JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 9/9/2006 1:53 PM
My doctor at the VA is not incompetent. He just is not law enforcement and doesn’t have the resources necessary to solve the actual problem that is agitating me. If the police would do their jobs and prosecute the people trying to terrorize me, such as Microsoft and Dave Reichert, then I wouldn’t even need a doctor from the VA
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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Monday, September 12, 2005
Sanity was statistical
[ Excerpt: George Orwell "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ] He had capitulated, that was agreed. In reality, as he saw now, he had been ready to capitulate long before he had taken the decision. From the moment when he was inside the Ministry of Love -- and yes, even during those minutes when he and Julia had stood helpless while the iron voice from the telescreen told them what to do -- he had grasped the frivolity, the shallowness of his attempt to set himself up against the power of the Party. He knew now that for seven years the Thought police had watched him like a beetle under a magnifying glass. There was no physical act, no word spoken aloud, that they had not noticed, no train of thought that they had not been able to infer. Even the speck of whitish dust on the cover of his diary they had carefully replaced. They had played sound-tracks to him, shown him photographs. Some of them were photographs of Julia and himself. Yes, even ... He could not fight against the Party any longer. Besides, the Party was in the right. It must be so; how could the immortal, collective brain be mistaken? By what external standard could you check its judgements? Sanity was statistical. It was merely a question of learning to think as they thought. Only! [ Excerpt: George Orwell "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ]
There is a part in that excerpt from 1984 that really hits close to home. It is the part "Sanity was statistical." I heard that very same thing when I was in the VA. Fortunately, it wasn't from a doctor though. What I heard someone say, when I was reasserting my belief that all this is indeed a conspiracy, was that they are treating me on the probability that what I am saying is not true. So that also reinforced my theory that if you are in the mental health system, is it assumed mental health problems are causing your problems as opposed to external environmental factors causing the problems. However, I did see indications they were listening to me and that they thought what I was saying made sense. I have no complaints about my treatment at the VA.
But as I have learned from this infuriating chapter of my life, there are problems that produce mental health issues and there are mental health issues that produce problems.
If they treated 100 people for the problems I am describing, it is probable that 99 of them would be delusional. But my argument has been that I am that one person that is not delusional. Sure, I am feeling paranoid, but it is a healthy paranoia. It is a normal reaction to a threat in my environment. How many more years am I going to have to live thinking no one understands?
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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess
To: Kerry Burgess
Sent: Friday, February 3, 2006 6:56:36 PM
Subject: Nice talking with you in the morning
http://q13.trb.com/news/kcpq-bio-lilyj,0,3625909.htmlstory?coll=kcpq-newsstaff-1
I think I am in love with Lily Jang. It seems crazy to even write that, with all things considered, but, well, what isn't crazy right now?
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Winston Smith: Look, I hate purity. Hate goodness. I don't want virtue to exist anywhere. I want everyone corrupt.
Julia: Well, I ought to suit you, then. I'm corrupt to the core.
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Winston Smith: [observing the Prole woman from their hideaway] The future is hers... we are the dead...
Julia: We are the dead...
Big Brother: YOU ARE THE DEAD!
[They look around, startled]
Big Brother: Remain EXACTLY where you are! Make NO move until you are ordered!
[painting falls from wall, revealing a telescreen]
Julia: Now they can see us...
Big Brother: NOW WE CAN SEE YOU! Clasp your hands behind your heads! Stand out in the middle of the room! Stand back to back. Do NOT touch one another!
Winston Smith: [hearing the helicopters approach] The house is surrounded...
Big Brother: THE HOUSE IS SURROUNDED!
Julia: Suppose we may as well say goodbye...
Big Brother: YOU MAY AS WELL SAY GOODBYE! While we're on the subject, here comes a candle to light you to bed, here comes a chopper to chop off your head!
[the Thought Police arrive]
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The Magic Mirror (#1.21)
Release Date: 16 February 1966 (USA)
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114 KOMODT2: Monday, August 15 1:00 PM
1984, R, ***, 01:55, Color, English, United Kingdom,
Orwell's Big Brother is watching as Winston Smith (John Hurt) and his lover (Suzanna Hamilton) defy authority in bleak Oceania.
