Thursday, May 31, 2007


That day 9/26/1986 was when I was the same age as Jim Morrison when he died. Paul Hogan has a distinct resemblance to Joseph Wayne Burgess, from my artificial and symbolic memory. Joseph Burgess was buried in Morrison Cemetery in Noble County, Oklahoma.

From 3/3/1959 to 9/26/1986 is: 10069 days
From 12/8/1943 to 7/3/1971 is: 10069 days

Crocodile Dundee is a 1986 Australian comedy film set in the Australian Outback in the area around "Walkabout Creek" and in New York City. It stars Paul Hogan as Mick Dundee and Linda Kozlowski as Sue Charlton. It was released in the United States as "Crocodile" Dundee.
Inspired by the true life exploits of Rodney Ansell, the film was made on a budget of under $10 million as a deliberate attempt to make a commercial Australian film that would appeal to a mainstream American audience, but proved to be a worldwide phenomenon. Released on April 30, 1986 in Australia, and on September 26, 1986 in the United States, it was the second highest grossing film in the USA in that year and went on to become the number one film worldwide at the box office.

Crocodile Dundee (1986)

Release Date: 26 September 1986 (USA)

Paul Hogan AM (born October 8, 1939 in Lightning Ridge, New South Wales) is an Australian actor and comedian.
Hogan's first film, Crocodile Dundee (1986), featuring a similarly down-to-earth hunter travelling from the Australian Outback to New York City, was privately funded by Hogan and a group of private investors including much of its cast, entrepreneur Kerry Packer, and cricketers Greg Chappell, Dennis Lillee, and Rod Marsh.

1986's Crocodile Dundee proved to be the most successful Australian film ever, and launched Hogan's international film career. Crocodile Dundee won Paul Hogan a Golden Globe Award for Best Actor in a Comedy, as well as an Academy Award nomination for Best Original Screenplay, and a BAFTA Award nomination.

The difference of Paul Hogan's birthday to Joseph Wayne Burgess's birthday is 2375. That is the same time difference I recognize as my first day at Princeton Univerity.

From 10/8/1939 to 4/9/1946 is: 2375 days
From 3/3/1959 to 9/2/1965 is: 2375 days
Joseph Wayne
09 Apr 1946
04 Aug 1985
H. of Naomi

I recognize the date 11/25/1986 as when my family had a funeral service for me, think I had been killed as a POW in Libya. I noted that 11/25/1986 was Jim Morrison's age plus 59 days. In my artificial and symbolic memory, the day 11/25/1986 is when my step-brother, Michael, was killed in a wreck.

From 3/4/1959 to 11/25/1986 is: 10128 days
10128 - 10069 = 59

James Douglas Morrison (8 December 1943 – 3 July 1971) was an American singer, songwriter, writer, actor, and poet. He was best known as the lead singer and lyricist of the popular American rock band The Doors, and is considered to be one of the most charismatic frontmen in the history of rock music.[1] He was also an author of several poetry books, a documentary, short film, and three early music videos ("The Unknown Soldier","Moonlight Drive", and "People are Strange"). Morrison died in Paris at the age of 27. The circumstances of his death and burial are not fully known.

The Microsoft IPO for the MSFT stock was 3 years, 313 days, after the HMS Sheffield was hit during the Falklands War. I believe, but cannot remember, that I was onboard the Sheffield and that was why it was targeted. That IPO also occurred during the time I recognize as when I was a POW in Libya.

From 5/4/1982 to 3/13/1986 is: 3 years, 313 days


This always reminds me of something I said to Thedia in 2001. I showed her my Microsoft security badge and I told her I had been happy that day. She responded with "that day" which made me think of how that had been the only day I could remember feeling happy in the years after that. I would note a year or two later that Microsoft re-issued my security badge and there was a red smudge on my head.
"Workforce, Part I"

The Voyager crew are brainwashed into starting new jobs on an industrialized planet, leaving only Chakotay, Kim and Neelix (who were on an away mission at the time) and the Doctor (who was deactivated) to save them.

Airdate February 21, 2001

Workforce is a two-part episode from the seventh and final season of the TV series Star Trek: Voyager

Kathryn Janeway happily shows up for her first day of work at an energy plant.

Phoebe is 1 year, 3 months, 3 weeks, 3 days, older than this actor. 1-333

Robert Duncan McNeill (born November 9, 1964 in Raleigh, North Carolina) is an American actor, producer, movie director, and television director who is best known for his role as Lieutenant Tom Paris on the television show Star Trek: Voyager.

I recognize the date 6/7/1976 as when I landed on the Saturn moon Phoebe. I recognize the date 11/27/1976 as my second day on the Jupiter moon Callisto. I probably couldn't find an actress to match up with the date 11/26/1976. Perhaps it was on that second day I realized I could make oxygen from the water ice I discovered, which assured my survival and return to Earth on 4/14/1977.

From 9/11/1958 to 6/7/1976 is: 6479 days
From 3/3/1959 to 11/27/1976 is: 6479 days

Roxann Dawson (born September 11, 1958)[1] is an American actress, producer and director, best known as B'Elanna Torres on the television series Star Trek: Voyager.

Lieutenant B'Elanna Torres, played by Roxann Dawson, is a character in Star Trek: Voyager. She is the Chief Engineer of the USS Voyager.
Torres later begins a relationship with Paris after a complicated and stormy courtship. During an incident in 2374, Torres confesses her love for Tom Paris to him, when they are left floating in space in environmental suits, with almost no hope of rescue ("Day of Honor"). Although Voyager is soon able to rescue them, Torres realizes that her courage in admitting her love has brought her one step closer to discovering what she considers true honor. Their relationship first flourishes on-screen during "Scientific Method". They marry in 2377, and have their honeymoon aboard the Delta Flyer.

Due to day-of-week scheduling, this episode would have been the closest possible to the day Phoebe was 34 years, 59 days, old, which was 4 days earlier.

Airdate September 17, 1997

Day of Honor is an episode of Star Trek: Voyager, the third episode of the fourth season. The episode was well received by fans, and has an average rating of 4.4/5 on the official Star Trek website (as of April 27th, 2007).[1]

It's the "Day of Honor", a time each year when a Klingon is supposed to reflect on herself and her actions. B'Elanna is not in the mood to deal with it. She's been having a bad day. She has to work with Seven of Nine, the Borg drone who's recently come on board, and she can't stand her. She has been hostile toward her friend Tom Paris lately, because even though she likes him and wants to be closer to him, she is uncomfortable accepting gestures of friendship. To top it all off, something goes wrong in Engineering and she must eject the warp core to save the ship.

B'Elanna and Tom take a shuttle out to recover the core. A Caatati ship reaches it first, though. The aliens put a tractor beam on it and prepare to tow it away. B'Elanna warns them not to tractor the core, since doing so is dangerous and could blow them up. The Caatati try to chase them off, firing at their shuttle and causing a warp core overload. B'Elanna and Tom have barely enough time to jump into spacesuits and beam themselves off the shuttle before it explodes. They float alone together in space and watch as the aliens take off with Voyager's warp core.

Voyager receives a distress call from the two lost crewmembers, who have a limited amount of oxygen in their spacesuits and need to be rescued. The ship is held up by the Caatati, who demand supplies in exchange for the warp core. The Borg-hating aliens also demand Seven of Nine.

As B'Elanna and Tom float in the vacuum of space they begin to feel woozy as their oxygen runs out. As they start to fall asleep they say goodbye to each other. B'Elanna insists she can't die without telling Tom the truth. It takes some effort to admit it. "I love you," she says.

Back on Voyager, Seven of Nine has managed to satisfy the Caatati. She builds them a Thorium generator, which will give them all the energy they need to power their ship's systems; and they are so pleased with it they give back Voyager's warp core and agree to let them keep Seven. With its propulsion back in place, the ship rushes off to rescue Tom and B'Elanna, who have fallen asleep in each other's arms.


Your history will now be as the ones that were trying to kill official federal undercover agent and that turned me into a prisoner of war - again.

The terrorists at Microsoft-Corbis. The paparazzi, such as KING5, KOMO4, etc. The corrupted public officials of King County Washington, among others. All that will without a doubt receive federal prison terms. It is bad enough that you interfere with any official federal undercover agent. It is especially bad you interfered with this official federal undercover agent.

What's the goddamned point of keeping me away from my wife for over 9 years???

All because the Microsoft-Corbis terrorists are stealing my identity. All this because Microsoft-Corbis is controlled by international terrorists and is being protected by George W. Bush and accomplices.


Sun, 2/12/06 6:14 PM

RCW 10.14.010

Legislative finding, intent.

