God, that is confusing. I read back through my notes, specifically now that time period, and I keep referring to myself as different people. Sometimes I am writing as though I am Thomas Reagan, other times, I am someone else. I don't think that until the summer of 2011, did I start to think of myself again as the real Kerry Burgess. I have been trying to determine if there was another one of those days where I just woke up and starting thinking of myself as someone different.
Oh sure, that is a serious mental health problem. To have such identity problems.
But why did I break out of it? My understanding of that kind of serious mental health problem is that the condition only gets worse. I got better. So what caused it? Something caused it and then I broke out of whatever caused my mental health problem. I stopped taking that medication from the University of Washington and the Seattle VA hospital in the year 2006. Up until the year 2005 when I started taking their medication, because I was cooperating, I never for one minute had any thoughts that I was Thomas Reagan. I always knew I was the real Kerry Wayne Burgess. I had no problems with my sense of identity.
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 6:20 PM Monday, January 17, 2011
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Saturday, October 16, 2010 Posted by H.V.O.M at 8:55 PM
Sometimes I wonder if my work as a Deputy United States Marshal was arranged so that I would work undercover with real people who also had names that were similar to the people Tom Reagan worked with in legitimate operations. I have been thinking for a while that since Kerry Burgess did not emerge, and has not yet emerged, from the 27 June 1994 airplane crash, I was also staging events to make people that were watching Kerry Burgess, as they are illegal combatants, think Kerry Burgess was still alive and walking around.
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