"You look a little whiter than usual."

JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Thursday, February 07, 2013 5:19 PM

To:


Subject: RE: Let's see if you can do I-90.

So that's what it was. That's what I dreamed of very early this morning or last night.

I had been aware for a long time of the "Stargate: Atlantis" television series but I had never, until this past hour, given some serious thought about the plot elements that form the drama of that television series. I have never before watched any episode from that television series. I have seen glimpses of scenes but the notion of "Wraith" is new to me today.

I started to wonder about how that 16 July 2004 premiere happens after 03 March 2003.

And then looking at those creepy figures in the images, the "Wraith" I had to look at it a few minutes, after having read a lot about them a few minutes, that is what I must have seen in my dream the last time I was sleeping today.

I am wondering about it because of how prescient are my other dreams lately.

Maybe I am winning against them by telling you this.

So anyway, the dream started with me walking into a house. My mother was there with me and so was my sister. I think again now as I write this, as it seemed to me later after the dream, that figures in my dream are not literal. So I recall that I was very angry. There was a group of washing machines on the lower floor of the house we were in and there were enough of them there to seem it was a commercial facility but that doesn't get explained in the dream. The reason I am so angry is because I am looking at the manifold where clean water is supposed to flow into the washing machines, an observation was presently simply to my sleeping mind and that seems more complicated than it is while I describe it, and the water was very brown colored. I was very angry about that. I have been thinking all day since then about one of those episodes from the "Lost" television series where they found a pool of water in some secret building and that water has some kind of regeneration powers for humans, to the point of immortality, but the water had turned brown and the people who used it were concerned about it. I haven't thought about that episode in years. So anyway, I am upstairs in the house, which doesn't have anything familiar about it, and my mother is there and so is my sister. And then the zombies appear. At some point, I am seeing them in the yard walking along as I am talking to mother. I am angry at her now. She has threatened to cancel my source of income and there is some dialog that is now too vague to recall. And the hostility escalates to the point I am choking her by the throat and I said something in the dream similar to "I'll kill you too." But it wasn't her. As with most people in my dreams, I never see them clearly. They are figures similar to the people I see when I am outside and they are in my peripheral vision. I see people in dreams in a similar way. With few exceptions I never see anyone clearly and in detail. But I could see her in more detail now and after I looked at those photos of the "Wraith" that was very similar to what I was seeing and I had my hands around its neck and I was enjoying choking it. I think I stopped though and I didn't kill it. But the part I thought of most throughout today was the zombies. I cannot now recall if the zombies showed up first. I don't think they did. I think the dirty water caused the hostilities towards the person I was choking. Then the first zombie came in the house and I used my fist to hit it very hard and then I physically threw it out the same door it came in although that last part wasn't something I visualized. I did visualized the second zombie come in again towards us and that one I saw myself slam it against the wall and I knew in the dream that I also threw it out the same door it came in but that was a different door than the first zombie came through. The same story with the third and final zombie but I don't recall visualizing any of that action. I just knew it came through a third door and I simply knew I had thrown back out the same door it came through.

And then there were the zombies themselves. I don't think I have ever actually dreamed of zombies. I have written many times before that I dream while sleeping of activities I have worked on so it seems that my research on zombie topics would show up in my sleeping dreams but I guess I never woke up from any of those or that I never had any that I became aware of. Those zombies in my dream while last sleeping weren't actually doing anything threatening. They were just stumbling around and walking as you see zombies act in movies but they weren't biting anybody. They were just lumbering about with expressions that seemed kind of stupor. I was thinking later they might be something I used to call "pre-zombies" but they are advanced beyond that but not yet cannibalistic.

So anyway, the images of the "Wraith" make me think now in this hour about the similarities to the "Morlocks" from 1960.

Also, the predatory nature of the "Wraith" is similar to thoughts I have had for a while. As "Kirk" said in "Metamorphosis" "How do you beat something like that?" The "Wraith's" also resemble that chief "Morlock" in the 2002 remake of "The Time Machine" and there is the scene where he is strangling the starring character.

Also, if you stretch your imagination for a moment and try to believe something is possible then that all explains what my "mother" is supposed to represent in my dreams. I think about I have written before about that in the context of that ancient being in the 2000 "Mission to Mars" film.

Stretching it again you could understand why I would travel backwards in time when presented with the opportunity. That's only way to beat them.