The legislature finds that serious, personal harassment through repeated invasions of a person's privacy by acts and words showing a pattern of harassment designed to coerce, intimidate, or humiliate the victim is increasing. The legislature further finds that the prevention of such harassment is an important governmental objective. This chapter is intended to provide victims with a speedy and inexpensive method of obtaining civil antiharassment protection orders preventing all further unwanted contact between the victim and the perpetrator.


Dick Cheney - agent of Al Qaeda

From 4/14/1981 to 11/18/1994 is: 13 years, 218 days
218 / 365 = 0.59

From 4/14/1981 to 11/18/1994 is: 13.59 years

Star Trek: Generations (1994)
Release Date: 18 November 1994 (USA)

The first Space Shuttle mission, STS-1, was launched April 12, 1981, and returned April 14. Space Shuttle Columbia orbited the earth 36 times in this 54.5-hour mission. It was the first US manned space flight since the Apollo-Soyuz Test Project in July 15, 1975.

I was again reminded of that girfriend from Ashdown named Laurel Hutchinson. And then her last name makes me think of "Starsky and Hutch." Those are details from my artificial and symbolic memory so that is probably why I "remember" it. I'm not sure if John W. Young was actually on that flight or if that was another of my official federal undercover aliases. It could be he was really there but he was chosen, based on symbolic memories I associate with Randy Romine, that his name reflects the notion of "Young John Wayne." I think that Ronald Reagan and John Wayne were friends and that could be the source of the symbolism

Robert Laurel Crippen (born September 11, 1937 in Beaumont, Texas) (Captain, USN, retired) is a former USAF and NASA astronaut, and flew on four Space Shuttle missions, including three as commander. Crippen is a recipient of the Congressional Space Medal of Honor.

Jacqueline Kim
Date of Birth: 31 March 1965
Star Trek: Generations (1994) .... Ensign Demora Sulu

And Crippen was born 5 years, 88 days, before Jim Morrison, so maybe that is supposed to point to a 5-93 clue as it is only 5 days difference. I might have only wanted to get close but not precisely on the mark. There is also the notion that I only had a limited pool of people to choose from. And there is also the notion that it would be easier to match up movie premier dates with events from my life than of matching up movie actors with people that were with me during those events. I think Alan Ruck might have been chosen as the captain of the "Enterprise-B" to connect to me with "Ferris Bueller's Day Off." That movie seems to have been scheduled to point back 59 days, inclusive, to 4/14/1986, the day I escaped from the Libyan prison.

Sunday, 4/12/1981 - Launch of first space shuttle flight
Tuesday, 4/14/1981 - Landing of first space shuttle flight

Memorable quotes forStar Trek: Generations (1994)
Kirk: You left port without a tractor beam?
Harriman: It doesn't arrive until Tuesday.

Screenplay by
Rick Berman, Ronald D. Moore, Brannon Braga



Kirk running down the corridor, opens a door.


A small control room with a few consoles. Kirk rushes
in and rips off one of the large wall panels. He
quickly begins to re-route cabling and circuitry...


As before. The ship is SHAKING badly.

Forty-five seconds to structural

Scotty is working the consoles frantically.

Bridge to Captain Kirk.



Kirk working furiously.

Kirk here.

Captain, I don't know how much
longer I can hold her together!

Kirk finishes working and slams the wall panel closed.

That's it. Go!


As before.

(to Demora)
Activate main deflector.

Demora works the console.


A large BURST 0F ENERGY leaps out of the main deflector
dish and EXPLODES in front of the ship. There is an
immediate reaction within the Energy Ribbon, which
roils and fluctuates in response.


As before.

We're breaking free.


The ship now begins to turn away from the crackling
ribbon. But just as it's turning, one final TENDRIL of
energy suddenly leaps out and hits the ship.



The ship is ROCKED so hard that everyone is knocked off
their feet. Gradually, the SHAKING STOPS. Demora
scrambles back into position.

We're clear.
Everyone reacts with relief.

(excited, to com)
You did it, Kirk!
(to Demora)
Damage report, Ensign.

(off console)
There's some buckling on the
starboard nacelle...
We've also got a hull breach in
the Engineering section.
Emergency forcefields are in place
and holding.


Sections twenty through twenty-
eight on decks thirteen...
(looks at Scotty with
... and fifteen.

Everyone turns around and looks at Scotty.

(to com)
Bridge to Captain Kirk.
Captain Kirk, please respond.

Still no response. Scotty's face falls.

(continuing, to Demora)
Have Chekov meet me on deck

Harriman, very concerned, gets up and follows Scotty.
They EXIT to the Turbolift.



Scotty and Harriman head down the Corridor. They round
a bend... and then stop short. They react to
something ahead of them...


Revealing that the corridor ahead of them is GONE. A
jagged hole has been ripped in the ship and OPEN SPACE
can be seen beyond the twisted metal.

A FORCEFIELD flickers on and off, holding the vacuum of
space at bay.

Scotty and Harriman look at the awesome sight for a
moment. Chekov comes running up the Corridor behind
them. He stops and reacts.

My God...
Was anyone in there?

A long silent beat as Scotty looks out into space.



A huge chunk has been ripped out of the Engineering
section, looking like an open wound. Scotty, Chekov,
and Harriman can be seen standing inside the small
Corridor, looking out into space...


A short time later. Scotty, Harriman and Chekov are
listening to Demora, who is working the Helm console.

I've checked the entire ship and
the surrounding space. there's
no sign of him.

A silent moment. Chekov looks to Scotty, hoping to
hear some sort of miracle. Scotty takes a moment
looks at the empty command chair. Then he shakes his
head. A long beat as everyone is forced to accept this
terrible truth.

Just a quick... run around the

I never thought it would end like

All things must end, Mr. Chekov.

"in captivity"

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Re: Journal June 12, 2006
I do remember participating in Freedom Of Navigation exercises. As the world gets smaller, those kinds of international agreements become especially important. But, as America, we have to also remember what I think of as the Survivor principle. I've never actually watched that series, but I remember reading something about how the weak contestants joined together to vote off the most likely winner. It is sort of like reverse-Darwinism. Darwinism, of course, doesn't really take into account man's thinking and planning capacity. I believe that as humans, we are still evolving, but, while I have no idea what sort of education I have on this topic, Darwinism, as defined in popular culture, doesn't really apply to human's progress. Or maybe it does, I don't know, if you applied it religiously, it is malleable enough to fit with almost any theory.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: in captivity

Sun, 4/2/06 12:53 PM


"During my last night in captivity, my captors forced me to participate in a propaganda video. They told me I would be released if I cooperated. I was living in a threatening environment, under their control, and wanted to go home alive. So I agreed," she said in a statement.

[I can't blame her. I probably would have done the same thing in that kind of situation.

Hopefully they didn't constantly lead her on, playing mind games with her all that time.

I think I would have much rather spent years in that type of captivity than in this form of captivity. I personally would have found it actually easier to cope with people holding me with guns. I have been in situations even as kid when people were using weapons to threaten me personally or people I cared about. I was never a hostage like this, but I think it would have been easier on me mentally than all this deception I have endured all these years. I find it easier to cope with physical pain than I do with mental anquish. I wonder who I am making that revelation to.]

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Sleep journal 3/26/06

Not enough of it. Need sleep. Lousy inconsiderate bastards yelling and jumping around. How can anyone sleep with all this goddamned snoring.

I don't know, maybe there isn't a hidden camera in that fire detector in the ceiling. Two guys got kicked out yesterday because they were smoking crack cocaine in the cubicle next to me. Don't know if someone saw them on the camera or just by walking by. Seems like they would have known a camera was there too.

Need sleep.

keep it up you goddamned pyscos. keep playing your goddamned games you fucking losers.

goddamned noisy motherfuckers. sounds like goddamned dogs digging through goddamned trashbags.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Re: whendoes this goddamned end??????????????????????????????

Sat, 3/25/06 7:12 PM

when does this goddamned end so I cna get sme goddamned sleep??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? goddamn rat bastard motherfucjers

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when do i get some goddamned sleep??????????????????????????????????????

"Wish You Were Here"

She just looks so familiar in these photos. If not for the great feeling associated with that familiar unfamiliarity, I would feel frustrated about not knowing why I feel it. I can't begin to articulate my feeling about this. There is just something there I need to find. Something missing. It is my conscious memory of her. The feelings are there but the conscious awareness of where those feelings come from is missing. I assume she has her hair pulled back in that photos because her hair was a lot shorter when we got married. That's why I "remember" that Rachel had very short hair in my artificial and symbolic memory. I noted earlier that the blouse she is wearing resembles the comforter I slept under of many years when I was working at Microsoft to investigate the terrorists in control of that company and King County, Washington, among others.


