"Don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy"

Today while sleeping another very vivid dream that I have been thinking about since waking up and getting out of the bed. The dream was one of many sleeping dreams I recall from sleeping last time and I woke up from it and went back to sleep for a while. I don't now recall the last sleeping dream when I got out of bed or any of the others. I have been thinking today about how to rank that vivid dream among the other vivid dreams I still recall. I can think of only three others and that one today is definitely one. There have been others I guess but the ones from recent years seem most important. For instance, there was the dream where I woke up in my bedroom apartment in Redmond back in the year 2002 or 2003 and I was terrified while awake because the digital display on the clock radio next to my bed had stopped and I walked out of the room before I finally came to my senses. Another time I was scared because there seemed to be a fire reflecting off the open door of my bedroom in that same apartment.

Today I am thinking of three vivid dreams in the past few years and that one today was not the most vivid. The dream about the river has been the most vivid but I cannot now recall if it was more vivid that the alarm clock dream. Maybe so. The dream about the river though a few years ago was highly prescient about a re-broadcast of a "The Simpsons" episode I watched for the first time on television a few hours later that day. One has to actually watch the episode to understand the significance, at least I did.

The sleeping dream today is comparably in vividness to that dream that included the part about me wresting with the deer. I can't decide how to rank it because the antlers dream was equally unpleasant to the pleasant intensity of the dream today.

The antlers dream wasn't prescient of anything I can recall.

The notion lingers in my mind today that the "paradise is a state of mind" theory I have been working on is something outside my control. Perhaps someone else controls when I get to experience. Perhaps I can go there any time I want to and I am just denying myself for a reason. For a cause.

There is always that intense level of some kind of disappointment. As being robbed of something. The intensity of the dream dissipates and I find myself feeling disappointment about returning to reality and about losing the intensity of that seemingly real experience. The part that bothers me I can't really describe. Maybe it's just because it didn't last long enough.










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 7:55 PM Thursday, December 08, 2011


Also, despite how I tell myself often that I am ready and mentally prepared to take the big step into that great big empty world where I can finally get some privacy today was a wake up call. The reality of non-reality is something that the human mind, at least my own human mind, cannot understand until actually in the presence of such new wisdom. Sometimes I think that only someone as dumb as myself can be. Something. I don't know.

So, but anyway, what I gave strong thought to throughout today is again a notion that I thought about before and that I was trying to recall just how extensively I had thought it through on past occasions and I cannot recall very much but what I was thinking again about today and seemingly really for the first time to really give it serious consideration is that I my sense of reality as I sit here today is a complete fabrication and that is consistent was thoughts that have been present in my mind the past couple of days or more. The notion is that this entire universe that I perceive, which includes all of you, is a complete fabrication. I actually was feeling, and still do to the same extent as earlier today, that I actually exist in the very distant future of this present day and the world I am living in is some kind of hallucination I am now experiencing for the purpose of scientific research. I don't feel like going into a lot more detail about it right now.


[JOURNAL ARCHIVE 08 December 2011 excerpt ends]










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Star Trek Generations


GUINAN: Soran is a name I haven't heard in a long time.

PICARD: You remember him?

GUINAN: Yes.

PICARD: Guinan. It is very important that you tell me everything that you know. We think that Soran has developed a weapon, ...a terrible weapon. One that might even give him enough power to destroy...

GUINAN: Soran doesn't care about weapons or power. He just cares about getting back to the Nexus.

PICARD: What's the 'Nexus'?

GUINAN: The energy ribbon that destroyed that ship was just not some random phenomenon travelling through the universe. It's a doorway to another place that we call the Nexus. It's a place that I've tried very, very hard to forget.

PICARD: What happened to you?

GUINAN: It was like being inside joy. As if joy was something tangible ...and you could wrap yourself in it like a blanket. And never in my entire life have I been as content.

PICARD: And then you were beamed away from there.

GUINAN: Pulled. Ripped away.










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The Walking Dead

Guts

Episode 102


OPENING CREDITS

Tank

In Atlanta, Rick is still sitting in the tank when the voice is heard on the radio again.

Man on radio: Hey, are you alive in there?

Rick: Hello? Hello?

Man on radio: There you are. You had me wondering.

Rick: Where are you? Outside? Can you see me right now?

Man on radio: Yeah, I can see you. You're surrounded by walkers. That's the bad news.

Rick: There's good news?

Man on radio: No.

Rick: Listen, whoever you are, I don't mind telling you I'm a little concerned in here.

Man on radio: Oh man. You should see it from over here. You'd be having a major freak-out.



- posted by H.V.O.M - Kerry Wayne Burgess 8:58 PM Pacific Time Spokane Valley Washington USA Monday 28 July 2014