Cast: John Hurt, Richard Burton, Suzanna Hamilton, Cyril Cusack, Gregory Fisher, James Walker, Andrew Wilde, David Trevena, David Cann, Anthony Benson, Peter Frye, Roger Lloyd Pack Director(s): Michael Radford Producer(s): Simon Perry
From 5/15/1984 ( as Kerry Wayne Burgess I began active service for an enlistment period of six years as a United States Navy enlisted sailor and circa 2011 my active duty continues as Kerry Wayne Burgess the United States Marine Corps major general pending promotion to lieutenant general United States Marine Corps ) To 12/14/1984 ( RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 - premiere US film "Nineteen Eighty-Four" )(Friday) is 213 days
213 = 1 + 106 + 106
From 11/2/1965 ( date hijacked from me:my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official Deputy United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 2/16/1966 ( premiere US TV series episode "Lost in Space"::"The Magic Mirror" ) is 106 days
From 11/21/1947 ( premiere US film "Where There's Life" ) To 12/14/1984 ( RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 - premiere US film "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ) is 13538 days
13538 = 6769 + 6769
From 11/2/1965 ( date hijacked from me:my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official Deputy United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 5/15/1984 ( as Kerry Wayne Burgess I began active service for an enlistment period of six years as a United States Navy enlisted sailor and circa 2011 my active duty continues as Kerry Wayne Burgess the United States Marine Corps major general pending promotion to lieutenant general United States Marine Corps ) is 6769 days
From 7/20/1969 ( my brother United States Navy Commander Thomas Reagan was United States Apollo 11 Eagle spacecraft United States Navy astronaut landing and walking on the planet Earth's moon ) to 12/14/1984 ( RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 - premiere US film "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ) is 5626 days
5626 = 2813 + 2813
From 3/4/1959 ( the birthdate London England time of my brother Thomas Reagan ) to 11/15/1966 ( the United States Gemini 12 spacecraft splashdown and my brother Thomas Reagan the United States Navy officer was United States Gemini 12 spacecraft United States Navy astronaut returning from orbit of the planet Earth ) is 2813 days
From 12/14/1984 ( RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 - premiere US film "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ) To 5/9/1985 ( while he was averting the Soviet Union Tupolev Tu-22M Backfire maritime bomber force targeting for destruction his US Navy aircraft carrier United States Navy Fleet Admiral Thomas Reagan was the United States Navy F-14 Tomcat pilot that was attacked by hostile Soviet Union air forces and his United States Navy RIO flight officer crewman is killed by enemy fire from Soviet Union forces and as instigated by Bill Gates-Microsoft-George Bush the known accomplice of communist China and Soviet Union and the International Terrorist Organization violently against the United States of America federal government ) is 146 days
146 = 73 + 73
From 11/2/1965 ( date hijacked from me:my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official Deputy United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 1/14/1966 ( Sergei P. Korolev - the chief designer of Soviet Union rockets - deceased ) is 73 days
From 12/14/1984 ( RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 - premiere US film "Nineteen Eighty-Four" ) To 1/28/1986 ( the United States space shuttle Challenger explodes after liftoff killing all United States astronauts onboard Challenger spacecraft including United States civilian astronaut Christa McAuliffe due to continuing Bill Gates-Microsoft-George Bush-Communist-NASA scheduled terrorism sabotage because my brother Thomas Reagan is the first commander and the United States military commander of the United States space shuttle fleet and because Thomas Reagan was the first astronaut to travel into outer space in a privately financed spaceship and as a civilian astronaut while maintaining status on Earth as a United States Naval Reserves military astronaut with no personal tax obligation to the United States federal government or to any United States provincial government ) is 410 days
From 11/2/1965 ( date hijacked from me:my birth date in Antlers Oklahoma USA and my birthdate as the known official Deputy United States Marshal Kerry Wayne Burgess and active duty United States Marine Corps officer ) To 12/17/1966 ( premiere US TV series episode "Gunsmoke"::"The Moonstone" ) is 410 days
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1984
What’s this?
It’s a beautiful thing.
Over years old.
Cost you $ .
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1984
We are the inheritors.
Do you understand that you are alone?
You are outside history.
You unexist.
Get up.
Come here.
Look at you.
You’re rotting away.
That is the last man.
If you are human, that is humanity.
It will not last forever.
You can escape from it whenever you choose.
Everything depends on you.
You did it.
You reduced me to this.
No, Winston.
You reduced yourself to it.
When will you shoot me?
Might take a long time.
But don’t give up hope.
Everyone is cured sooner or later.
And in the end...
we shall shoot you.
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1984
Smith. Open your eyes.
Parsons.
Keep away from me, Smith.
I’m an agent of Goldstein.
I didn’t know it myself.
Thoughtcrime is so insidious.
It just creeps up on you.
My daughter found it out.
Very proud of her.
Very grateful I’ve been discovered before it’s too late.
They won’t shoot me, will they, Smith?
I know I could be very useful in a labor camp.
Room .
No.
Please, you don’t have to take me there.
Why?
There’s nothing I won’t confess.
Nothing.
I’ve told you everything already.
What is it you want me to know?
Take him instead of me.
He’s the thoughtcriminal. It’s him you want.
They got you, too.
They got me a long time ago.
You knew this would happen, Winston.
Don’t deceive yourself. You’ve always known it.
The photos of you and the girl will be recycled for proletarian use.
Do you know where you are, Winston?
I don’t know.
I can guess.
In the Ministry of Love.
Do you know how long you’ve been here?
No.
Weeks?
Months?
Do you know why you’re here?
Shall I tell you why we brought you here?
To cure you.
To make you sane.
That was .
You can see that the numbers on this dial run up to .
Will you please remember that, during our conversation?
I have it in my power to inflict pain on you at any time...
and in whatever degree I choose.
You know perfectly well what is the matter with you, Winston.
You’ve known it for years, though you’ve fought against the knowledge.
You are mentally deranged.
You suffer from a defective memory.
You never tried to cure yourself of it, because you did not choose to.
It was a small effort of will, which you were not ready to make.