From 2/9/2007 to 3/3/2007 is: 22 days
From 3/3/2007 to 3/25/2007 is: 22 days

From 2/9/2007 to 3/25/2007 is: 44 days
44 * 0.5933 = 26
From 2/9/2007 to 3/7/2007 is: 26 days

Exit the King: Kevin Kline's Lear Closes March 25

The Public Theater's production of William Shakespeare's King Lear, starring Kevin Kline, closes March 25.

James Lapine directed the production, which began previews Feb. 9 and opened March 7.

I "remember" that Rachel had hair just as Phoebe does in this movie, "Date With An Angel." I still "remember" so much about Rachel, in my artificial and symbolic memory. I had talked to her a few times before we started seeing each other. She followed me into my office one day after we were talking in the cafe of the First Federal building and we were talking in there. I think that was the day we started seeing each other, which was actually later that night. I said something to Jim Shea later that I was thinking Rachel had a thing for me. He said something about how he was quite certain she was indeed very interested in me. I went looking for her and arranged for us to get together later that night and she came over to my apartment at Wexford. This all probably relates to Phoebe somehow but I am not sure how it all relates directly to us. For example, Rachel was living with another guy when we started dating. It could that detail represents me as both guys, but I am not certain. Or it just represents that mediocrity notion I have written of. My belief is that Phoebe has been so perfect for me in reality that I had to create imperfect relationships in my artificial memory so I could fully appreciate just how great she is.

Hell, my "memories" may actually be jumbled with the movies she made. I might be confusing scenes from her movies with our real life together back then. It makes sense, but I don't know. It feels like I "remember" what I was taught to "remember." I might not even "remember" actual scenes from movies, I just "remember" something about her being the love interest of someone in a movie she was in. That's a very aggravating feeling.

I don't remember actually watching this movie, "Gremlins," but yet I feel as though I have. Was she an airline stewardess in that movie? That would be pretty funny.

Or is that a uniform for a movie theatre?

god it hurts to look at those images of her. I miss her beyond tolerance. Phoebe looks a lot like Rachel in this photo. And I look at this photo, and while I can't remember when it was taken, I feel quite certain I was in love with her on this day, as I was in love with her many days before that photo was taken and I was in love with her many days after that photo was taken. I can't consciously remember anything about those times, but I feel it and all I know for certain is that we are not together and I miss her intensely.

And god, look at her out in the snow like that!! How many incredible memories of her like that are layered into my mind from over the years we have been in love?

It's probably not that easy being in love with an actress because you see her.....something....something. If it wasn't easy then, it is brutal now that my long-term memories are scrambled. I see that photo of her on the phone in "Date With An Angel" and I imagine that is how she looked when someone called her on 5/13/1987 to tell her I had been found alive. I have been thinking that the release of "Date With An Angel" was timed for a point 359 days after the funeral service my family had for me in 1986.

I notice again as I look through those photos that she just gets prettier as time goes by. She is prettier in the current photos than back when we would have started dating in the 80's, and she was quite pretty back then, so that's saying a lot. Why the goddamned hell can't I see her TODAY!!!!!

I wonder why I have such bad "memories" associated with this next song. I can "remember" that I hated hearing this song when it played. I still don't like to listen to it. It doesn't make me feel as bad as it did a long time ago, but I still don't like to listen to it, even though I am a fan of all of Tom Petty's work.

"Mary Jane's Last Dance" is a song by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers. It was recorded while Petty was recording his Wildflowers album, and was produced by Rick Rubin. This song was first released as part of the Greatest Hits album in 1993.

I noted earlier that Pink Floyd's "Wish You Were Here" premiered 41 weeks, 4 days, before 7/2/1976. I recognize the date 7/2/1976 as when I intercepted the comet in the outer solar system above the ecliptic.

From 9/15/1975 to 7/2/1976 is: 41 weeks and 4 days

Wish You Were Here is a concept album by Pink Floyd. Recorded at Abbey Road Studios between January and July, 1975 and released on September 15, 1975 (see 1975 in music), the album would later be regarded as one of Pink Floyd's greatest albums. Its lyrics, composed by Roger Waters and concerning the music industry, question the market-oriented record companies' lack of understanding and interest for musicians. The album also pays tribute to Syd Barrett, Pink Floyd's former guitarist and chief songwriter, especially "Shine On You Crazy Diamond", and the title track itself.

I don't know if I wrote those lyrics in my real life, but I imagine it was created in anticipation of my mission to intercept the comet. I think a lot about that part about "pile on many more layers" in the context of all the craziness I had probably seen to that point in my life. All that time in combat in the Vietnam War, all those trips into space. I wonder if this music is how I coped with the stress. I wonder if I even knew what stress was back then.

I read that article again and I immediately "remember" a girlfriend I had in my artificial and symbolic memory. Her name was Abby and I would see her when we were in port at the U.s. Navy Roosevelt Roads base in Puerto Rico. The P.R. makes me think of my wife, Phoebe Ray.

That has got be what that means. Why else would I have such artificial and symbolic memories? I find myself wanting to say that I am Pink Floyd, but I feel bad for taking all the credit for the work. I don't know if I created it all or I just own all the rights to the work in my real life or what it all means. I don't know.

Pink Floyd Lyrics

Shine On You Crazy Diamond (I-V) Lyrics

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,
blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter,
come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions,
come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!

Shine On You Crazy Diamond (VI-IX) Lyrics

Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Pile on many more layers and I'll be joining you there.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
And we'll bask in the shadow of yesterday's triumph,
sail on the steel breeze.
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser,
come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine

This is your trial before the trial.

Thomas Ray, astronaut space shuttle pilot F-16 Falcon/F-14 Tomcat/F-18 Hornet Top Gun U.S. Navy SEAL Captain guided-missile destroyer, looks forward to being deposed by your scheister defense lawyer.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Sleep Journal 2/22/06

Felt like there was a lot of dreams but I can only remember one segment. I wonder if they are getting better at erasing whatever it is I sense to distinquish it as a foreign dream. Maybe it has something to do with the tone of voice they use when they are manipulating my dreams. Perhaps there was an urgency in the past that doesn't exist now and that translates in my perception as something else. The dream I remember from this morning, I think it was just before I woke up, was that I was stationed aboard a U.S. Navy ship. There was a lot more to this dream I wish I could remember, but I think the basic dream was that I was the XO, it may have been a Perry class frigate, but I don't remember which one it was. I remember at one point I was saying that I wanted to be the CO of the Stark, but since that ship has been decom'd I think, I don't know what that means. The only real part I remember about this dream is that I was explaining to the CO how I was going to handle liberty call for our next port. We were leaving on a trip down to Puerto Rico and would stay in port for one night and I was working out the plan for liberty. I remember something about the CO seemed really young, maybe a teenager. I wonder if that is how all COs are if you know one on a peer- or almost-peer basis. That isn't it quite exactly, something about them seeming more human or not so terrible, as I heard them referred to once.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Sleep Journal 2/24/06

I remember only one scene from my dreams last night. It was of looking down into a paper bag that had a cat in it. I am confused about whether the dream was from the perspective of my eyes or whether I was the cat. Maybe both. I remember the cat was really pissed off. I remember seeing what would seem to be my arm reaching into the bag to pet the cat. I don't know if it occurred during the dream or after I woke up, but I remember thinking how that seemed like a bad idea. I remember a voice saying something about how it just wanted to pet the cat, but I am uncertain whether the voice was saying "I" or "We" to indicate whether it was me talking to the cat or whether the spectators were talking to me, respectively. I awoke with a relevant lyric fragment playing in my head, but I don't remember it now.

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Sleep Journal 2/27/06

There was a bunch of stuff in my dreams last night, but I only remember one part. I was also very tired when I woke up, but couldn't go back to sleep. The part of the dream I do remember is where I was walking down some stairs. It seemed to be outside, as in stairs leading down the outside of a building, a factory maybe. I am thinking it was at the end of something, a conclusion of something. I turned around after going down a couple of the stairs and was organizing some stuff, books maybe. I couldn't get them all together or something and I think I was going to have to make a second trip to bring them all down. Within the boxes and books, I pulled out a hat and put it on. It was a U.S. Navy Officer's cover.

Today I am also thinking back to that dream I had in my last days at Microsoft. I told a friend about it. I dreamed that someone had set off two bombs and I was watching the towering clouds from the explosions rising high into the atmosphere. I was baffled at how people were going around their normal business like nothing had happened. There was one person I recognized, a guy that was on the same team as I. I didn't understand why no one was concerned.


Fri, 3/3/06 3:22 PM

This was a pleasant surprise. I was disappointed though when I first saw them that they were preparing to leave. I think this is the one at the link below. I love these ships. Who needs a parade when you can watch a U.S. Navy warship getting underway? If I could choose any ship I wanted for a personal yacht, it would be a Burke-class destroyer.