And now look at me. Listen to the people in the world as they ignore me again today.










http://stargate-wiki.org/wiki/Wraith


STARGATE WIKI



Wraith


The Wraith are the dominant humanoid-hybrid species of the Pegasus galaxy who subjugate the human populations to serve them as a food source.


Physiology

Being descended from the Iratus bug the Wraith share many similar characteristics with insect-like organisms - They exist as a hive-like structure, have non-verbal communication methods such as telepathy and are capable of phenomenal strength and agility. Being a hybrid they also display many physical characteristics of humans such as bipedal form, dermal follicles on the head and face (excluding eyebrows) as well as retaining all of their humanoid organs which are used during childhood, but are unneeded during adulthood. Wraith have light blue or green epidermis and yellow eyes, which are capable of seeing objects in thermal vision as well as a rudimentary night vision. The Wraith commonly utilize hibernation periods between cullings.


Regeneration

"As long as the cells are properly nourished, I don't see a life form like this ever dying of natural aging the way we do…and they'd be bloody hard to kill."

— Carson Beckett

The Wraith have an incredible ability to regenerate which is directly proportional to how recently they have fed. The cells in a Wraith have none of the normal human inhibiting proteins which allow them to regenerate and sustain themselves for thousands of years. The Wraith are capable of living for thousands of years provided their are properly nourished and capable of withstanding immense physical stresses and infliction.


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 9:31 PM Thursday, February 16, 2012


Alaskan Way Viaduct





If you are driving towards the north on the Alaskan Way Viaduct then you will enter the Battery Street tunnel. I knew that already. Looking on the map is how I knew that tunnel is named the Battery Street tunnel.

I have driven through that tunnel maybe once during the time since 1998 that I have lived out here in the Seattle. That was probably around the year 2000 when I drove through there. I have rarely even driven a car through downtown Seattle. One night just after I bought that used car, the blue 1990 Mazda RX-7, I was driving around and I drove around in downtown Seattle and I think that is when I drove through that tunnel.

The reason I make this note now is because I just noted on street view maps where the Battery Street tunnel ends on the north side.

Never in a million years would I have guessed that was the north-bound exit if you had asked me to describe the location of that north-side of the tunnel.

I know that area very well because I have walked through there several times since the end of the year 2006. Only looking on the map now did I connect those two details.

I only connected those two details because I am looking at the street view for that Battery Street tunnel on Google maps and I can see above the tunnel that pink elephant for that car wash.

Seems to be a plausible detail for a normal dream but why now? And why the tunnel? I haven't been over there in years and I never ever once considered that tunnel entrance is right there. I thought it was just an overpass.

I have dreamed more times since then about a similar tunnel as in that dream referenced below. The last time I was again uncertain about going into that tunnel and I did not. I turned around and came back out. The details about the setting are usually different. The last time I saw a woman that I can remember who she was supposed to represent and that I could name here if I wanted to but I don't and she was carrying a baby. She was coming out of the tunnel and she was going to Georgia. I saw a highway sign about that same point indicating I was going to Los Angeles.










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 2:05 PM Thursday, December 08, 2011


A dream I had this morning is the reason I make this observation and I believe this information is strongly in the public interest.





Severe criminal activity directed at my personal property and that is being allowed to go unchecked by the law enforcement establishment in King County Washington State, specifically, and other places of the United States has created a clear and present danger to the national security of the United States of America.

There was a lot of stuff in the dream and just weird. As I am confounded with trying to write something else here I will skip ahead to the reason for this paragraph. Unlike in the 1982 film referenced below, the tunnel I saw was a clean and well-constructed tunnel of concrete and steel. There was a lot of stuff going on in the dream at the time - Thomas Reagan was flying around above us in some kind of spacecraft-type of craft that I have thought about several times today since the dream and I really just did not want to go into a lot of detail about that dream this morning. The reason I was going to go into the tunnel is because on the other side of the tunnel, which was very long was a computer terminal or personal computer and from that computer device I could produce a short text message in the sky above the city we were at. So I started down into the tunnel and down to the level of the tunnel as it progressed in the direction of the other side but then I stopped and did not go down there. The reason I did not go down there was because I was worried that someone would cut off the power while I was down there and I would be in complete darkness probably about half way through the tunnel. Then I came back up and I was yelling at a soldier wearing the camouflage uniform of a major and I was yelling at him because the road barricade he was in charge of had caused a loose elephant to go in the wrong direction. Not really sure what that was about. There was a lot of other stuff that just doesn't seem to matter. Back during the tunnel scene I could visualize that message I was going to produce in the sky above the city, where everyone could read the three-word phrase, but I do not recall the full message now and that also did not seem to really matter overall.

