates, is a housewife desperate for her husband to come back home and for good this time.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 9:51 AM
Well, of course, it is Phoebe's feelings of love for me that is most important. If I didn't love her so much, I would not care how she feels about me.

I'm not sure how long I have been able to articulate that notion. It is sort of like a favorite radio station that I have been trying to tune into.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 10:09 AM
I had a very clear dream of Phoebe Bailey after I found her picture online a while back. I thought I noted portions of that dream in my journal, but I can't find a reference to it now. She is a stand-in, although with no consolation for my loneliness, for Phoebe Cates.

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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 10:37 AM
Well, hardly even a stand-in for my Phoebe. More of a shadow really, sort of a silhouette so that I keep a mental connection to my Phoebe.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 11:00 AM
I wonder why I "remember" that time when Rachel came back to me and she told me she had been working as a topless dancer for a while. I wonder if that is a reference to the scene Phoebe did in "Fast Times At Ridgemont High." I never did go in there and see her though. And then there was the time Amanda wouldn't tell me where she was working because she said I would get angry if she told me. I almost tricked her into revealing where she worked, but I never got the complete directions to it. I do "remember" that Rachel liked me coming in to sit at the bar where she was a waitress. I was so crazy about her. I was just happy to see her. I wanted more of course, but with her, any time I got to see her was a good day.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 11:09 AM
I don't understand what is the confusing part.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 12:28 PM
goddamnit my mind is buzzing so bad I can't concentrate!!!!

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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:19 PM
It is probable that Phoebe doesn't even know the secret key that will fully unlock my mind because I probably would have heard it by now.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 1:29 PM
According to that article, one of Phoebe's parents or grandparents is from the P.I. That could be why that element showed up in some of Reagan's speech's on some of my bad days. Something to let Phoebe know I was all right. That is also probably why the character Gere portrayed in "An Officer And A Gentleman" was living in the P.I. in his youth.

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Original airdate in N.A.: 5-Mar-95

Rainier: The film is just me in front of a brick wall for an hour and a half. It cost $80 million.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 05/04/07 4:38 PM
I don't know why the '18.' Something about how I wasn't going to see my 18th birthday? I turned 17 on 3/3/1976.

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