THE DOORS lyrics

"Break On Through (To The Other Side)"

You know the day destroys the night
Night divides the day
Tried to run
Tried to hide
Break on through to the other side
Break on through to the other side
Break on through to the other side, yeah

We chased our pleasures here
Dug our treasures there
But can you still recall
The time we cried
Break on through to the other side
Break on through to the other side

C'mon, yeah

Everybody loves my baby
Everybody loves my baby
She get(s high)
She get(s high)
She get(s high)
She get(s high)

I found an island in your arms
Country in your eyes
Arms that chain
Eyes that lie
Break on through to the other side
Break on through to the other side
Break on through, oww!
Oh, yeah!

Made the scene
Week to week
Day to day
Hour to hour
The gate is straight
Deep and wide
Break on through to the other side
Break on through to the other side
Break on through
Break on through
Break on through
Break on through

George W. Bush - agent of Al Qaeda

All these years for nothing. I can't even see my wife. I think I am remembering when I would hold her in my arms and she would look at me with a look on her face that melts my heart and I would brush a strand of hair from her face and it just melts my heart to think about it and I can almost certainly feel her in my arms and see that beautiful look on her face as she looks into me. That is what I think of when I see current photos of her in that blouse that is similar to the comforter I slept under for all those years.

Something about how I have lost the context, or something, about the pain I feel from being apart. I still remember the pain, but I lost the association of it ending when we were together again. The pain is still there, disconnected from when we got back together. I still remember when I would get to see her again, but it is disconnected....something like that. And we are still apart. All I know is that I miss her intensely.

And for what? For what reason are we apart?

It is all - ALL OF IT - because Microsoft-Corbis and accomplices are stealing from me. We have had to be apart because Microsoft-Corbis is a terrorist organization led by Bill Gates. His major accomplice is George W. Bush and Bill Gates arranged for George W. Bush to get into office in an effort to steal my identity and my intellectual property. George W. Bush was a national traitor before he was installed as president by Microsoft-Corbis, a terrorist organization.

Patrick Stewart OBE (born July 13, 1940) is an Emmy- and Golden Globe-nominated British film, television and stage actor. He is also Chancellor of the University of Huddersfield.[1] Stewart has had a distinguished career in theatre for nearly fifty years, including performances as various characters in Shakespearean productions. However, he is most famous for his roles as Captain Jean-Luc Picard in Star Trek: The Next Generation, and as Professor Xavier in the X-Men film franchise.
Stewart's son, Daniel, had a small role playing Picard's son the Next Generation episode, "The Inner Light".

General Daniel Stewart (December 20, 1761 - May 27, 1829) was a brigadier general in the Georgia Militia. He joined the militia in 1776 and served during the American Revolutionary War and the War of 1812.[1]

Stewart was the great-grandfather of Theodore Roosevelt

From 12/20/1761 to 5/27/1829 is: 67 years, 5 months, 1 week

Reminds me of 5/1/1967, the day I recognize as my first flight by myself in a fighter jet.


Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Bernie Taupin
Available on the album Don't Shoot Me I'm Only The Piano Player

Daniel is travelling tonight on a plane
I can see the red tail lights heading for Spain
Oh and I can see Daniel waving goodbye
God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes

They say Spain is pretty though I've never been
Well Daniel says it's the best place that he's ever seen
Oh and he should know, he's been there enough
Lord I miss Daniel, oh I miss him so much

Daniel my brother you are older than me
Do you still feel the pain of the scars that won't heal
Your eyes have died but you see more than I
Daniel you're a star in the face of the sky

Daniel is travelling tonight on a plane
I can see the red tail lights heading for Spain
Oh and I can see Daniel waving goodbye
God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes
Oh God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes

Released January 22, 1973

Don't Shoot Me I'm Only the Piano Player is the seventh album by British singer/songwriter Elton John.

This was Elton John's commercial breakthrough in America and yielded his first #1 single there - Crocodile Rock. Along with Crocodile Rock, Don't Shoot Me... contained more songs with a pop flavor, including "Elderberry Wine" (the b-side of Crocodile Rock) and "Teacher, I Need You." Many long-time fans however, lamented this change, wishing he had stayed true to his original roots of simple piano ballads which were the staple on most of his earlier albums.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

You might be the next Phoebe

For someone else that is - I couldn't be happier with my Phoebe (except that we aren't together while I am working)

People in the News: It pays to have the right audience

Who needs "American Idol" to get a recording contract when you can get one by singing for George Clooney? Reuters reported that part-time food server and jazz singer Victoria Hart, 18, snagged a bidding battle for her crooning skills after performing in front of the "Ocean's 13" star and friends.

Hart sang in front of Clooney, Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie at the Cannes Film Festival at a benefit auction for Darfur. The performance was a career-maker that thrust her in the spotlight and into a tug-of-war between major recording labels EMI and Universal.

If one of those companies signs her, she'll say goodbye to her job at the Naked Turtle restaurant in London.


That article I referenced earlier says that Valerie Plame is from Anchorage, Alaska. That must have some bearing on the U.S. military DD-214 that is part of my official federal undercover identity. I was puzzling a while back over some artificial and symbolic memories from long ago of someone confusing the AR postal abbreviation for Arkansas with the AK postal code for Alaska. I was puzzling over why that mistake would be made on my DD-214. Someone incorrectly typed in AK, instead of AR, for Arkansas and then used a pen to turn it into AR. It is barely noticable, now that I think about it, but in my mind, it is huge. Why would such an error exist on a document that was created to support my official federal undercover identity?

I have also puzzled many times over the years about the years about the address in the field 19.a. "Mailing Address After Separation." It contains Thedia Newman's address at Highway 59 and Constitution Avenue in Ashdown, Arkanasas. I puzzled over why the town name was written as Ashdown, Little Rock, AR 71822. I puzzled over that for a long time and I do especially now because Ashdown is no where near Little Rock. If Ashdown was a suburb of Little Rock, I could understand the detail. As I was writing that last sentence, a scene from my artificial and symbolic memory flashed into mind of one time I was talking to Tammie Hood and she was talking about how she expected Ashdown to be a suburb of Texarkana in the near future. That was probably back in the late 80's or early 90's. I don't know why I would "remember" such an artificial memory.

There is a reason I have artificial and symbolic memories about being on Shore Patrol on the USS Wainwright. Someone knows something about that from 1999, too. Clues that are sure to point to my assignments as a guard.

Master-At-Arms (MA) perform, conduct or advise appropriate personnel on matters of investigations, interrogations, apprehension, crime prevention, preservation of crime scenes and evidence, enforcement of orders, and regulations, shore patrol, and crowd control; implement, develop, conduct, physical security policy, plans, programs, and assessments; recommend enhancement to physical security of navy bases, installations, property, and personnel; supervise and train security forces in antiterrorism defense and weapons proficiency; assist commands in establishing terrorist threat conditions and implementing defensive measures to combat threat.

070524-N-5758H-028 STATEN ISLAND, N.Y. (May 24, 2007) - Santi Ranno, a retired Marine Corps veteran, shares past experiences in the military to Sailors assigned to guided-missile frigate USS Stephen W. Groves (FFG 29) during a community luncheon with veterans for Fleet Week New York City 2007 at the Veterans of Foreign Wars Labetti Post 2159. The 20th annual Fleet Week provides an opportunity for citizens of New York City and the surrounding Tri-State area to meet more than 3,000 Sailors, Marines and Coast Guardsmen. U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 3rd Class Kenneth R. Hendrix (RELEASED)

USS Stephen W. Groves (FFG-29), twenty-first ship of the Oliver Hazard Perry class of guided-missile frigates, was named for Ensign Stephen W. Groves (1917–1942), a naval aviator who was posthumously awarded the Navy Cross for his heroism at the Battle of Midway.
Ordered from Bath Iron Works on 23 January 1978 as part of the FY78 program, Stephen W. Groves was laid down on 16 September 1980, launched on 4 April 1981, and commissioned on 17 April 1982, Commander Philip A. Bozzelli commanding.

And so much of this because I was selfish to love Phoebe. As soon as I started to understand I was in love with her, I should have just let her go so she wouldn't have to live like this. No one else on this planet can actually love her as I do, but still, it was incredibly selfish of me to marry her and bring her into this kind of life. I was incredibly selfish. It's not bad enough the 9.2 years for this recent deployment. There is also the constant danger. Make no mistake about it - I have some of the worst possible enemies a person in the U.S. military can have. And for what? I have the support of the U.S. Navy, but still. My job isn't to be protected by the military. I have a dangerous job but for what? What do I have to show for it? Nothing. I live in a cage. I worry about the safety of the woman I love and I don't even get to see her. All for what? What is the goddamned point to it all? What is the POINT?? All I have done is to make the people I care about a target. This country couldn't give a goddamned about my life. They don't give a crap about freedom because they don't deserve it. They won't let me live free, so why the fuck do they deserve to be free. I haven't seen my wife in over 9 damned years and I STILL HAVE NO GODDAMNED IDEA WHEN I WILL SEE HER AGAIN!!!! ALL I HAVE ARE THESE GODDAMNED PAPARAZZI MOTHERFUCKERS 24 HOURS A GODDAMNED DAY!!!! And still...I know nothing. I just have feelings that I hope are true about her. But what the hell do I know for certain? Nothing. I feel sane and that these are real memories returning, but no one is telling me a goddamned thing.