I was wrestling with a deer with a large rack of horns at one point in that dream. That's what it was and I woke up from that.










http://www.divxmoviesenglishsubtitles.com/M/Matrix.html


Matrix [ RACKETEER INFLUENCED AND CORRUPT ORGANIZATIONS US Title 18 ]


You're my savior.|My own personal Jesus Christ.
You get caught using that... .
I know. This never happened.|You don't exist.
-thinsz Right.|-thinsz Something wrong, man?
You look a little whiter than usual.
My computer, it... .
Ever have that feeling where you're|not sure if you're awake or dreaming?


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 7:55 PM Thursday, December 08, 2011


Also, despite how I tell myself often that I am ready and mentally prepared to take the big step into that great big empty world where I can finally get some privacy today was a wake up call.


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Sunday, February 17, 2013 10:36 AM

To:


Paused now about the 00:04:40 point of the DVD, where I know from reading earlier the transcript that the helicopter I see on the screen is going to come under fire from the “Atlantis” weapon THING, I know for certain I have never watched before the severe racketeering production the 2004 television series “Stargate: Atlantis.”

This morning I am now for the first time watching the DVD for the premiere episode of the television series “Stargate: Atlantis.”


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http://www.stargate-sg1-solutions.com/wiki/SGA_1.01_%22Rising_Parts_1_And_2%22_Transcript


STARGATE WIKI


SGA 1.01 "Rising Parts 1 And 2" Transcript


FORD
Sir, we need to leave.

SHEPPARD
(into radio)
Base, we're on the go.

BATES
(into radio)
So are we. Colonel Sumner?

SHEPPARD
Negative.










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Monday, February 20, 2006 9:46 PM

To: Kerry Burgess

Subject: anxiety

http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=anxiety

anxiety

Psychiatry. A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.

[The only hope Kerry had of escaping from the years of torment from people spying on him would be to cower in a dark corner somewhere, except he knew they probably had cameras on him there too and when he complained that they were going to strangle him, they just held his head under the water for a longer period of time while ensuring that this experience would also be a source of humiliation for him because he complained.]


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Date: Sat, 11 Feb 2006 18:22:30 -0800 (PST)

From: "Kerry Burgess"

To: "Kerry Burgess"

After months of swimming and treading water in an ocean of despair, I have washed ashore. I am lost on an island, the Fantasy Island. "It's duh plane, Boss, duht net plane!" I am being forced to live out a fantasy of a suspect. It is quite the experience being a suspicious person walking around normal people as they go about their unknown existence, in my eyes looking like people that will probably go home somewhere, maybe even celebrating christmas, or some other peaceful activity, unalone.


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 7:55 PM Thursday, December 08, 2011


Also, despite how I tell myself often that I am ready and mentally prepared to take the big step into that great big empty world where I can finally get some privacy today was a wake up call. The reality of non-reality is something that the human mind, at least my own human mind, cannot understand until actually in the presence of such new wisdom. Sometimes I think that only someone as dumb as myself can be. Something. I don't know.


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http://www.stargate-sg1-solutions.com/wiki/SGA_1.01_%22Rising_Parts_1_And_2%22_Transcript


STARGATE WIKI


SGA 1.01 "Rising Parts 1 And 2" Transcript


INT—WRAITH DINING ROOM

WRAITH QUEEN
What do you call yourself?

SUMNER
(with bravado)
Colonel Marshall Sumner, United States Marine Corps.

WRAITH QUEEN
(amused)
So little fear. Is it valor…or ignorance?

SUMNER
We travel through the Stargate as peaceful explorers.

WRAITH QUEEN
You must eat, yet you resist your hunger. Why?

SUMNER
Why have you taken my people prisoner?

WRAITH QUEEN
You trespassed upon our feeding ground.

SUMNER
(puzzled)
Feeding ground?

WRAITH QUEEN
All living things must eat. In this, I am sure we are similar. You feel hunger even now. I can sense it. Yet you resist. Why?

SUMNER
Why do you care?

