I drive myself around in circles because I am writing these details in my journal and then sometime in the relative to this present day, I time travel back to the past and I exist as my self during the same time as my natural time self.
I had to write that journal entry because to not do so would have created a paradox. I had to have the sense because that is the natural order of the universe.
I was thinking recently that robot could do the function I am doing now - which is the function of writing and publishing this text - but these details are largely based on my thoughts. I am thinking.
So I guess the best way to understand this all is that what I write in my journal, at certain times, is due to the time traveler influence effect and as I have noted, the events that create the influence have not yet happened in this present day. I am struggling with the time traveler effect because I know that it is happening and that something is going to happen but, obviously, since I have not written what it is, then that knowledge is not currently available to my conscious awareness in my mind at this present time. Even if I do have a clairvoyant link to the person who has my time traveler notes, I am unable to have awareness in my mind of what is going to happen in the future.
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 08/04/07 11:07 AM
I wonder if something happened today, somehow, that allowed me to consciously pursue this train of thought. I noted something similar quite a few months ago related to dream influences. That was kind of a dead-end, in itself, but it seemed to have been a.....something. It was later I started to think I had been brainwashed but then I shifted away from brainwashing to this notion of artificial memory. It seems to be an important distinction.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Episodic_memory
The formation of new episodic memories requires the medial temporal lobe, a structure that includes the hippocampus. Without the medial temporal lobe, one is able to form new procedural memories (such as playing the piano) but cannot remember the events during which they happened. See the hippocampus and memory.
The prefrontal cortex (and in particular the left hemisphere) is also involved in the formation of new episodic memories (also known as episodic encoding). Patients with damage to the prefrontal cortex can learn new information, but tend to do so in a disordered fashion. For example, they might show normal recognition of an object they had seen in the past, but fail to recollect when or where it had been viewed (Janowsky et al., 1989). Some researchers believe that the prefrontal cortex helps organize information for more efficient storage, drawing upon its role in executive function. Others believe that the prefrontal cortex underlies semantic strategies which enhance encoding, such as thinking about the meaning the study material or rehearsing it in working memory
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 08/04/07 11:17 AM
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Source_amnesia
Source amnesia is an explicit memory disorder in which someone can recall certain information, but do not know where or how it was obtained.
The disorder is particularly episodic, where source or contextual information surrounding facts are severely distorted or unable to be recalled. Via the use of the Wisconsin Card Sorting Task (WCST) developed by Esta Berg in 1948, Positron Emission Tomography (PET), and explicit and implicit memory tests, researchers have performed extensive empirical research on source-amnesiacs and concluded or suggested neuropsychological genesis.
JOURNAL ARCHIVE: 08/04/07 11:19 AM
Something else is at work here, though. There is a process in my mind that is deliberately preventing me from revealing details of my real identity. There is a good reason for everything I do and there is something that has to happen before I will allow myself to remember it all.
[JOURNAL ARCHIVE 4 August 2007 excerpt ends]