"I Dreamed Of Africa"

Kim Basinger, according to information I found on the internet, was 33 years, 5 months, 9 days, old on 5/17/1987. I recognize that I completed my escape from Africa on 5/13/1987 and then the USS Stark FFG-31 was hit by Saddam on 5/17/1987 because it was transporting me to Bahrain for medical treatment. I imagine that Phoebe had dreams of Africa in 1986 when I was missing and presumed dead. There are probably other clues to find associated with this movie but I have found it almost impossible to concentrate on any further today.

I Dreamed of Africa (2000)

Release Date: 5 May 2000 (USA)

I recognize the day 2/14/1986 as when I was shot down by anti-aircraft fire and was a Prisoner of War in Libya until 4/14/1986. Around the time I was shot down, I was the same age as Colonel Ilan Ramon of the Israeli Air Force. Bill Gates took a page out of that book and hired Monica Lewinsky to target President Clinton around the time I was in Microsoft to establish probable cause back in 1995. Bill Gates has also purchased and corrupted such public officials as George W. Bush and Dave Reichert.

From 2/14/1986 to 9/19/1986 is: 217 days
217 / 365 = 0.59
From 2/14/1986 to 9/19/1986 is: 0.59 year

From 4/14/1986 to 8/28/1986 is: 4 months, 14 days

Proclamation 5520—National P.O.W./M.I.A. Recognition Day, 1986

August 28th, 1986

By the President of the United States of America

A Proclamation

Courage and sacrifice are no strangers to America. In every war since our first struggle for independence, America's prisoners of war have endured terrible hardships and have been called upon to make extraordinary sacrifices. The bravery, perseverance, and profound devotion to duty of our POWs and MIAs have earned them a place of honor in the hearts of all Americans. Their heroism is an inspiration to future generations. Their spirit of hope and their commitment to the defense of freedom are a claim on our loyalty to them.

All Americans are also deeply moved by the pain and suffering endured by the families and friends of those who remain missing or unaccounted for. We share both their burden and their commitment to secure the release of any U.S. personnel who may still be held against their will, to recover the missing, to resolve the accounting, and to relieve the suffering of our missing servicemen. Until the P.O.W./M.I.A. issue has been resolved, it will continue to be a matter of the highest national priority. As a symbol of this national commitment, the P.O.W./M.I.A. Flag will fly over the White House, the Departments of State and Defense, the Veterans' Administration, and the Vietnam Veterans Memorial on September 19, 1986. It will also fly over the Vietnam Veterans Memorial on Memorial Day and Veterans Day.

In order to recognize the special debt all Americans owe to the men and women who gave up their freedom in the service of our country and to reaffirm our commitment to their families, the Congress, by Senate Joint Resolution 220, has designated September 19, 1986, as "National P.O.W./M.I.A. Recognition Day," and authorized and requested the President to issue a proclamation in observance of this occasion.

Now, Therefore, I, Ronald Reagan, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim Friday, September 19, 1986, as National P.O.W./M.I.A. Recognition Day. I call on all Americans to join in honoring all former American prisoners of war, those still missing, and their families who have made extraordinary sacrifices on behalf of this country. I also call upon State and local officials and private organizations to observe this day with appropriate ceremonies and activities.

In Witness Whereof, I have hereunto set my hand this twenty-eighth day of August, in the year of our Lord nineteen hundred and eighty-six, and of the Independence of the United States of America the two hundred and eleventh.


From 5/13/1987 to 12/16/1987 is: 217 days
217 / 365 = 0.59
From 5/13/1987 to 12/16/1987 is: 0.59 year

The Trail of Tears National Historic Trail commemorates the removal of the Cherokee and the paths that 17 Cherokee detachments followed westward. Today the trail encompasses about 2,200 miles of land and water routes, and traverses portions of nine states.

National Historic Trail - December 16, 1987

PUBLIC LAW 100-192 [S. 5781; December 16,1987


HOUSE REPORTS- No 100-461 Comm on Interior and Insular Affairs
SENATE REPORTS No 100-175 Comm. on Energy and Natural Resources CONGRESSIONAL RECORD. Vol. 133 (1987)
Oct. 1, considered and passed Senate.
Dec. 1 considered and passed House, amended.
Dec. 3 Senate concurred in House amendments. 101 STAT. 1309

Letter to the Speaker of the House of Representatives and the President of the Senate on Low Intensity Conflict Policy

December 16, 1987

Dear Mr. Speaker: (Dear Mr. President:)

Conflict in the Third World can pose serious threats to our security interests. Low intensity conflicts, which take place at levels below conventional war, but above routine peaceful competition among states, can be particularly troublesome.

The attached report, prepared pursuant to section 1311 of the National Defense Authorization Act of 1987, responds to legislation passed by the Congress in 1986. It describes actions taken, and ongoing, as a result of our experience with low intensity conflicts over the last several years and highlights a broad-range effort to address problems associated with low intensity conflict and our Special Operations Forces. In that regard, in June of this year, I approved a new national policy and strategy for low intensity conflict and established a Board for Low Intensity Conflict that is chaired by my National Security Adviser. The essential elements of our low intensity conflict policy and strategy are described in the report.

We have also activated the new Unified Command for Special Operations, improved our special operations capabilities, and established the office of the new Assistant Secretary of Defense for Special Operations and Low Intensity Conflict.

More work lies ahead. The United States must continue to respond to challenges arising from low intensity conflict -- to defend our interests and support those who put their lives on the line in the common cause of freedom. For the United States to be effective in this most important undertaking, there must be public understanding and strong congressional support. I hope this report will contribute to a broader understanding of low intensity conflict and the support that our policy requires.


Ronald Reagan

This clever little clue was 5 months, 9 days, into the year 1987, and almost a month after I completed my escape after being shot down by anti-aircraft fire on 2/14/1986.

Nomination of Kenneth P. Bergquist To Be an Assistant Secretary of Defense
June 9th, 1987

The President today announced his intention to nominate Kenneth P. Bergquist to be an Assistant Secretary of Defense (Special Operations and Low Intensity Conflict). He would succeed Chapman B. Cox. This is a new area of responsibility provided for in P.L. 99-500 of October 18, 1986.

Since 1986 Mr. Bergquist has been the Deputy Assistant Attorney General in the Office of Legislative Affairs, Department of Justice. Prior to this he was Deputy Assistant Secretary for Readiness, Force Management and Training at the Department of the Army, 1983-1986.

Mr. Bergquist graduated from Stanford University (B.A., 1967) and the University of Texas School of Law (J.D., 1977). He served in the United States Army, 1967-1974, and since 1974 has served in the United States Army Reserve. He was born April 12, 1944, in Washington, DC. Mr. Bergquist is married, has two children, and resides in McLean, VA.

The Joshua Tree is the fifth studio album by Irish rock band U2, released on March 9, 1987 on Island Records. It was produced by Brian Eno and Daniel Lanois. The album was massively successful, and is considered to have been U2's worldwide commercial breakthrough. In addition, it has often been praised by music critics as the band's best album and one of the best rock albums of all time. In 2003, the album was ranked number 26 on Rolling Stone magazine's list of the 500 greatest albums of all time. The Joshua Tree won the Album of the Year award at the Grammy Awards of 1988.


Water and desert

Numerous aspects of the album emphasize water and the desert. To begin with, the cover photograph is a black-and-white photo of the band at Death Valley National Park in the desert of California [2], taken by the band's longtime photographer Anton Corbijn; then there is the title of the album, which harkens to the California desert's Joshua Tree. Throughout the album, there are numerous explicit lyrical references to water and desert. Specifically, there are 46 references to the words rain, raining, rainin', rainfall, flood, water, well, sea, ocean, and river. Also, there are 17 references to desert, dry, plain, heat, dust, sunlight, and the sun. Water and desert, poetic equivalents of life and death, loss and redemption, and other diametrically opposed but uniquely linked forces, are thus used for a variety of purposes (which are further explained later):

Reconciling Greg Carroll's death;

Analogizing the duality of American spirit and its oft-ruthless foreign policy;

Setting a tone of the American Southwest, providing a cinematic backdrop for the music - as Bono has said, a canvas on which to paint; and

Creating tone of rusticism, purity, earthiness, piety, rootsiness, and complementing the bluesy/country vibe.