WRAITH QUEEN
Hunger…is distasteful.

SUMNER
(looking nervously at Toran)
It looks to me like the food didn't agree with him.

WRAITH QUEEN
There, we are quite dissimilar, Colonel Sumner. We don't require…our food to agree with us.

[She strokes one finger down the skeleton's cheek. Sumner stares in shock.]










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: Posted by H.V.O.M at 7:55 PM Thursday, December 08, 2011


Also, despite how I tell myself often that I am ready and mentally prepared to take the big step into that great big empty world where I can finally get some privacy today was a wake up call.


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Friday, February 15, 2013 8:14 AM

To: 'Kerry Burgess'

Subject: 4th dimension unchained

Is that even a realistic expectation?

A private empty world?

I think about that sooooo much now. Every day, just about every waking hour, maybe every waking hour. That expectation of my own private empty world. Is that even realistic?

Is that just something *they* are using to torment me every day?

I don’t want to be here anymore!


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http://www.stargate-sg1-solutions.com/wiki/SGA_1.01_%22Rising_Parts_1_And_2%22_Transcript


STARGATE WIKI


SGA 1.01 "Rising Parts 1 And 2" Transcript


INT—WRAITH DINING ROOM

WRAITH QUEEN
Your will is strong. This one (gestures to Toran)
begged for its life.

SUMNER
Is that the kind of treatment I can expect for myself and my people?

WRAITH QUEEN
As I have said, all living things must eat.

SUMNER
(rebellious)
Then we're done talking.

WRAITH QUEEN
I think not. Kneel.

[She draws a finger down Sumner's face.]

WRAITH QUEEN
(insistent, in the hypnotic echo)
Kneel…

[Sumner, against his own will, falls to his knees.]

WRAITH QUEEN
I have not tasted such strength in so long.

[She rips his t-shirt with one stroke of her hand, baring his chest.]

SUMNER
Go to hell.

WRAITH QUEEN
Earth first.

[She shoves her hand onto his chest. He screams in agony.]

INT—WRAITH CORRIDOR

[Sheppard can hear Sumner's scream and moves towards the sound.]

INT—WRAITH DINING ROOM

WRAITH QUEEN
How many years must I take from you before you tell us what I wish to know? Or shall I take them all?

[Sumner's face contorts in agony as he continues to yell. He begins to age.]

INT—WRAITH CORRIDOR

[Sheppard wanders, looking lost for a moment before getting his bearings.]

INT—WRAITH DINING ROOM

[The Wraith Queen's hand is flat on Sumner's chest, palm against his heart. Sumner's head rocks as he continues to scream in pain. His face looks sunken and aged.]

WRAITH QUEEN
Where is this new feeding ground?

SUMNER
(shaking his head, weak)
I won't.










JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Friday, February 15, 2013 9:27 PM

To: 'Kerry Burgess'

Subject: RE: 4th dimension unchained

I woke up about 4 PM after about two hours sleep and I felt as though I was trying to regurgitate sterno from my stomach comparatively speaking in terms of other times I have experienced such reflux, which happens very rarely.

Writing this now a few hours later I want to say that I wish I had just thrown up at the time but I know that would have been really bad because the taste was really bad. My throat feels slightly burned.

I went back to sleep but couldn’t sleep much longer. My sleep has been really bad for over a week now.

Also, I was thinking after I wrote in this note last time that the problem is that I need to re-learn how to become materialistic. That’s the problem with my lack of imagination towards my own personal and private world. I need a private world with a lot of stuff in it to play with. I have forgotten such activities therefore the problem is my lack of imagination.


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JOURNAL ARCHIVE: From: Kerry Burgess

Sent: Friday, February 15, 2013 8:17 AM

To: 'Kerry Burgess'

Subject: RE: 4th dimension unchained

It just seems so shallow I have started thinking.

I think about it and it seems to be kind of vacation where you start wanting to go back home after a while.

Paradise becomes boring.

So there is the here and now. I don’t want to be here. And now I can’t make this life better. This is it. This is as good as it will ever get. I can’t make it better now. This world will never get better than it is now and I seriously consider the possibility of having to live this way. I’ll probably be dead from a heart attack in 10 years.


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- posted by H.V.O.M - Kerry Wayne Burgess 03:26 AM Pacific Time Seattle USA Tuesday 19 February 2013