"You are the inescapable result of your tragedy, just as I am the inescapable result of you."

So I've had it wrong all this time.

Nothing was wrong with my mind and memory until after 6/13/2005.

That is the day, or the following day, when they killed me again literally dead dead dead.

I returned that morning missing some key facts in my mind.

The ten year point approaches that event, marking a full decade.

I can drop it at any time and return to where I want to be.

I find myself thinking a lot more about how there is the necessity to give people time to come around, to rationalize with reasonable people, to give them a chance to understand I am right and they are wrong.

And *you* don't want to be wrong.










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 4:44 AM Sunday, September 25, 2011


Having just a short while ago started watching for the first time the DVD for the 2002 film "The Time Machine" I didn't really care if I stopped to make another official statement about this racketeering production. I did notice from the opening video that it is a work of the racketeering organization Dreamworks so I am not certain if I mentioned that before.

I started to watch this DVD after much debate in my mind after I had earlier debated in my mind what to watch on DVD and which led me to watch the first episode of "Battlestar Galactica" television series on DVD and after I heard the relevant dialog for my previous report before this one I could not bring myself to watch anymore of those highly boring episodes. So I was debating whether to watch for the first time the DVD I have for the 2002 film "Windtalkers" or this 2002 film "The Time Machine" and the latter won out.

I paused the DVD video after the point where "Emma" gets shot and then the dialog of "Filby" in the workshop and the scene of "Emma" getting shot and how that has bearing on the later dialog about the time machine made me think of extended thoughts in my mind in recent days and I wanted to pause the video and record those thoughts here. Why my thoughts matter in terms of me and why I presume I am getting through to any of you dullards I really don't understand. I don't understand why I am going to the trouble of sitting here and typing this up.

One reason I was thinking for the futility, a lesser reason, with better reasons being obvious, of describing these lines of thought is because my thoughts contradicted themselves in terms of two different tracks of ideas.

I am trying to remember precisely the order those thoughts formed in my mind - the thoughts that formed before later thoughts - and I think the first thought was about how I exist today as a clone of the original Kerry Wayne Burgess. In that line of thought, the original Kerry Wayne Burgess is himself a clone of Thomas Reagan and I exist as a human sitting here writing these details as a clone of the original Kerry Wayne Burgess, who created the hyperspace matter transportation device. I am a clone just as Kerry Wayne Burgess is a clone but as a clone I was created much differently. Kerry Wayne Burgess was created with medical technology. I am a clone from the original Kerry Wayne Burgess created from the hyperspace portal device he created in the early 1990's. The method of creation for me is that the original Kerry Wayne Burgess took upon his personal initiative to use the hyperspace portal device to go back in time and stop the Flight 232 crash on 19 July 1989. Although certainly a life event beyond any possibly human explanation, he rationalized that the creation of the portal was not dependent on that crash because nothing associated with surviving the crash was associated with the creation of the hyperspace portal. Sure, he didn't start seeing the ancient symbols until after the 19 July 1989 crash but that doesn't mean he would have seen them if the crash had not happened. So he programmed the portal to send him back to 1989 and thinking of the first time he met Thomas Reagan he was going to warn somebody about the flight. If he could delay the flight then that would solve the problem. So the original Kerry Wayne Burgess ran the computer program for the hyperspace portal and went into and then came straight back out and nothing had happened. The logs indicated a perfect operation of the device. Only sometime later did he mention to Thomas Reagan the unscheduled and unannounced test to alter the 19 July 1989 flight of Flight 232 and I thought about how Thomas Reagan reacted to that news from the original Thomas Reagan. He could not talk in detail but that was a pivotal point for him. He took Kerry Wayne Burgess to the airport and flew him into Greenville South Carolina and called up a security detail team and found out where they were so he could join them in an automobile along with Kerry Wayne Burgess. After sitting in the van with the darkened windows the original Kerry Wayne Burgess was stunned to see what Thomas Reagan brought him to see: me. I walked out the bank where I had gone to make a service call for their computer systems. I thought extensively about how, while they were not talking in detail in front of the secret surveillance team, the details about me, the clone of the original Kerry Wayne Burgess were described to the original Kerry Wayne Burgess. I thought about how after the crash of 19 July 1989 Thomas Reagan personally flew the original Kerry Wayne Burgess back to Charleston South Carolina and I thought extensively about the discussion as both discussed the alternate reality that the original Kerry Wayne Burgess experienced just as the airplane crashed and burned. The original Kerry Wayne Burgess was highly agitated because clocks did not work in that world. Every time he would create a new method for recording time he would come back to find it destroyed and mannequins would be positioned around there. The world was really quite peaceful and calm and boring but there was no way to measure time and that lasted for probably eighty years. I thought thought of how the original Kerry Wayne Burgess taught himself a lot of topics of self-study while in there including an advanced level of physics and other topics and including the creation of comedy. Some other details slip my mind mind. So Thomas Reagan was serious about his warning: do not let people see any great changes to your personality. You cannot show any signs of an increased level of intelligence or any such clues to reinforce that you were in that alternate reality. The co-pilot made the announcement that Charleston was thirty minutes out and so he went back to the flight deck and said they would meet again but not until after a few months and that would include the upcoming deployment of the Wainwright overseas. That changed as the aircraft landed and Thomas Reagan came back and told Kerry Wayne Burgess to remain seated because a situation was developing. By a turn of luck some chatter by the off-base roommate had been captured and there was some confusion about why Burgess was at his apartment. Thomas Reagan made some arrangements and he and the original Kerry Wayne Burgess drove to the fleet base in Charleston and sat near the pier and the original Kerry Wayne Burgess sit there a couple days after the 19 July 1989 crash in Iowa and was stunned to see a perfect clone of himself - which was me - strolling across the road separating the parking lot from the pier where the Wainwright was moored on a Saturday afternoon.

The trouble with all that, I would think after all those thoughts occurred to me over what, I guess now as I write this, was two or three days, is the contradiction. If I saw myself as a clone in 1989 then why did I not already know that in 1994? That contradicts my notions that I exist today as a clone of the original Kerry Wayne Burgess. My theory is that a clone did come into existence but Thomas Reagan created the conditions so that I would come to believe I am the clone, thus my life since 1998. I don't know what happened to the clone from 1998. He could be sitting on a beach somewhere right now drinking margaritas.


[JOURNAL ARCHIVE 25 September 2011 excerpt ends]










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The Time Machine (2002)

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Alexander Hartdegen: You're forgetting one thing. What if?



- posted by H.V.O.M - Kerry Wayne Burgess 8:44 PM Pacific Time Spokane Valley Washington USA Friday 29 May 2015