Track listing

"Where the Streets Have No Name" – 5:37
"I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" – 4:37
"With or Without You" – 4:56
"Bullet the Blue Sky" – 4:32
"Running to Stand Still" – 4:18
"Red Hill Mining Town" – 4:52
"In God's Country" – 2:57
"Trip Through Your Wires" – 3:32
"One Tree Hill" – 5:23
"Exit" – 4:13
"Mothers of the Disappeared" – 5:14

Music by U2, lyrics by Bono.
Produced and engineered by Brian Eno and Daniel Lanois.

Assuming this release date in the article is correct, I'm not entirely sure why this would point to the hit on the Stark, other than obvious reasons associated with me. There are some ideas, such as the sense of loss of the sailors that were killed during another assassination attempt on me. Maybe that is why. At first, I thought it was going to point to 5/13/1987, but instead, it is 33 months, 3 days, after 5/17/1987, which was the day the USS Stark FFG-31 was hit.

After I wrote that last paragraph, I read again the title of the album and that makes sense, actually. "Dark at the end of the tunnel" seems to be a good representation of the day the Stark was hit while transporting me home after I completed my escape from Africa. They'll probably try again. They always do.

Released February 20, 1990

Dark at the End of the Tunnel is the sixth studio album by Oingo Boingo, released in 1990. It is the first collection of all new material released by the band since their 1987 album BOI-NGO. It is also notable as the first record to find the band shying away from the previously heavy use of New Wave elements with more emphasis on a heavy, Modern Rock sound.

Track listing

"When The Lights Go Out" "Skin"
"Out Of Control"
"Glory Be"
"Long Breakdown"
"Flesh 'N Blood"
"Run Away (The Escape Song)"
"Dream Somehow"
"Is This"
"Right To Know"
"Try To Believe"

Oingo Boingo

Flesh ’n’ Blood

Over time Ive come to feel
That everything must come apart it seems
From the little child to the man of power
From the beggar to the angel of my dreams
From the thinnest thread we are sewn together
From the finest string we dangle over time
From the highest wire do we walk through fire
Should our balance ever falter
Should our steps be unaligned
Such a big storm yeah such a strong wind blowing
Such a loud voice calling for me to cross the line


But Im not gonna give up the ghost
No, not gonna give up the ghost
Im not gonna give up the ghost, no not gonna give it up
cause I havent the strength to hold out too long
If we both hold on together we can make each other strong

After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh
After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh n blood
After all were flesh

Drop the mask take away the house
And forget about the income and the car
Were all the same underneath our shell
Weve all been to hell and we know what its like
And weve shared each others sins
We all know what its like to give up the fight
Weve all been ashamed at one time or another
We all have dreams and nightmares too

When it all comes down well look out for each other
(no one else will)
But when I hear the call when I feel the thirst
When the catcher comes to take my soul
Hes gonna have to fight me first


Every cloud has a silver lining
And every soul is tender to the touch
We are made of stone, we are made of steel
And were all the same when we return to dust
But when I hear the call when I feel the thirst
When the catcher comes to take my soul
Hes gonna have to fight me first . . .

Chorus out

9.20 years of missing out

I might not remember enough at this point to get the full picture of this clue. The movie premiered 3 months, 3 days, after Phoebe's 7/16/1990 birthday, but I found myself wondering if it is supposed to point back 3 years, 3 months, 3 days, earlier to her birthday on 7/16/1987. That would have been a few weeks after I returned from Africa, after surviving a similar fate as "Quigley" in this movie.

Quigley Down Under (1990)

Release Date: 19 October 1990 (USA)

Tagline: There's a price on his head. A girl on his mind. And a twinkle in his eye.

I noted this earlier, but I was thinking again about how this actress was born, according to information on the internet, precisely 5.933 months after Phoebe, my wife. I have artifical and symbolic memories of taking Bobbilynn Michelle Townsend to see that movie "Kindergarten Cop" so that must mean something. I drove her in my red 1990 Mazda RX-7 GXL to the theatre in Anderson, South Carolina. She lived near Clemson and she worked at First Federal, in my artificial and symbolic memory. I also "remember" a football coach named Kimble from Ashdown.

Penelope Ann Miller (January 13, 1964), sometimes credited as Penelope Miller, is an American actress. She starred in several major Hollywood films during the 1990s, and has continued appearing in supporting roles in both film and television.

Kindergarten Cop (1990) is a film directed by Ivan Reitman and starring Arnold Schwarzenegger. Schwarzenegger stars as John Kimble, a tough loner police detective, who goes after drug dealer Cullen Crisp (Richard Tyson), before he can get to his ex-wife and son. Pamela Reed plays his partner Phoebe O'Hara, a teacher-turned-cop and Penelope Ann Miller plays Joyce, the teacher who becomes Kimble's love interest.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Scooter Libby - operative of Al Qaeda

Arguing that Libby deserves jail time, Fitzgerald says Plame was a covert agent
Moreover, while Libby denied ever knowing that Valerie Wilson was a covert agent (and prosecutors never introduced any evidence that he had) “other evidence obtained by the grand jury indicated that defendant learned that Ms. Wilson worked at the CIA from multiple government officials under circumstances that, at a bare minimum, warranted inquiry before the information was publicly disseminated.”

One of Libby’s most ardent defenders, Richard Carlson, a former chief of the Voice of America who serves as a member of a defense trust set up for Libby, reacted harshly to Fitzgerald’s latest filings. “I think it’s certainly unseemly that he is kicking him while he’s down,” Carlson said. “For Fitzgerald, to get on his high horse, it’s disgusting and he should be ashamed of himself.”

American movie actor Richard Carlson (April 29, 1912- November 21, 1977)...The 1950s proved a busy time for Carlson. He continued to direct, this time in television and documentary films. He also was the star of the television series I Led Three Lives from 1953-1956.

I Led Three Lives is a US television show which was syndicated by Ziv Television Programs from 1953-56. It was loosely based on the life of Herbert Philbrick, a Boston advertising executive who infiltrated the US Communist Party on behalf of the FBI in the 1940s and wrote a bestselling book on the topic, I Led Three Lives: Citizen, 'Communist', Counterspy (1952). Philbrick narrated each episode and served as a technical consultant and all scripts were approved by J. Edgar Hoover and the FBI. Despite this, the episodes often had very little to do with the actual events of Philbrick's life and gradually became more and more outlandish, with Philbrick journeying to Europe and South America and featuring such Communist plots as an attempt to convert vacuum cleaners into bomb launchers.

Philbrick was played by Richard Carlson. I Led Three Lives lasted 117 episodes. Interestingly, the show was a favorite of presidential assassin Lee Harvey Oswald when he was a teenager.

Herbert Arthur Philbrick (May 11, 1915 - August 16, 1993) was a Boston area advertising executive who, acting as a citizen volunteer, successfully infiltrated the Communist Party USA between 1940 and 1949. His involvement began when he joined a Communist front group in Cambridge, Massachusetts, the Cambridge Youth Council. His suspicions aroused by the strange power structure and positions taken by this group, Philbrick contacted the FBI and encouraged by them, began deepening his involvement in Communist activities, joining first the Young Communist League and later, as a secret member, the Communist Party itself.
Philbrick's Party career came to its end when the Justice Department decided to use him as a witness in the Smith Act prosecutions of the leadership of the Communist Party, United States v. Foster, et. al. On April 6, 1949 he was called as a witness, testifing about his career and training as a Party activist. His testimony was perhaps most useful in that he demonstrated from the content of the training he had received the intent of the Communist Party to overthrow the government of the United States.

He went on to write a biographical book, I Led Three Lives: Citizen, 'Communist', Counterspy, which was made into a movie. A television series, I Led Three Lives, loosely based on his experiences ran for 3 years during the 1950s.

Later in life, Philbrick retired to the home of his youth, in the seacoast region of New Hampshire. He remained active in giving speeches and encouraging youth and adult citizens to exercise their political rights and power, admonishing his listeners to be ever-watchful against those who would undermine our democratic form of government. Toward the end of his life, he owned and ran a hardware store in North Hampton, NH. Shunning fame, he confided that he never stopped travelling under assumed names and watching for people following him.

Dave Reichert - operative of Al Qaeda

Dave Reichert was 593 months old on 1/29/2000. I had been working at Microsoft with my official federal undercover identity for 59 weeks, 5 days, on 1/29/2000. Dave Reichert is a corrupted United States Congressman who, as a corrupted public official, was the Sheriff of King County, Washington, when I worked undercover at Microsoft. Microsoft-Corbis bought him off to protect them against the federal government working to stop their terrorist activities. Dave Reichert is an operative for the Al Qaeda terrorist organization. I will personally be arresting Dave Reichert with a federal warrant when that time comes.

On the date 1/27/2000, Scooter Libby, formerly of Dick Cheney's staff, was 593 months, 5 days, old. Libby - Libyan

Also on the date 1/27/2000, I had been working undercover at Microsoft for 59 weeks, 3 days, having started there on 12/7/1998.

The date 1/27/2000 was 359 days before 1/20/2001, the day George W. Bush and Dick Cheney took office.

The World Trade Center and the Pentagon were attacked on 9/11/2001. That was 33 months, 4 days, after 12/7/1998, the first day of employment for me at Microsoft, as arranged by Microsoft.

The USS Cole DDG-67 was hit by terrorists on 10/12/2000, which was 334 days before the 9/11/2001 attacks.

This aircraft has 3-3-4 in the tail number:

American Airlines Flight 11 was the first flight hijacked in the September 11, 2001 attacks. It was an American Airlines flight aboard a Boeing 767-223ER aircraft, registration number N334AA

When I read about this hijacked aircraft, I recognized the Microsoft employee ID 75612 that Microsoft assigned to me on 12/7/1998, which was 33 months, 4 days, before 9/11/2001:

Flight 175
Tail number N612UA

United Airlines Flight 175 was a morning flight that regularly flew from Logan International Airport in East Boston, Massachusetts to Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) in Los Angeles, California (Boston–Los Angeles route). On September 11, 2001, the United Airlines Boeing 767-222, registered N612UA

This aircraft had the '591' in the registration number on the tail:

United Airlines Flight 93 was a regular flight from Newark International Airport (now known as Newark Liberty International Airport) in Newark, New Jersey, to San Francisco International Airport, then continuing on to Narita International Airport in Tokyo, Japan, on a different aircraft. On September 11, 2001, the United Airlines Boeing 757-222, registered N591UA

The pilot of Flight 77 that went into the Pentagon was 3459 days older than I am.

From 9/12/1949 to 3/3/1959 is: 3459 days

Charles Frank "Chic" Burlingame III (September 12, 1949 - September 11, 2001) was the pilot of American Airlines Flight 77, the aircraft that was crashed by terrorists into the Pentagon during the September 11, 2001 attacks.

How goddamned incredibly fucked up is it that I have had to spend over 9 years away from my wife just because I went to Mars??!!! How goddamned fucked up is that??!!!

It is ironic that if I had not gone to Mars before she and I even started dating, I would be home with her right now. I can't go home because the criminals stealing from us are not in jail yet. I can't even begin to describe how frustrating that is. It even pisses me off that I can't think of a better word that 'frustrated.' This is well beyond frustrating. It is all because I goddamned went to goddamned Mars, along with the other similar activity in space. And because these goddamned criminals such as George W. Bush, Dave Reichert, and Microsoft-Corbis are stealing my identity.

This would have been the red 1967 Ford pickup I "remember" having as my first vehicle. I probably selected it because of a symbolic connection with F-100, which is also a type of engine for fighter jets. The 1967 was because I first flew a fighter jet aircraft by myself in 1967.
Fifth generation (1967–1972)

Another refresh came in 1967 along with a familiar name: the upscale Ranger trim line in addition to the base and Custom Cab trim levels. In 1968, the trucks received larger versions of Ford's FE engine family with the introduction of the 360 and 390 cubic inch engines. The 302 became an option in late '69. The top trim for 1970 was now named Ranger XLT with Ranger, Sport Custom and Custom rounding off the rest of the line. The fifth generation bodies were noted for durability and simplicity of design making them a favorite for restoration.

Some trucks came with an outer flush mounted bed side compartment/tool box on the passenger side only. It could not have one on the driver's side due to the fuel tank taking up the space behind the bed side panel.

The Explorer Special (a trim package), Camper Special (built heavier for a slide in camper), Contractor's Special, Farm and Ranch Special, and Heavy-Duty Special were offered.

The fifth-generation F-series was introduced in Brazil in 1971, which remained in production until 1991 with a slight redesign and changes in its motorizations.

The models are:

F-100: 1/2 ton (5,600 GVWR max)

The F100 is an afterburning turbofan engine manufactured by Pratt & Whitney which powers the F-15 Eagle and F-16 Fighting Falcon.



Pratt & Whitney was awarded a development contract in 1970 for the engine of the next generation fighter, what became the F-15 Eagle. The F100-PW-100 first flew in an F-15 in 1972 with a thrust of 23,930 lbf. Due to the advanced nature of engine and aircraft numerous problems were encountered in its early days of service including high wear, stalling and "hard" afterburner starts. These "hard" starts could be caused by failure of the afterburner to start or by extinguishing after start, in either case the large jets of jet fuel were lit by the engine exhaust resulting in high pressure waves causing the engine to stall. While early problems have been solved, the engine still has a reputation of being "temperamental" and is still in the USAF fleet to this day.

It is recognized that the F100 was at the cutting edge of current technology, one study [1] by the RAND Corporation places it almost 4 years "ahead of its time."


The F-16 Fighting Falcon entered service with the F100-PW-200, with only slight differences from the PW-100. Seeking a way to drive unit costs down the USAF implemented the Alternative Fighter Engine (AFE) program in 1984, under which the engine contract would be awarded through competition. The F-16C/D Block 30/32s were the first to be built with the common engine bay, able to accept the existing engine or the General Electric F110.

The red 1967 Ford was a short-bed model, which is probably because it represents a single-seat F-16 Fighting Falcon. The second vehicle I had was a blue with white cab 1967 Chevrolet pickup with a long-bed so that probably represents the F-14 Tomcat, which is a two-seater.
It was a similar Chevrolet pickup I "remember" driving one time when the roof liner fell on my head and I think that represents a missile exploding over my head when I was flying the F-14 in 1985.

George W. Bush - Master Coward

From 7/25/1953 to 6/7/1981 is: 334.433 months

Robert Bruce Zoellick (born July 25, 1953) was a United States Deputy Secretary of State, resigning on July 7, 2006. Before holding this position, he served as United States Trade Representative, from February 7, 2001 until February 22, 2005.

He announced his resignation on June 19, 2006 to join the investment bank Goldman Sachs as a managing director and chairman of the company's International Advisors department.[1]

President George W. Bush nominated Zoellick on 29 May, 2007 to replace Paul Wolfowitz as President of the World Bank.

"affirmative measures"

Plame was ‘covert’ agent at time of name leak

Newly released unclassified document details CIA employment

WASHINGTON - An unclassified summary of outed CIA officer Valerie Plame's employment history at the spy agency, disclosed for the first time today in a court filing by Special Counsel Patrick Fitzgerald, indicates that Plame was "covert" when her name became public in July 2003.

The summary is part of an attachment to Fitzgerald's memorandum to the court supporting his recommendation that I. Lewis "Scooter" Libby, Vice President Cheney's former top aide, spend 2-1/2 to 3 years in prison for obstructing the CIA leak investigation.

The nature of Plame's CIA employment never came up in Libby's perjury and obstruction of justice trial.

Undercover travel

The unclassified summary of Plame's employment with the CIA at the time that syndicated columnist Robert Novak published her name on July 14, 2003 says, "Ms. Wilson was a covert CIA employee for who the CIA was taking affirmative measures to conceal her intelligence relationship to the United States."

Plame worked as an operations officer in the Directorate of Operations and was assigned to the Counterproliferation Division (CPD) in January 2002 at CIA headquarters in Langley, Virginia.

The employment history indicates that while she was assigned to CPD, Plame, "engaged in temporary duty travel overseas on official business." The report says, "she traveled at least seven times to more than ten times." When overseas Plame traveled undercover, "sometimes in true name and sometimes in alias -- but always using cover -- whether official or non-official (NOC) -- with no ostensible relationship to the CIA."


'I felt like I had been hit in the gut'

In March at a House of Representatives hearing, Plame testified saying, "My name and identity were carelessly and recklessly abused by senior government officials in both the White house and the State Department"

She described how it felt to see her true identity exposed in the morning paper, her career destroyed she said.

"I felt like I had been hit in the gut, it was over in an instant, I immediately thought of my family's safety."

Valerie Plame

You can't have it both ways.

The woman on the left edge of the photo with her eyes closed makes me think of Valerie Plame. I have been thinking for a while that Plame is connected to me somehow. Either she is just a stand-in for my role in the intelligence community or she got burned as a result of me being burned, as there were probably a lot of other operatives that got burned as a result of the betrayal against me by the Microsoft-Corbis terrorists and their accomplices, including George W. Bush.

070524-N-7656T-001 NEW YORK (May 24, 2007) - New York City Mayor Michael Bloomberg welcomes Sailors, Marines, and Coast Guardsmen to New York City at the official Mayoral Fleet Week Welcome at Gracie Mansion. This is the 20th anniversary for the annual New York City Fleet Week. U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 2nd Class Michael Tackitt (RELEASED)

Valerie Plame was 34 years, 330 days, old on 3/15/1998.

Valerie Plame Wilson (born Valerie Elise Plame April 19, 1963, in Anchorage, Alaska) is a former United States Central Intelligence Agency officer who held non-official cover (NOC) status prior to the public disclosure of her classified covert CIA identity in a syndicated American newspaper column.[1] Her identity was leaked publicly in his column, published on July 14, 2003, by Robert Novak, who identified Mrs. Wilson, the wife of former Ambassador Joseph C. Wilson IV, as "an agency operative on weapons of mass destruction" named "Valerie Plame." Her legal surname, however, has been Wilson since her marriage to Ambassador Wilson in 1998.[2] Ambassador Wilson's Op-Ed critical of the George W. Bush administration published in the New York Times ("What I Didn't Find in Africa") on July 6, 2003, Robert Novak's response to it in his column the next week (July 14), identifying Wilson's wife Valerie Plame as a "CIA operative," and the possible sources of the leaks leading to Novak's disclosure have become subjects of extended controversy. Vice President Dick Cheney's former Chief of Staff I. Lewis "Scooter" Libby has been convicted of four felony counts brought by the United States Department of Justice Office of Special Counsel and the Wilsons have filed a civil suit (Plame v. Cheney) against Libby and Cheney, presidential advisor Karl Rove, and former Deputy Secretary of State Richard Armitage.

In late 2003 the political controversy, referred to as the CIA leak scandal and sometimes as the "Plame affair" or the "Plame scandal," "Plamegate," resulted in the Justice Department referring the FBI investigation to the United States Office of Special Counsel, headed by US Attorney Patrick Fitzgerald, who convened a grand jury to probe alleged violations of criminal statutes, including the Intelligence Identities Protection Act of 1982.

The Intelligence Identities Protection Act of 1982 (Pub.L. 97-200, 50 U.S.C. § 421-426) is a United States federal law that makes it a federal crime to intentionally reveal the identity of an agent who one knows to be in or recently in certain covert roles with a U.S. intelligence agency.

The law was written, in part, as a response to several incidents where Central Intelligence Agency agents' identities were revealed. Under then existing law, such disclosures were legal when they did not involve the release of classified information. In 1975, CIA Athens station chief Richard Welch[1] was assassinated by the Greek terrorist group November 17 after his identity was revealed in several listings by a magazine called CounterSpy, edited by Timothy Butz. A local paper checked with CounterSpy to confirm his identity
There is an ongoing investigation being conducted by prosecutor Patrick Fitzgerald into whether this law and others were violated in the identification of Valerie Plame as a CIA operative in a 2003 newspaper column by Robert Novak. [3] Former Vice Presidential chief of staff I. Lewis Libby was convicted on two counts of perjury, one count of obstruction of justice and one count of making false statements to federal investigators. [4] However, these charges were not made under the Intelligence Identities Protection Act. Other figures involved in the investigation include White House deputy chief of staff Karl Rove, and reporters Bob Woodward, Judith Miller and Matthew Cooper. The matter of whether Plame's identity was covered under the act is still under debate; some claim that she wasn't assigned overseas within 5 years of her "outing", but David Corn and Michael Isikoff have reported that she was. Either way it did identify Plame as an employees of the CIA front company the Brewster Jennings & Associates, and so revealed the identities of other CIA agents "employed" there

I love my wife - something you wouldn't understand

This is the date difference for the actors who portray "Worf's" parents from the "Family" episode of "Star Trek: The Next Generation" television series:

From 5/2/1924 to 10/21/1933 is: 3459 days

Theodore Bikel (born 2 May 1924, age 83) is a versatile character actor, born in Vienna, Austria. A master of languages, dialects, and accents, he often plays ethnic roles, such as a German officer and Serbian king. In 1990, he appeared on Star Trek: The Next Generation, playing Sergey Rozhenko, the Russian adoptive father of Worf, in the episode "Family".

Georgia Brown (21 October 1933 – 5 July 1992, age 58) was the actress who portrayed Helena Rozhenko, foster mother of Worf and grandmother of Alexander, in the Next Generation episodes "Family" and "New Ground".

I haven't seen the movie, "American Beauty" or heard anything about it, but I started looking at it today because the title makes me think of my wife and I wondered if there were some clues about her in it. As I was reading through the description of the plot of "American Beauty," I remembered a day at Microsoft when Rhonda Halffman said something to me about going to a shooting range and I wondered why she was saying that to me. I also wonder about Chris Cooper's role in the movie, as he was a Colonel. He recently portrayed the traitor Hanssen in "Breach." I've tried to think more about it, but I find it very difficult to concentrate.

Annette Bening was 133.59 months old on 7/16/1969, which was the day Apollo 11 launched for the Earth's moon.

From 5/29/1958 to 7/16/1969 is: 133 months, 17 days
30 * 0.59 = 17.7 days
From 5/29/1958 to 7/16/1969 is: 133.59 months

Annette Bening, (born Annette Carol Bening on May 29, 1958 in Topeka, Kansas), is a Golden Globe and BAFTA award winning American actress.

Kevin Spacey was 333.59 months old on 5/13/1987. That is the day I recognize as when I completed my escape from Africa after being a POW in Libya in 1986 and then living off the land in Africa for over a year as I escaped my pursuers.

From 7/26/1959 to 5/13/1987 is: 333 months, 17 days
30 * 0.59 = 17.7 days
From 7/26/1959 to 5/13/1987 is: 333.59 months

Kevin Spacey (born Kevin Spacey Fowler[1] on July 26, 1959) is a two-time Academy Award-winning American actor (film and stage) and director.

From 8/18/1952 to 3/3/1959 is: 2388 days
From 8/18/1952 to 7/16/1963 is: 3984 days
2388 / 3984 = 0.59

Patrick Wayne Swayze (born August 18, 1952) is an American dancer, actor, singer and songwriter. He became known during the 1980s after starring in the box office success Dirty Dancing and Ghost.

The Osirak strike of 6/7/1981 was 59 months, 3 days, after 7/4/1976. I assume I scheduled that strike for that day just for that reason. For someone that is supposed to be smart, it is incredible to realize that I did something so incredibly stupid as scheduling the strike for that particular day. It was 7/4/1976 when I believe I exploded the comet that was going to strike Earth at some point.

There is also that observation I made about the assassination attempt on President Reagan. Of the period from when he took office to the strike on Osirak, the assassination attempt was precisely in the middle.

From 1/20/1981 to 3/30/1981 is: 69 days
From 3/30/1981 to 6/7/1981 is: 69 days

So how did that factor in? Was that assassination attempt a pre-emptive strike against President Reagan because they knew I was going to bomb Osirak? Or did I chose 6/7/1981 to bomb Osirak because we knew that Saddam was behind the assassination attempt on President Reagan?

Rodger Claire's "Raid On The Sun" suggested that the strike was originally planned for May 10th, so if that is true, then that would mean something. It was probably delayed because I was injured after falling out of the space shuttle on 4/14/1981. Then with the assassination attempt on President Reagan, we might have decided to schedule for that 59-3 connection, which resulted in the 6/7/1981 date. That still just seems like an incredibly stupid move to make though. I can't believe I would do something so stupid as schedule the strike for that particular day. I have symbolic memories, though, that convince me I was there for that strike. And that was why I was shot down in 1986 and was a POW in Libya. I recognize the date 11/25/1986 as when they had a funeral for me because they thought I had been killed on 4/14/1986 when the Libyan prison I was being held in was bombed by the U.S. Navy. I was being tortured because my captors knew I was President Reagan's grandson and because I had led the strike on Osirak in 1981. They were torturing me and showing it all on video to President Reagan.

From 11/25/1986 to 10/24/1988 is: 1 years, 334 days

Released 24 October 1988

Traveling Wilburys Vol. 1 is the debut album by the supergroup Traveling Wilburys and was recorded and released in 1988 to enormous commercial success and critical acclaim.

Travelling Wilburys › Handle With Care

Been beat up and battered round
Been sent up, and Ive been shot down
Youre the best thing that Ive ever found
Handle me with care

Reputations changeable
Situations tolerable
Baby, youre adorable
Handle me with care

Im so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Wont you show me that you really care

Everybodys got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on

Ive been fobbed off, and Ive been fooled
Ive been robbed and ridiculed
In day care centers and night schools
Handle me with care

Been stuck in airports, terrorized
Sent to meetings, hypnotized
Overexposed, commercialized
Hand me with care



Ive been uptight and made a mess
But Ill clean it up myself, I guess
Oh, the sweet smell of success
Handle me with care